Elsie, As Is

Elsie Escobar

Audio journal entries, life updates, experiments, and whatever else needs a place to land. It’s me, Elsie, as I am. At the moment.

  1. 9h ago

    It Could’ve Been an Email - November 13, 2026

    I was trying to finish up work before my kid’s performance, and then I got a little notification. Apparently another podcast had been doing a little 💩-talking about mine. My brain kept replaying it, and somewhere in that loop I started thinking about the pressure to be on camera and why I feel most like myself when I can just talk to you. If you wanna hang out for three hours tomorrow, My Kaigi is Saturday, November 14. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off. ------------------- Here I was, super excited today because my child is doing a performance this evening. So we’re gonna be headed into town, and I’m super stoked that that’s happening. I get a chance to watch her perform, and so I’m gonna not have half the day to finish work. I’ve been preparing for My Kaigi, which you can still get into as of today. Fifty percent off, coupon in the show notes. Tap through there. Anyway, I’ve been preparing for that and really focused on it, and then I got a little notification that it seems like a podcast was doing a little bit of 💩-talking about my podcast. And listen, I say 💩-talking because it seems like it could’ve easily been an email. You know, one of those things where, as a human who cares about the space that we cover and the work that we do, you would reach out and go, “Hey, listen, I saw that you were doing this,” or, “I’m really curious why you’re not doing that.” Right? And, like, mean it, because you would really wanna do good stuff for everybody. Don’t you think? Because I think as grown-ups we get an opportunity to ask, right? To just reach out to the other person and say, “Hey, this is what’s going on,” or, “This is my experience,” or, “How come this is happening?” And you could get so much insight about whatever issue is coming up, right? So, yeah, it kind of took me out of what I was focused on. Like I said, I was focusing on all of these other things, and then all of a sudden it made my brain get a little bit askew. And my brain is a neurodivergent brain, so it tends to get caught in negative loops. And I think some of you may understand this, where it’s like that rejection sensitivity situation that happens, where things are so much bigger than you think they are. But I think the part that affects me the most is that my brain can’t let go. It just keeps looping back and replaying the situation and having this whole other conversation in my own brain. And I’m just like, it would’ve been so much easier to just get an email. You know what I mean? Or even ask for a call. And now it’s one of those things where, of course, you feel angry, defensive, where you start to… or at least I start to. I would wanna be super petty. But I’m petty with my friends. I do my very best to be a grown-up in public because I’m just not that girl. I mean, I’m just… no. I’m not a messy person. There’s fun in watching other people’s mess, as you’ve heard me talking about the Call Her Daddy situation and all of that stuff. And I really love pop culture gossip podcasts. They’re my favorite, ’cause I get a lot of dopamine from the mess. But I’m not a messy person. I just don’t like to be in that situation, right? And it’s just kind of frustrating because it feels like it could’ve been an email. What are we, right? I kind of posted on Threads, like, “What would you do if somebody was talking 💩 about you?” And I got a response that said, “Well, I’m not in high school. I would just ignore it,” kind of a thing. And it’s like, great. We’re adults here. This isn’t about being petty about stuff. Anyway, yes, I’ve just been thinking about that. It’s just disappointing. I think that’s what it is. Yeah. And there were some other comments about video that made me feel a type of way about the pressure to be on camera and the type of criticism that we get as women. And I know that’s not what was said, by the way. I’m just saying there was some nuance to the conversation, and that also kind of worked me up a little bit. The pressure to have a video podcast and the value of having a face shouldn’t really be attached to the conventional attractiveness of the person behind the camera. This is my statement right now, folks. This is not what was said. It’s just what I was thinking about, because there are many of us who feel very self-conscious. In fact, I spoke with somebody this week about the possibility of working together. They might hire me to coach them, you know, to kind of work through some things. And they shared with me that they were uncomfortable being on camera for a variety of reasons that were incredibly valid. And thinking that at this time you’re essentially going to force people to… in order for you to be in the podcasting industry without a video podcast, if you’re an expert in the space who chooses to have audio… I don’t know. I just lost my train of thought as I was speaking there ’cause I was trying to finish that sentence, and I don’t think I finished it correctly in my own head. I think what I wanted to say there is that your ability to do a video podcast shouldn’t be how we judge your professionalism, your participation in the industry, or whether you’re keeping up as a producer. Right? Because I think there’s a lot of merit and value to creating video. But even now, as I’m talking with you all here, I can really shine, or do my very best, when I get to speak and use my voice. This is how I feel the strongest. Through my voice. This is how I feel the most me. This is how I can bring you the best part of me. Can I do that with video? Yes, I have. I’ve been trained. I can do that onstage also. I know how to be in front of a camera and I feel comfortable there. It’s not my favorite, though. It doesn’t make me feel like myself. It makes me feel outside of myself. It brings a layer to the way I speak and communicate that makes me self-reflect in a way that takes me away from what I’m trying to convey. And so for me, audio is my conduit. It’s how I like to communicate. It’s why this podcast is now on day 13 of doing it daily. It feels easy and comfortable, and I’m able to move it forward. If I added a video component, it would add a level of complexity. It would take away from the authenticity of my mouth to your brains, what you’re meant to hear at this time. It would add layers of other stuff to it. It would make it not what it is. And I’m here to simplify, to make it simple, and to get that idea from my mouth to your ears. And this is the easiest way for me to do it. Anyway, those are some of the thoughts that I have today. I have to now see if I can get this edited and posted because I’m gonna be gone. And wish luck to my child. She’s gonna do great this evening, and I can’t wait to see her onstage. She’s always so good. Anyway, if you do wanna come hang out with me for three hours tomorrow, you can still get your tickets. My Kaigi is a planning experience. It’s gonna be amazing. You can get 50% off. NAPODPOMO, that’s the coupon code. You’ll find all of that in the show notes. And you can email me if you have any thoughts about what I said today at hello@elsieescobar.com. You can also send me voice feedback on SpeakPipe. I can post it in one of my upcoming episodes here. Or if you don’t want me to, just say, “Don’t post it. This is for you only.” Okay, bye. Links mentionedMy Kaigi, Saturday, November 14, 2026. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off.Call Her DaddyThreads post about what you’d do if somebody was talking 💩 about youhello@elsieescobar.comLeave me a voice note on SpeakPipe Recording notesRecorded on my iPhone 13 mini and processed through Auphonic.

