One Thousand Words - Stories On The Way

Matthew Clark

Singer / Songwriter / Storyteller

  1. Unreliable Narrators

    10H AGO

    Unreliable Narrators

    Unreliable Narrators by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/OTW_S6_E10_Unreliable-Narrators.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here A couple of years ago, I was in another city that I’ve visited many times over the years. It was Sunday morning, and I was walking into a church which I’ve also visited a good many times. As you probably know, most churches have greeters standing at the door of the sanctuary to welcome people and, often, they’re handing out liturgy bulletins and such. On this particular morning, I saw that one of the greeters was someone I knew. Now, it had been several years since I’d seen them, but they’re a songwriter whose work I admire and follow online. In fact, about a decade prior, some friends and I had even organized a small writer’s retreat with them.   Let me stop for a moment just to say that everything I’m describing took place in a few seconds and most of it entirely in my head.  As I walked up to the sanctuary door, something in me interpreted the whole scene in a split second. Here’s the interpretation: “This songwriter you admire doesn’t know who you are, so when you walk up and he hands you a church bulletin, just say thanks and move on. You remember him, but, to him, you don’t have a name or any particular meaning.”   Okay, so that’s the narration in my head, if I were to put it into words. I should say that it didn’t initially come in words—it was more of a sense, like something I just assumed to be the case. At any rate, it wasn’t an unreasonable or even bothersome narration. It seemed more or less plain and factual. So, I acted accordingly. I walked up to take the bulletin with the intuitive assumption that this guy had no idea who I was, wouldn’t remember me, and it wasn’t a big deal.   Can you guess what happened next?   As I approached, he smiled and said, “Hey, Matthew! It’s been a long time. Great to see you here!”  How about that? It turns out he did remember me. He even remembered my name. What’s more he even seemed genuinely glad to see me. But the surprises don’t stop there! Here’s what he said next, “Hey, next time you’re in town, shoot me a text, I’d love to get lunch and catch up with you.”   Well, that was just about too much. Not only did he correctly identify me. Not only did he fail to express displeasure at my sudden appearance, seeming glad instead, but he actually wanted to hangout. My internal narrator had completely dropped the ball on every single point and failed to prepare me at all for a whole bunch of unexpected good.    How about another example? I’ve got an embarrassing amount of these stories in my back pocket. For instance, once I was at a conference reaching for the door handle of the room I was about to enter—the noisy bustle of people all around me—when I heard a voice say, “Matthew Clark you can’t go in there!” I stopped in my tracks and looked around for a face to match the voice. It was yet another person, who like the fellow in the previous story, I would have thought maybe wouldn’t remember me. We had a quick, friendly conversation for a minute before we both continued with what we’d been doing.   But, I have to admit that after that little meeting, I noticed the same sense of incredulity that I’d felt at the door of the sanctuary when that songwriter I admired greeted me with such warmth and connection. I felt surprised that the voice who said my name from the busy crowd would even think to say anything to me at all. My internal narrator was really falling down on the job of aligning my internal sense of things with actual reality.  Would you like another story like this? Of course you do. Why not? So, there was another time that I showed up a little late to a party that I felt a little surprised to even be invited to. I’d arrived by myself and most everyone else seemed to have already found a conversational groove or grouped off into a comfortable corner of the room to chat with someone, and so forth. I, on the other hand, had just stepped into the room and was searching for something or someone familiar with whom I might connect. I was feeling a little bit disjointed, honestly, when suddenly a hand clapped me on the shoulder from behind, and a voice said, “Matthew! Hey man, glad you made it to the party, follow me real quick.”  Before I knew it I was following this fellow through the twists and turns of the kitchen, a hallway or two, and finally into a little storage room where he produced a bottle of fancy whiskey and a few glasses—one for me, one for him, and one to be delivered to another friend elsewhere.   