Pivot Or Die

Pivot Or Die

Pivot or Die is a podcast about the moments that change everything. Hosted by Seth Kaser, each episode features honest conversations with people who have faced major life pivots, hard seasons, failure, grief, addiction, burnout, relationship struggles, faith questions, career changes, and the process of rebuilding. Through real stories and vulnerable conversations, the show explores resilience, healing, personal growth, faith, purpose, marriage, mental health, creativity, and what it takes to keep moving forward when life does not go according to plan.

Episodes

  1. Jul 20

    From Fatherless to a Father of Five - Tim Felker | Pivot Or Die Ep 007

    Tim Felker grew up without a father and spent much of his early life searching for identity, acceptance, and a sense of belonging. After the unexpected death of a friend, Tim entered a church for the first time and experienced a moment that changed the direction of his life. In the middle of the service, he sensed Jesus beside him and heard the words he had never received from an earthly father: “Son, I love you.” In this conversation with Seth Kaser, Tim shares his journey from fatherlessness to becoming a husband, pastor, and father of five, including three children adopted from foster care. He also opens up about the fear and inadequacy he experienced as a parent. When Tim asked God to teach him how to be a father, the answer was simple but life-changing: “First learn to be a son.” This episode explores father wounds, spiritual identity, surrender, adoption, community, parenting, and the freedom of discovering that we were never meant to carry life alone. Content note: This conversation includes discussion of fatherlessness, difficult childhood experiences, substance use, the death of a friend, family wounds, and abuse. Real stories. Hard pivots. Hope on the other side.

  2. Jul 13

    Our Son Was Born With Half a Brain: Hope After a Medical Diagnosis - Lauren Kaser (Part 2) | Pivot Or Die Ep 006

    In Part 2 of their story, Seth and Lauren Kaser share the prenatal diagnosis that changed their family and gave Pivot Or Die its name. During what had been a joyful pregnancy, doctors discovered that their son Dougie was missing much of the left side of his brain and had serious concerns involving his heart. Seth and Lauren were left facing questions about his survival, development, and future—and a recommendation to terminate the pregnancy. They talk honestly about grief, doubt, prayer, medical trauma, and the night they had to decide what they believed when God did not provide the complete healing they had hoped for. Seth and Lauren also share Dougie’s emergency birth, NICU stay, porencephaly and COL4A1 diagnosis, infantile spasms, seizures, surgeries, and ongoing therapies. They explain how responsibilities that once felt impossible slowly became their family’s new normal. The episode concludes with the unexpected pregnancy and remarkable story of their daughter, Peace, as well as encouragement for parents who have received a complex medical diagnosis for their child. This is a conversation about grieving what you expected, receiving the life you have been given, and choosing hope when there are no easy answers. Content note: This episode includes discussion of prenatal medical diagnosis, pregnancy complications, termination/abortion, medical trauma, infant seizures, depression, and pregnancy-loss fears.

  3. Jun 30

    How to Grieve The Loss Of A Child - Jonathan Ferguson (Part 2) | Pivot Or Die Ep 005

    In Part 2 of Jonathan Ferguson’s story, Seth Kaser continues the conversation with Jonathan about the loss of his adopted son, Silas, while serving as a missionary in Kenya. Jonathan shares what happened after Silas passed away: telling their young sons, being surrounded by their Kenyan church community, returning to the States, wrestling with anger, and learning how to grieve without easy answers. He also talks about what actually helps when someone is grieving, why presence matters more than explanations, and how therapy, faith, and community helped him keep going. This is a deeply honest conversation about child loss, adoption, grief, faith, and finding hope when life does not make sense. Sponsors / Partners Mentioned: Global Creation Foundation: globalcreationfoundation.orgJessica Chapman Art: jessicachapmanart.com Books / Resources Mentioned: Dying Well by Ira Byock - https://amzn.to/4oSlgroThe Bible by Various Authors - https://amzn.to/4v1YsHe(suggested after the podcast) Experiencing Grief By H Norman Wright - https://amzn.to/4ge6sBo This is Pivot or Die: real stories, hard pivots, and hope on the other side. Subscribe for more honest conversations about life’s hardest pivots.