    It Could’ve Been an Email - November 13, 2026
  2. 1d ago

    I Am Here to Be Award Nominated! - November 12, 2026

    I woke up to a “Congratulations!” on LinkedIn and had to ask what for. Turns out In & Around Podcasting is up for Best Podcasting Podcast at the Ear Worthy Awards. Which, of course, sent me right down the rabbit hole of independent podcasts I wanna listen to. Also, My Kaigi is Saturday, November 14, from noon to 3 p.m. Eastern. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off. ---------------------- Shall we talk about some podcasting awards that I’ve won? Why not? I’m only saying this because there’s something coming. I promise, something is coming that’s super great, super fun, that I’ll tell you all about. But I have this award called the Artist Pairing Award that my… it’s weird to say “ex-cohost.” My cohost who’s not my cohost from my now podfaded podcast. Jessica Kupferman and I won this award. I believe we were given this award at Podfest years ago. I can’t remember, but I still have it, and it’s the best. Love it. Love it so much. It was for She Podcasts, my now podfaded show, and we had a blast with that show, for sure. Also, in 2023, I won… well, Rob Walch and I won the bronze Signal Award in the Advice & How-To category for The Feed: The Official Libsyn Podcast, which I believe is also, I guess at this time, podfaded. When do you count a show as podfaded? When you stop producing it? It stopped being produced around October, a year ago, in 2025. So I’m not sure. Hey, who knows? Maybe it’ll come back. And you guys, I was just nominated again! Rob Walch and I, and I’m roping John Bukenas into the mix here because he is our editor and he is really part of this. We were just nominated for the 2026 Ear Worthy Awards for In & Around Podcasting for Best Podcasting Podcast. Yeah! How cool is that? Also, shout-out to my colleague and friend Danny Brown. He had two of his shows nominated. 5 Random Questions for Best Interview Show and One Minute Podcast Tips for Best Short Form Podcast. So shout-out Captivate (aff), bringing it home. Let’s do it! Anyway, I love this. It just made me so excited. I woke up this morning and had a message on LinkedIn from Kim Yuhl who said, “Congratulations!” And I was like, “What about?” And then I found out that I was nominated. So this is really great. And you know, that Ear Worthy team and Frank Racioppi. He’s just such a huge proponent of independent podcasts. I don’t even have the words to explain how wonderful everything he does for the podcasting industry is. The stuff he writes for Ear Worthy, and he’s been doing some fantastic features in Forbes that are giving kudos to people who have been around for a long time. There are a ton of nominees, you guys. Go over to the Ear Worthy nominees announcement. There’s gonna be a link in the show notes so you can check those out. I can’t wait to start diving into all these podcasts. I think it’s so fun to discover independent shows, right? Shows that are being made basically from scratch. He has a really cool write-up right at the beginning about how these nominees were chosen, who the judges are, what exactly an independent podcast is, and all of those things. I just feel like it’s really great. So overall there are 27 categories. Yeah, that’s a lot. And 156 podcasts nominated. I guess I would say about six nominees per category on average, which might seem like a lot, but have you checked out the Signal Awards? That’s also a lot. Listen. I am here to be award nominated. Any kind of recognition, I think, as somebody who creates content on the internet in this way, is always so delightful. It’s just such a treat, and especially from Ear Worthy. So yay, yay, yay, yay Rob, yay Captivate (aff), yay John! It’s so fantastic. So, those are my news for today. I was just finishing up… not finishing up. I’m in the middle of updating some of my slides and notes for Saturday’s My Kaigi planning experience. I’m getting more and more excited about it, and also nervous, because, you know, every time I put myself out there in this way, I always get super nervous. And part of it is because a lot of the things I offer aren’t your regular run-of-the-mill type of things, okay? They tend to be a little… yeah. I can’t even describe my own offerings because they are a holistic experience. I’m really all about the many ways in which we are human, with our productivity and our outputs and our work as one facet of who we are. For some reason, sometimes in our society, we only see people through one lens. And I feel so strongly that, especially as creators or as artists, as people who lead with their voice, we are a lot more than just that output. And being able to recognize that within ourselves, and to not let those voices tell us we need to be performing bigger and become even more ambitious in order to be valuable… it drives me nuts. I cannot. Anyway. So the things that I put out are holistic, and they are grounded, and I try to make them as accessible as possible. And my goal is for you to finish and feel better than when you came in. To feel enthusiasm, delighted, sparked up somehow. So if you’re in this Saturday, come on by. It’s from noon to 3 p.m. Eastern, and I know that’s a long chunk of time, but I promise it’s gonna go by, and I will give breaks and all the things. You can find the link right in the show notes. If you use the code NAPODPOMO, you’ll get 50% off. All right, so I will look forward to seeing all of you there. And yay! Links mentioned2026 Ear Worthy Awards nomineesShe PodcastsThe Feed: The Official Libsyn PodcastSignal AwardsIn & Around Podcasting5 Random QuestionsOne Minute Podcast TipsCaptivate (aff)My Kaigi, Saturday, November 14, 2026, noon to 3 p.m. Eastern. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off. Recording notesRecorded on my iPhone 13 mini and processed through Auphonic.

