Love to hear from and know who is listening I think all of humanity, even those of us who are devoted Christians, have at one point in our lives faced a difficult trial and struggled with why is this happening to me or even why is this happening to my loved one? My wife is currently in one of those moments in her life and the most difficult part of the trial is the fact that there doesn't seem to be an end or a solution anytime in the near future. Her father passed away 5 years ago from pancreatic cancer. He only lived a few months from the time of his formal diagnosis until the day of his death. Near the end he was placed on hospice and he did suffer a bit but in the big scheme of things it did not last long. Just before he passed he told Joyce and her sister your going to have to care for your mother, she has dementia. Her mother lived on her own for a little more than one year before she moved in with us. While she was living with us we made sure she took her medicines, got to her doctors appointments and had good meals and company. Recently the amount of care and time that her mother needed began to take a toll on our relationship and her mothers personality began to change. We made the difficult decision to place her in a nursing home. I can say without a doubt, the day of her admission was the most difficult day my wife and her sister have ever faced in their lives. Her mother simply does not understand why she can't just go home. Doctors have told us that her mother has angry dementia with major depression, but physically she is pretty good health and she could live this way for many years. 1 Peter 1: 6-7 ESV In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Peter tells us sorrow is very real. However, the anticipation of eternal joy, does not negate the hardships this life, but it does make them bearable. We misunderstand God's word, if we believe the Bible is telling us to ignore pain or pretend that it is less agonizing than it is! God can reach down into what otherwise would seem like a terrible situation and wrench out of it good for us and glory for Himself. That being said, there is no inherent goodness in disability, disease, or deformity, but we are promised, in Romans 8:28 that all things, work together for good, for those who love God and are called according to his purpose. What is the good that comes from watching someone you love suffer! Honestly, I wish I had a good answer to that question but I don't. But “Some Day I will know!” 1 Corinthians 13:12 ESV For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. We may never know this side of heaven why we must face difficult trials or how God can be honored and glorified in the midst of the suffering! There is one thing that I do know without a doubt! For those of us who have placed out faith in Jesus Christ, no matter how difficult the trial we may face may be, this is as bad as it will ever get and one day we will be made whole, live in a heavenly mansion and walk the streets of gold with our heavenly father. No matter how painful, broken, or difficult life on Earth can get, a believer's future is anchored in an eternity free of sorrow, pain, and death. For those who reject God, this life is the closest they will ever come to heaven, enjoying the good gifts of God's creation now, and then facing eternal separation from God in Hell, where the soul is completely cut off from God's divine love, goodness, and light. Where there will be ending torment in fire, total darkness, weeping and nashing of teeth and the unending pain of regret. Their souls will remember their past choices and realize they brought this fate upon themselves. Support the show