Fall From Grace

Tony Bailey

Fall From Grace is a raw, honest, lived-experience podcast about losing everything — and rebuilding from zero. I share the truth behind my business collapse, an ASIC investigation, addiction, mental health, heartbreak, shame, survival, and the long road back to myself. No hype. No shortcuts. Just what it actually looks like when your life falls apart and you’re forced to rebuild it piece by piece. These are the chapters we don’t usually talk about — the uncomfortable ones that shape who we become. Each episode is a reflection on identity, accountability, recovery, and what it takes to start again when the version of your life you planned is gone. If you’ve ever hit rock bottom, questioned who you are, or felt alone in the mess of rebuilding — this podcast is for you.

  1. 2월 8일

    Fall From Grace | Your Worst Day Might Be Your Best Qualification

    Keywords addiction, mental health, identity, shame, failure, resilience, growth, leadership, authenticity, belonging Summary In this episode of Full Home Race, Tony Bailey explores the themes of success, failure, and resilience, challenging conventional notions of qualifications and leadership. He emphasizes the importance of understanding one's story and the growth that comes from adversity, advocating for a broader definition of what it means to be qualified in life and work. Takeaways This podcast discusses the parts of life we don't usually talk about. Rebuilding a life after failure is a central theme. Assumptions and judgments often cloud our understanding of others' stories. Resilience is a key factor in achieving career goals and job satisfaction. Leadership is often forged in vulnerability and discomfort. Society tends to celebrate success but shies away from failure. Authenticity is valued but can lead to punishment in professional settings. True belonging requires widening the circle of acceptance. Growth comes from reflection and learning from failure. Your past experiences shape your present value and worth. Titles Redefining Success: A Journey Through Adversity The Hidden Lessons of Failure Sound bites "What it takes to rebuild a life." "We love resilience after someone succeeds." "Growth doesn't happen through perfection." Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Full Home Race 03:40 The Value of Resilience and Learning 08:13 Embracing Your Story as Context

    13분
  2. 🎙️ Fall From Grace | Episode 15 | Detox Was the First Time I Stopped Running

    1월 26일

    🎙️ Fall From Grace | Episode 15 | Detox Was the First Time I Stopped Running

    Keywords detox, recovery, addiction, mental health, shame, emotional healing, substance abuse, personal growth, rehabilitation, self-awareness Summary In this episode of Fall From Grace, Tony Bailey shares his personal journey through detox and recovery, emphasizing the often misunderstood nature of detox. He discusses the emotional and physical challenges faced during detox, the importance of creating a safe space for healing, and the transition to rehabilitation. The episode highlights the significance of facing inner turmoil and the readiness for change as crucial steps in the recovery process. Takeaways Detox is often misunderstood; it's not punishment. The purpose of detox is to stabilize the body and nervous system. Detox takes away the escape, not just the substance. Silence in detox can be uncomfortable but necessary. Time feels different in detox; progress is measured in hours. Detox creates a pause that allows for reflection. It's not a solution but a doorway to recovery. Readiness for the next step is crucial after detox. Detox helps in facing what has been avoided for years. Recovery begins when you stop lying to yourself. Titles The Journey Through Detox: A Personal Reflection Understanding Detox: More Than Just Withdrawal Sound bites "Detox is the doorway to something bigger." "I felt exposed. But I also felt readiness." "That's where the recovery actually begins." Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Detox and Recovery 03:56 The Silence of Detox