    I Am Here to Be Award Nominated! - November 12, 2026
  3. 2d ago

    It Captured MY Zeitgeist - November 11, 2026

    Everybody was talking about Lanterns. At least everybody in my feed was. I was obsessed, and the back-and-forth about a second season got me thinking about what the things we watched, read, and listened to this year can tell us about ourselves. What’s one piece of media that did something for you in 2026? Send me a voice note. I’d love to hear it. We’ll do some of this looking back at My Kaigi on Saturday, November 14. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off. --------------- “Isn’t quite capturing the zeitgeist.” Really? That is just making me lose my mind. If you haven’t watched Lanterns, I really hope that you do. It is one of my favorite shows of this year. And as of yesterday, it seemed as if the show was canceled. There was all this talk about James Gunn and Peter Safran and what was happening at DC Studios, and I don’t know enough to even comment about any of that stuff. All I know is that I loved Lanterns, and I could not wait until season two. And then I heard that line from Variety. I’m really pissed off at Variety for even saying it, so I’m not linking back to the main article. “Isn’t quite capturing the zeitgeist.” Really? The level of engagement that I found… mind you, maybe it’s because of the algorithms. You’re served the same stuff that you tend to align with. If you like things and you’re engaging in conversations, you’re just gonna receive the same conversations back. But it seemed like they were doing really well. Everybody was talking about Lanterns. Everybody was talking about Lanterns, and I was obsessed. It felt to me that it captured my zeitgeist. And so my heart was very broken. I was very defeated. I was just like, if these guys are getting this much talk all through social, with brilliant writing, stellar acting, incredible storytelling, and they’re getting canceled because they didn’t capture the zeitgeist? Which is such a dumb thing to even put out. It’s so annoying. Anyway, I was very sad and very frustrated over it all. Variety had cited an insider who felt the crime drama wasn’t catching on and pointed to the lack of a second-season renewal. But then there’s more. The Cosmic Book News write-up does a pretty good job showing receipts. It looks like Variety shifted the language around a little bit. The old version described the viewership as decent and said the show “didn’t get renewed for a second season.” And then on November 11, which is today when I’m speaking with you, the Variety article magically updated some stuff. The screenshot I saw was marked 11 p.m. Eastern on November 11. The new version described the viewership as strong, put the global average at 19 million viewers per episode going into the finale, and said the show “has yet to be renewed for a second season.” Note that. Has yet to be renewed. So they soft-pedaled it a little, right? And then there’s an update where Chris Cantwell said he hadn’t heard an effing thing and nothing was canceled. And Chris Mundy put the chances of season two at about fifty-fifty, a coin flip. I don’t even know what to say, because the whiplash I’m feeling. Now I’m torn. There’s a part of me that obviously wants this to move forward because I’m obsessed with the series. It’s a fantastic series. And yet, if the folks working on it aren’t believing in it, if they can’t continue the story the way it was intended or dream into whatever it needs to be, I’m not sure I want a second season if it’s gonna be totally different. But at the same time, I wanna see these characters. I wanna see these characters develop. I want Kyle Chandler and Aaron Pierre, who is phenomenal, to continue doing what they need to be doing. Both of them, actually. Anyway, I’m very fired up about that today. At first I didn’t wanna say it’s my favorite TV show of 2026, because I wanted to look back at my year and see if there were other things I got super obsessed with, that I was super passionate about, that I was just really drawn into. I haven’t had a chance to look back. Which brings me back to My Kaigi, my planning experience. We have just a few days. And this is actually one of the things that I use. I use media queues. And when I say queues, I mean queues that start with a Q. When you look back at your media queues or your consumption data, which you might have in so many different places, what were the pieces of media that did something for you this year? I find you can always tie it back. You can remember watching something, listening to something, reading something, and understand yourself in a deeper way. It has deeper connections to the rest of your life. Media and our consumption are embedded in our lives. The things we’re interested in, the conversations we’re having, all of that informs our lived experience. And I find that looking at your queues or at the things you’re passionate about, especially when it comes to media, really does tell you something about your life and who you are. Because I feel very strongly that we’re disconnecting from our own personal likes and dislikes, our own preferences. The things that we love, the things we’re passionate about, the things we really don’t want in our lives. And I want a way to discern what adds to my life, what brings value and feels expansive, and what makes me feel dry and small and compact and all the way around not good. Once we’re away from that media, we have an opportunity to meditate on that and have some thoughts, right? I mean, what’s one piece of media you’ve encountered in 2026 that did something for you? I promise, even as you’re sitting here now, you’re gonna go back and think a little bit about that and start to think, what did that mean for me? So that’s what we do in My Kaigi. Kaigi means “meeting,” so it’s a meeting with yourself, for you. For you. If you use the code NAPODPOMO, you get 50% off. The link to sign up is in the show notes. Today is Wednesday. There’s only Thursday and Friday, so you have about three and a half days to sign up, and I’d love to see you there. All right, well, if you have feedback or wanna send me a voice note and tell me what your favorite piece of media for 2026 was, send it over. Send it over. I’m happy to have it here, I’m happy to share it with other people, and I’m happy to talk about it, because, yeah, I’d just love to connect. You can leave me a voice note on SpeakPipe. You have 90 seconds. Or if you wanna send me something longer, you can attach a little voice note and send it to hello@elsieescobar.com. I would love to hear your voice. Links mentionedLanterns on HBOCosmic Book News screenshots of the Variety edits (and article)My Kaigi, Saturday, November 14, 2026. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off.Leave me a voice note on SpeakPipehello@elsieescobar.com Recording notesRecorded on my iPhone 13 and processed through Auphonic.

