Current Wave

AYLA | INNER TIDE

Shared delusions and ethereal shit-talking. Exploring the waves of the human experience. We hope you enjoy the ride. innertide.substack.com

  1. 5d ago

    MEN, MONEY, AND THE GIFTS OF THE UNIVERSE: UNBLOCK YOUR RESISTANCE TO RECEIVE FROM THE MASCULINE

    In this episode, we explore the energetics of receiving, why so many women struggle to let money, support, and generosity actually land, and how our relationship with the masculine (in partners, in strangers, in the men around us) mirrors our relationship with money itself. We talk about the discomfort of being given to without earning it, the difference between independence and interdependence, and what it actually takes to build the internal capacity to receive more. Explore the dynamics of receiving, especially from men, and how feminine energy plays a crucial role in relationships, money, and life. They share personal stories, insights on feminine and masculine energies, and practical tips for embracing vulnerability and trust. On this episode of Current Wave I’m joined by retired rocket scientist turned investing mentor Stephanie Xenos, host of Money Musings with Stephanie Xenos. We trace real, recent stories from both of our lives, a four-figure gift offered freely by a near-stranger, a stranger at the airport who carried a bag without asking for anything in return, a panic attack in a parking lot after saying yes to being given something nice. We use these moments to unpack a bigger question: what does it actually mean to be in your feminine, and why does receiving, whether it’s a compliment, a favor, or money, so often feel harder than giving. We talk honestly about the overcorrection many women made toward hyper-independence, why that arc was necessary, and what it looks like to find a more circular, interdependent way of relating to the masculine, to money, and to support in general. If you’ve ever deflected a compliment, insisted on paying your own way when you didn’t need to, or felt guilty spending money on yourself, this one’s for you. In this episode, we cover: 💰 Receiving as an energetic practice, not just a financial one 🚪 The small tests: doors held open, bags carried, offers made without an agenda 👗 Why “a man is not a plan” empowered a generation and also created a block 🌊 Feminine and masculine roles as energetic postures, not fixed identities 🧠 The guilt response: why generosity can feel unsafe before it feels good 💎 The difference between extraction, independence, and true interdependence 🔑 Deservingness as the real root beneath money blocks and relationship blocks 🌙 The feminine’s tether to the void, intuition, and the non-logical 🗝️ Practical ways to expand your capacity to receive, starting small This episode is for you if you’re doing the work around money, partnership, or self-worth, and want a real, unfiltered conversation about why receiving is so often the hardest part. Whether you’re building financial independence, navigating a relationship, or just trying to accept a compliment without deflecting it, you’ll leave with a new lens on what it means to let life provide for you. 🎧 Listen now and subscribe for more on spirituality, embodiment, and navigating money and relationships with honesty. CONNECT: With our guest — Stephanie Xenos on IG: @stephanie_xenosStephanie’s podcast: Money Musings with Stephanie Xenos, on SpotifyStephanie’s website: stephaniexenos.comWith our host — Ayla Wayman on IG: @inner__tideGet full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA — innertide.substack.com/subscribe Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    MEN, MONEY, AND THE GIFTS OF THE UNIVERSE: UNBLOCK YOUR RESISTANCE TO RECEIVE FROM THE MASCULINE

