A Messy Amen

Michelle Torrey
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A Messy Amen welcomes you into the conversations you might not be having on Sundays. Do you ever feel like you want to get to know people more but you get the weird sense that no one can relate to your struggle? You show up to church, sing, listen to the sermon, and go home feeling forgotten, isolated, and frustrated? Here we will be sharing stories that help women of faith feel less alone. We will be honest in ways that may normally feel foreign and share how we hold on to faith and trust God in the ups and downs. 

  1. Redirected, Not Rejected

    6 小時前

    Redirected, Not Rejected

    Send us Fan Mail Part Two with Sunni Henry Man, when Sunni told me part one didn't even scratch the surface, I believed her, but I was not ready for this one. We pick right back up and go deep, and I mean DEEP. Sunni walks us through the last ten years of her life, and honestly, I still get chills thinking about it. Seven strokes. An aortic dissection with less than a one percent survival rate, where the helicopter got canceled because of an ice storm and she fought for over nine hours with nothing but the Lord in that ambulance. She died on the operating table and met Jesus. She got to see her son who is in heaven. If that is not a picture of but God, I don't know what is. But this episode is not just about the miracles in her body, it is about the miracles in her heart. We talk about the abuse she carried from childhood, the words her earthly father spoke over her, and how she didn't even realize she had put God in the same box as her dad until she came face to face with Jesus. We talk about losing friends, being called too much, being called extra, and how Sunni flipped every one of those labels right back around. That is where this title comes from. Sunni said it herself, if someone leaves you, it is not that you are rejected, you are redirected by God. Oh, that's so good. We also get into discernment as a gift that can be heavy to carry, learning to use your voice instead of shrinking it, and what it actually looks like to collect joy instead of collecting stuff. This one is for anyone who has ever felt like they were too much for a room. You are not too much. You were never trash. You were made on purpose and for a purpose. Verses mentioned:  -Isaiah 43 (you are mine, and I am doing a new thing)  -1 Corinthians 12 (we are all one body with different parts) -Esther 4:14  -1 Samuel 17 -John 10 (the Good Shepherd) -1 Kings 19 (Elijah resting and eating in his exhaustion) Themes covered: Miraculous healing and survival, childhood abuse and the father wound, separating God from an earthly father's rejection, discernment as a spiritual gift, redirection instead of rejection, being called too much and using your voice anyway, Christian recovery, collecting joy, losing and finding identity outside of motherhood I'm so glad you're here for this one. If it met you somewhere today, go check out the merch over at amessyamenpod.com, and if you've got a minute, leave a review. It genuinely helps other people find these stories.

    1 小時 35 分鐘
  2. Messy, Molded, and Made New

    6月26日

    Messy, Molded, and Made New

    Send us Fan Mail What do you do with a life that started in chaos and kept piling on? Abuse, addiction, broken marriages, eating disorders, children with rare diseases, open heart surgery, paralysis, and a moment where Sunni Henry literally died on the operating table and came back. This is not a tidy story. But it is a redemption story, and those are the ones worth telling. In this episode I sit down with Sunni Henry, recovery coach, prison chaplain, street evangelist, and one of the most genuinely fearless women I have ever met. She grew up bouncing between a mosque, a Jehovah’s Witness hall, and a satanic gathering before a coworker named Kimberly invited her to church in Southern California and everything changed. Since then, Sunni has spent decades showing up for people the world has written off, in prisons, under bridges, in juvenile detention centers, and in the lives of kids who just needed someone to say, I am so glad you are here. We talk about identity, labels, the word that tells us not to remember the former things, what it looks like to love a child who has walked away, and why it is always okay to not be okay. This one hit different. I think you are going to feel that too. You can find all the links including the merch shop over at amessyamenpod.com. Find us on socials @amessyamenpod. You are not alone here. 🙏