    12분
  3. 🎙️ Fall From Grace | Episode 14 | The Woman That Saved Me

    1월 16일

    🎙️ Fall From Grace | Episode 14 | The Woman That Saved Me

    Summary In this heartfelt episode of "Fall From Grace," Tony Bailey opens up about the profound impact his mother, Agnes, has had on his life. He shares raw and vulnerable moments, reflecting on how her unwavering support and love helped him through his darkest times. The episode is a tribute to Agnes, celebrating her strength, resilience, and the lessons she imparted, emphasizing the power of gentleness and presence in healing and survival. Keywords Tony Bailey, Fall From Grace, Agnes, resilience, healing, support, vulnerability, strength, survival, love "This podcast isn't about having it all figured out. It's about telling the truth, even when it's uncomfortable." "Today's episode is the most vulnerable and raw I've been yet in telling my story." "My mum's unwavering support saved me in my darkest moments." "Collapse isn't loud; it's quiet, slow, and private." "Isolation is where things get loud inside your head." "Real strength is consistency. Love doesn't need to be loud to be powerful." "Gentleness creates safety, and safety allows someone to come back to themselves." "Belief is powerful, not the loud motivational kind, but the quiet belief that says 'I see you.'" "This isn't about survival anymore. This is about honour." "Saving someone doesn't always look traumatic. Sometimes it just looks like staying long enough for them to find their way back." Soundbites "Today's episode is the most vulnerable and raw I've been yet." "My mum's unwavering support saved me." "Collapse isn't loud; it's quiet, slow, and private." "Isolation is where things get loud inside your head." "Real strength is consistency." "Gentleness creates safety." "Belief is powerful." "This isn't about survival anymore." "Saving someone doesn't always look traumatic." "The album is out now. Track 16 is Agnes." Chapters 00:00:00 Introduction and Purpose 00:00:00 The Impact of Agnes 00:00:00 Understanding Collapse and Isolation 00:00:00 The Power of Gentleness and Presence 00:00:00 A Mother's Unwavering Support 00:00:00 Conclusion and Tribute to Agnes

    17분
  4. 🎙️ Fall From Grace | Episode 13 | I Didn’t Know You Could Overdose Like This

    1월 11일

    🎙️ Fall From Grace | Episode 13 | I Didn’t Know You Could Overdose Like This

    Keywords addiction, mental health, recovery, psychosis, stimulant overdose, emotional collapse, rehab, shame, support, journey Summary In this episode of 'Fall from Grace', Tony Bailey shares his deeply personal journey through addiction, mental health struggles, and the path to recovery. He candidly discusses the emotional and physical turmoil he faced during a stimulant overdose, the impact of psychosis, and the importance of seeking help. The episode emphasizes the significance of understanding mental health issues without shame and highlights the support received during his recovery process. Takeaways This podcast is about the parts of life we usually hide. I thought I crossed some invisible line and there was no way back. Stimulant overdose looks like extreme paranoia. Psychosis isn't weakness; it's a brain injury happening in real time. I wasn't broken. My body was saying enough. The scariest part wasn't the panic; it was the voices. I felt heard for the first time. There was a small light in a very dark place. I didn't survive losing everything; look where I am. I'm scared. And I don't want to do this. Titles From Darkness to Light: A Journey of Recovery Understanding the Depths of Addiction Sound bites "I don't want to be here anymore." "Addiction? You've won." "I felt heard." Chapters 00:00 Introduction to the Journey 05:32 The Role of Compassionate Care 10:19 Entering Rehab

    19분
  5. 🎙️ Fall From Grace | The Day I Couldn’t Pretend Anymore

    1월 5일

    🎙️ Fall From Grace | The Day I Couldn’t Pretend Anymore

    In this episode of Fall From Grace, Tony shares one of the most confronting chapters of his story — the period where addiction didn’t look like chaos, but control. “The Day I Couldn’t Pretend Anymore” explores high-functioning addiction, shame, and the quiet erosion that happens long before everything collapses. Tony breaks down what addiction was actually like for him, why judgement makes it worse, and how neuroscience helps explain why stopping isn’t just about willpower. This episode also marks the moment where pretending became impossible — and where a single phone call changed the trajectory of his life. If you’ve ever felt like you were holding it together on the outside while falling apart inside, this episode is for you. 🎧 Take part in this episode’s poll 💛 Share this with someone who might need it ⭐ Follow the podcast on Spotify to never miss an episode Support: If you’re in Australia, Lifeline is available on 13 11 14. If you’re elsewhere, local crisis services are available worldwide. ⚠️ CONTENT WARNING This episode contains discussion of addiction, mental health distress, psychosis, and a personal crisis point involving thoughts of not wanting to continue living. There is no graphic detail or method description. Listener discretion is advised. If this content feels overwhelming, please pause or seek support. CHAPTERS 01:46 There's A Version Of Addiction We Don't Talk About Much 02:31 Life Didn't Stop & That's What's Messed With My Head The Most 04:20 Uncomfortable Truths About Addiction 05:43 What Do We Know Today About Addiction? 09:18 Hope To Bring Humanity To These Conversations Rather Than Judgement 10:22 Reflection On What We Know Today 10:36 My Body Showing Signs Well Before My Ego Caught Up 11:56 Crossroads 14:21 Arriving At St Vinnies Hospital, Melbourne 15:10 Support Is Available 15:47 Thank You For Listening Today

