Alive & Fragile

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“What’s wrong with being fragile?” she asked. If you consider yourself to be sensitive and hate it, please subscribe. If you love your sensitivity, definitely subscribe. If you hate talking about feelings, woo-woo nonsense or have refused anything adjacent to a yoga session in your life, hang around for a bit. If you’re the opposite, of course, stick around. If you are somewhere in between, there’s a place for you. This space is for anyone who craves change in themselves and the world. Join me as we figure this out. catharaxia.substack.com

  1. 1d ago

    11-30

    Writing and sharing from the inside of this period in real time is very fragile for me. I find myself wanting to retreat from the world, from friends, from everything. Nothing feels safe and settled. The sadness is crushing me. When I sit with this past self who understood there’s that undertone of hope that change will emerge, albeit slowly, and I’ll be more than fine. I’d love to find the balance soon. A mood board (we’re back to blue with something new): This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  2. 1d ago

    10-30

    Sometimes I get lucky and catch myself right as an idea is forming. I’m very curious to see how I can weave all of these ideas together into something bigger. There are layers to this mental split. Not a very black-and-white-friendly realization, but thankfully I enjoy nuance now and then. Media: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  3. 3d ago

    9-30

    I say ‘abuedo’ but I mean albedo. That feels about right for where I was. I’ve been restless this week, which I’m sure you can feel too. I want the other side, but there’s so much to sit with first. Waves keep coming. I’ll explain more tomorrow. Tonight’s moodbard reveals a shift! My numerology brain winks at this happening on entry number nine. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  4. 5d ago

    8-30

    The reason why I love making voice notes in general is that sometimes I’ll listen back and think, “She was being very silly.” This was one of those moments. Of course, the answer to my situation isn’t to get more guarded. That’s processing for you. Happy first night without Love Island to all who celebrate. Very happy with the final results. Enjoy the Cancerian fairytale-themed moodboard to commemorate my favorite date and the Shakespearean f*****y that was this season. We’ll be talking soon, you hear? This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  5. Jul 12

    7-30

    The album playing in the background of this entry is Venna’s Malik. It’s an excellent album to work to in the morning. I know Venna from “Sun, Moon, & Herbs,” so finding out there’s a full album to go listen to was a delight. Yesterday I listened to the new Kelela album and In The Blue Light. The live album is so special to me. I felt vaguely about the new one, but that could change in the future. It’s common for me not to like music that becomes my obsession at first. I also listened to the new Noah Guy album MEMORIA, in blue. Also underwhelmed but not mad at it. May give it a final try before releasing it to the ether. Very fascinated by the draw blue is having on me. That’s how I know a new era is emerging. The visual language of my world shifts. Deep sea blue for this one, at least for now. Were you here when this newsletter was overrun with lilies? A moodboard for the road: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  6. Jul 11

    6-30

    Took you along on my walk today. I tend to walk fast when I do, which is the only reasonable explanation for sounding like I’m running a marathon. I like this one. It feels alive. I also like this little ritual that’s forming. I’m in the excited-to-create phase. We’ll see how it feels at 15-30, hm? Listen closely towards the end for some spontaneous beauty. I love that I can go outside without panicking these days. For today’s moodboard, we continue the sea witch mosaic: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  7. Jul 10

    5-30

    There’s another shift happening, but I’m starting to think that’s the way it goes. There’s always change and evolution, and some changes hit harder than others. Simple as. The quiz in question, if you’re curious. And of course today’s moodboard: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

  8. Jul 8

    4-30

    This is from yesterday, but I moved so slowly I didn’t get a post together early enough before I needed to sleep. I’ve learned from my mistakes, and now my mistakes offer a window of opportunity. Later in the day I took Twitchy Witch’s alchemy quiz and got nigredo which explains a lot of the seemingly contradicting feelings I’ve been having (progressing into something new but still feeling stuck/out of my depth). I’m stubbornly meditating on it still. Maybe literally meditating would be smart of me if I get over the ego bruise. Here’s the music playing in the background & today’s moodboard. Can you tell I’m Cancer-maxxing with all the sea imagery that keeps coming through? This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

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“What’s wrong with being fragile?” she asked. If you consider yourself to be sensitive and hate it, please subscribe. If you love your sensitivity, definitely subscribe. If you hate talking about feelings, woo-woo nonsense or have refused anything adjacent to a yoga session in your life, hang around for a bit. If you’re the opposite, of course, stick around. If you are somewhere in between, there’s a place for you. This space is for anyone who craves change in themselves and the world. Join me as we figure this out. catharaxia.substack.com

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  • Creator
    catharaxia
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    45
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © catharaxia
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    Alive & Fragile