Ashes Still Bloom

CJ Rae

Ashes Still Bloom with CJ Rae — Held in the Ruins What happens after everything falls apart? This podcast is a space for grief, faith, and rebuilding a life you didn’t choose. Through honest conversations and personal stories, CJ Rae invites you into the quiet, the questions, and the in-between—where healing doesn’t feel finished, and faith doesn’t always feel strong. If you’re learning how to live again after loss… you’re not alone here.

Episodes

  1. 5D AGO

    Episode 9: When You’re Angry at God

    Grief can bring emotions to the surface that many people are afraid to admit out loud. Including anger at God. In this episode, I talk about the tension of loving God while still struggling with what He allowed… and why honest faith is not the absence of questions, pain, or disappointment. This is about bringing your real emotions to God instead of hiding them from Him. “How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?” — Psalm 13:1 If you’ve been carrying hard questions in your grief… this is for you.

    13 min

  2. MAY 10

    Episode 8: When People Don’t Understand Your Grief

    One of the loneliest parts of grief is realizing not everyone will understand it. In this episode, I talk about the isolation that can come when the people around you move on, say the wrong things, or don’t fully understand the weight of what you’re carrying. This is about learning how to live with that tension… and finding comfort in the God who stays close to the brokenhearted. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18 If you’ve ever felt alone in your grief… this is for you.

    13 min

  3. MAY 3

    Episode 7: When You Feel Too Tired to Keep Going

    Grief isn’t just heavy… it’s exhausting. In this episode, I talk about the kind of tired that comes from carrying loss—when you don’t feel strong, don’t have the words, and don’t know how to keep going. This is about what it looks like to come to God exactly as you are… even when all you feel is worn down. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28 If you’re tired right now… this is for you.

    11 min

  4. APR 26

    Episode 6: The Small Things That Get You Through

    After loss, you’re not thinking about rebuilding your life… you’re thinking about how to get through the day. In this episode, I share the small things that helped me keep going—the quiet, everyday moments that didn’t look like much, but made all the difference. This isn’t about big breakthroughs. It’s about survival… and learning that sometimes, getting through the day is enough. If everything feels heavy right now… this is for you.

    11 min

  5. APR 19

    Episode 5: You Don’t Go Back to Who You Were

    Loss doesn’t just take what you had… it changes who you are. In this episode, I talk about what it means to live in that change—the quiet realization that you don’t go back to who you were, and the process of learning who you are now. This is the part of grief that isn’t always visible. The shift in how you think, how you feel, and how you move through the world. If you’ve ever wondered if you’ll feel like yourself again… this is for you.

    9 min

  6. APR 12

    Episode 4: When Faith Doesn’t Feel Like Enough

    What happens when your faith doesn’t feel like enough? In this episode, I talk about the tension between what we believe and what we experience—especially when loss and pain don’t line up with the faith we thought would protect us. This isn’t about easy answers. It’s about honest faith—the kind that wrestles, questions, and stays… even when nothing makes sense. If you’ve ever found yourself wondering where God is in the middle of your pain… this is for you.

    11 min

  7. APR 5

    Episode 3: Living in the After

    After the moment everything changes… life doesn’t stop. In this episode, I talk about what it means to live in the after—the quiet, disorienting space where the world keeps moving, but nothing inside you feels the same. This is the part no one really prepares you for. If you’ve ever felt like you’re trying to exist in a life that no longer feels like yours… you’re not alone here.

    11 min

  8. MAR 22

    Episode 1: I Thought Obedience Would Protect Me

    I used to believe that if I did everything right, my life would be protected. But that’s not what happened. In this first episode of Ashes Still Bloom, I share the belief that quietly shaped my faith—and what began to unravel when my brother died suddenly. This is a space for the people learning how to live again after everything falls apart. If you’ve ever felt like your faith didn’t shield you the way you thought it would… you’re not alone here.

    6 min

  9. TRAILER

    Podcast Trailer — Ashes Still Bloom

    Welcome to Ashes Still Bloom with CJ Rae – Held in the Ruins. This is a space for grief, faith, and rebuilding a life you didn’t choose. If you’ve ever wondered how to keep going after everything falls apart… You’re not alone here. Full episodes coming soon.

    1 min

Trailer

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Ashes Still Bloom with CJ Rae — Held in the Ruins What happens after everything falls apart? This podcast is a space for grief, faith, and rebuilding a life you didn’t choose. Through honest conversations and personal stories, CJ Rae invites you into the quiet, the questions, and the in-between—where healing doesn’t feel finished, and faith doesn’t always feel strong. If you’re learning how to live again after loss… you’re not alone here.

Information

  • Creator
    CJ Rae
  • Years Active
    2K
  • Episodes
    9
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © CJ Rae
  • Show Website
    Ashes Still Bloom