    It Captured MY Zeitgeist - November 11, 2026
  4. 3d ago

    A Little Tea on the Way to the Grocery Store - November 10, 2026

    Come with me to the grocery store while I test a little lav mic and tell you why talking gossip with Rob Walch is my favorite thing. He is so not a gossip girly. And somehow we end up talking about one of the reasons I started this whole audio experiment: even when you follow somebody, you don’t always get to see their stuff. Come hang out at free Office Hours on Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. Eastern for Captivate (aff). And if you wanna spend some time planning for next year with me, My Kaigi is Saturday, November 14. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off, just for y’all. ------------- Hey, hey. So I’m doing a little bit of a test today. For the first time, I’m recording in the car as I go, and you guys are gonna come on a little adventure over to the grocery store with me. I’m recording using the SmallRig lavalier microphone. I’m not quite sure what I’m gonna do with the sound of this after I get there. I might process it through Auphonic, so it might not be the exact sound that you get. I’ll put what I end up doing in the recording notes. So here we go, and we’ll see how well it sounds, or how it doesn’t sound. In fact, I’m not even sure what settings I have on the SmallRig right now. It has noise canceling, and I don’t know how I set it up. Today was a podcast publishing day. Episode 44 of In & Around Podcasting is live. And I think the funniest part was how I started the episode this time. Gossip, friends. Gossip. Gossip. My favorite thing is to talk about gossip with Rob Walch because he’s so not a gossip girly. That’s not his vibe, okay? He’s not that guy. If you’ve been listening to us record together or know either of us through podcasting spaces, Rob Walch is not a gossip girly. He’s just not. Neither am I, really. I’m not that person. But I do get dopamine from finding out information sometimes. And I have been talking about Call Her Daddy, Alex Cooper, and Sofia Franklyn for such a long time, ever since the whole Call Her Daddy situation went down in late 2019 and 2020. I mean, it was a huge conversation at the time. And the fallout. I was just riveted by everything that happened, because this stuff didn’t used to happen that way. Alex and Sofia were so public, and there was a lot of audio that came out. There was a lot of video. There was a whole video that Alex made. There were many different things that were going on at that time. And I’ve had my own whirlwind relationship with Alex Cooper, because there’s just so much potential there. So much that could have been amazing. I used to be such a Daddy Gang person. I was totally Daddy Gang. I even have some of the merch. And now I’m just not. I do not identify as part of the Daddy Gang. 😅 There was a time when I thought, “This is really great. This is gonna be amazing.” And I think she fumbled the ball. And I’m sad, and also I’m not, because it was so expected. It was so expected, and it’s just really frustrating. So Rob and I talked about Call Her Daddy and Sofia Franklyn’s memoir, which came out today, Daddy Issues. And word on the street is that there’s already a lot of tea being spilled. I don’t think I’m gonna read the book, but I will listen to podcasts that did read the book and will be covering it. So I will absolutely do that. So that is what’s up. And we talk about all kinds of other things too, including another bit of frustration, which is one of the reasons that I started this audio experiment, this audio newsletter. Because listen, nobody sees my stuff. Nobody’s seeing anybody’s things anymore. Even when you follow someone because you really want to see their work, you don’t see it. Algorithms are taking over, and podcasts are part of that algorithm takeover, if you will, in a lot of different places. So we do have a discussion on that. Steven Goldstein wrote an article that I thought really hit on a lot of things that I’ve been thinking about. We talk about Steve Wilson going into Netflix and heading the podcast situation over there, so there is that aspect of it. We also talk some stats, and I give a little shout-out to NaPodPoMo, which is National Podcast Post Month, which is why I’m posting every single day. Tomorrow, everybody, free Office Hours for Captivate at 11:30 a.m. Eastern. Please come and hang out with me. I would love to have you there. And this weekend it’s my planning experience, My Kaigi. Oh my gosh, the grocery store is jam-packed. We’ll have a really lovely time this Saturday together, planning for next year. And there is a very special 50% off coupon that you’ll be able to see in the show notes, just for y’all. I can’t wait to see you. And if you’re thinking about it and aren’t sure it’s right for you, email hello@elsieescobar.com or you can leave me a voice message on SpeakPipe. All right, folks. We’ll see how this sounded. And I’m at the grocery store now. That was pretty quick. Yay! Links mentionedIn & Around Podcasting, episode 44Call Her DaddyDaddy Issues by Sofia FranklynThe Death of the Follower by Steven GoldsteinNaPodPoMoFree Captivate Office Hours, Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. EasternCaptivate (aff)My Kaigi, Saturday, November 14, 2026. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off.hello@elsieescobar.comLeave me a voicemail on SpeakPipe Recording notesRecorded in the car on the way to the grocery store with a SmallRig lavalier microphone. I ran it through Auphonic for post-production, and I was impressed with the output. The levels were really low and the car noises were pretty strong, but this audio sounds FABULOUS compared to what I initially had!

