Chronically Candid

Morgan Barrett

Chronically Candid is a conversational, reflective podcast hosted by Morgan Barrett, a Millennial mom to twins and an adult living with cystic fibrosis. The show (formerly Makers, Dreamers, Doers) features open-hearted discussions with guests and solo episodes that explore topics like creativity, chronic health experiences, parenthood, personal growth, and everyday life challenges. Morgan’s aim isn’t to be an expert but to share lived experiences and foster learning, unlearning, and emotional flexibility. The podcast also includes monthly “Fireside Fridays” — brief readings of Morgan's poetry and prose — adding a cozy and personal touch to the series. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

  1. Sep 15

    Comedy, Mortality, and Rosanne Over Recess with Comedian Kirsten Michelle Cills

    This week on Chronically Candid, Morgan sits down with Kirsten Michelle Cills — Philadelphia-native standup comedian, terminally ill cystic fibrosis (CF) patient, oxygen-tank-toting road warrior, and the kind of guest who makes you laugh two seconds before she wrecks you. Kirsten has headlined clubs and colleges across the country, opened for names like Judy Gold and Laurie Kilmartin, and picked up Best of Best honors at both the Big Pine and Boston Comedy Festivals — all while living with a rare CF mutation so rare, she went undiagnosed until age 7. The conversation opens on that diagnosis story, then moves quickly into the thing both women know intimately: the reflexive habit of downplaying how sick you actually are. Kirsten traces her own version back to childhood hospital stays, where she learned that being the 'sick kid' meant managing everyone else's discomfort — a dynamic she thinks planted the seeds for becoming a comedian later in life. She and Morgan dig into the particular strangeness of the modulator era, where Kirsten's rare mutations mean she doesn't qualify for Trikafta, and how it's forced her into advocating in the opposite direction now — convincing people that no, she's not "fine," even as CF becomes more visible in pop culture and news headlines, often touted as the CF community's 'miracle drug'. Kirsten shares about her path to comedy: A BFA acting program, a class assignment that turned into a calling, and the grind of eight or nine shows a week that she compares to a blue-collar job — the confidence built entirely from repetition, from knowing exactly where the laughs land because you've clocked the data hundreds of times. Kirsten and Morgan talk about the particular vulnerability of being effortlessly open with thousands of strangers yet closed off to talking about emotions with the people who actually know her, the constant sense of urgency that comes from measuring your career in "years I might not have," and a recent breakdown on tour that cracked open just how financially brutal it is to build a life around a job with no PTO and a body that reliably lands her in the hospital like clockwork. There's also real tenderness here — on growing up without any community of other kids with CF, on therapy as a non-negotiable her mom insisted on since Kirsten was five, on the strange experience of being on the sidelines as part of 'the 10%' while the CF Foundation funds research for therapies that she may never benefit from, and on what it means to plant seeds in a garden you might never get to see bloom. The episode closes with Kirsten's thoughts on a possible future transplant, her dream of merging comedy with her genuine obsession with horror movies, and the three closing questions — including what she wishes people understood about chronic illness: That when someone with a chronic illness cancels on you, it is never the easy choice. Follow Kirsten on Instagram and follow her Horror Discussion Channel on TikTok. You can support Morgan's work by reading and subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack and by following her on Instagram. The Philadelphia Inquirer: For Philly's 'token terminally-ill stand-up comic' it's all fair game, including death and 9/11 Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    Comedy, Mortality, and Rosanne Over Recess with Comedian Kirsten Michelle Cills
  2. Aug 18

    From PICC lines to Fairy Tales: On Being "Lucky", Trikafta, and Storytelling for Your Inner Child with Avalon George

