Esencia

Catrina Armendariz

A podcast on sensual self-care, sacred sexuality and intimacy hosted by Hawaii’s leading sexologist, Catrina. RECLAIM and ENLIVEN your SENSUALITY, feel more EMPOWERED in your relationships, have the BEST SEX, and live a life FULL OF MAGIC. Join me as I share pleasure-centered wisdom, practices, relationship tips, and personal insights to ignite your passion in life and love.

  1. 11/12/2025

    14. Saturn’s Fire: Playing the Long Game in Love, Leadership & Legacy

    What if you’re not behind in love? What if Saturn is simply preparing you for the kind of union that's a match to your depth? In this deeply personal and illuminating transmission, Catrina shares the long arc of her 19-year Saturn Mahadasha — a sacred timeline of karmic relationships, feminine refinement, heartbreak, discipline, and devotion. Through the lens of Jyotish (Vedic astrology), she unpacks how Saturn initiates us into emotional maturity, spiritual leadership, and sovereign self-love. If you’ve ever felt like your path is slower, heavier, or more serious than others… this episode is for you.  It's a sweet reminder that Saturn's delays bear inevitable fruit, not the least of which is the most exquisite expansion you'll ever taste. And for feminine leaders, the love of your life often arrives only once you’ve become the woman who is fully a match to it. 🔥 Inside, we explore: The soul’s karmic blueprint through Saturn Mahadasha & Sade Sati The difference between Western & Vedic astrology (and why it matters) What Catrina looks for in Jyotish compatibility when dating intentionally The evolution from karmic entanglement to sovereign love Saturn in synastry, the D9 chart, and dharmic partnership Why Saturn teaches us to play the long game — in love, in legacy, and in becoming unshakable This is for the woman walking the path of devotion, discipline, and divine timing. The woman who leads with love — even when it costs her everything. The woman who’s done waiting… and is now becoming.

    1h 12m
  2. 11/10/2025

    13: When Saturn Breaks You Open: A Story of Rebirth, Responsibility & Rising

    In this episode, I share a raw transmission recorded during 2023's Saturn Retrograde. I was in the 2nd phase of my Sade Sati (Saturn's transit through the house before, of and after the moon) and the 17th year (of 19 years) of my Saturn Mahadasha. This is from the lens of Jyotish / Vedic Astrology. My natal Saturn is retrograde in Scorpio (indicating a more intense and interiorized activation of Saturn's themes), and this entire Saturn era has been a time of deep karmic reckoning, grief, and rebirth. I open up about breaking patterns, letting go of insidious coping mechanisms, reclaiming self-leadership, and the power of nervous system regulation in feminine evolution.   This is for the woman ready to meet her shadows, rise through devotion, and lead from embodied truth. Look out for upcoming episodes where I revisit Saturn's themes with more embodied integration. Timestamps 00:00 – Opening Transmission Claiming full-spectrum feminine leadership, orgasmic aliveness, and unapologetic self-expression. 01:52 – Context Behind the Recording Living off-grid, in Saturn Mahadasha + Sade Sati, and why this episode almost wasn’t published. 03:05 – Saturn's Leadership Initiation The cost of doing it alone, the need for sisterhood, and Saturn's invitation into embodied leadership. 08:42 – Birth of the Mastermind Why this journey inspired a 12-month container for self-leadership and feminine power. 09:52 – The Orgasmic Rocket Ship & Nervous System Mastery Blending sensual aliveness with structured expansion—leadership without burnout. 11:00 – Saturn Retrograde in Scorpio (Main Teaching) How karmic reckoning, discipline, and shadow work unlock deep transformation. 30:00 – Personal Story: Injury, Grief & Self-Parenting Breaking the body to break the pattern. The death of old coping strategies. Rising from the ashes. 57:00 – Inner Child, Forgiveness & Ancestral Compassion Meeting shame, holding love, and reclaiming power.

    1h 5m
  3. 11/09/2025 · VIDEO

    5. The Orgasm Upgrade: From Multiple Orgasms to Orgasmic States

    Let's explore multiple orgasms, multi-orgasmic experiences and orgasmic states. Inspired by her own journey into understanding her sexuality, Catrina passionately shares her early childhood experiences with erotic energy and evolution towards embracing multi-orgasmic states and exploring pleasure beyond traditional perspectives. Through her compelling narrative, Catrina embarks on a liberating journey to dismantle societal norms and stereotypes while fostering self-realization and healing. Discover the extraordinary world of clitoral orgasms, deep vaginal zone (g-spot, g-zone, cervical, etc.) orgasms, multiple orgasms, orgasmic states, pelvic contractions for orgasms, and so much more. Learn more about the clitoris, the glans clitoris, and the intricate nerve pathways that innervate the female genitalia access, offering diverse sensations of pleasure. Gain a clear understanding of the difference between localized genital orgasms and full-bodied orgasms, and delve into the sensory intricacies that culminate in an orgasmic state of consciousness. Beyond the physical, this episode also touches the mystical nexus between physical and emotional experiences—creating an orgasmic state of being that has the power to transform everyday life. Learn about the role of hormones, the concept of multiple orgasms, the refractory period, and the current scientific studies related to female orgasms. Our goal? To encourage women to embrace and enjoy their sexuality in a safe, shame-free, and empowering space. Listen to this episode to validate your experiences, gain insights, and spark inquiries into your own path of self-discovery and erotic energy. Are you ready for the journey into the extraordinary world of female pleasure?   Episode Highlights: [02:51] Multi-Orgasms vs. Orgasmic States [04:00] My First Orgasm & Erotic Innocence [05:07] Clitoral Orgasm [06:33] The Two Orgasm Types [07:50] Early Childhood Orgasmic Meditations [09:37] Pleasure as Escape (Attached vs. Unattached Enjoyment) [11:14] Emotional Release for Integrated Pleasure [12:44] The Four Nerve Pathways for Female Orgasm [14:45] Are All Orgasms Pleasurable? Compliant Sex. [15:28] All Senses vs. Friction-Based Orgasm [16:15] Vagus Nerve, Spinal Orgasms & Ejaculation [17:01] Hormonal Pathways to Orgasm [18:29] Self-Touch / Self-Pleasure [20:15] The Refractory Period [21:01] Explosive vs. Implosive Orgasms [21:41] The Major Scientific Study: Masters & Johnson  [23:39] Male vs. Female Centered View of Orgasm [23:55] Closing     Useful Links https://www.catrinax.com https://www.instagram.com/catrinaarmendariz https://www.youtube.com/@catrinax https://www.youtube.com/c/catrinaarmendariz

