Being with Being

Mackenzie Hawkins

Philosophy, contemplative practice, and the physics of nature's flow — for finding your own way. For those who don't need the added pressure of another's way, but are curious about ways of understanding, perceiving, and living that mesh with each other — and that only you can make your own. Each episode is a complete live recording — typically around two hours — opening with a 15-30 minute inquiry into the session's theme, moving into an hour-long guided practice, and closing with comments and discussion. These explorations grew from years of my own searching — trying to fit into practices that promised relief, never quite finding home in any tradition, and stumbling upon a rational basis for getting traction on ways I don't have to try. As your fellow explorer, I'm Mackenzie Hawkins — researcher in philosophy of physics, contemplative practitioner, and co-author of several books with physicist and Tai Chi Master Dr. Wonchull Park. Drawing from his nowflow philosophy, these series-based explorations use philosophy and physics as ways of understanding and perceiving what's here already. Not ways to follow, but ways that might help you find your own — for anyone looking to explore beyond the pressures we put on ourselves.

  1. 9h ago

    Still Laid Down Reality? The Altogetherness of Perception Itself - Simply Settle Series

    What’s so truly amazing as a sentient being, a human being, is that the flows that make up us, the flows that help give rise to our own unique experiences and feelings and perceptions, and even mental activity and mind — are flows that carry content. And yet are also at the same time are pure flow of nature, unfolding altogether in nature in this fine-free-yet-together way. So the bit of a leap that we embark on today is — what is it like to simply settle directly into perception? Whatever the content of perception, there’s that underlying togetherness as a flow of nature. And we get to settle directly into that underlying nature. It is not separate from the content. Even so, it is unconditional. No matter what the content, and no matter what we feel about the content, still a flow. What is it like to simply settle directly into the flow of perception? We start with sound — and wonder where would we go to simply settle directly into the receiving of sound? Patrul Rinpoche speaks of not seeking outside and not turning inward to look either. We can bathe in the flowing altogether experience of silence and space and sounds. Nothing to grasp outwardly or inwardly. Nothing to seek. Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me. What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality. So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 42m
  2. Jun 19

    Laying Down to Reality: Nature’s Flow - Simply Settle Series

    What’s it like to simply settle into that there is space? To simply settle into that there is the flow of change? The space and the flow of change don’t need our tweaking. They don’t need our adjusting. It’s just the way of nature. And we can simply settle into it. Gradually we let our perception of this sense of the flow of nature, our own inner feel of it, begin to become finer and finer. And then we see where all that may take us. What is it to abide in something that’s ever changing? What is it to simply settle into flow itself? Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me. What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality. So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 30m
  3. Jun 12

    Laying Down to Reality: Nature’s Togetherness - Simply Settle Series

    Once we get the feel of laying down to the ground, “the ground” can become many things. It doesn’t have to just stay as the most obvious thing, the ground. Our torso acts like the ground upon which our shoulders rest. Whatever layer of our spine we pick, one vertebra lays down upon the one beneath. We could put that sense of ground throughout our body. And as we begin to feel the sense of ground as more all-pervasive — this resting upon this, this interacting and inter-being with this — we might begin to feel it as a deep metaphor. There’s the ground of the Tao. There’s the ground of the way of nature. In a way, we practice less interfering, less blocking out that way of nature. We’re laying down to that reality, letting that reality more fully support us. Not because we’re making it or cultivating it, but because it’s there, and when we appreciate it and feel it, it becomes more of our experience. Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me. What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality. So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 34m
  4. Jun 5