    This week on Chronically Candid, Morgan sits down with Avalon George — Minneapolis-based writer and author of the debut middle grade novel Ivy Ever After, out this October — for a conversation that feels less like an interview and more like two old friends finally getting the chance to talk. Before diving in, Avalon shows off her yearly vision board tradition (this year's made a few months late, post-holiday CF crash and all), and the two quickly bond over a shared observation: an awful lot of people with CF end up drawn to writing, as if all those hours spent doing vest and nebulizer treatments carved out the time — and maybe the need — to create. Avalon walks through her CF story from the beginning: diagnosed at one month old, a "pretty normal" childhood that included competitive dance, mounting hospitalizations, and a steep decline in college that included a professor stopping a lecture mid-sentence to check if she was okay. She and Morgan trade the particular, specific humor of chronic illness, like the "quota of appropriate coughing”. They talk about growing up as the eldest daughter, and in Avalon’s case, the strange experience of watching your younger sibling step into the older sibling role, and the complicated grief and pride of living with CF as a kid — wanting the attention at events like the Great Strides walk, but just wanting to blend in and be ‘normal’ at school. The conversation turns to Trikafta, which Avalon started right around her wedding, after what she calls her "rock bottom" — a hospitalization two weeks before the ceremony. She describes the surreal experience of "the purge," gaining back over a decade's worth of lung function within months, sleeping through the night for what felt like the first time in her life, and the strange sci-fi feeling of a body suddenly doing what it was supposed to do. Both women reflect on the identity split of a life before and after modulators, and the unsettling reality that access to a medication this transformative is still gate-kept by insurance companies, governments, and sky-high prices — a point neither is willing to gloss over. From there, the episode moves into Avalon's therapy journey: an unexpected OCD diagnosis, the realization that her childhood held real trauma even though she'd always thought of herself as “lucky”, and a particularly striking insight from her therapist connecting her recurring fear of the house burning down to the body being its own kind of home. Morgan shares her own parallel — recurring dreams of tornadoes threatening (but never fully destroying) her house — and the two dig into the need for control and the exhausting pressure of childhood "toxic positivity," where being anything other than grateful felt like betrayal. That thread leads directly into the origin of Ivy Ever After: a metaphor born in therapy, of CF as an unruly dragon Avalon had spent her life trying to leash and train. The book grew out of years of messy, cathartic first drafts, inner child work, writing classes, and a long, difficult querying process that ultimately led Avalon to self-publish. She and Morgan talk about what it means to write for the ten-year-old version of yourself, the privilege of getting to be nostalgic when survival was never guaranteed, and reclaiming childlike whimsy — Disney parks included — without apology. The episode closes with Avalon sharing about her discomfort with being called a "chronic illness warrior" — the way that language quietly implies choice, and blame, in outcomes no one actually controls — and how that tension became a central theme of her book's fictional prophecy. Resources mentioned in this episode: Ivy Ever After by Avalon GeorgeCystic Fibrosis Foundation (Great Strides walk) You can follow Avalon's writing and CF journey on Instagram at @avalon.writes, and connect with Morgan at @morganbarrett__. Support Morgan’s work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    From PICC lines to Fairy Tales: On Being "Lucky", Trikafta, and Storytelling for Your Inner Child with Avalon George
  3. Jul 14

    Part 2 | The Art of Getting Out: Evangelical Upbringing, Cult Survival, and Reclaiming Your Light with Blind Visual Artist, Lindsay Lion Lord