  2. Jul 15

    WHY YOUR OLD LIFE NO LONGER FITS: THE VOID BETWEEN WHO YOU WERE AND WHO YOU ARE BECOMING

    Today, Ayla returns solo to talk through what’s alive in her right now: the void, the cages we keep ourselves in, and the subtle inner work of finding the key you already hold. This is an unfiltered, in-the-moment conversation about sitting in the in-between when your old way of living no longer works, and the new one hasn’t landed yet. In this episode, I’m sharing some themes that have been coming up in almost every conversation I’ve had lately: the felt sense that we’re all being asked to step into a void, a pregnant darkness where our next self hasn’t arrived but something is clearly pulling us forward. I talk about the tension between our will and something larger than our will, why desire can feel so out of balance right now, and why so much of the real work is learning to sit in the not knowing instead of rushing to fill it. I also go into Cancer Season specifically: what it means to be in the depths and the feelings without trying to fix or shift them, and how that being energy sets us up for what’s coming next as we move into Leo and Virgo. I share some of my own unfolding here too: my wanting to become a mother, what that’s asking me to release in how I run my business and hold my masculine container, and what it’s teaching me about receptivity, partnership, and asking for what I actually need. Toward the end I share that I’ll be opening enrollment for our fall cohort, beginning around the fall equinox on September 21st. In this episode, we cover: 🌊 Sitting in the void: why the in-between is one of the hardest and most important places to stay 🔑 The cage and the key: how we recreate the situations we say we don’t want 🦀 Cancer Season as a being energy, not a doing energy 🦁 What Leo and Virgo bring next: inspiration, discernment, and making a plan 🧠 Subconscious reprogramming and why the unconscious mind runs the show 🌍 Free will, privilege, and the responsibility of choice in this particular moment 👶 A personal share on wanting to become a mother and what that’s asking to shift in me 🤝 Masculine and feminine roles, receptivity, and asking a partner for what I need 💫 Why our biggest desires are often the most confronting once we actually approach them 🌾 An invitation into the fall cohort, opening around the fall equinox This episode is for you if you’re in a season of not knowing what’s next, if you’re feeling pulled toward something you can’t yet name, or if you’re doing the quiet work of finding your own key out of patterns that no longer serve you. It’s also for you if you want an honest, unpolished look at what it’s like to hold vision, business, and deep personal desire all at once. 🎧 Listen now and subscribe for more on cyclical living, inner work, and navigating the void with honesty. CONNECT: With our host — Ayla Wayman on IG: @inner__tideFollow Current Wave on IG: @current__waveGet full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA — innertide.substack.com/subscribe Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    WHY YOUR OLD LIFE NO LONGER FITS: THE VOID BETWEEN WHO YOU WERE AND WHO YOU ARE BECOMING

  3. Jul 12

    ALLOW THE WATERS TO MOVE ~ A GUIDED PRACTICE TO FEEL AN EMOTION ALL THE WAY THROUGH

    Oooooof, after my post about how much I’ve grown and learned to metabolize Cancer Season, and how grounded I feel, the past few days have felt CRUNCHY. The emotions are running high, and not just for me! I was already planning on sharing this practice, and then I was just laughing to myself how necessary it really is right now. It’s funny, we are in so many ways these little tender beings ruled by our emotions, and yet, most of us don’t even know how to feel what we are feeling deeply - and all the way through - so that it can assimilate into our system. I find time and again that our resistance to feeling is where so much of our turmoil comes from - often it’s not actually the feeling itself - rather, it’s the brakes we’re slamming on, or the backflips we are doing to avoid the truth. When we don’t allow ourselves to feel, and allow our emotions to move through us, they can begin to speak in other ways - anxiety that hums beneath the surface, tension in the body, exhaustion, numbness, rumination… This practice is an invitation to gently work with anything you might be currently feeling, so that you can learn to actually feel it. I share the process of titration, where we approach an emotion in small, manageable doses so your nervous system can stay regulated while your body processes what it’s been holding. This can be incredibly supportive to move through something you are experiencing right now, or, to work with something you might have moved aside. This practice allows us to build our capacity and discover that our emotions are not permanent identities or ultimate truths. They are experiences that move through us. If you have been feeling the feels. If things feel crunchy. If you’ve been feeling stuck, overwhelmed, or like there’s something sitting just beneath the surface… This is an invitation to work with it all, and allow the waters to move. Let me know how it goes :) Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    ALLOW THE WATERS TO MOVE ~ A GUIDED PRACTICE TO FEEL AN EMOTION ALL THE WAY THROUGH