    A Tangible Metaphor: Lay Down to the Ground - Simply Settle Series

    In this opening session we explore what these two words, “simply settle,” can mean at the most tangible level — hands simply settling into the support of a lap, body simply settling into the support of the earth. And what it’s like when we notice the absurdity of our own language around it. How do you allow your hands to be heavy? They have the weight that they have. Nothing to do. Nothing even to allow. And yet there’s this uncontrived immediacy when we feel it — hands and lap together, seat and ground together, just how they are naturally, already, and always. Mutual flow of lay down and support going on without anything needed from us. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality. All of my prompts are not about a special doing, or cultivating, or altering. It’s just simply settle into what is the nature of your body and the ground in this moment. And that is it. It’s just two words. And perhaps instead of coming up with an answer to what they mean, being with the felt and experiential response you can feel into — simply settle. Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me. What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality. So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 32m
  5. May 29

    What if the Mystery Is Already Untouched? Beyond Just Stuff

    I'm feeling kind of feisty today. Take it all with a grain of salt. But one thing I do feel feisty about is this idea that mystery -- and a realm of unknowing -- is in danger. That it's fragile. That if we know too much, or science says something too definitively, this deeper mystery of existence and being is somehow under threat. Yeah, I think that it's not. And I also can relate to why it can really feel under threat. Just even from my own experience. I can remember reading Hyperspace in sixth grade -- I don't even remember what it was about, but I could just feel myself coming alive again as I read those pages. Same for "quantum weirdness," and for "we are stardust." For some of us it gives us this connection to a more expansive, awe-some -- awesome in the old sense, that it's awe-some -- way that we might relate to ourselves and the world. But what's kind of interesting about those stories is that none of that is necessarily immediate in our experience. And we live in an age where many of us are influenced by what physics says is so -- that we kind of need that, we're relying on that in some way, to have permission to feel mystery. And then kind of reach over and grab onto physics and say, this justifies my experience. And maybe instead of these dances around mystery and permission and authority -- there can be a real inside-out sense of: yeah, I've got maps, I have choices about how I wield my maps. The mystery is ours too. To be. And we get to use whatever we find helpful... Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's FlowWhat is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is. We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both? These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched. In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 47m
  6. May 22

    What if Observer and Observed Are Inseparable? Beyond Just Stuff

    Today we will be getting into another level of juicy. This is where some people really, really go to town -- with quantum mechanics, interpretations around consciousness. There's even someone who tends to make claims that if there wasn't consciousness, there wouldn't be a moon. Because of quantum. Interesting, interesting. We return to the double slit experiment -- and this time to a further strangeness in it. If you try to answer which slit the electron is going through by putting a little extra measuring detector on one of the slits, it no longer has the interference pattern. So somehow by trying to know which one it goes through, it reverts back to just one or the other. That's kind of strange in our more macroscopic world -- we're not so used to that sense that an observation, a measurement, a perceiving and experiencing, an interaction actually begins to hint at why it's maybe not as strange as we might think. Because what is taking a measurement? I really appreciate how Master Park just always comes more to what is common, rather than emphasizing the differences. To be able to measure something means that there's some interaction that you have with it. To observe something, to touch something, to see something means you have some interaction with it. And interaction has an effect. You can never have just a one-sided interaction. If something is having an effect, it's also being affected. Pick any object in your space -- as you gaze at that object, there is a seamless mutual flow of interaction that enables you to have that visual perception. Photons reflecting off of that object are traveling through the space in between, interacting with your eyes, being translated into a signal. Every step of the way is that mutual flow. Shot through this world is all of this relational, mutual interacting of effects that breaks down that sense of separation between observer and observed... Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's FlowWhat is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is. We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both? These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched. In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 27m
  7. May 15

