Divorced and Disillusioned

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Divorced & Disillusioned is a raw, honest podcast about divorce and losing faith at the same time. I share my story of marrying young in the church, surviving abuse, and later facing the silence of unanswered prayers during another painful breakup. This show is for people in the messy middle — rebuilding identity after marriage and belief systems fall apart.

Episodes

  1. 5D AGO

    “When Care Isn’t Compatibility”

    In this episode, I talk about the difficult realization that someone can care about you and still not be the partner you need. When a relationship isn’t cruel or explosive, it can be hard to admit that something still isn’t right. This episode explores the pattern of staying in dynamics that are “good enough,” the small moments that reveal deeper incompatibility, and the clarity that eventually comes when you stop negotiating with reality.

    19 min

  2. FEB 25

    “Lonely for Connection “

    This episode explores the loneliness of being unseen in a marriage, the desperate ways I tried to feel wanted, and the consequences of operating from emotional hunger. It’s about accountability without self-destruction and what it means to grow without turning yourself into the villain.

    25 min

  3. FEB 18

    “Is There Really A Monster?”

    You don’t need a villain to justify your boundaries. You just need clarity.

    17 min

  4. FEB 11

    “When Faith Told Me I Was Doomed”

    I share how faith slowly shifted from being a source of comfort to becoming an inner critic, and how losing certainty didn’t just mean questioning God, it meant grieving the identity I had built around shame, fear, and trying to be good enough.

    15 min

  5. JAN 30

    “The Season I Needed God Most”

    This episode explores the season when prayer stopped bringing comfort to me not because I stopped trying, but because I was praying harder than ever and felt nothing change. I talk about moving from gratitude to desperation, the emotional fog of that time, and the grief of losing a spiritual lifeline. If you’ve ever prayed and felt silence instead of peace, you’re not alone.

    18 min

  6. JAN 28

    “Living like loss was inevitable “

    I explore how religious messaging and past experiences shaped my nervous system in ways I didn’t understand at the time. When you’ve been taught that relationships are fragile, conditional, or spiritually “doomed,” fear can start to feel like wisdom — and anxiety can masquerade as intuition.

    15 min

  7. JAN 28

    “Love, According to a Teen Bride”

    In this episode, I talk about what I thought love was when I was young, deeply religious, and trying to be a “good” partner and how that shaped the red flags I didn’t recognize at the time.

    20 min

  8. JAN 27

    “Married at 18”

    In this episode, I talk more about something I mentioned last time ; getting married as a teenager. I share what I was thinking back then, what I didn’t understand yet, and how that experience shaped who I am now. It’s a mix of hindsight, hard truths, and the lessons that only time can teach.

    19 min
  9. “The Silence That Changed Everything”

    JAN 27

    “The Silence That Changed Everything”

    In the first episode of Divorced & Disillusioned, I share the story of getting married young inside the church, the abuse I didn’t yet have language for, and how my second divorce led to a deeper unraveling of my faith. This isn’t about rebellion — it’s about praying for relief in the darkest moments and being met with silence. If you’re navigating divorce, faith shifts, or rebuilding your identity from scratch, you’re not alone!

    7 min
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About

Divorced & Disillusioned is a raw, honest podcast about divorce and losing faith at the same time. I share my story of marrying young in the church, surviving abuse, and later facing the silence of unanswered prayers during another painful breakup. This show is for people in the messy middle — rebuilding identity after marriage and belief systems fall apart.

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  • Creator
    DisappointingMiddleChild
  • Years Active
    2K
  • Episodes
    9
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © DisappointingMiddleChild
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