The Arsenal Church

The Arsenal Church

Welcome to the audio podcast of The Arsenal Church in Southtown San Antonio. We hope that these podcasts encourage you, speak life, and bring hope to you throughout your week. To learn more about The Arsenal Church visit www.thearsenal.church.

  1. Aug 23

    The Prayer You Were Never Allowed to Pray | Unforced (Week 3) | Chad Belew

    A third of the Psalms are lament. Church gave grief one sentence. Week three of Unforced opens with a confession: Chad is not good with grief. Not his, not yours. He traces where that comes from — personality, a nervous system trained over deployments in Iraq, and mostly how he was raised, including and maybe especially in church. Nobody taught him to grieve. He was taught to get past it. They're in a better place. God needed another angel. Everything happens for a reason. Sentences you reach for like a light switch in a dark room, because the dark is uncomfortable and the switch is right there. There's a name for it: spiritual bypassing, coined by psychologist John Welwood in the 1980s — using spiritual language to step around pain instead of through it. It sounds holy. It's a trap door out of the room before the grief finishes its sentence. And bypassed grief doesn't resolve. It waits. Then the turn: the book we built that curriculum on never did this. Roughly a third of the Psalms — the prayer book Jesus grew up singing — are lament. And Psalm 88 ends in the dark. Almost every lament Psalm turns; somewhere near the end there's a "but." Psalm 88 has no but. Its last line is "darkness is my closest friend." Someone looked at that prayer and said: that goes in the book. Which means there's a page in Scripture for the day your sentence doesn't get better. From there it widens. Job's friends, who did the best pastoral care in the Old Testament for exactly seven days of silence — then opened their mouths, and were told at the end that they had not spoken rightly. Dacher Keltner finding small moments of awe inside the grief of losing his brother, and the research that puts death on the list of things that most reliably produce awe, right next to the night sky. Brené Brown and Stanford's James Gross on why you cannot selectively numb — suppression doesn't reduce the pain, it reliably reduces the joy. And Walter Brueggemann's claim that only grief permits newness: the prophets wept in public first, because a system runs on nobody feeling anything, and public grief is the crack in it. Chad is careful with the guardrail — he is not saying your pain has a purpose. The claim is narrower: the door grief opens and the door awe opens are the same door, which means the faith that taught you to slam one shut closed the other too. It lands on the first page of the Bible, where there is darkness over the deep and the first thing God does is speak into it. In this episode: - A confession: "I'm not good with grief" - The sentences we were handed — "they're in a better place" - Hope is a discipline, not a feeling (a clip from Dr. Ulcca Joshi Hansen) - "You're not out of hope. You're out of practice." - You cannot train imagination on a numbed heart - The grief nobody threw you a funeral for - Spiritual bypassing — naming what we were taught instead - A third of the Psalms are lament - Psalm 88 — the prayer with no "but" - Job's friends: seven days of silence, then they spoke - Keltner, his brother, and awe found inside grief - Guardrail: your pain does not have a purpose - You cannot selectively numb - Empire wants to colonize your imagination - "Only grief permits newness" - Genesis 1 — God speaks into the darkness - The practice: write the prayer you were never allowed to pray ???? References: Psalm 88 · Job 2:13 and Job 24 · Genesis 1:1–3 · John 11 (Lazarus) · John Welwood on spiritual bypassing · David Gushee on Job · Dacher Keltner on awe · Brené Brown · James Gross on emotional suppression · Walter Brueggemann, The Prophetic Imagination · Rob Bell, How to Be Here Series: Unforced Speaker: Chad Belew Date: 8/23/2026 Location: The Arsenal, San Antonio, TX — The Arsenal | San Antonio, TX ???? thearsenal.church ???? Download the Arsenal Church app ???? Questions or need prayer? hello@thearsenal.church ???? Give: thearsenal.church/give