  4. Apr 7

    YOUR NAME IS YOUR FIRST MANTRA: DANCING WITH GOD, VOICE, IDENTITY, AND THE COURAGE TO BE SEEN WITH CHANDNI

    There is a moment in life when you begin to hear yourself clearly. Not the version shaped by expectation… Not the softened version made easier for others to receive… But the original sound of you. In this episode of Current Wave, I’m joined by Chandni for a deeply intimate conversation on voice, identity, devotion, and the courage to be seen in your true resonance. We explore the idea that your name is not just a label—it is your first mantra. A living vibration. A sound that organizes your body, your energy, and your place in the world. And what it means to reclaim that sound… fully, unapologetically, and in your own timing. Chandni shares her journey of returning to her given name, reconnecting with its roots in Sanskrit, and the profound shifts that occur when you begin to honor your own frequency—rather than shrinking or translating yourself to be more easily understood. We also move into the deeper layers of embodiment, grief, rebirth, and what it means to truly land in the body after a lifetime of living in the “ethers.” This conversation weaves through: * Your name as your first mantra — sound, identity, and personal frequency * Reclaiming your voice — pronunciation, lineage, and self-recognition * The courage to be seen — visibility, vulnerability, and resonance * Living between worlds — the ether vs. embodiment * Identity and renunciation — letting go of who you were to become who you are * Grief, rebirth, and returning to the body * Creation through devotion — allowing life to move through you * The illusion of separation — remembering our connection to source * Glass delusion, fragility, and sensitivity — the human experience of being “too much” * What it means to live truthfully — even when it feels unfamiliar This episode is for you if you’ve ever felt disconnected from your voice… If you’ve softened or altered yourself to be more digestible… If you’re in a season of becoming, shedding, or remembering who you really are. It’s for anyone navigating identity, grief, visibility, or the quiet (and sometimes terrifying) call to step forward and be seen. This is a conversation about returning. To your voice. To your name. To your body. To God. 🎧 Listen now and subscribe for more conversations on spirituality, embodiment, creativity, and building a life that feels like your own. CONNECT: With our guest — Chandni Instagram: @amritaone Substack: Chandni Try Chandni’s Oil With our host — Ayla Wayman Instagram: @inner__tide Follow Current Wave: @current__wave Dive into INNER TIDE — OFFERINGS Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA Keywords: Chandni, your name is your mantra, identity and voice, spiritual awakening, finding your voice, embodiment and spirituality, divine feminine voice, sound and vibration healing, mantra meaning, personal identity journey, grief and rebirth, ether and embodiment, spiritual podcast, Ayla Wayman, Current Wave podcast Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    YOUR NAME IS YOUR FIRST MANTRA: DANCING WITH GOD, VOICE, IDENTITY, AND THE COURAGE TO BE SEEN WITH CHANDNI

