Belonging to the Wild

Dr. Vanya Leilani

Conversations and reflections that help us remember and move into wildness~within and without. To be wild is to know what you are and to live from that knowing without shame. It is to remember that humans are nature too, that the wildness of nature is not only out there in pristine forests and secretive deserts, it is also right here in our unruly hearts, intricate minds, animal bodies, and in the vastness of the imagination. Here, we ask questions, tell stories, share knowledge, and wonder together about ways to belong ourselves back to the wild. www.drvanyaleilani.com

  1. 09/01/2025

    Ep. 26: Cultivating a Secure Existential Attachment with Mackenzie Amara

    In this episode, Mackenzie Amara and I explore the idea of cultivating a secure existential attachment. We talk about what that means and explore what it feels like to have a secure attachment to source, life, or existence itself.   In this fascinating conversation, we also explore themes of love and shame, the experience of spiritual bypass, and what Joseph Campbell really meant when he encouraged us to follow our bliss. We talk about the experience of gods dying and being born, as well as the necessity of living with what Mackenzie calls “crucifying paradoxes.”   Mackenzie Amara is a writer, researcher, consultant, & 5Rhythms® teacher. She is a Diploma Candidate at the International School of Analytical Psychology in Zurich, training to become a Jungian analyst, and she is a clinical psychology doctoral student at Saybrook University in Oakland, CA. She holds a Master's degree in Clinical & Counseling Psychology from Columbia University & a Bachelor's degree in Psychology & Spiritual Experience with a minor in Child & Adolescent Psychology from New York University. She is certified in Integrative Harm Reduction Psychotherapy (The New School & Center for Optimal Living), 5Rhythms® (The Moving Center), and Holistic Psychology (The Open Center). Her research interests include psychedelic psychotherapy, psychedelic integration, dream analysis, mythology & symbolism in clinical practice, and the application of nondual teachings to human growth.    Connect with Mackenzie: Website Substack IG Upcoming retreat Connect with Vanya: Website Join the Belonging to the Wild Collective Contact Vanya Instagram Download free eBook: A Guide to Leaving the Obedient Life

    1h 8m
  2. 07/23/2025

    Ep: 25: The Long Story of Our Souls & Calling on the Dead with Perdita Finn

    In this conversation, Perdita Finn and I talk about the generosity of the long stories of our souls, explore what it means to have meaningful relationship with the dead, and circle around deep questions of belonging and connection. Acknowledging that our species often feels lonely, bereft, and disconnected, Perdita invites us to wonder about what it would be like to live in an “economy of prayer.” She asks this beautiful question: How would we live if we all remembered we have been each others mothers? Her work invites us into a sense of deep belonging with all beings ~ human and more-than-human, living and dead.   Perdita Finn is the author of Take Back the Magic: Conversations with the Unseen World and the forthcoming Mother Spell: Summoning the Love at the Heart of the World. She is the co-founder with her husband Clark Strand of The Way of the Rose, an international fellowship of beings dedicated to the earth, the rosary, and the Lady by any name you want to call Her. They are co-authors of the book of the same name. They live with their family in the moss-filled shadows of the Catskill Mountains.    You can connect more with Perdita and her work at here: https://takebackthemagic.com/ https://wayoftherose.org/ IG: @perditafinn   Join the Belonging to the Wild Collective Connect with Vanya Sign up for Vanya’s Letters Download free eBook: A Guide to Leaving the Obedient Life

    1h 4m
  3. 06/17/2025

    Ep. 24: Finding Inner Permission with Amy Wilding

    In this episode, Amy Wilding joins me in this wonderful conversation about finding inner permission, cultivating body sovereignty, and decolonizing our inner landscapes as we walk into more fullness and freedom. Amy shares about how her body led her into a powerful awakening of her wise and wild knowing. We talk about ways patriarchal consciousness uses our disconnection from our bodies as a tool of oppression, emphasizing the importance of body autonomy and cyclical literacy. As we weave our way through this conversation, we explore the significance of finding the voice of our pleasure and honoring what feels good right now as powerful ways of knowing, guidance, and liberation.   Amy has been leading women's circles and mother-daughter circles in the Louisville area for over 15 years. Her soul work is, first and foremost, dismantling patriarchy by creating safe spaces for women to access their wild wisdom and reclaim their inherent power. She supports people of all ages in cultivating body sovereignty, cycle literacy, and empowered embodiment. She is passionate about guiding menstruators in connecting with their inherent wisdom, and unlearning the shame and taboo related to our amazing, powerful bodies. Amy is a queer and inclusive feminist, author, and National Board Certified Integrative Women's Health Coach. Her first first book, Wild & Wise: Sacred Feminine Meditations for Women's Circles & Personal Awakening, was published in 2017, and her next book, Period of Change: Welcoming Your Daughter's Period with Care and Confidence will be launched in March of 2026.   Ways to connect with Amy: www.periodofchange.com www.redtentlouisville.com Facebook: www.facebook.com/amywildingofficial Insta: www.instagram.com/amywildingofficial Insta: www.instagram.com/periodofchange Ways to connect with Vanya: www.drvanyaleilani.com IG: @drvanyaleilani Download Vanya's free eBook, A Guide to Leaving the Obedient Life Check out Belonging to the Wild Collective Order Vanya's book, The Flesh & The Fruit