  2. Aug 16

    The Bush Was Already Burning | Unforced (Week 2) | Chad Belew

    What if God isn't showing up — and you're just finally waking up? Week two of Unforced starts with a Swiss engineer named George de Mestral, who came home from a walk with his dog covered in burrs and, instead of grumbling and brushing them off like every human before him, put one under a microscope. That's where Velcro came from. The burr was always sticky. Nature was never hiding anything. Somebody finally looked. From there Chad runs the invisible-gorilla experiment as the frame — you don't see the world, you see what you're looking for — and asks the question the rest of the morning sits on: what is your filter doing to God? That lands in Genesis 28, a story he says he's never preached in eleven years here. Jacob, on the run after conning his brother, sleeps on a rock and dreams of a stairway. Notice what the dream is not: nothing descends, nothing arrives. The stairway is already resting on the earth, the traffic is already running, and Jacob has camped in the middle of the interchange without knowing it. "Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it." Nothing changed about that patch of desert — Jacob woke up. Which makes the modern vocabulary of "bringing the presence" to a city sound strange: the whole point of the story where Bethel gets named is that the presence was already in Luz. Nobody brings God to San Antonio. He isn't missing. The only thing a church has ever brought to a city is its attention — or its lack of it. The back half turns noticing from a mood into a skill: Moses and a bush that was already burning, and the woman in Mark 5 whose one touch Jesus felt inside a crushing crowd — the person every other filter deleted, handed back the name nobody had spoken over her in twelve years. Then the research. Dacher Keltner's awe walks, where fifteen minutes a week and one instruction changed how people saw their ordinary days, and their selfies started holding less self and more world. Simone Weil went further: attention, in its purest form, simply is prayer — "the rarest and purest form of generosity." The question isn't whether your attention is being trained. It is. The question is what you're practicing, and whether you picked it. In this episode: - Biomimicry, and how a dog covered in burrs became Velcro - Why last week's practice has no scoreboard — "nothing happens even if you miss it" - The invisible gorilla: you don't see the world, you see what you're looking for - Jacob at Bethel — the stairway was already there, the traffic already running - Maqom and HaMaqom: "he is the place of the world, and the world is not his place" - Nobody brings God to San Antonio — a city named for the finder of lost things - Moses and the bush that was already burning - Mark 5: the one touch Jesus felt in a crushing crowd, and the word "daughter" - Attention as what turns an "it" into a "thou" - Dacher Keltner's awe walks — and the selfies with less self in them - Simone Weil: attention as generosity, and as prayer - The practice: one 15-minute awe walk this week, phone at home References: Genesis 28 (Jacob at Bethel) · Exodus 3 (the burning bush, The Message) · Mark 5 (the woman in the crowd) · Leviticus 15 · Dacher Keltner on awe · Simone Weil on attention · Martin Buber, I and Thou · Rachel Held Evans, A Year of Biblical Womanhood Series: Unforced Speaker: Chad Belew Date: 8/16/2026 Location: The Arsenal, San Antonio, TX — The Arsenal | San Antonio, TX thearsenal.church Download the Arsenal Church app Questions or need prayer? hello@thearsenal.church Give: thearsenal.church/give

  3. Aug 9

    Nobody Argues Their Way Into a New Life | Unforced (Week 1) | Chad Belew

    What if the life you're trying to earn is one you've already been given? Chad opens Unforced — an eight-week series on the rhythms of grace — by going back to where the summer left off. Four people stood on this stage and told their stories, and across four very different lives one word kept surfacing. It wasn't a churchy one. It was safe. From there he opens Matthew 11 in Eugene Peterson's translation: "Come to me… get away with me and you'll recover your life… learn the unforced rhythms of grace." He takes apart what a yoke actually was, why "rooted and grounded" in Ephesians is a Greek perfect passive — already done, and done to you — and what the Eastern church meant by theosis: becoming like Christ isn't the prize at the finish line, it's the life right now. He's blunt about the risk of a series like this. If any week of it starts to feel like a scoreboard, a new way to fail, come tell him — because then it was built wrong. The practices ahead are deliberately small, and the smallness is the theology: if you can't fail it, it can't become a scoreboard. Nobody argued their way into a new life. They practiced their way there, in a room where it was finally safe to stop hiding. In this episode: - A month of listening to your stories - The one word that showed up in all four: "safe" - Matthew 11 — "I'll show you how to take a real rest" - What a yoke actually was, and how that changes the invitation - Practices, not performance - "If this sounds like a new way to fail, come tell me" - Already rooted, already grounded — the Greek perfect passive - Theosis — becoming like Christ is the life, not the prize - Jesus and the Sabbath - Why the series is called Unforced ???? References: Matthew 11:28–30 (The Message) · Ephesians 3:17–19 · the Sabbath grain-field accounts Series: Unforced Speaker: Chad Belew Date: 8/9/2026 Location: The Arsenal, San Antonio, TX — The Arsenal | San Antonio, TX ???? thearsenal.church ???? Download the Arsenal Church app ???? Questions or need prayer? hello@thearsenal.church ???? Give: thearsenal.church/give