    A Little Tea on the Way to the Grocery Store - November 10, 2026
  5. 4d ago

    Live Slow, Die Cozy - November 09, 2026

    “Live slow, die cozy.” I heard that on a stationery podcast and immediately thought, yes. I used to rush from my desk to the kitchen like somebody was chasing me. Now I’m thinking about what it feels like to slow down, and how the things we keep around us can help. If you wanna spend some time with your own artifacts, come hang with me at My Kaigi this Saturday, November 14. Bring your pens, your papers, your phone, whatever helps you remember your year. And Danny Brown and I are doing Office Hours on Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. Eastern to talk through some new things from Captivate (aff). I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts, favorite stationery podcasts, and they were having a discussion about, it’s kaigi time, which is my favorite time of year. It’s the stationery community’s time when they all start to create content around what planner system they’re going to be using next year. And there’s a lot of reminiscing about what happened in the year and all the stuff. So they were having a conversation about it, and one of the cohosts said that she has a sticker, a bumper sticker on her car, that says, “Live slow, die cozy.” Oh my gosh. That is my life. Like, that’s such a great little saying. I immediately was like, yes. Live slow, die cozy. I wanna die cozy. Just cozy, cozy. I mean, it’s things like this that I’m living for right now, people. The delight in finding out some of this stuff. And then I was thinking, like, I want that sticker. I wanna have a sticker too that says “Live slow, die cozy.” And then I started to look at the stuff and I thought, I don’t like those designs. I would definitely have a T-shirt that says “Live slow, die cozy” on it, but not with those designs. It’s a little too, like… it’s just not my vibe. I might consider creating some kind of merch around that, you know? But then is there, like, a legality? Who said that? Can I just use it? Because how cute, right? Live slow, die cozy. And part of the reason that this was brought up is because everybody’s thinking back about their year and planning and what their intention is for that coming year. And this cohost was talking about how that is part of the vibe she wants to move forward into 2027 with. And it’s never about just coziness. And I think that’s a part that a lot of people miss about the planner community, especially the real… not hardcore, that’s not the word. The roots. The roots of the stationery community. The ones that are the salt of the earth. There is a level of wisdom from that community and the way that they use their artifacts, which is a word that I really started to use also for my things. They’re my artifacts. And there’s something incredibly transcendent about the way that we use our physical tools and the artifacts that we surround ourselves with that have a greater meaning. And they are a conduit, possibly even a container, for us to choose a life that best reflects who we are. And oh, that was the context in which this cohost was talking about it. She had been feeling a level of stress, as we all feel, right? Life is moving so fast. Things are moving so fast. Everything’s coming at us from every which way, and all of us are yearning for a more grounded experience of our lives, I feel. Maybe some of us. Maybe that’s not the language. That’s what she was looking for. And so the “live slow, die cozy” is everything about that. Take the time to do things. Don’t feel like you have to very quickly cram everything in. And death overall, I mean, I couldn’t think about anything more than just dying cozy, surrounded by warm, fuzzy things, clothing, and comfortable in my bed. It’s just… I don’t know. It’s just everything. And so I totally felt that so deeply. Last year… not last year. This year has been a year of this, of living slow. Because prior to being fired about a year ago, I was, I was doing everything I possibly could to live to work. Not consciously. I’m not sure if that’s even clear, but I was rushing through everything. Everything was rushing. Everything was eating fast. I forgot to eat, in fact, many different times. I was completely disconnected from my body. And anytime that I moved from, let’s say, my desk into the kitchen, I was rushing like somebody was chasing me. Anytime I had to walk anywhere, I was rushing. Everything had to be rushed. I had to go fast, fast, fast. It felt like if I slowed down… I can’t even put words to it. It’s like there wasn’t enough time. It was like I was being pressured. I think everything around me felt like pressure. And that pressure got me into not the best places in my health, in my actual physical body. I was burnt out. Like, legit burnt out. So when I see this type of a saying, a saying that moves forth from a place of living slowly and dying cozy, I think that I’m meant for that. Yeah, totally. And today I didn’t freak out too much. I was doing show notes for the In & Around Podcasting episode that’s dropping tomorrow, and I was doing my last listen, right? So I listen to the podcast episode, I put chapter marks in the file itself, and just give it a quality listen. And as I was listening, I started to hear a crackle, like a real subtle crackling sound in the back of the file itself. And I freaked out a little because I thought that something was wrong with the file. But after restarting my computer, I realized that there was something wrong with the actual audio whatever from my computer, which made me realize, okay, everything is all right. The file is fine. I get to listen to this episode and get the show notes ready. So it is a very, it’s a very good show. It’s a very good episode that comes out tomorrow, so keep an eye out for that. Link to In & Around Podcasting in the show notes. And also, hey, Danny Brown and I are doing our Office Hours this Wednesday at 11:30 a.m. Eastern, and we are covering some lovely new things that Captivate (aff) has just released. You guys, come and hang out. Like, come and hang out and be amongst community and look at tools. And even if you don’t, like, participate, just put it on. Just hang out with us. It’s gonna be so fun. Again, link in the show notes. And lastly, My Kaigi is this Saturday. I would love to have y’all there, any of you who are interested in actually living slow and dying cozy. Come and hang with me. We’re gonna look at what happened in 2026. We’ll do a little bit of a ritual, looking back at all the things that are you. There’s plenty of time for you to sit with your artifacts. If you have your own special artifacts that you like, that make you feel cozy, pens and papers and notepads and fountain pens and digital systems, anything that makes you feel like you’re doing your thing, bring it. And also your phones, because there’s a lot inside of, I think, phones for me in terms of memory keeping, without me even knowing that those memories are there. And so bring the phones as well. And we’ll just look back, plan for the rest of the year, because it’s coming. It is so… it’s coming to an end. Like, it is going to be over sooner than you think. Already it’s gonna be Thanksgiving in a blink. So this is a really good time for you to do the work of planning prior to that rush at the end of the year where you’re gonna blink and it’s gonna be… all right. So we have how many more days? What is today? Five. Five more days. Five more days until your kaigi. Show notes. That is all, my friends, today. You can send me some feedback on SpeakPipe or email me at hello@elsieescobar.com. Big love to y’all. Links mentionedIn & Around PodcastingCaptivate Office Hours, Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. EasternCaptivate (aff)My Kaigi, Saturday, November 14, 2026 (use code NAPODPOMO for 50% off!)Leave me a voicemail on SpeakPipeEmail me at hello@elsieescobar.com Recording notesRecorded on my iPhone 13 mini and processed with Auphonic. Sticker image credit Image from The Funkie Moon’s listing for the “Live Slow, Die Cozy” bumper sticker by Kaeraz.