  5. Mar 31

    RETURNING TO RIGHT RELATIONSHIP: ANIMALS, CEREMONY, AND THE WISDOM OF OUR REMEMBERING WITH ABIGAIL HINDS

    There is a way of being that remembers. A way of living that is not separate from the Earth, the animals, or the unseen layers of life—but deeply in relationship with them. A way that honors death as part of life, listens to what is subtle, and trusts that there is intelligence moving through everything… if we slow down enough to feel it. In this episode of Current Wave, I’m joined by Abigail Hines — healing practitioner, medicine weaver, and vocalist — for a conversation on animal communication, death and reciprocity, ancestral practices, and the deeper ways we can return to right relationship with the natural world. We speak about what it means to process animals in ceremony, not as something transactional, but as something sacred. Abigail shares the story behind her “Squirrel to Soup” practice, and how working with animals in both life and death became an initiation into deeper presence, reverence, and connection. We also explore the ways animals communicate with us—through intuition, sensation, and subtle knowing—and how reconnecting to these channels can awaken parts of ourselves that have been dormant. This conversation moves between the grounded and the mystical. From food, land, and nourishment… to whales, sound, and the unseen realms of communication that exist beyond language. At its core, this episode is about remembering that we are not separate. We are part of a living, breathing, communicating world. And there is a different way to be in relationship with it. In this episode, we explore: * Returning to right relationship — animals, land, death, and reciprocity * “Squirrel to Soup” — processing animals as ceremony, not consumption * The disconnection of modern life — and the longing to return to something more real * Whale medicine and sound — voice, intuition, and spiritual communication * Animal communication — intuition, subtle perception, and listening beyond language * Death as initiation — reclaiming reverence for life through honoring death * The unseen world — spirit, sensation, and the intelligence of nature * Remembering our place — as humans within (not above) the natural world This episode is for you if you’ve been feeling the pull to reconnect—with nature, with your intuition, or with something ancient within yourself. If you’ve been questioning the disconnection of modern life and craving a deeper, more honest relationship with the world around you. It’s also for anyone curious about animal communication, ancestral practices, embodiment, and the quieter ways of knowing that live beneath the surface. 🎧 Listen now and subscribe for more conversations on spirituality, embodiment, creativity, and returning to what is real. CONNECT: With our guest — Abigail Hines Instagram: @whalewombweaving @breast.health.sanctuary https://www.blessourbreasts.com/ With our host — Ayla Wayman Instagram: @inner__tide Follow Current Wave: @current__wave Dive into INNER TIDE — OFFERINGS Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA Keywords: Abigail Hines, animal communication, whale medicine, sound healing, ancestral practices, spiritual awakening, intuitive living, nature connection, death and rebirth, conscious living, embodiment practices, feminine spirituality, reconnect with nature, ceremony and ritual, slow living, Ayla Wayman, Current Wave podcast Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    RETURNING TO RIGHT RELATIONSHIP: ANIMALS, CEREMONY, AND THE WISDOM OF OUR REMEMBERING WITH ABIGAIL HINDS

  6. Mar 10

    RETURNING TO WHAT IS REAL: MAKING YOUR OWN RULES AND LIVING A SLOWER, TRUER LIFE WITH ANA HITO

    There is a version of life that asks less of us in performance and more of us in presence. A version rooted in slowness, creativity, self-trust, real luxury, and the courage to make our own rules instead of inheriting the ones we were handed. In this episode of Current Wave, I’m joined by Ana Hito for a conversation on luxury, creativity, motherhood, technology, off-grid living, and what it means to return to what is actually real. We explore the deeper meaning of luxury—not just as material beauty, but as intimacy with process, place, seasonality, labor, and life itself. Ana shares about living on Rapa Nui (Easter Island), raising children in a much slower and more connected environment, and the profound shift that happens when you step outside of the speed, noise, and artificial urgency of modern life. We talk about the challenge of creativity in the digital age, the pressure of social media, and how much easier it is to lose your own inner voice when the outside world is constantly telling you what matters. This conversation is really about remembering. Remembering what it means to be human. Remembering what creativity felt like before it was commodified. Remembering that success, beauty, luxury, and fulfillment are not fixed definitions—and that part of growing up is learning how to define those things for yourself. We also speak about childhood, Waldorf education, community, the value of boredom and curiosity, and how simplicity can become one of the most profound luxuries of all. In this episode, we cover: * The deeper meaning of luxury — process, presence, seasonality, and real life * Life on Rapa Nui — community, family, off-grid living, and a different pace of reality * Motherhood + raising children more slowly — creativity, freedom, and less technological interference * Social media and the distortion of success — clout, comparison, and the pressure to perform a life * Returning to what is real — food, water, land, rhythm, and embodied daily living * Creativity as a necessity — not a luxury, not an extra, but part of being alive * Making your own rules — releasing inherited ideas of success, work, and how life “should” look * Curiosity, play, and the child self — reconnecting with the part of you that knows how to create * Living more truthfully — even when your life looks different from what the world rewards This episode is for you if you’ve been craving a slower, truer life… if you’re questioning the rules you’ve inherited… if you want to reconnect with your creativity, your own values, and what actually matters to you. It’s for anyone navigating motherhood, self-discovery, digital overwhelm, or the desire to build a life that feels more human and less performative. 🎧 Listen now and subscribe for more conversations on spirituality, embodiment, creativity, and building a life that feels like your own. CONNECT: With our guest — Ana Hito on IG: @__ana__hito__ on Substack: Ana Hito With our host — Ayla Wayman on IG: @inner__tide Follow Current Wave on IG: @current__wave Dive into INNER TIDE — OFFERINGS Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA Keywords: Ana Hito, Rapa Nui, Easter Island, slow living, authentic living, luxury lifestyle, real luxury, creativity and self discovery, motherhood and creativity, parenting without screens, off grid living, community and creativity, simplicity as luxury, social media and authenticity, digital overwhelm, curiosity and creativity, living a slower life, returning to what is real, conscious living, Ayla Wayman, Current Wave podcast Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    RETURNING TO WHAT IS REAL: MAKING YOUR OWN RULES AND LIVING A SLOWER, TRUER LIFE WITH ANA HITO

