Becoming Me

Ann Yeong
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Becoming Me is your podcast companion and coach in your journey to a more integrated and authentic self. I explore the joys and challenges of the interior journey and share practical wisdom about growing in wholeness, healing from complex trauma, and navigating the existential crises of spiritual midlife deconstruction and renewal as an integrated Roman Catholic. Visit www.integroformation.com for more!

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  1. EPISODE 162

    Deconstruction: A Trauma-Informed, Integrative and First-Hand Perspective

    Episode 162 Welcome to my first episode of 2026! After a six-week break, I'm returning with greater clarity and readiness to share about a topic I've been living through: deconstruction. In this episode, I'm opening up about my personal journey through deconstruction—not as an outside observer, but as someone who has walked (and is still walking) this difficult path.  What I Cover: • Why lived experience matters when discussing deconstruction—and why resources from those who haven't gone through it often fall short • The crucial connection between deconstruction and trauma that's often missing from conversations • Why deconstruction is an embodied, multidimensional experience that can't be reduced to intellectual analysis alone • The mystical dimension of deconstruction and what it means to leap into the abyss with no guarantees • How deconstruction relates to spiritual midlife and the transition into the second half of life • Why I had to be willing to let go of everything—even my identity as a "good Catholic"—to follow where Christ was leading This is the beginning of a season exploring deconstruction from multiple angles. I'll be addressing questions listeners send me and diving into the many facets of this complex, painful, and ultimately transformative journey. If you're going through deconstruction yourself, I hope this offers you some companionship and validation. If you're trying to understand what someone you love is experiencing, I hope this gives you insight into the depth and sacredness of this process. Watch this recording on YouTube. CHAPTER MARKERS 0:00 - Introduction: Why Now? 9:37 - The Importance of Lived Experience 21:01 - Deconstruction and Trauma 29:42 - Trauma-Informed Lens to Reactions Towards Deconstruction 38:01 - The Integrative Lens 44:24 - The Mystical Dimension 51:57 - No Guarantee in Deconstruction 56:45 - The Second Half of Life 1:01:25 - Closing Thoughts Support the show SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) One-time Donation Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

    1h 4m

  2. EPISODE 163

    Why It's So Hard to Explain Deconstruction

    Episode 163 In this episode, I dive into one of the most challenging aspects of deconstruction: trying to explain it to others who haven't experienced it themselves. I respond to a thoughtful question from a follower about how to remain committed to the church while being honest about its limitations during deconstruction. But as I share, this question itself reveals the gap between those observing deconstruction from the outside and those living through it. What I explore in this episode: Why deconstruction can't be fully understood from an intellectual or conceptual level aloneHow trauma plays a central role in the deconstruction processWhy it's impossible to "hold onto the good" while deconstructing—and why that's okayThe difference between critiquing the church and actually deconstructing your faithWhy deconstruction feels like drowning, like having your entire container of faith fall apartHow my own journey with family trauma mirrors my faith deconstructionDeconstruction is disorganised, chaotic, and impossible to neatly explain even to ourselves. If you're going through this process, I hope you feel seen. If you're trying to understand someone who is, I hope this gives you compassion for how difficult it is to put into words. Watch this recording on YouTube. CHAPTER MARKERS 0:00 Introduction 6:22 Unpacking a Follower's Question 11:21 Reading the Question 16:25 Deconstructing the Container, Not Just the Content 18:18 Seeing the Harm in Church Structures 37:22 You Can't Hold On While Letting Go 45:13 My Family of Origin Story 55:39 God Wants Freedom for Us 57:47 External Critique vs. Interior Journey 1:02:00 Closing Thoughts Support the show SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) One-time Donation Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

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  3. EPISODE 164

    How Moral Injury Can Lead to Deconstruction

    Episode 164 In this episode, I talk about how moral injury can be connected to or trigger deconstruction. This is a topic that has been deeply significant in my own journey of interior integration and healing. Moral injury is the damage done to one's conscience or moral compass when we perpetrate, witness, or fail to prevent acts that transgress our own moral beliefs and values. Originally studied in war veterans, this concept has helped me understand the trauma I've experienced in relation to the Catholic Church and spiritual harm. I share how moral injury doesn't just happen when we're directly involved in something wrong—it can occur when we're spectators to injustice, when institutions we trust betray their stated values, or when spiritual leaders remain silent in the face of harm. I also explore how we often defend ourselves against moral injury through rationalisation, and how the journey of interior integration requires us to become more embodied and truthful about reality. This episode is deeply personal as I reflect on my own experiences of deconstruction—not as a total loss of faith, but as a necessary dismantling of religious frameworks that could no longer hold the truth I was encountering in my relationship with God. Watch this recording on YouTube. CHAPTER MARKERS 0:00 Introduction: Moral Injury and Deconstruction 2:41 What is Moral Injury? 3:26 Origins in War Veterans Studies 5:13 Moral Injury as Spectators 7:45 Current Events and Personal Experience 10:57 Betrayal by Spiritual Leaders 22:54 Cognitive Dissonance and Defense Mechanisms 31:23 Interior Integration Journey 33:42 Naming Harm in Family Relationships 42:39 Becoming Embodied and Seeing Truth 46:09 Deconstructing the Church 51:25 Relationship with God Through Deconstruction Support the show SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT Social Media: Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook. Newsletter: Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections. Support the Show: Monthly Support (starting at USD$3) One-time Donation Leave a Review: If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

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Becoming Me is your podcast companion and coach in your journey to a more integrated and authentic self. I explore the joys and challenges of the interior journey and share practical wisdom about growing in wholeness, healing from complex trauma, and navigating the existential crises of spiritual midlife deconstruction and renewal as an integrated Roman Catholic. Visit www.integroformation.com for more!

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  • Creator
    Ann Yeong
  • Episodes
    165
  • Seasons
    12
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Parrhesia | Integrō Formation
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