    Live Slow, Die Cozy - November 09, 2026
  6. 5d ago

    Three Trash Bags of Clean Laundry - November 08, 2026

    Yesterday I spent three hours folding laundry. Three hours. October got away from me, the dryer makes a horrific sound, and somewhere in all of this I remembered how much I love hanging clothes outside. Also, I’m getting ready for My Kaigi on Saturday, November 14. And if you wanna come hang out and learn about Captivate (aff), I’m doing free Office Hours on Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. Eastern. ------------ Yesterday I spent about three hours folding laundry. Folding laundry. Three hours. Because we had about three trash bags full of clean laundry. And you would think that one could get through that easier, as in there’s always time to be doing things like this. But I gotta tell you, the month of October was incredibly jam-packed. It all actually started before my in-laws came to visit, which was amazing. It was such a great visit. And before they come, of course, you have to straighten things out and everything. I needed to get the kids to do their laundry, and I didn’t have enough time to be staying at home because we had other things going on before the grandparents came. And so there were a lot of clean clothes that weren’t folded, for both of the kids and for me, if I’m honest. And they just stayed in piles in different parts of my room and in the living room also, because… anyway, whatever. All that to say that there were weeks of having the kids just come in and look at the laundry baskets and throw clothes everywhere, and the clothes never really got folded. And it just kept escalating and escalating and escalating. This week I finally got them to organize their existing clothes, the ones that are put away, and let go of things that they’re no longer going to wear so that I could get some of that stuff out. And once that was done, the oldest one did fold the majority of her clothes and put those away. And then I still had three trash bags full of the youngest one’s clothes and my clothes that I needed to get through, and I needed to organize her stuff. And oh my gosh, it literally became just a lot. And the reason that things take so long also is because we don’t have a dryer. We don’t have a dryer. We actually, we physically have a dryer, which was replaced by the landlord fairly recently. But it turns out that it wasn’t the best dryer, and something wonky started to go with it. Now every time you put the dryer on, it starts to make a very high-pitched sound that is just a horrific experience. So we don’t put that on. So the way we do it is we wash the laundry and then we hang it outside, which is something that I really love to do. I love the hanging. I love the hanging outside. I love going outside and hanging the clothes. There’s something… I don’t know. I really enjoy it. Mind you, in the summertime it’s fine. In the summertime it’s not a problem. Once it starts to be a little bit on the winter side, you have to look at the weather and go, “Okay, this is a good day to hang clothes outside. This is not a good day to hang clothes outside.” We’ve been able to make it through, I think, one winter. And winters haven’t been so wintry that we can’t still do that. So that adds a level of not being able to do laundry and all of the things. So anyway, that is what I did yesterday. Not very exciting. But I think that I’m gonna, I think I’m gonna be able to push through this last bit of laundry today, because this week is going to be a lot for me. The whole week I’m gonna prepare for my planning experience next Saturday, My Kaigi. I already have the majority of the content for that, but I do have some ideas I wanna test out. And I have to test an app that I have that I really wanna work with. And first I have to find the app, so that’s part of my to-do list. And then do a lot of tech checks, do a lot of updating of things that I wanna say and whatnot when we move through the planning experience. I have to kinda do a little bit of work as it pertains to that, and that’s going to be taking up the majority of my week in addition to the day job, right? So this would be like the night job or the afternoon job. And I’m also doing Office Hours on Wednesday. I love to do Office Hours. Love to do Office Hours. They are the best, and I can’t wait to do those. That’s this upcoming Wednesday, and those are free, in case anybody wants to come and hang out and just learn about Captivate (aff) and using the tools and all the things. So, oh my gosh. Well, that is my catch-up for today because I gotta get going with the laundry. And by the way, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but for those of you who are following the show in your podcast app of choice, I try to put artwork that aligns with what the episodes are like, or something in there. So there’s gonna be a picture of the hanging clothes this time so you see what I’m talking about, and I hope you enjoy it. Also, if you wanna touch base with me, email me, Elsie at… no, no, no, that’s wrong. hello@elsieescobar.com. Or you can speak to me over at SpeakPipe. Shout-out, Cheryl. Thank you so much for your email to me. I still have to respond to the email, but it really made me feel very seen. I very much appreciate that. I hope you have a good day, everybody. Links mentionedMy Kaigi, Saturday, November 14, 2026Free Captivate Office Hours, Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. EasternCaptivate (aff)Email me at hello@elsieescobar.comLeave me a voicemail on SpeakPipe Recording notesRecorded on my iPhone 13 mini. Post-production in Auphonic.