  7. Feb 24

    THE PATH TO INNER AUTHORITY: WHEN THE SYSTEM BECOMES THE CAGE WITH CHIARA CHRISTIAN

    In this episode, we explore Human Design, manifestation, and the danger of outsourcing your inner authority—plus how to come back to self-trust, embodiment, and real agency. In this episode of Current Wave, Ayla Wayman sits down with writer and Human Design guide Chiara Christian (Mystical Heretic) for an honest, grounded conversation about Human Design, self-trust, manifestation, and what happens when spiritual systems are taken too literally. Chiara shares her personal journey of discovering Human Design in her early twenties, going deep into the source material, and eventually realizing that rigid interpretation and perfectionism were disconnecting her from her intuition, body, and life force. Together, Ayla and Chiara explore how tools meant for self-awareness can quietly become cages—and how to reclaim agency without throwing away wisdom. This conversation gently demystifies Human Design for beginners while offering a critical, embodied perspective for those who’ve gone too far into the weeds. We discuss energy types, authority, and profiles in a simple, accessible way, while also examining the psychological impact of waiting, over-identifying with labels, and giving decision-making power away to external systems. The episode also weaves in a grounded re-examination of manifestation, how beliefs shape reality, and why the mind isn’t the enemy—but a powerful creative force when integrated consciously. We close with a wider reflection on the 2027 collective shift, decentralization, individuality, and why small, local communities may matter more than ever. In this episode, we cover: * Human Design explained simply: energy types, authority, profiles, and conscious vs. unconscious design * When self-discovery systems become limiting: perfectionism, rigidity, and loss of agency * The danger of taking strategy and authority too literally * Projectors, generators, manifestors & reflectors—and how energy actually works in daily life * Embodiment vs. over-analysis: returning to lived experience * Manifestation reimagined: thoughts, beliefs, emotion, action, and reality * Reclaiming self-trust and inner authority after spiritual disillusionment * The 2027 shift: decentralization, individuality, community, and the breakdown of old structures * Why growth doesn’t require rules—and why no system knows you better than you do This episode is for anyone interested in Human Design, spiritual self-growth, manifestation, personal development, or navigating the tension between structure and intuition. Whether you’re new to Human Design or recovering from spiritual rigidity, this conversation offers clarity, permission, and grounding. 🎧 Listen now and subscribe for more conversations on spirituality, embodiment, self-trust, and navigating change with integrity. 🔗 CONNECT With our guest — Chiara Christian Instagram: @mysticalheretic Substack: mysticalheretic.substack.com Website: https://mystical-heretic.com With our host — Ayla Wayman on IG: @inner__tide Follow Current Wave on IG: @current__wave Dive into INNER TIDE — https://innertide.myflodesk.com/currentwave Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA — innertide.substack.com/subscribe Keywords human design explained, human design podcast, spiritual self growth, manifestation mindset, self trust and intuition, embodiment practices, spiritual awakening podcast, human design projector, human design generator, manifesting generator energy, human design authority, strategy and authority human design, spiritual perfectionism, healing self trust, nervous system and manifestation, subconscious beliefs and reality, conscious manifestation, spirituality and psychology, personal development podcast, inner authority, intuition vs conditioning, decentralization and community, 2027 collective shift, age of aquarius transition, spiritual deconditioning, mystical heretic, chiara christian, ayla wayman, current wave podcast, inner tide Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    THE PATH TO INNER AUTHORITY: WHEN THE SYSTEM BECOMES THE CAGE WITH CHIARA CHRISTIAN