    25 min
  4. 11/07/2025

    12. Healing Dysregulated Arousal from the Inside Out: Mycoplasma STI, Sovereignty & Self-Pleasure Injury

    This is not your average sexual empowerment story. In this deeply personal episode, I share the unexpected journey of injuring myself during a self-pleasure practice, being diagnosed with Mycoplasma (specifically, Ureaplasma), and the spiral of shame and fear that followed, as well as the hormonal dysregulation this pointed to. This is a story about arousal literacy. The all too familiar experience you have when your body says “yes” whilst your nervous system screams “not yet.” It’s about reclaiming sovereignty when the very thing that once gave you life, your turn-on, feels like a betrayal. You’ll hear me reflect on: - The difference between regulated vs. dysregulated arousal - How pelvic tension, unprocessed grief, and overfunctioning play into sexual shutdown - The relationship between nervous system healing and cervical awakening - And the unexpected medicine of sexual rupture as a rite of passage This episode is part erotic memoir, part nervous system teaching, part spiritual transmission, and it’s a real-time unfolding of what it means to f**k yourself back to life... not in a performative way, but through profound honesty and repair. If you've ever felt confused by your body, terrified by your turn-on, or ashamed by your symptoms, this is for you. 00:00 Intro 04:40 The Erotic Spark & Dysregulated Arousal 11:58 Introducing (Phases 1 & 2) of the 3-phase Path to Orgasmic Sovereignty 22:27 Ancestral Integration + Real-time Alchemy 32:46 Introudcing the Mycoplasma STI + Regulated vs. Dysregulated Arousal 51:06 Female vs. Male Libido + Cyclical Arousal 60:00 Erotic Sovereignty + Holistic Dive into Erotic Self-Repair + Mycoplasma 67:38 Integration & Reclamation

    1h 31m
  5. 07/11/2025

    8. Holding the Expansion: Masculine Leadership with Jakob Gricar

    What does it mean to truly hold the expansion?  When life shapeshifts, identities fall away, and your next level calls you forward? In this powerful episode, I sit down with Jakob Gricar.  Trauma-informed coach, retreat leader, and masculine mirror for a raw, resonant conversation on nervous system alchemy, masculine integrity, identity death, and leading through chaos. We explore: • What women really crave in masculine presence • How to stay anchored when life pulls you into the unknown • Shame, co-regulation, and healing in community • Rewriting your relationship with wealth, purpose, and power • The inner game of character development and why it matters more than results This episode is for the woman who’s expanding fast and craving sacred structure to hold her rise. For the leader ready to stop performing and start anchoring in truth. For the one who knows her next evolution requires deep surrender and embodied masculine support. Let’s drop in. ____ Jakob Gricar is a trauma-informed transformational coach who blends a decade of mastery in somatic work, internal family systems, ontological coaching, NLP, and CBT and other modalities to catalyze profound inner change. From high-impact entrepreneurs to people stepping into their purpose, he guides clients to regulate their nervous systems, dismantle limiting identities, and remember the truth beneath the noise. His journey began at 13, when recovering from a chronic illness ignited a lifelong devotion to spiritual practice. That spark carried him from homelessness to near-death initiations, yogic studies in India, deep plant-medicine studies in the Amazon, and the creation of retreat centers in Guatemala and Mexico. Today, Jakob works with world-renowned coaches, mentors other business leaders, leads Vortex Retreats and runs a multi-six-figure online program. ______ Website: https://jakobgricar.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jakobgricar/ Private Podcast: app.helloaudio.fm/feed/0e67bdac-f779-4b45-9495-ddf6fe234d83/signup

    47 min
5
out of 5
19 Ratings

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A podcast on sensual self-care, sacred sexuality and intimacy hosted by Hawaii’s leading sexologist, Catrina. RECLAIM and ENLIVEN your SENSUALITY, feel more EMPOWERED in your relationships, have the BEST SEX, and live a life FULL OF MAGIC. Join me as I share pleasure-centered wisdom, practices, relationship tips, and personal insights to ignite your passion in life and love.