    1 小時 37 分鐘
  3. Perfectionism, Pressure, and the 110% Problem

    6月19日

    Perfectionism, Pressure, and the 110% Problem

    Send us Fan Mail Some of the hardest stuff we carry, we carry quietly. We show up on Sunday, we smile, we serve, and nobody knows the candle is burning at both ends until it finally goes out. This week I sat down with Pastor Jim Westheim, who has spent 40 years in ministry, and he got honest about something a lot of us are scared to say out loud. Burnout. Depression. Anxiety. The kind of compassion fatigue where you give and give and give until one day there is just nothing left in the tank. Jim told me about the flight home from a missions trip in Honduras, the moment he realized he wasn’t okay. The same work that used to light him up was suddenly draining him dry, and he couldn’t pray it away. We talked about the perfectionism he used to wear like a badge, the “110%” lie so many of us believe God is asking for, and the slow, holy work of learning that God just wants your best, not your everything-all-the-time. He also walked us through the real tools that brought him back. Watching your self-talk. Managing anger instead of letting it manage you. Protecting yourself from people who only pour negativity into your life. Refueling emotionally with the things that actually fill you back up. Staying alert to your own warning signs before the crash comes. And then we went where the church doesn’t always go. MEDICATION. Jim shared his own story of finally holding that first pill in his hand and not wanting to take it, and the friend who told him, “this is going to be okay, and you may not have to be on this forever.” If a chemical imbalance needs balancing, that is not a failure of faith. We don’t think twice when someone takes thyroid medicine or eye drops. Mental health gets to be on that list too. This one took me to church, friends. We wove in Philippians 4:6-8, Isaiah 26:3, and John 14:27, that gift of peace the world cannot give and cannot take. Perfect peace doesn’t mean everything around you is perfect. It just means you’re getting back to a healthy place on the inside, and God can absolutely meet you there. If you’ve been running on empty and wondering if that makes you a bad Christian, oh friend, I think this episode will meet you right where you’re at. You don’t have to have it all together to show up here. 💛 Mentioned in this episode: Unshakable You by John Opeluski (formerly Pastor Disaster), available on Amazon Philippians 4:6-8, Isaiah 26:3, John 14:27 Head over to Substack for the companion devotional, and check out the link tree for the mug, the t-shirt, the bookmarks, all of it. I’m so glad you’re here. You are not alone here. A Messy Amen.

    1 小時 17 分鐘
  4. Cancer, Calm, and Clinging to Christ

    6月12日

    Cancer, Calm, and Clinging to Christ

    Send us Fan Mail What do you do when the trial comes back... again? This week I'm sitting down with Holly Maltby, who has walked through cancer not once, not twice, but FOUR times since 2019. And just when she thought the hardest part was behind her, a three year battle with anxiety showed up next. Holly gets honest about the panic attacks, the nights she didn't want to be on this earth anymore, and the moment a wrong word in the ER landed her somewhere she never expected to be. But this conversation is not about the mess winning. It's about a woman who kept leaning in when she had every reason to pull away. Holly shares the verses she carried in her work pocket like lifelines, the gratitude practice that rewired her anxious brain, and how a prayer team became the hands and feet of Jesus when she couldn't stand on her own. And then God did something only He could do. After a lifetime of singleness, after obediently walking away from a relationship in her 40s, Holly is getting married this October. To my father-in-law. Yes, you read that right, and yes, I take a little credit 😂 God's in the details, friends. In this episode we talk about: Walking through cancer four times and what it does to your faithAnxiety, panic attacks, and the raw stuff we don't say on SundaysGratitude as a weapon, because your brain can't hold anxiety and thankfulness at the same timeLifelong singleness, obedience, and a love story only God could writeKey verses: Philippians 4:6-7, 2 Timothy 1:7, Deuteronomy 31:8, Isaiah 41:10, and Holly's favorite, Proverbs 3:5-6 Don't lose your hope. God is always with you, even when you can't feel Him. The matching devotional with reflection questions is waiting for you over on Substack, and you can find that, the merch shop, and everything else at linktr.ee/Amessyamenpod You're not alone here. I'm so glad you're here. 🙏

