Back Porch Confessions

Barbara w/ Friends and Zae_Media

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Back Porch Confessions is a place for real talk, raw truth, and heart-deep healing. From faith and mental health to laughter, loss, and everything in between—this is where women come to drop the mask, share their stories, and find strength in honesty. Because sometimes, all you need is a quiet porch, a hot cup, and someone to say, “me too.”

4d ago

Learning That Not Everyone Leaves

What happens when life teaches you that the people you love can disappear? How do you learn to trust again when your heart has been conditioned to expect loss? In this deeply emotional and transformative episode of Back Porch Confessions, Barbara takes a powerful deep dive into the abandonment wound and the core belief many trauma survivors carry: "People leave." Together, we'll explore how childhood experiences, emotional neglect, parental absence, betrayal, loss, and inconsistent relationships shape the nervous system and influence the way we love, trust, and connect as adults. You'll learn why hypervigilance develops, why safe relationships can sometimes feel uncomfortable, and how trauma can convince us to prepare for endings before relationships even begin. This episode covers: The abandonment wound and where it beginsWhy trauma survivors expect people to leaveHypervigilance and relationship anxietyFear of vulnerability and emotional intimacyHyper-independence as a survival responseLearning to identify safe peopleRebuilding trust after traumaReparenting the abandoned child withinCreating new evidence that not everyone leavesHealing attachment wounds and finding emotional safetyIf you've ever struggled to trust love, feared being abandoned, pushed people away before they could leave, or questioned whether anyone would truly stay, this conversation is for you. Healing doesn't happen by pretending abandonment never hurt. Healing happens when we learn that the people who left are not the same as the people who choose to stay. Because your story may have included people who left... but your healing begins when you realize not everyone will. #AbandonmentWound #AttachmentHealing #TraumaRecovery #EmotionalHealing https://littlebutterfly13.myshopify.com/collections/backporchconfessionsOur Way Skin | Skincarehttps://www.shoppolishedboutique.com/ https://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions #BackPorchConfessions #InnerChildHealing #TrustIssues #RelationshipHealing #MentalHealthPodcast #HealingJourney #NervousSystemHealing #HyperIndependence #ChildhoodTrauma #PersonalGrowth #SecureAttachment #WomenHealing #TraumaSurvivor #SelfWorth #EmotionalSafety #HealingAfterTrauma

1 hr
Jun 21

The Core Belief: "People Leave"

What happens when a child learns that the people they need aren't always available? In this powerful 6-hour deep dive, Barbara explores the abandonment wound, childhood emotional neglect, parental absence, hyper-independence, trust issues, abandonment anxiety, relationship struggles, and the lifelong belief that "people leave." Learn how these early experiences shape adult relationships and discover the path toward healing, emotional safety, and learning that not everyone leaves. ⁠https://www.shoppolishedboutique.com/⁠ https://www.ourwayskin.com/ https://littlebutterfly13.myshopify.com/collections/backporchconfessions https://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions #AbandonmentWound #ChildhoodTrauma #AttachmentTrauma #HealingJourney #TraumaRecovery #EmotionalHealing #MentalHealthPodcast #BackPorchConfessions #InnerChildHealing #TrustIssues #HyperIndependence #AbandonmentAnxiety #NervousSystemHealing #PersonalGrowth #HealingAfterTrauma

1h 2m
Jun 10

Betrayal Trauma...What is it!