    18분
  6. 🎙️ Fall From Grace | Waking Up in the Fire: Addiction, Shame & the Illusion of Being “Okay”

    2025. 12. 21.

    🎙️ Fall From Grace | Waking Up in the Fire: Addiction, Shame & the Illusion of Being “Okay”

    Keywords mental health, addiction, recovery, personal growth, resilience, support, connection, shame, courage, self-discovery Summary In this episode of the Fall From Grace podcast, Tony Bailey shares his deeply personal journey through the collapse of his life, grappling with addiction, and the path to recovery. He reflects on the emotional turmoil of losing everything, the struggle with mental health, and the importance of connection and support in overcoming challenges. Through candid storytelling, he emphasizes the lessons learned about shame, accountability, and the courage it takes to ask for help. Takeaways This whole process has been confronting, emotional, and unexpectedly freeing. I lost everything. No home. No certainty. A friend offered me his couch. Six weeks. Crystal meth gave me comfort. It gave me calm. Addiction isn't about wanting to destroy your life. Shame thrives in silence. Connection saves lives. Asking for help isn't weakness, it's courage. The moment I spoke honestly, shame started to lose its grip. Accountability isn't about punishment, it's about reclaiming your integrity. Sound bites "I was showing up, working. Functioning." "Shame thrives in silence." "Connection saves lives." Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Personal Reflection 01:59 You Are Not Alone 03:40 Waking Up In My Car 05:41 The Descent into Addiction 10:51 Lets Pause For A Moment 12:21 Realizations and Seeking Help 15:38 The Lies I Was Telling Myself 16:31 Gratitude For Someone Who Was There For Me 19:58 The Turning Point: 12-Step Meeting 22:57 What I've Learnt 26:05 The Journey of Recovery and Connection 🆘 SUPPORT SERVICES If this episode has brought up difficult feelings or you’re struggling right now, please know that support is available. You don’t have to go through this alone. 🇦🇺 Australia Lifeline 📞 13 11 14 🌐 https://www.lifeline.org.au 24/7 crisis support for anyone experiencing emotional distress or suicidal thoughts. Beyond Blue 📞 1300 22 4636 🌐 https://www.beyondblue.org.au Support for anxiety, depression, and mental health challenges. Alcohol and Drug Information Service (ADIS) 📞 1800 250 015 🌐 https://www.health.vic.gov.au/alcohol-and-drugs 24/7 confidential information, support, and referrals for alcohol and other drug use. Suicide Call Back Service 📞 1300 659 467 🌐 https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au 24/7 counselling for people experiencing suicidal thoughts and those supporting them. MensLine Australia 📞 1300 78 99 78 🌐 https://mensline.org.au 24/7 support for men dealing with mental health, relationships, and life challenges. 13YARN (Aboriginal & Torres Strait Islander Crisis Support) 📞 13 92 76 🌐 https://www.13yarn.org.au 24/7 culturally safe crisis support for Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander peoples. 🌍 Worldwide / International Find a Helpline 🌐 https://findahelpline.com A global directory of free, confidential mental health and crisis helplines in over 150 countries. Befrienders Worldwide 🌐 https://www.befrienders.org International support network offering emotional support and suicide prevention resources. Samaritans (UK & Ireland) 📞 +44 (0)8457 90 90 90 🌐 https://www.samaritans.org 24/7 confidential support for anyone in distress. Crisis Services Canada 📞 1-833-456-4566 🌐 https://www.crisisservicescanada.ca 24/7 support for people in crisis or experiencing suicidal thoughts. 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (USA) 📞 Call or text 988 🌐 https://988lifeline.org 24/7 free and confidential emotional support in the United States. If you’re in immediate danger, please contact your local emergency services. 💬 A gentle reminder Asking for help isn’t weakness — it’s courage. Connection saves lives.