  4. Jun 22

    We Lost Our Son on the Mission Field (Part 1) - Jonathan Ferguson | Pivot Or Die Ep 004

    In this episode of Pivot or Die, Seth Kaser talks with Jonathan Ferguson about faith, young marriage, missions, adoption, loss, and the painful pivots that shape a life. Jonathan shares about growing up as a peacemaker, getting married young, studying biology, feeling called to missions, and moving his family to Kenya. While serving there, Jonathan and his wife taught and equipped pastors, helped lead a church, raised their children overseas, and began the adoption process for a young boy named Silas. Silas had hydrocephalus and needed serious medical care. After he was placed with their family, foreign adoptions in Kenya were suddenly frozen. If they had waited one more week, he would not have been placed with them. This is Part 1 of Jonathan’s story. It leads into one of the most devastating pivots a family can face: losing a child and learning how to keep going after grief. Jonathan’s story is full of faith, honesty, pain, obedience, and the reminder that sometimes getting knocked down is part of the story, but staying down is not the end.

  5. Jun 15

    Unexpected Pregnancy, Young Fatherhood, and Finding Your Identity - David Orgill | Pivot Or Die Ep 003

    In this episode of Pivot or Die, Seth Kaser talks with his friend David Orgill about unexpected fatherhood, young marriage, identity, creativity, faith, and learning to be present when life feels overwhelming. Here are the books talked about in this podcast: The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry by John Mark Comer: https://amzn.to/4vaEKKeFathered by God by John Eldredge: https://amzn.to/4vtWHnv Check out David's film work here: https://storybyimage.com/Or on Instagram here: https://www.instagram.com/storybyimage/ David shares how becoming a dad at 19 completely changed the direction of his life. What first felt scary, overwhelming, and unexpected became the pivot that helped him grow up, take responsibility, and begin discovering who he really was. This conversation moves through David’s story of growing up homeschooled, falling in love with his wife Katie, discovering filmmaking, working to provide for his young family, feeling disconnected from himself, rediscovering creativity, learning true rest, and wrestling with the deep truth that God’s love is not something we earn through performance. For anyone who feels like they are wandering, checking out, overwhelmed, or trying to prove their worth, David’s story is a reminder that you are already loved.

    Unexpected Pregnancy, Young Fatherhood, and Finding Your Identity - David Orgill | Pivot Or Die Ep 003

  6. Jun 8

    Trusting God Through Occupational Uncertainty - Matt Heisler | Pivot Or Die Ep 002

    Seth Kaser talks with Matt Heisler about creativity, vocation, faith, fatherhood, and learning to trust God when the next step is unclear. Matt shares his story of growing up in Southern California, discovering film and storytelling, working at Apple, joining the anti-human trafficking organization A21, landing a dream job at RED cameras, traveling through Europe with his wife Shelby, becoming a father, walking through miscarriage, and navigating a new season of career uncertainty. This conversation explores the tension between ambition and family, the power of community, the role of journaling and creativity, and the peace that can come from looking back and seeing how God has been connecting the dots all along. For anyone in a season of transition, job loss, uncertainty, or waiting, Matt’s advice is simple but powerful: be patient, stay connected to your community, and trust that this season will not last forever.

    Trusting God Through Occupational Uncertainty - Matt Heisler | Pivot Or Die Ep 002

  7. May 30

    How We Overcame Addiction and Depression in Our Marriage | Pivot or Die Episode 1

    Seth Kaser sits down with his wife, Lauren Kaser, to talk honestly about getting married young, walking through depression, facing porn addiction in marriage, and learning how to rebuild trust, hope, and connection one step at a time.

    How We Overcame Addiction and Depression in Our Marriage | Pivot or Die Episode 1
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About

Pivot or Die is a podcast about the moments that change everything. Hosted by Seth Kaser, each episode features honest conversations with people who have faced major life pivots, hard seasons, failure, grief, addiction, burnout, relationship struggles, faith questions, career changes, and the process of rebuilding. Through real stories and vulnerable conversations, the show explores resilience, healing, personal growth, faith, purpose, marriage, mental health, creativity, and what it takes to keep moving forward when life does not go according to plan.

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  • Creator
    Pivot Or Die
  • Years Active
    2026
  • Episodes
    7
  • Rating
    Clean
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