    Can a Thud into "Mundane Physics" Be Grace-ful? Beyond Just Stuff Series

    So that was kind of the sexy science, the fancy physics experiments. And today, with a glorious thud, we're going to go into some of the most well-established -- you could have a yawn already -- the most well-established, long-standing, across all the domains of physics, including good old Newtonian physics. Not just all this, no, no, no, spooky quantum. It's really mundane, established, simple, understandable. And this is probably my favorite session of the series -- we'll see what it's like for you. This comes from Master Wonchull Park, Tai Chi master and physicist, and his book Nowflow: Breath, Movement & Mind -- probably one of the more misunderstood books on the planet, slightly exaggerating. It's so easy to take something like: well, what about good old action-reaction? Newton's third law. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. It brings back maybe some of the billiard balls. All this just stuff. Everything is just mechanical. It could seem like something we can be like, oh yeah, action-reaction, I got that -- even as it's usually taught in schools without any hint of a possibility that it is something you can feel actually in your own experience. And what we explore is: what if we don't treat it like a layer of the map that we just land on with a thud? But actually treat that as something that is both definite and as established as can be -- and also pointing. Where you can keep going, layer by layer, closer and closer to one's own immediacy of experience. What would it be like to actually free-fall into not just a picture of fundamental particles, but with that sense of everything interconnected in this parts-whole cascade? It kind of feels like leaning back out of a plane and free-falling continuously. Into this kaleidoscopic fractal of whatever flow we feel. We free-fall through any feeling of 'got it, that's it.' And into the practically infinite, right there in this instant of breath at the nose. A palpable yet indescribable teamingness of experience. Rich and smooth. Flows within flows, endlessly... Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's FlowWhat is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is. We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both? These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched. In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 44m
  8. May 8

    What Happens with "Permission" to Not Know? Beyond Just Stuff Series

    Quantum physics had its 100th anniversary -- and do we know what it actually means any more than 100 years ago? Open question for sure. But part of this exploration is actually inquiring into the effects that a scientific story, scientific knowledge, scientific models have on us. Master Park, who is a physicist as well as a Tai Chi master, always says physics is a story. And so this is not to be dismissive at all of physics to say that. But sometimes physics tends to have this -- and we've kind of danced around this -- a kind of authority that people either buy into or push against. Like there's this sense that physics has it, it is it, right? That physics gives us some way of saying: this, objectively, is what is real. And Master Park talks about how 'objective' really just means it's easier for us to agree. But we're still not touching in on the terrain. Still not. This session uses the classic double slit experiment -- one of those things about quantum that blows people's minds, progressing through the strangeness of what this fundamental layer might be like. A beam of electrons through two slits creates not the pattern you'd expect from billiard balls -- two clusters right opposite each slit -- but the diffraction interference pattern you'd expect from a wave. And yet each electron arrives as a single ping of detection. One of the ways we torture ourselves is: well, how does it know about the other slit? How does it know? One possibility we can play with is that quantum -- the 'it's not a particle, not a wave' stuff -- kind of gives us a map in a way. And the map itself is saying: this is not it. It's almost like a transparent map. Where it's like, oh, there's something here, and you kind of see through it to something else, where you know there's something else. Physics is giving us permission, in a way. We don't have to use our imagination. It's an experiment that can be replicated. But the map itself can't say what that layer underneath is... Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's FlowWhat is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is. We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both? These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched. In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted. Thank you for Being with Being. beingwithbeing.org

    1h 36m

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Philosophy, contemplative practice, and the physics of nature's flow — for finding your own way. For those who don't need the added pressure of another's way, but are curious about ways of understanding, perceiving, and living that mesh with each other — and that only you can make your own. Each episode is a complete live recording — typically around two hours — opening with a 15-30 minute inquiry into the session's theme, moving into an hour-long guided practice, and closing with comments and discussion. These explorations grew from years of my own searching — trying to fit into practices that promised relief, never quite finding home in any tradition, and stumbling upon a rational basis for getting traction on ways I don't have to try. As your fellow explorer, I'm Mackenzie Hawkins — researcher in philosophy of physics, contemplative practitioner, and co-author of several books with physicist and Tai Chi Master Dr. Wonchull Park. Drawing from his nowflow philosophy, these series-based explorations use philosophy and physics as ways of understanding and perceiving what's here already. Not ways to follow, but ways that might help you find your own — for anyone looking to explore beyond the pressures we put on ourselves.