  8. Feb 17

    WALKING THE BEAUTY WAY WITH SHIVA ROSE

    There’s a way of living that doesn’t rush past the sacred. A way of moving through your day that feels like a prayer — even in the laundry, even in the hard seasons, even when the world is loud. In this episode of Current Wave, I’m joined by Shiva Rose — creatrix, writer, founder of Shiva Rose Beauty, and a true protectress of the Earth and her children (plant, human, and otherwise). This conversation is an invitation back into beauty as medicine — not the aesthetic performance of beauty, but the frequency of it: the kind that regulates the nervous system, restores aliveness, and brings us back into devotion. We talk about what it means to walk the beauty way in a time of homogenization, groupthink, and digital overstimulation — and how to stay rooted in your own truth without “interlocking” energy online. We explore Aquarius season + Leo full moon teachings around boundaries and bravery, and the importance of discernment with your attention, your voice, and your life force. Then we move into the deeper layers: beauty as protection, beauty as creativity, beauty as immune support, and the quiet revolution of returning to the body — through nature, self-massage, ritual, scent, flowers, nourishment, and presence. This episode is for you if you’ve been craving: * a softer nervous system without shrinking your power * deeper boundaries without losing your tenderness * devotion in the mundane * beauty as a stabilizing force in chaotic times * a return to the real world — the one with sky, people, texture, and breath ✨ Special listener code: Use code WAVE at checkout. In this episode, we cover * Aquarius season + the courage to stay uniquely you * Leo full moon polarity: boundaries + being in your light * The “homogenization” of culture, faces, and thought — and how to resist it * Not interlocking energy online (and why it drains your life force) * Beauty as medicine: nervous system, creativity, vitality, immune support * Devotion in the mundane: folding laundry with prayer, making meals with magic * The origin story of Shiva Rose Beauty (Kundalini downloads + non-toxic skincare) * The myth of “effortless” creation: discipline, devotion, and real building * Returning to simplicity: nature, mineral-rich tonics, ritual, self-massage (Abhyanga) * Mentorship + community: remembering how humans are meant to learn Shop Shiva Rose Beauty CONNECT: With our guest — Shiva Rose on IG: @localrose Shiva’s website: https://www.shivarose.com/ Use code “WAVE” for 20% off Shiva’s products With our host — Ayla Wayman on IG: @inner__tide Dive into INNER TIDE — OFFERINGS Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA — innertide.substack.com/subscribe Keywords Shiva Rose, Shiva Rose Beauty, walking the beauty way, beauty as medicine, Venusian living, clean beauty, non-toxic skincare, natural skincare rituals, Aquarius season, Leo full moon, nervous system regulation, devotion practice, abhyanga self massage, kundalini meditation, Guru Jagat teachings, boundaries on social media, digital detox, embodiment, sacred beauty, ritual living, creativity and healing, holistic wellness, slow living, women’s wellness Get full access to INNER TIDE | AYLA at innertide.substack.com/subscribe

    WALKING THE BEAUTY WAY WITH SHIVA ROSE
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Shared delusions and ethereal shit-talking. Exploring the waves of the human experience. We hope you enjoy the ride. innertide.substack.com

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  • Creator
    AYLA | INNER TIDE
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2026
  • Episodes
    30
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Inner Tide | AYLA
  • Show Website
    Current Wave