What happens when the person you trusted the most becomes the source of your deepest pain? In this powerful episode of Back Porch Confessions, Barbara takes a deep dive into Betrayal Trauma—the emotional, psychological, and physical impact that occurs when trust is shattered by someone you love. Whether it's infidelity, deception, emotional affairs, broken promises, addiction, secrecy, or repeated dishonesty, betrayal can leave wounds that affect every part of your life. Together, we'll explore why betrayal trauma feels so different from other types of heartbreak, how it impacts the nervous system, why victims often question their own reality, and the grief that comes from losing not only the relationship you thought you had—but the future you believed in. We'll discuss: What betrayal trauma really isThe shock and devastation of broken trustHypervigilance, anxiety, and emotional triggersWhy your brain can't "just get over it"The loss of safety and securityRebuilding self-worth after betrayalBoundaries, healing, and recoveryLearning to trust yourself againIf you've ever found yourself replaying conversations, searching for answers, questioning your instincts, or wondering if you'll ever feel safe again, this episode is for you. Healing from betrayal isn't about forgetting what happened. It's about reclaiming your voice, your peace, and your sense of self after trust has been broken. Because betrayal may have changed your story, but it does not have to define your future. https://littlebutterfly13.myshopify.com/collections/backporchconfessionsPolished Boutique https://www.ourwayskin.com/ https://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions #BetrayalTrauma #HealingAfterInfidelity #TrustIssues #RelationshipHealing #EmotionalHealing #TraumaRecovery #MentalHealthPodcast #BackPorchConfessions #NervousSystemHealing #SelfWorth #AttachmentTrauma #InfidelityRecovery #HealingJourney #WomenHealing #PersonalGrowthPodcast

1h 5m
Jun 5

Why Trauma Survivors Isolate

Why do trauma survivors often pull away from the very people they love? Why does isolation feel safer than connection? And why do so many people crave support while simultaneously avoiding it? In this deeply personal and eye-opening episode of Back Porch Confessions, Barbara takes a deep dive into the hidden reasons trauma survivors isolate. Together, we'll explore how childhood wounds, betrayal, abandonment, emotional neglect, people-pleasing, hyper-independence, trust issues, and nervous system dysregulation can make connection feel overwhelming or even dangerous. You'll learn why isolation is often not about wanting to be alone, but about trying to feel safe. Barbara breaks down the psychology of trauma responses, the fear of vulnerability, emotional exhaustion, and the loneliness that can exist behind the words, "I'm fine." If you've ever disappeared when life got hard, struggled to ask for help, pushed people away, or wondered why trusting others feels so difficult, this episode is for you. Join us for a raw, honest conversation about healing, connection, and learning that you don't have to carry your pain alone. Because isolation may have protected you once... but healing happens when you realize safe people do exist. https://littlebutterfly13.myshopify.com/collections/backporchconfessionshttps://www.ourwayskin.com/ https://www.shoppolishedboutique.com/ https://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthPodcast #TraumaRecovery #HealingJourney #BackPorchConfessions #EmotionalHealing #PTSDRecovery #ChildhoodTrauma #SelfGrowth #NervousSystemHealing #TrustIssues #PeoplePleasing #HyperIndependence #HealingAfterTrauma #MentalHealthAwareness

58 min
May 27

I’m Fine - The Lie We Learned to Survive With!

Why do we say “I’m fine” when we’re secretly falling apart inside? In this raw and emotional episode of Back Porch Confessions, Barbara dives deep into emotional masking, trauma responses, people pleasing, functioning depression, and why vulnerability feels unsafe for so many people. This conversation explores childhood emotional neglect, survival mode, the “strong friend” struggle, and the hidden loneliness behind pretending everything is okay. If you’ve ever smiled through pain, this episode is for you. #MentalHealthPodcast #TraumaHealing #BackPorchConfessions #EmotionalHealing #PeoplePleasing https://sunshinespaservicesllc.glossgenius.com/ https://www.ourwayskin.com/ https://www.shoppolishedboutique.com/ Collections/BackPorchConfessions – Little Butterfly 🦋 https://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions

