Cherish the ones you love, for one day they’ll live only in your memories. 「珍惜眼前人,因為有一天,他們只會存在於回憶裡。」 When I was little, my parents and I had a weekend ritual — we would hold hands and walk together to Shang Ji Cheng, a little restaurant that served the most delicious roast chicken in Tucheng, Tapei. 小時候,我們家有個週末儀式——爸爸媽媽會牽著我的手,一起走到在台北土城香雞城,那裡有我最愛的手扒雞。 Dad on one side, Mom on the other, and me in the middle, swinging their hands like a seesaw, giggling all the way. The moment we stepped inside, that golden, crispy aroma filled the air — to this day, I can still smell it in my memories. 爸爸在一邊,媽媽在另一邊,我走在中間,一邊搖晃著他們的手、一邊咯咯笑。那股金黃酥脆的香氣直到現在,仍深深烙印在我的記憶裡。 They would always leave the chicken leg and wing for me — my favorite parts — and smile as they watched me eat. 爸媽總會把我最愛的雞腿和雞翅留給我,看著我吃得津津有味,露出滿足的笑容。 After dinner, we would head to the cinema. I remember laughing so hard at Stephen Chow’s movies like Flirting Scholar and Tricky Brains. Dad would say, “My favorite sound in the world is your laughter.” And in those moments, I felt safe. I thought that happiness would last forever. 吃飽後,我們就去電影院。印象最深的是周星馳的《唐伯虎點秋香》和《整人大王》,我笑得又大又開心。爸爸總說:「我最喜歡聽妳的笑聲。」那時候,我以為幸福會一直這樣下去。 But life changed. The laughter faded, replaced by arguments, shouting, and silence. Dad began to hit Mom — and our family dinners became fewer and fewer. Sometimes, Mom still took me to the movies, but Dad was never there anymore. 然而生活變了。笑聲被爭吵、怒吼和沉默取代。爸爸開始對媽媽動手,我們三個人一起吃飯的畫面越來越少。媽媽偶爾還是會帶我去看電影,但爸爸已經不再出現。 When I grew older, the roles reversed — I was the one taking Dad to the movies. I still remember watching Con Air together, and later, The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, a movie that inspired me to travel to Iceland alone. 長大後,角色互換了——變成我帶爸爸去看電影。我還記得我們一起看了《空中監獄》,還有後來那部讓我踏上冰島旅程的《白日夢冒險王》。 But by then, things were different. Mom and I often argued, Dad became quiet and heavy with worries about money. I was the one paying for the tickets — and sometimes, he didn’t even seem to want to be there. 但那時感覺已經不同了。媽媽和我常常爭吵,而爸爸變得沉默憂鬱,總是嘆氣說沒錢。最後,都是我買電影票,而他只是靜靜地坐著,好像也不太情願。 Even when my parents occasionally met again, the air felt heavy — like a storm waiting to break. I had already learned to live with their separation, but deep down, I still missed that simple, joyful little family we once were. 即使爸媽偶爾再見面,空氣都變得沉重,像隨時會爆發的暴風雨。我早已習慣他們分開的生活,但心底深處,仍然無比懷念那個單純快樂的三人世界。 Then one day, Mom — who always cared about her health — passed away suddenly. A few years ago, Dad also left during surgery. Losing them both broke me open in ways words can’t describe. 後來,有一天,那個最注重養生的媽媽卻突然離世。幾年後,爸爸也在手術中離開了。我失去了這世界上最愛我的人,那段時間的痛苦,無法用言語形容。 If I could go back, just once, I’d return to that warm, yellow-lit Shang Ji Cheng. I’d hold their hands and say, “Thank you. I really, really love you.” Not wait until everything became a memory. 如果可以重來一次,我希望能回到那個燈光昏黃的香雞城,拉著爸媽的手,認真地對他們說:「謝謝你們,我真的很愛你們。」而不是等到一切都變成回憶時,才後悔那些沒說出口的話。 ⸻ Thank you for listening to this story from my heart. Maybe you, too, have moments you wish you could relive — to say the words that were never said. So today, if you still can, call someone you love. Tell them how much they mean to you. 謝謝你聽完我的故事。 也許你心中,也有那些想重來一次的時刻。 今天,如果還有機會,請告訴你愛的人:「謝謝你,我真的很愛你。」