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  7. 🎙️ Fall From Grace | How Writing My First Song Helped Me Heal What I Couldn't Say

    2025. 12. 09.

    🎙️ Fall From Grace | How Writing My First Song Helped Me Heal What I Couldn't Say

    Series: Songs That Saved Me This week’s Songs That Saved Me episode is a little different… because the song we’re talking about is mine.My first original track, “Fall From Grace,” is officially live on Spotify, and I wanted to take you behind the scenes of how it came to life — the emotions that built it, the moments that shaped it, and why writing it cracked something open in me that I didn’t even realise I’d been holding shut for years.This episode isn’t about being a singer or chasing a dream of music.It’s about survival.It’s about finally having a way to express anger, shame, guilt, desperation, loneliness, and all the things I’ve carried for way too long.I talk about: • the creative process • how AI actually helped me express things I couldn’t put words to • what the lyrics really mean • the emotional weight behind the song • why letting yourself express something — in any way — can change the way you carry itNo advice, no preaching — just my experience and what’s been working for me.If you’ve been sitting with emotions you don’t know how to process or things you don’t know how to let go of… I hope this episode helps you feel less alone.🎧 Listen to “Fall From Grace” on Spotify — link in bio🩶 #TheComebackIsReal⏱️ Chapters00:00 — Intro: A Different Kind of Episode00:45 — The Moment I Realised I Needed to Write This Song02:10 — Why Music Has Always Said What I Couldn’t03:20 — Using AI to Pull Emotions into Something Real05:00 — The Hardest Parts to Write (and Why)06:30 — What the Lyrics Actually Mean for Me Personally08:15 — The Feelings I’ve Carried for 10 Years09:40 — Shame, Guilt, Anger — All the Stuff I Never Spoke About11:00 — Why Expressing Yourself in Any Form Matters12:20 — My Hope for Anyone Listening13:15 — Can I Play the Song Here? (And Why I Didn’t)14:00 — Outro + Support Services🔍 Keywordsfall from gracetony baileyfall from grace podcastsongs that saved memusic and mental healthaddiction recovery storieshealing through creativitywriting through traumaADHD and addictionaustralian mental health podcastemotional healingcreative coping toolsmusic as therapysurviving rock bottomovercoming shameaddiction recovery journeymental health storytellerredeeming your past📞 Support Services (Australia)If this episode brought something up for you, please reach out.Lifeline — 13 11 14Beyond Blue — 1300 224 636Suicide Call Back Service — 1300 659 467MensLine Australia — 1300 789 978You’re not alone. Ever.If this episode connected with you, it would mean the world if you hit Follow on Spotify, shared the show with a mate, or added my track “Fall From Grace” to your playlists. This whole project is helping me heal in real time — and I hope it helps you in some way too.

    9분

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Fall From Grace is a raw, honest, lived-experience podcast about losing everything — and rebuilding from zero. I share the truth behind my business collapse, an ASIC investigation, addiction, mental health, heartbreak, shame, survival, and the long road back to myself. No hype. No shortcuts. Just what it actually looks like when your life falls apart and you’re forced to rebuild it piece by piece. These are the chapters we don’t usually talk about — the uncomfortable ones that shape who we become. Each episode is a reflection on identity, accountability, recovery, and what it takes to start again when the version of your life you planned is gone. If you’ve ever hit rock bottom, questioned who you are, or felt alone in the mess of rebuilding — this podcast is for you.