    PART TWO OF TWO | Trigger warnings: Emotional abuse, suicidal ideation In part one of this two-part conversation, Morgan sits down with Lindsay Lion Lord — neurodivergent, legally blind art witch and recent MFA graduate — to trace the arc of a life shaped by an evangelical upbringing that dimmed her light, an abusive psychological cult she escaped at 19, and the shunning that followed. They dig into why cult dynamics are closer to everyday life than most of us want to admit, and what it really takes to stop doing the work of the people who hurt you. But the story doesn't end there — and in a lot of ways, that's what makes this episode. Lindsay traces what came next: moving to Wichita, working at Starbucks, marrying young and fast as a way to escape a stalker ex, flunking out of art school in the middle of debilitating panic attacks she had no framework to understand, and eventually, at 25, waking up and walking away from a marriage, a faith community, and an entire identity — all at once. She was shunned a second time, this time by the Wichita Christian community she'd grown up around, where people told her to her face she was going to hell for getting divorced. And somewhere in the middle of all of that unraveling, she found witches — specifically, feminist, queer, politically radical witches — and felt, for the first time, like she'd found a language for who she had always been. Lindsay and Morgan dig into why cult dynamics are far less exceptional than we'd like to believe, what it looks like when evangelical culture and dysfunctional family systems use the same tools — shame, self-policing, isolation, and the severing of personal intuition — to maintain control, and why staying quiet only ever protects the people who caused the harm. They talk about Lindsay's fiber art practice and why textiles — quilts especially — feel like the most honest material she could be working with: objects of protection and comfort that invite people in, even when the subject matter is grief and trauma. And they get into what it actually means to be a legally blind visual artist, including how Charles Bonnet syndrome has Lindsay hallucinating 24/7, how she photographs her 12-foot quilts on her phone to see what her eyes can no longer take in, and why she's grateful — genuinely — that she followed her intuition into fiber arts before she ever knew she was losing her sight. This is a conversation about what it costs to keep choosing yourself when every system around you has been designed to make you doubt that you're worth it — and what it looks like, slowly and imperfectly, to do it anyway. Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    Part 2 | The Art of Getting Out: Evangelical Upbringing, Cult Survival, and Reclaiming Your Light with Blind Visual Artist, Lindsay Lion Lord
  4. Jun 30

    Part 1 | The Art of Getting Out: Evangelical Upbringing, Cult Survival, and Reclaiming Your Light with Blind Visual Artist, Lindsay Lion Lord

    PART ONE OF TWO | Trigger warnings: Emotional abuse, suicidal ideation Morgan sits down with Lindsay Lion Lord — neurodivergent, legally blind visual artist and recent MFA graduate in Fibres and Material Practices from Concordia University in Montreal — for a conversation that is raw, funny, and fiercely honest. Lindsay opens up about receiving her diagnosis of retinitis pigmentosa just as she was finishing her MFA in visual art — a degree she spent years fighting to pursue after growing up in a hyper-religious, evangelical household that told her the art world was 'dark' and not to be pursued. From the time she was a little girl teaching herself to draw from Highlights magazines, art was the one area in which no one could criticize her. In a home where her feelings were too big, her personality too much, and her light constantly being dimmed, her exceptional talent in drawing became her refuge. After high school, and without a clear path forward, Lindsay joined Teen Mania Ministries — an internship program she now identifies as an abusive psychological cult, later documented in season two of Shiny Happy People on Amazon. She describes what life inside looked like: ten days of sleep deprivation and isolation from family during something called Gauntlet Week, six people to a tiny dorm room with no privacy, constant self-policing and peer surveillance, and deeply misogynistic "relationship advice" delivered to rooms full of 18-year-old women by male leadership. She also opens up about the secret boyfriend who was abusive, the 'trial' before the Honor Council where even her own advocate turned on her, and the split-second decision — at 19 years old, alone in a room full of people telling her she was wicked — to trust herself anyway. She orchestrated her own dismissal, packed her things in the night, and left the next day. What followed was being shunned by roughly a thousand peers and staff members overnight, coming home to Kansas, and then being kicked out by her parents. Morgan and Lindsay dig into why cult dynamics aren't as far outside of everyday life as we'd like to believe — the parallels between authoritarian religion, dysfunctional family systems, Greek life, and other institutional structures that use isolation, sleep deprivation, and self-policing to maintain control. They talk about what it means to stop doing the work of your oppressors for them, why telling your story is necessary, and the ongoing unglamorous work of therapy, inner child healing, and learning — slowly, imperfectly — to take up the space you were always meant to occupy. Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    Part 1 | The Art of Getting Out: Evangelical Upbringing, Cult Survival, and Reclaiming Your Light with Blind Visual Artist, Lindsay Lion Lord
  5. Jun 16

    Building a Chronic Illness Literary Community with FLARE Magazine EIC Kelly Esparza