    1 小時 2 分鐘
  5. Scars, Surrender, and Starting Over

    6月5日

    Scars, Surrender, and Starting Over

    Send us Fan Mail Michelle sits down with Nathanial Souder for one of the most raw and redemptive conversations the show has ever held. From a lonely childhood with no one to turn to, to a blood oath with an outlaw motorcycle club, to being kidnapped, tortured, and escaping with his life, Nathanial's story is not a quiet one. And it didn't stop there. A rare brain condition that no surgeon in Michigan would touch. A 50/50 chance of dying on the table at Mayo Clinic. A motorcycle accident one year to the day of that surgery. Three times God said not yet, and Nathanial wasn't even sure he believed in Him yet. What Nathanial was looking for his whole life was belonging. He found a version of it in the wrong place, and it nearly cost him everything. But underneath all of it was a man who decided at eight years old he would not repeat what he had seen, a man who carried more shame than he knew what to do with, and a man whose daughters eventually asked him to come to church with them. He came. And something shifted. This episode sits with the hard stuff, the counterfeit versions of brotherhood, the things we do that we still carry, the generational patterns we swear we will break and then have to actually fight to break. And it lands on a God who sweeps it all away like a cloud. Nathanial's own words say it best: his past doesn't define him. It refines him. If you have ever wondered whether you are too far gone for God to reach, this episode is your answer. KEY VERSES Isaiah 44:22 — "I have swept away your transgressions like a cloud and your sins like mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you." Isaiah 43:1-2 — "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by name, you are mine." Galatians 2:20 — "It is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me." Psalm 107:2 — "Has the Lord redeemed you? Then speak out. Tell others he has redeemed you from your enemies." "My past doesn't define me. But my past refines me. And I feel redeemed." Nathanial Souder There is a companion devotional for this episode over on Substack, and new merch is available now in the shop. Both are linked in the link tree at linktr.ee/Amessyamenpod. Come find us on socials at @amessyamenpod and we will see you next time.

    43 分鐘
  6. Ministry & Motherhood - On Mission Right Where God Places You

    5月29日

    Ministry & Motherhood - On Mission Right Where God Places You

    Send us Fan Mail This week I'm sitting down with Savannah Mackie, and I have to be honest, when I first thought about having her on, she was one of those people I might have just assumed had it all together. Varsity volleyball, competitive dancer, president of multiple clubs, everybody's friend. You know the type. But what Savannah shares in this episode is a reminder that the highlight reel never tells the whole story. Behind all of it, she was dealing with a relationship that turned abusive, carrying things she didn't know how to say out loud, and spiraling into some of the darkest moments of her life. It was a youth pastor who met her right in the middle of that mess. And that one encounter became the reason she spent the next 11 years pouring into teenagers herself. We talk about what it actually looks like to be a safe person for a kid who has no safe place. We get into the hard stuff, what to do when someone opens up about self-harm, how to know when something is beyond you, and why humility might be the most underrated leadership quality there is. We also talk about the season Savannah is walking into right now, stepping back from youth ministry after over a decade, and trusting that the passion stays even when the assignment changes. And somewhere in the middle of all of it, we end up talking about parenting, identity, the fruit of the spirit, and why the difference between try and triumph is just a little umph. 😂 Galatians 5:22-23 is Savannah's anchor verse, the first one she ever memorized, and the way she unpacks it is so good. It is not a tidy little checklist. It is a daily heart check, and she treats it like one. If you have ever felt called to speak life into someone else while quietly wondering if you are enough for that assignment, I think this episode is going to meet you right where you are. You don't have to have it all together. God made you on purpose and for a purpose, and that purpose can shift and still be holy. I'm so glad you're here. 🙏 Scriptures mentioned in this episode:  Galatians 5:22-23 | James 1:2-4 | Psalm 119:105 Find us on socials @amessyamenpod linktr.ee/Amessyamenpod