  4. Aug 2

    I Had to Believe Shalom for Myself, Too | Arsenal Stories (Week 4) | Taryn Tipton

    What if the faith that formed you also handed you the things you'd spend years unlearning? Arsenal Stories continues — the series where we stop knowing people as a category and actually hear what they've lived. Taryn Tipton shares her faith journey: growing up in a small town where church, school, and family were so intertwined that "every part of my life was connected and colored by church." It was mostly good. And the same people who taught her about Jesus also taught her that a woman couldn't preach, that being gay is a sin, and quietly excluded people she loved. The beautiful and the harmful, all wrapped together. Underneath it, she was scared all the time — scared she'd gotten salvation wrong, scared of the rapture, wondering if she needed to get baptized again just to be safe. She traces what came next: discovering Shalom and a faith bigger than staying out of hell, deconstruction, a mustard-seed tattoo, a one-way flight to Spain, and finding God in a smoky temple in Bali, a Catholic mass, the NICU after her daughter was born, and crying with her foster son's mom. It lands on the line she had to grow into: if she could believe in Shalom for the world, she had to believe it for herself too. In this episode: - Finding the Arsenal — Daniel, Grace, and their foster son Alistair - Why she'd never told this story before - When every part of life was church — the beautiful and the harmful, wrapped together - Being scared of the rapture, and never sure salvation "took" - Shalom: a faith bigger than staying out of hell - Deconstruction, and a mustard seed tattoo - A one-way flight to Spain - Seeing God in Bali, a Catholic mass, the NICU, and her foster son's mom - "If I believed in Shalom for the world, I had to believe it for myself, too" - Ephesians 4: "Live a life worthy of the calling you have received" ???? References: Ephesians 4:1 · Matthew 17:20 (the mustard seed) · the idea of Shalom Series: Stories Speaker: Taryn Tipton Date: 8/2/2026 Location: The Arsenal, San Antonio, TX — The Arsenal | San Antonio, TX ???? thearsenal.church ???? Download the Arsenal Church app ???? Questions or need prayer? hello@thearsenal.church ???? Give: thearsenal.church/give

  5. Jul 26

    Nothing I Asked For, But Everything I Needed | Arsenal Stories (Week 3) | Nate Kindig

    What happens when you finally learn the history of the church that raised you? Arsenal Stories continues — the series where we stop filing people away as "the guy in the back row" and actually hear what they've lived. Chad opens by introducing Nate: one of the kindest and smartest people you'll meet, and someone who has been in church a long time. Then Nate Kindig tells his story. He grew up Southern Baptist in Georgia, in Christian school, headed for vocational ministry — and by his own account he was *really, really good* at the order stage: he knew the rules, he met everyone's expectations, he kept the peace. Then the ground moved. He walks through the actual history of his denomination (including why it was founded in Augusta in 1845, and what it has and hasn't apologized for since), what it was like to move to the Dominican Republic and learn faith in someone else's language, and what he found on the other side of certainty — including a therapist who was "nothing I asked for, but everything I needed." Chad closes with the story of the bodies in the river: what it cost to walk upstream, being called a heretic for it, and who was already up there tending the fire when he arrived. In this episode: - Chad introduces Nate — and why this series exists - Growing up Southern Baptist: Christian school, the rules, and being good at "order" - A history of church denominations — including the 1845 founding of the Southern Baptist Convention - Order, disorder, reorder - The Dominican Republic: learning faith in another language - Looking for a therapist — and the one who showed up - "She was nothing that I asked for, but she was everything that I needed" - Chad: the bodies in the river, walking upstream, and the people around the fire - "If we can't welcome people, I don't think we're teaching the gospel" ???? References: the order → disorder → reorder framework · a history-of-church-denominations chart (truthforsaints.com) · Martin Buber (quoted in Chad's close) Series: Stories Speaker: Nate Kindig Date: 7/26/2026 Location: The Arsenal, San Antonio, TX — The Arsenal | San Antonio, TX ???? thearsenal.church ???? Download the Arsenal Church app ???? Questions or need prayer? hello@thearsenal.church ???? Give: thearsenal.church/give