    There's something quietly full-circle about this episode. Kelly Esparza — editor in chief of FLARE Literary Magazine, freelance editor, and writer living with lupus — was a stranger to Morgan until Kelly accepted her very first piece of published writing into FLARE. That single acceptance set something in motion. And now they're here, talking for the first time face to face (virtually), about what it means to build something out of a gap you noticed, to lead with honesty and generosity, and to keep writing through the challenges of chronic illness. Kelly didn't start FLARE because she had it all figured out. She started it because she went looking for stories about chronic illness and came up mostly empty. Newly diagnosed with lupus, freshly graduated into a pandemic job market, she decided to make the thing she wished existed. She expected maybe a handful of submissions. What she got instead was a community. This episode moves through a lot of territory — lupus and what it actually looks and feels like from the inside, the strange exhaustion of being a young person with an old person's joints, the grief that comes with measuring your energy in spoons, and the peculiar sweetness of finding people who just get it without you having to explain. They also talk about what it costs to create something — a literary magazine, a novel, a chapbook of grief poems about your own body — when your body is the thing you're writing about and the thing that keeps getting in the way. Kelly shares her path to editing through internships and volunteer work with publications like Sonora Review at the University of Arizona and Free State Review, and how that experience shaped everything about how she runs FLARE — including her commitment to responding to submissions within 24 hours, keeping access free, and sending rejections that feel like they were written by someone who actually read your work, because they were. There are also exciting updates on Kelly's fiction life: she recently signed with a new literary agent she met in person at a book festival, and is working toward going on submission to publishers in the fall with her adult speculative mystery. Plus: her chapbook A Spoonie's Guide to Self-Acceptance, a small collection of lupus poems published by Bottle Cap Press — which Kelly explains with the kind of enthusiasm that makes you want to immediately go find a copy. By the time they get to the closing questions — the ones that are, as Morgan admits, not exactly fun but absolutely worth asking — this conversation has become something warmer and stranger and more honest than either of them probably planned. The kind of conversation two chronically ill writers with a lot to say tend to have when they finally get to connect. Timestamps [0:00] Introductions, Kelly's background in writing and editing, and the origin story of Flare Literary Magazine [17:00] What lupus actually is, Kelly's long road to diagnosis, and life after — symptoms and treatments [40:00] The emotional weight of chronic illness, how FLARE actually works, and the editor's perspective on community, rejection, and what it means to believe in someone's work [1:18:00] Kelly's fiction journey, A Spoonie's Guide to Self-Acceptance, dreams for FLARE's future, and the closing questions Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    Building a Chronic Illness Literary Community with FLARE Magazine EIC Kelly Esparza
  6. May 22 ·  Bonus

    Pretty Precarious

    Welcome to Fireside Friday! In this cozy, unfiltered solo episode, Morgan checks in with a few life updates before reading a poem close to her heart. She shares about the decision to step back from millennial nostalgia content on Instagram — a move that felt harder than it probably sounds, given how well it was performing. But when she fast-forwarded in her mind and asked where is this actually taking me, the answer got quiet. Her end goal is being a published author, and she's trying to make sure everything she's putting energy into is moving in that direction — her Substack, this podcast, her Instagram — all of it feeling more like one cohesive thing and less like ten different versions of herself. Then there's home life, which is its own kind of beautiful chaos. The twins are five and a half, about to start kindergarten, and have each lost two teeth — which Morgan finds both fun and a little disorienting — wasn't she just five-years-old losing her first teeth, like, yesterday? Morgan reflects on how hard it was to be fully present in the early years of her kids' lives, how the weight of constant caregiving made it nearly impossible to just enjoy the little people in front of her. And she extends herself some grace for that, while also sharing how much more she's settling into this phase — the one where they're funny and weird and asking a lot of questions about death. (Winslow's current theory: we turn into skeletons, and then into roses. Which, honestly, love that.) The episode closes with Morgan reading a fully renovated poem she first wrote in 2023 — a raw, honest look at body image, the ever-shifting ideal, and what it means to try to make peace with your body while your daughter is observing and absorbing your attitude toward your body. It's tender and complicated in the way that Morgan's writing always is: sitting with something uncomfortable without pretending to have resolved it. This one's short, personal, and exactly what Fireside Fridays are meant to be. Support Morgan's work by subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    Pretty Precarious
  7. Apr 14