    Three Trash Bags of Clean Laundry - November 08, 2026
  7. 6d ago

    Red Cups and Coffee With My Dad - November 07, 2026

    The little holiday red cups are back, and all of a sudden I’m thinking about getting coffee with my dad. I’m sitting in a grocery store parking lot in the North Carolina mountains, in an out-of-control amount of sunshine, and thinking about the little things I wish I’d kept. A quick invitation, too. My Kaigi is November 14. Come spend three hours with me looking back at your year and planting a few seeds for the next one. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off. ----------------- I’m sitting in the car in the grocery store parking lot. It’s about 9 a.m. There is something so amazing about coming to this grocery store where I live, because it is nestled, literally, in the mountains of North Carolina. My husband always calls it the most beautiful grocery store in the world, because you really, you come in here and you’re just in awe. Not because the grocery store is any different, but because it is just surrounded by beauty. And the beauty that is here right now, with the trees and all the things. It’s a lovely day. So much sunshine. It’s out of control. Oh, so I came in this morning. I walk in, and of course there’s a Starbucks, like, right in the middle of—right when you open the doors, there’s a Starbucks. But y’all, the red cups are back. The little holiday red cups. And I know there’s all of the things, right? There’s all of the things that we know about Starbucks. And you have to understand that I’m a—I really do absolutely adore coffee, especially good coffee. I’m a little bit of a coffee, a little bit of a coffee snob. Although I’m also equally as excited to go get gas station coffee with the little creamer things with the flavors on it, because it’s so few and far between in my house—in my, you know, in my life—that it kind of brings back some memories. Not that I would have it all the time, but it’s like, “Oh yeah, I remember this,” right? It just hits different. But these red cups, it’s that also. And even though I will—especially living where I live, the area that I live is Asheville, North Carolina, and that is the place where local is king. Local is the majesty. Local is the thing you do. In fact, there is probably—I could count, at least I can think of two Starbucks in the city. I’m sure that there’s more, but they are not… It’s a different type of vibe in this town. There are many local, amazing coffee shops in Asheville, by the way. That said, I’m coming back to the red cups because they are extraordinarily meaningful to me. And not because of the coffee itself, but because of the memories of it all. I started to go to Starbucks, I think, or started to be a little bit more aware of going out to get coffee after I left home to go to college, to the university. Obviously, I was gone for the first time, away from my house, and I would always come back for the holidays. And one of the rituals that I used to have was going to get coffee with my dad. Good Lord, I didn’t think I was gonna get so emotional about it. This is where I cried a little. It was my favorite thing. I got a chance to talk with him, and we would catch up. It was like he was talking to me like I was an adult for the very first time. Obviously, I’m always gonna be his little girl. But it was the first time we got to… I don’t know. There are no words to say how special it is for me to go get coffee with my dad. We always went to Starbucks because it was so close to the house where they live. And the red cups always brought that back. And even without red cups, even without red cups, we go to Starbucks and we sit down and we catch up. It’s the memory. It’s the story. It’s the life in those little things that just makes me so happy to remember. So y’all, the red cups are here. And there’s another thing I wish I would’ve done. I wish I’d kept either the red cups or the little hot thing that goes around the red cups. You know, the little whatever it is so that your hands don’t get burnt because the coffee’s so hot? I wish I would’ve kept those. And I know that’s literally trash, but it would’ve been so wonderful for me to look at all the years. They used to be a lot better, by the way. The designs of the red cups used to be everything. I was always floored. Whenever the holiday season stuff from Starbucks would come, I would say even like 20 years ago, between 20 and 25 years ago, their branding for the holidays was on point. It was top-notch in every single way. Even the quality of the cups was different. The way that everything was designed was different. There was a theme that was way bigger than “holiday season,” right? There was something else about those red cups that was so much more beautiful. So I wish I would’ve kept some of those, because some of the designs were just so beautiful. And it’s also a way to, like, there’s an element of proof of life. Which is—I’m actually bringing this back to my planning experience that I’m doing. Seven days, people! Seven days to go for you to join me, and we could do this. There is a planner that’s super hot right now. And of course I was a little early to the party, so I’m already over the hotness of this planner. But it’s called a Hobonichi, and I started using those in 2019. And I think 2021 or ’22—anyway, one of those years, I did this amazing thing where I would put every piece of literal trash in there. Receipts, you know, torn pieces of paper from the things that I used on that day. Obviously, not every day had that in there, but a lot of it did. And keeping those little pieces of “trash” in the journal makes it so special. Now when I look back at it, it has all these pieces in it, and I distinctly know exactly where they came from. It brings me right back to where I was then. It makes me remember that I’ve lived, that I’ve been places, that I’ve experienced things. And it takes the ordinary into this extraordinary, magical package that I now have. And it really has fueled, I think, my capacity to fill an entire year with the work that I do at the end of the year through My Kaigi. Kaigi means “meeting,” and your kaigi is a meeting with yourself. So you’re meeting yourself. You can look back at the year and start to plant the seeds for the next in a way that’s super grounded and organic to living your life. There’s a lot of that that goes into this that isn’t necessarily just strategic planning to be productive, because I hate that stuff. Anywho, thanks for coming along with me on the journey with the red cup, y’all. So again, remember there is a 50% off code for My Kaigi. Come spend three hours with me next Saturday, a week from today. And Danny and I from Captivate (aff) are doing Office Hours on Wednesday. We’re so excited to kind of talk about end-of-year stuff also, because there’s some tooling that I think is underused by a lot of people who happen to use podcasting, and I’m so excited to talk about it. All right, talk back. Email me at hello@elsieescobar.com or leave me a voicemail on SpeakPipe. Links mentionedMy Kaigi — November 14, 2026. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off.Hobonichi TechoCaptivate Office Hours — Wednesday, November 11, at 11:30 a.m. EasternCaptivate (aff)Email me at hello@elsieescobar.comLeave me a voicemail on SpeakPipe Recording notesRecorded in the car in the grocery store parking lot, around 9 a.m., on my iPhone 13 mini. Processed in Auphonic.