1h 9m
May 20

Where Do I Belong? | The Deep Dive Into Feeling Like You Never Fit In

Feeling like you don’t belong anywhere can become one of the loneliest battles a person fights silently. In this deeply emotional episode of Back Porch Confessions, we unpack the pain of never feeling chosen, the exhaustion of people pleasing, childhood wounds, abandonment trauma, emotional loneliness, and the desperate desire to finally fit in somewhere. This conversation dives into why so many people feel disconnected even in crowded rooms, how trauma shape's identity, why we shrink ourselves for acceptance, and what healing looks like when you finally stop abandoning yourself to make others comfortable. If you’ve ever felt like the outsider… this episode is for you. Pull up a chair on the back porch and let’s talk about healing, belonging, self-worth, emotional survival, and learning that maybe you were never meant to fit into places that required you to lose yourself. #BackPorchConfessions #MentalHealthPodcast #HealingJourney #TraumaHealing #PeoplePleasing #EmotionalHealing #Loneliness #InnerChildHealing #SelfWorth #HealingPodcast #AnxietySupport #RelationshipTrauma #WomenHealing #EmotionalWellness #PodcastLife https://sunshinespaservicesllc.glossgenius.com/ https://www.ourwayskin.com/ https://www.shoppolishedboutique.com/ https://littlebutterfly13.myshopify.com/collections/backporchconfessionshttps://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions

1h 12m
May 13

“You Made It Through Today… And That’s Not Small”

Why Survival Is Worth Celebrating & Why More People Are Struggling Than We Realize You didn’t just “get through the day”… you survived something most people never saw. In this powerful episode of Back Porch Confessions, Barbara dives deep into the hidden struggles people carry, the emotional weight behind “I’m fine,” and why making it through the day is something worth celebrating. This episode explores emotional survival, high-functioning struggle, trauma, resilience, and the quiet strength it takes to keep going. If you’ve ever felt exhausted, unseen, or like you’re barely holding it together… this conversation is for you. You are not alone. https://sunshinespaservicesllc.glossgenius.com/ https://www.ourwayskin.com/ https://www.shoppolishedboutique.com/https://littlebutterfly13.myshopify.com/collections/backporchconfessionshttps://www.tiktok.com/@back.porch.confessions#MentalHealthMatters #HealingJourney #YouMadeIt #EmotionalHealing #BackPorchConfessions

1h 6m
Apr 24 · Bonus

Bonus Episode 4: Chapters 14–17 of From the Ashes by Cody Mecham

In this Bonus Episode of Back Porch Confessions, Barbara continues the powerful journey through From the Ashes by Cody Mecham, reading Chapters 14–17 and stepping into some of the most transformative parts of healing. These chapters explore what happens after survival…When the noise quiets…And you’re left facing the parts of yourself that trauma shaped. If you’ve ever struggled with PTSD, emotional triggers, or feeling like your past still has a grip on your present… this episode will meet you right where you are. This is for the ones who learned to stay strong…But are now learning how to feel. Through intentional pacing, reflective pauses, and gentle emotional connection, Barbara creates a safe space to process trauma, understand survival responses, and begin releasing what no longer serves you. Because healing isn’t just about what happened to you…It’s about what you’re ready to do with it now. This episode invites you to: ✨ Recognize how trauma and PTSD show up in your daily life✨ Sit with emotions you may have pushed aside✨ Begin shifting from survival mode into self-awareness and peace✨ Reclaim your voice, your identity, and your sense of safety You are allowed to heal at your own pace.You are allowed to feel again.And you are not alone in this process. What part of your healing journey feels the hardest right now?Where do you notice trauma still showing up in your life?What are you learning to release in this season?What does peace look like for you today?#PTSDHealing #TraumaRecovery #EmotionalHealing #BackPorchConfessions #HealingJourney

1h 9m

Back Porch Confessions is a place for real talk, raw truth, and heart-deep healing. From faith and mental health to laughter, loss, and everything in between—this is where women come to drop the mask, share their stories, and find strength in honesty. Because sometimes, all you need is a quiet porch, a hot cup, and someone to say, “me too.”

Creator

Barbara w/ Friends and Zae_Media
Years Active

2025 - 2026
Episodes

62
Rating

Explicit
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© Barbara w/ Friends and Zae_Media
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Back Porch Confessions