    Sobriety, Complex PTSD, and Learning to Believe Your Own Story with Lindsay Sparks

    Morgan sits down with Lindsay Sparks — Registered Dietitian Nutritionist, certified intuitive eating counselor, sobriety mentor, mom of two, backyard chicken keeper, and self-described chronic over-sharer — for a conversation that wastes absolutely no time getting to the good stuff. Lindsay shares her story growing up in a military family, moving every four years, and being a deeply shy, highly sensitive kid trying to find her footing. She opens up about falling into disordered eating as a teenager, growing up in a home shaped by a toxic parental dynamic and emotional neglect, and how, by 16, she was using cocaine as what she describes as a form of self-medication — something her late ADHD diagnosis helped her eventually make sense of. Lindsay talks about the shame of performing "good girl" on the outside while balancing a dangerous habit behind closed doors, and how a missed AOL Instant Messenger conversation was the one moment her behavior almost came to light — only to be swept under the rug and never spoken of again. Morgan and Lindsay dig into the complicated terrain of complex PTSD: what it actually is, why it's so easy to gaslight yourself out of believing your own experiences were "bad enough," and why the body often holds the truth when the mind refuses to. They find a lot of common ground here — both grew up learning to read the emotional temperature of a room, both married to steady, uncomplicated men who they still sometimes treat like ticking time bombs out of old habit. Lindsay traces her relationship with alcohol from college drinking culture through pandemic-era binge drinking while navigating the challenges of early parenthood — to the moment she found out she was pregnant with her second and felt mad that she couldn't drink that night. That moment of clarity, she says, is what finally sent her to therapy. They talk about gray area drinking, the spectrum of alcohol use disorder, and why learning the actual neuroscience of alcohol — serotonin, dopamine, GABA, the gut — changed everything for Lindsay in a way that none of her dietetics training ever had. Lindsay shares what eventually led her to quit, what her first year of sobriety felt like (lonely, identity-shaking, genuinely hard), how THC briefly became a transfer addiction, and how she's now approaching 1,000 days alcohol-free. Morgan, in turn, is refreshingly honest about where she is on her own journey with alcohol — still in the gray area, still grappling with the part of her that finds the feeling of release elicited by drinking hard to replicate , and not yet ready to say she's done. It's one of those rare podcast conversations where the host doesn't have it all figured out either, and it's better for it. They close with a conversation about reframing discipline as devotion, gentle self-parenting, all-or-nothing thinking, and what it means to stay curious about yourself — even when the answers are uncomfortable. Resources mentioned in the episode: This Naked Mind by Annie GraceReframe AppShe RecoversHOP WTR (adaptogens, Lindsay's current go-to)Recess (adaptogenic sparkling water) You can find Lindsay and her work at the intersection of alcohol-free living and intuitive eating on Instagram at @sobernourished. Support my work by reading & subscribing to Chronically Candid on Substack at morgannbarrett.substack.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    Sobriety, Complex PTSD, and Learning to Believe Your Own Story with Lindsay Sparks
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30 Ratings

About

Chronically Candid is a conversational, reflective podcast hosted by Morgan Barrett, a Millennial mom to twins and an adult living with cystic fibrosis. The show (formerly Makers, Dreamers, Doers) features open-hearted discussions with guests and solo episodes that explore topics like creativity, chronic health experiences, parenthood, personal growth, and everyday life challenges. Morgan’s aim isn’t to be an expert but to share lived experiences and foster learning, unlearning, and emotional flexibility. The podcast also includes monthly “Fireside Fridays” — brief readings of Morgan's poetry and prose — adding a cozy and personal touch to the series. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.