    Red Cups and Coffee With My Dad - November 07, 2026
  8. Nov 6

    Permission to Do It Your Way - November 06, 2026

    I woke up around 2:30 a.m. with that lovely feeling of panic—and I actually went back to sleep. That’s progress, my friends. Today I’m talking about feeling like I haven’t done enough, finding a mission that feels like me, and a voicemail from Jennifer Navarrete about falling in love with podcasting again. A quick invitation, too: My Kaigi is November 14. Come spend some time looking at what you want to do, what you want to let go of, and who you want to be next year. Use NAPODPOMO for 50% off, just for those of you here with the podcast. -------------- This morning—well, actually, maybe it wasn’t even this morning. It must have—well, I guess it was this morning. Probably around 2:30 a.m., something like that. I woke up with that lovely feeling of panic. You know, the one where you wake up and then something, unfinished something in life, crawls into your brain right as you’re supposed to just let go. I started to get a little bit anxious. Yeah, that wasn’t great. It’s because I have so much going on. But there’s just—I mean, it’s wonderful. I really love it. But I do feel like I have balls up in the air, and I just move from one thing to the next, and hopefully I’m gonna be able to push through and get all the stuff done. And then there was a feeling of it wasn’t enough. Like, “I wish I had done more” feeling. And for a moment there, I almost spiraled. Because what I have found out for myself is, if I allow even just one or two extra seconds of that to continue, I won’t be able to go back to sleep, and it will just totally wreck me. So I was able to stop that, take a moment, put my hands on my belly, lay directly on my back, and slowly exhale. And I was actually able to go back to sleep. Not by forgetting, but by putting a pin in it. I will be able to deal with it in the morning. And that is progress, my friends. That’s progress. A lot of progress. I had chosen before—just because I just felt I was always in a fighting space about a year ago. And it was this constant nagging feeling that I wasn’t doing enough, and things simply weren’t going to work out. And I had to continue to feel like I had to… Oh my gosh, it’s very hard to come up with words for this. To justify my value. I think that is it. I felt like I had to justify my value daily in a way that wasn’t healthy at all. And thankfully, I am not in that place anymore. So it was just a moment. I’m just sharing that because I think a lot of us have that. And it has taken a year for my nervous system to not go back to its comfortable route, which was to just get stressed out. Because that’s what it is, right? And I’m just thankful for that. So if you’re going through that, I feel you, and it’s going to be okay. It’s going to be all right. This week, for my mentorship experience—which I have not talked about, which is bizarro—I’m in, right now, week three. Next week is going to be—no, this is week four. Oh my gosh, this is week four. Is it? Yes. It’s week four, okay? We’re talking about mission, vision, and values. And the way that I like to work, about helping folks find that piece of themselves, or, like, find out what their mission statement is, or what their values are, and what their vision is for themselves, isn’t from an outward perspective. And I use this metaphor that just came to me when I was talking about it, because that’s how I feel. I feel this happens all the time when you do exercises to work on your mission statement and things like that: they tend to come from the outside in, where we’re looking for that lovely little statement that’s just going to encapsulate everything that we’re in. I sense, when I see those types of statements in either brands or companies, organizations, that in some cases it feels very—it feels like they’re wearing an outfit that doesn’t fit them. And I’m sure that you have heard this and that you’ve had this happen, where somebody who loves you, or a friend, or somebody who has your best interests at heart, will say something like, “Hey, this shirt would look great on you,” or “This pair of pants,” or “These shoes,” or whatever. And maybe it does. Maybe that piece of clothing really actually does look great on you. But you, wearing it, don’t feel like you. Even if it looks great. Even if you look great. You don’t feel great in it, and you don’t like the way that you look in it. And finding that balance between wearing the clothing that is both lovely on you, that looks great and fits great, and it’s slick and all the things that you like, as well as that you feel good in, you can move in, and you feel like yourself in—it takes a little bit of time. And it mostly takes you. It mostly takes you figuring out what that is. And I think that’s the way that I like to work through things. So I just was sharing that because it’s something that I have top of mind as we were working through some of those mission statements and things like that. And guess what? I got a win this week. Listen, we are—what is this, day six, right?—on 30 days of podcast episodes. Starting this as my audio newsletter, as my—I hope that this is my fulcrum in a lot of different ways, even past November. But I kept saying, listen, if you have something to talk back at me, you can leave me a voicemail. If you head over to SpeakPipe, you can leave me a note. Or you can email me at hello@elsieescobar.com. And guess what? I got a voicemail. So I’m gonna play it for you guys right now. Jennifer Navarrete: Elsie, this is Jennifer Navarrete, and I have to say that listening to your NaPodPoMo podcast is a real joy, because I feel like you’re my spirit animal in the first episode where you were sharing your thoughts and feelings and experience around video. Yep, I feel it. And then when you talked about not hitting record, been there, done that. And I think the one that really kind of touched me the most was the one where you were in the rain, or outside listening to the rain. Of course, we could hear the rain on our side as well. Because the thing that makes NaPodPoMo special to me is that I can podcast just for the pure joy of podcasting. Just for my own pleasure. Just to satisfy my own curiosity. Every November, I fall in love with podcasting again. Truly, I do, just for that. Because, as you know, as someone who works in this industry, it can be a bit much. The whole reason we got into podcasting was for that pure joy, to share our mission and message with the world. So thank you for being part of NaPodPoMo 2026. Yeah, and I’m looking forward to even more grand audio adventures with you. Elsie: I mean, thank you, Jennifer. Jennifer Navarrete, she is the founder, the creator of this incredible 30 days—what is it? National Podcast Post Month, where every day we post an episode. And she is on her 18th year—is it 18th? I hope I’m saying it correct—of doing this. Thank you so much for listening to the show. Thank you so much for all of the things. I mean, I also feel you. [Laughs.] There’s very few of us out here who kind of remember the back-in-the-days of it all, where it really was people picking up a mic and talking. And it was like we were talking to each other through podcasts. There is a lot of really good stuff that’s happening in this space. There’s a lot of creativity and a lot of amazing shows out there that do so many different things for, my gosh, thought leadership and business and entertainment and audio, video, all the things. But what I feel is missing is that just-for-its-own-sake piece of it all, and the power of RSS, and just getting behind the mic and talking without a need to have it be more than it is. There was something so great about that. And I just, I want to get some of that back. So thank you so much, Jennifer, for this, because literally I am feeling way more pumped about going back to my root, what I feel makes me feel great and powerful, and that I can do that. I can do that just by doing it the way that I want to. So permission granted for everybody else who wants to participate. Head over to napodpomo.org for that, okay? Those are my little messages of the day for today. And we have eight more days—ready?—for My Kaigi, which is my planning experience. So if you want to join me for that, I do ask a lot of questions where you get a lot of time to be a little bit introspective about the things that you want to do, the things that you want to let go of, the things that really are the fulcrum of who you want to be for next year. As well as lots of really fun things that are going to trigger lots of lovely memories inside of your brain, which is always very amazing. And thank you, Jennifer, because I did see that she bought a ticket, and I’m super stoked. If you want to use the 50% off ticket, it is NAPODPOMO. The link is in the description. You’re welcome to sign up for that. We are getting ready for that. So, yay, and I hope to hear from more of you today. Links mentionedMy Kaigi — November 14, 2026: use...

    Permission to Do It Your Way - November 06, 2026

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