    46 min
  4. 12/10/2024

    Ep. 22: The Mythic Quest to Find Your Heart with Ben Katt

    In this conversation, Ben tells us the story of realizing that at some point his heart had snuck out the back door. In that moment he heard these powerful words: “if you don’t have your heart you have nothing.” He tells us about how this experience launched him into a mythic quest to find his heart again, a journey he shares in his book The Way Home.   We talk about his experiences with synchronicities, vision quests, and the power of images to guide us on our mythic journeys. We explore practices that help us find our heart and Ben encourages us to find practices that “we feel charm around” as we court our hearts back to the center of our lives.   Ben Katt is a meditation teacher, hospice chaplain, and coach. He is the author of THE WAY HOME: Discovering the Hero’s Journey to Wholeness at Midlife. Ben teaches meditation in prisons and facilitates wellbeing experiences for companies and organizations. He is a certified advanced meditation teacher, holds a Master of Divinity degree, and is a former ordained minister. He lives in Milwaukee, WI with his wife and three children.   website: www.benjaminkatt.com book link: thewayhomebook.com IG: @akabenkatt   Here is the episode with Cherie that I mentioned: Sexuality, Spirituality, and Self-Belonging with Cherie Katt I would love to connect with you! Website: www.drvanyaleilani.com Check out my new book: The Flesh and the Fruit Download my free eBook: A Guide for Leaving the Obedient Life Offerings in The School of Wild Knowing Find me on Instagram @drvanyaleilani

    53 min
  5. 06/25/2024

    Ep. 20: Following the Ways of Water with Erin Chalfant

    In this conversation, Erin and I explore what it means to follow the ways of water. She shares the significance of her lifelong relationship with water, and we talk about how water remembers where we come from and where we belong. We also talk about desire as a key to our belonging and the power to create and re-create worlds by following what we want.     As we follow the ways of water, Erin helps us re-member ourselves as part of Nature and invites us into re-membering our belonging here in these bodies and on this Earth. She shares suggestions for ways of practicing embodiment and staying close to the lived experiences of our bodies.     Erin Chalfant, MA, MFA is Program Director and Core Faculty at Alliance Avalonia a Published Author, Holistic Coach, mother, adventurer and mystic. She is the founder of Wild Sage Path, where she supports women in reconnecting with themselves through Earth-Based Spirituality Practices in the Indigenous Celtic Traditions. She facilitates deep and powerful work in ceremonial spaces with plant medicines and supports the integration process for a variety of profound journeys. She is completing a Doctorate in Depth Psychology and is rooted in Indigenous Earth-Based Wisdom Practices, Western Herbalism, Hatha Yoga, Hakomi (Mindfulness-based Somatic Psychotherapy), and Buddhist Meditation.  She offers 1-1 integrative counseling sessions both in person and remotely in California, and also teaches online class immersions that open seasonally, including The Song of the Dragon ~ a collaboration with her teacher and dear friend Holly Hamilton at Alliance Avalonia.   To connect with Erin: Visit her at WildSagePath.com IG @Erin.of.the.wild To connect with Vanya: Visit www.drvanyaleilani.com IG @drvanyaleilani

    59 min
5
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14 Ratings

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Conversations and reflections that help us remember and move into wildness~within and without. To be wild is to know what you are and to live from that knowing without shame. It is to remember that humans are nature too, that the wildness of nature is not only out there in pristine forests and secretive deserts, it is also right here in our unruly hearts, intricate minds, animal bodies, and in the vastness of the imagination. Here, we ask questions, tell stories, share knowledge, and wonder together about ways to belong ourselves back to the wild. www.drvanyaleilani.com