    1 小時 33 分鐘
  7. From Angry Child to Child of God

    5月22日

    From Angry Child to Child of God

    Send us Fan Mail What do you do when the people who were supposed to point you to God... made you want to walk away from Him instead? That is exactly where Elizabeth Androl found herself. She grew up in church, loved it, had her name engraved on her very first Bible. But between a legalistic environment, and adults who contradicted everything she believed, she did what a lot of young girls do. She stopped. She looked for answers in other places, went down some dark roads, and spent years not really knowing who she was or where she belonged. This conversation goes there. The depression, the anxiety, the suicidal thoughts, the new age rabbit hole. The silence she felt she had to keep. And then, a Bible left open on the floor to Psalm 84 that she doesn't remember opening. Elizabeth shares what it looked like to come back to faith as an adult, find a church that finally felt like home, and have a moment at the altar that broke something loose she had been carrying for years. Her words say it better than I ever could. She went from being an angry child to feeling like a child of God. If you have ever felt like you were too far gone, too confused, or too messy for God to find you, this one is for you. Scriptures mentioned in this episode: Psalm 84 | Hebrews 12:1-2 | Romans 12:1-2 | Philippians 4:8 | Jeremiah 29:11 | 2 Corinthians 10:5 HERE is the song I couldn't remember the words of, the bridge is so good! Find us on socials @amessyamenpod linktr.ee/Amessyamenpod

    1 小時 5 分鐘
  8. Beauty Behind Bars - Bringing the Hope of the Gospel to Incarcerated Youth

    5月16日

    Beauty Behind Bars - Bringing the Hope of the Gospel to Incarcerated Youth

    Send us Fan Mail What do you say to a kid sitting behind bars who believes the world has already written them off? In this moving and hope-filled episode, Michelle sits down with Mickey Holm, a passionate advocate and volunteer with Forgotten Youth Ministries — a non-denominational Christian nonprofit based in Saginaw, Michigan that has been walking into juvenile detention centers since 1999 to share one simple but life-changing message: you are not forgotten. Mickey opens up about what it's really like to step inside a detention facility week after week, look a teenager in the eye, and tell them that God sees them — fully, completely, and without condition. He shares the stories, the heartbreak, the breakthroughs, and the moments that remind him exactly why this work matters. Because behind every set of bars is a kid who still has a future, and a God who hasn't given up on them. Together, Michelle and Mickey talk about: What drove Mickey to say yes to this ministry — and what keeps him going The realities facing incarcerated youth and the families left behind How the Gospel meets people in their darkest, most hopeless places Why showing up consistently is itself a form of love What it looks like when a young person genuinely encounters the grace of Jesus How ordinary believers can step into uncomfortable places and make an eternal difference This conversation is a beautiful reminder that no one — not even the most overlooked and forgotten among us — is outside the reach of God's love. If you've ever wondered whether God can use your ordinary life in extraordinary ways, Mickey's story will stir something in you. ✨ Don't forget to subscribe, leave a review, and share this episode with someone who needs hope today. 📖 Find the companion devotional and deeper reflections soon over on Substack. And now you'll be able to download the Companion PDF guide on my merch site, that will be available on Fourtwall. 📱 Follow along with me on socials @amessyamenpod And all you'll need to stay connected is here on my Linktree! Learn more about Forgotten Youth Ministries and how you can get involved Here!

    1 小時 7 分鐘
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簡介

A Messy Amen welcomes you into the conversations you might not be having on Sundays. Do you ever feel like you want to get to know people more but you get the weird sense that no one can relate to your struggle? You show up to church, sing, listen to the sermon, and go home feeling forgotten, isolated, and frustrated? Here we will be sharing stories that help women of faith feel less alone. We will be honest in ways that may normally feel foreign and share how we hold on to faith and trust God in the ups and downs. 

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  • 創作者
    Michelle Torrey
  • 活躍年代
    2026年
  • 集數
    13
  • 年齡分級
    兒少適宜
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    © 2026 A Messy Amen
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