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Musings w/Mookie - reflections on life

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I’m a poet and the author of four books, exploring thoughts through both poetry and prose. Musings with Mookie is a solo podcast where I share reflections, writing practices, and observations on life - some direct, some layered, much like my poetry. mookiemadeit.substack.com

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Ep 30 Musings w/Mookie

The title is not a play on anything from the past. It is simply a fact for many of us in this world. Most people live on solid land, and humans cease being aquatic creatures shortly after birth. No matter how much we may love the water, we do not live in it. We are not fish. Though some argue that we evolved from fish, we do not have gills. We have lungs—lungs made to breathe, bodies better suited for land. At times, I wish I had gills, or at least loved the water enough to set aside the time and money to learn how to swim. But something always seems to stand in the way, as if to say that it is not yet my time. Even though I have not set that time aside for myself, I have done so for my children. For those who cannot yet plan for themselves, for those who have not yet come into the awareness of how important a skill swimming is, someone must step up and take on that responsibility. For now, my children have me. Not a perfect being, but someone who keeps their best interests at the forefront. Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

11 min
MAR 20

Ep 29 Musings w/Mookie

Who decides the standards of dating and why do they keep changing? It could all be so simple but we keep making it harder by lying or pretending to be someone we are not. Well I don’t mean to say “we” as if I am included. The only time I could remember pretending was being a wife. Well someone else wife… Then again I wouldn’t say pretend but acquiesced. I felt trapped. There wasn’t a previous discussions of what would be expected to be his wife and if he had told me what to expect I would not have entered. That is the essence of dating. Getting out all of those expectations, well at least most. It was interpreted that I enjoyed cleaning because I was constantly cleaning and not that I was constantly cleaning because everyone was so messy all the time. Laughable still so many years later. I do not have a servant’s heart, I have a helper’s heart. Meaning I am more apt to want to help, not serve you. I wish dating could be easier for the youth but people have too many podcasts delivering caustic opinions. Opinions into a vacuum. Until next time. Here's a poem I wrote. It's not in my latest book, but it is how I have been feeling lately. This last one has been trying to leave me It's been hard letting go The person I let know me Is the one I have to let go So another one can find me Its been hard not because of comfort Because I really cared Because I couldn't doubt The feelings were really there Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

9 min
MAR 18

Ep 28Musings w/Mookie

I was sitting alone in the park and not bothering anyone. It was a public area and I couldn’t prevent anyone from sitting in a public setting. Someone approaches where I was sitting and I immediately look to the left and right to empty benches. It’s nighttime and I am a woman sitting alone in a busy area… this was not the time. Because I do not have a flowery or buttery disposition from the cares of the world and my personal ecosystem, it is hard for the stern voice to stay locked away. My thoughts immediately go to a “please not today” tone, but this real life and I have years of personnel experience of people encountering me and assuming the worse. *side note: what happen to pages automatically scrolling down when typing so that the current line is mid-page. Did I imagine that? Well I am sitting in this park and this man comes up to me and does not read the situation. Does not read my tone, body language and by now he has ignored the setting. It is a public place and I do not know if this man is homeless our not and there is already a homeless woman screaming to the rear of me and I rather not set another off. So I sit there and let a man prattle off about his manuscript that was stolen by someone else. The wind begins to nip at my arms and I offer advice begin again as I excuse myself back to my room. There is no need to further ruin a peaceful night by giving a rude send off. Sometimes I feel too polite. Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

10 min
MAR 16

Ep 27 Musings w/Mookie

Perspective: a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view. I had to recently look at how I viewed holidays. At one point in my life they were a joyous occasion. I loved decorating, organizing dinner or lunch gatherings, spreading the word on events or I was just there. I still do enjoy a reason to celebrate, even holidays that don’t involve my own cultural background. Why I do these invents has never been a question for me. It is a matter of perspective… I want to be involved with the collective if they allow. I’m not a fan of small talk but I am a fan of learning. The more I learn about you the more I find similarities between us. That give us something to join in joy with each other. Furthering how we can find shared interest. Same reason I like competition, beneficial competition. Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

11 min
MAR 14

Ep 26 Musings w/Mookie

Do you ever find yourself sitting and suddenly a thought pops up and then becomes so repetitive to point of having you act? Is that your intuition or a feeling of your standards not being met? Let’s look at the definitions of intuition and standard. Intuition: the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for conscious reasoning Standard: a level of quality, achievement, performance, etc., that is considered acceptable or desirable We all have some sort of intuition and in some things in our lives we have standards. Both are developed continuously. More often than not our standards are developed more than our intuition. Our intuition is ignored because of our wants. Our standards improve because our intuition was ignored. If we choose to ignore our intuition, let it not be for too long and for too little. Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

10 min
FEB 25

Ep 25 Musings w/Mookie

I don’t know what this audio is because it has been since Jan 19 since I have uploaded it. Luckily I put a title on the audio when initially save and that gives me a topic to write this blurb on. Parenting sucks. Not for everyone but for EVERYONE. There is just levels to the suckery that a good parent goes through. Obviously I am not talking to bad parents…like come on. So parenting sucks. You have the low level of suckery and that would be your sleep being deprived and scheduled rearranged in the form of rubik’s cube. A few random yearly illness - essentially light work. Give me that any day at this point but don’t because I love my schedule. Then you have the medium degeneracy of parenting. Maybe you are a single parenting through intentional circumstances but you have emotional and physical support. Just up the inconvenience a bit more, like from 50 to 150. Now just imagine the low level, then the medium minus the needed support. Add a shakey foundation of what it means to be a supportive parent through crisis. Meaning you came from a chaotic home life where you know nothing but to be responsible so you take on all of the responsibility of everyone’s emotions, blamed for everyone’s personal failures, and their negligent actions. By proxy parent of adults and children. Holding it all together to be the emotional foundation to keep your cool. This makes parenting suck. Maybe if it didnt suck, then I wouldn't be complimented on how well I am doing. I just know its hard a lot of days. Leaves you feeling like you are walking a tightrope where no e exists. Oh and btw - this isn’t gender specific. I’m for the people and this is to the collective. If you feel this way - it is okay. It gets hard. Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

12 min
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Ep 24 Musings w/Mookie

Be good to each other This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

11 min
JAN 20

Ep 23 Musings w/Mookie

What does it mean to consistently repeat something you didnt realize already happened before? If you are willing to learn then you are in your infancy of desiring to grow - a hunger. Maybe not infancy, maybe the first set of formative years of 2-7. If you refuse then you are at pubescent stage of refusing to believe that it is what you are seeing. That you need to see it to believe it. We repeat history, sometimes genetically. You have the green thumb of your great grandparents- that ancestral intuitive knowledge of what plants need. Maybe you find yourself really good with numbers like a parent you hadn't formed a bond with. Even darkness is ancestral. It doesnt mean we have to to repeat, just be aware. Be aware and use this knowledge to be helpful to ourselves and others. Be well. Mookie 💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

12 min

I’m a poet and the author of four books, exploring thoughts through both poetry and prose. Musings with Mookie is a solo podcast where I share reflections, writing practices, and observations on life - some direct, some layered, much like my poetry. mookiemadeit.substack.com

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Musings w/Mookie - reflections on life
Years Active

2025 - 2026
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31
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