  6. Jul 19

    What Happens When You Stop Pretending You're Fine | Arsenal Stories (Week 2) | Alexis Uribes

    What if the hardest thing to admit at church is that you're not okay? Arsenal Stories continues — the series where we stop saying a quick "hi" and actually hear what people survived to walk through the door. Chad opens on why the #1 source of awe across cultures isn't a canyon or the sky but *other people*, and how moral beauty — watching one human being love another — is the thing that undoes us. Then Alexis Uribes tells her story. She grew up as the baby of the family, the "good kid" who wanted to care for people and had it all together — and slowly built an identity around always having it together. Being the version everyone complimented meant it got harder and harder to let anyone see her tired, overwhelmed, or not okay. In a church culture where the only acceptable answer to "How are you?" was "We're fine," she learned to wear the mask. Through John Lynch's picture of two roads — the *pleasing God* path and the *trusting God* path — Alexis found language for what had been quietly breaking her, took the mask off, and found a place that finally felt safe: you don't have to have all the answers, you can ask the questions, you can be honest, and you're still loved. Chad closes on what real love actually does — it moves closer. In this episode: - Why the #1 source of awe across cultures is *other people* — and moral beauty (Chad's intro to the Stories series) - Alexis: the baby of the family, the "good kid" who wanted to care for people - Building an identity around always having it together - "How are you?" "We're fine." — the mask everyone learns to wear - John Lynch's two roads: the pleasing-God path vs. the trusting-God path - Taking the mask off — finding a place that finally felt safe - Chad: real love moves closer ???? References: John Lynch — *The Cure* / *TrueFaced* (pleasing God vs. trusting God); the study of awe & moral beauty (Dacher Keltner) — The Arsenal | San Antonio, TX ???? thearsenal.church ???? Download the Arsenal Church app ???? Questions or need prayer? hello@thearsenal.church ???? Give: thearsenal.church/give

  7. Jul 12

    When the House You Built Your Faith In Stops Feeling Safe | Arsenal Stories (Week 1) | Mark Bryand

    What happens when the house you built your whole faith inside of suddenly stops feeling safe? We're kicking off a new series — Arsenal Stories — on a simple conviction: you've been saying hi to people for years without ever knowing what they survived to walk through the door. Chad opens by tracing why the number one source of awe across cultures isn't the sky or a canyon — it's other people — and why every face is a "Thou," never an "it." Then Mark Bryand tells his story. He grew up in a beautiful, spirit-filled faith "house" that gave him love, music, and community — but also taught him that certainty was safer than curiosity and that wrestling made people uncomfortable. One day he woke up and home no longer felt safe. From the outside nothing looked different; inside, everything had changed. What followed — the songs that felt heavy, the prayers that hit the ceiling, the walking away — is what a lot of us call deconstruction. But broken walls can become open doors. Through grief, his mom's words ("everything you need is already within you"), and Psalm 139's promise that there is nowhere we can go from God's presence, Mark found his way home to love — and back to the music. In this episode: Why the #1 source of awe across cultures is other people (Chad's intro to the Stories series)Mark's "house" — the faith that formed him, and the rules that taught certainty over curiosityWaking up when home no longer feels safe: the start of deconstructionThe turtle that only grows to the size of its home — and the glass walls of religionGrief, his mom, and "everything you need is already within you"Psalm 139 (read by Jett Belew) — nowhere you can go from God's presenceBroken walls become open doors: finding the way home to loveScripture: Psalm 139 The Arsenal — San Antonio, TX. Sundays 11am, 105 Sadie St. thearsenal.church · thearsenal.church/give · hello@thearsenal.church

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Welcome to the audio podcast of The Arsenal Church in Southtown San Antonio. We hope that these podcasts encourage you, speak life, and bring hope to you throughout your week. To learn more about The Arsenal Church visit www.thearsenal.church.