But here’s the thing, I was whisked up into this unexpected whiskey-run by someone who, two minutes earlier, my internal narrator was assuring me couldn’t possibly have any interest in me. But this guy was, in fact, one of the hosts of the party. Now, here we were on a mission together, which was followed by another half-hour of good conversation. He’d made a way for me to find a place in the life of that gathering. Or, I should say, he proved me wrong with regard to my essentially automatic assumption that I had no place in that gathering.   That’s three strikes against my internal narrator. Seems like the little storyteller that lives in my head is, more often than not, pretty out of touch with reality in a discouraging way.  Hmm. I was beginning to think the automatic narrative I was being fed might not be all that reliable. I could tell you more stories.  Something I have noticed with myself is that there is a little narrator living in my head who tells stories that aren’t true. And maybe the worst part is that this narrator’s voice has become so normal and familiar that I just take what it says for granted. Things like, “nobody knows your name” “you’re forgettable” “no one is glad you’re here” and so on. When stories like that get familiar enough, they don’t even necessarily feel all that painful or disturbing. What’s the right word for it? They feel like common sense. Nothing to get bent out of shape about, it’s just the way things are, and you adjust appropriately, right?     A few years ago, I read a book by Katherine Paterson called, “Jacob have I loved.” It follows the growing up years of a girl nick-named Wheezy in New England, who is the story’s narrator. I don’t want to ruin the book for you, but sometimes the experience of reading a story can actually create within you something like a lived experience of that story’s meaning. What I mean is, as I read Wheezy’s narration of her life, I didn’t just see it as interesting information, I felt it as if it were real. The best stories aren’t just things we’ve read, they’re things that “happen” to us.  Wheezy narrates the ways in which her prettier twin sister is favored by everyone, how her own desires, looks, and personality are not received or handled well by her family. And for most of the book, I was frustrated right along with her. But at some point, as Wheezy was narrating one of her many misfortunes, I sat up with a sudden realization and slapped the book down in my lap. Wheezy had been interpreting someone else’s reaction to herself, but I knew enough about that other character by now to know Wheezy’s interpretation was wrong. That’s when it dawned on me that Wheezy was an unreliable narrator. This is a book about someone misreading her own life. By the end of the story, something happens that sheds light backwards across the narrative and Wheezy begins to see it for herself. She’d been wrong all these years. Go grab a copy of “Jacob have I loved” by Katherine Paterson, and see what you think. I won’t say more for fear of spoiling it.   That book, though, and the experience of feeling that story so deeply in my own heart, brought about an important realization for me. I was a lot like Wheezy. I am an unreliable narrator with regard to myself and my own story. I have a regular enough habit of jumping to sad conclusions about myself and the way things are, and more often than not, those conclusions, common sensical as they seem, simply don’t correspond to reality.  I have an unreliable narrator that lives in my head—one who has a bad habit of telling sad stories that just aren’t true.     These days, when some sad script begins to play out in my mind as if it were inevitable, I can say to that mopey fellow slumped over his keyboard, “Hey buddy, hold off on publishing that, let’s just wait and see what happens instead.”   Sometimes it takes more courage than other times, especially since that narrator is most likely trying his best to protect against some old and very real hurt being repeated. I can appreciate that. Still, here, in the land of the living, I’ve been surprised to see the goodness of the Lord and the love of the people around me enough times to push pause on t

    17 min
  2. The sweet poison of a false infinite

    MAR 2

    The sweet poison of a false infinite

    The sweet poison of a false infinite by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/OTW_S6_E9_Sweet-poison-of-a-false-infinite.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here There is a four acre rectangle somewhere in the Ozark foothills where I walked last week with a longtime friend and fellow lover of C.S. Lewis. Just a week before, the weather where my friends Ashok and Neha live had been brutally cold, but this day it was creeping up from cold to cool, and the sun was out. I had had an errand to run near Little Rock, and since I was in Arkansas for a few days, I was able to enjoy a visit with these friends. One day, Neha and I were both working from the house, and she mentioned she and Ashok have gotten in the habit of making several laps around the four-acre fenceline any time the weather allows. So we decided to go for a walk.  As we walked, we talked about many things. Neha is a lover of stories, myths, and, like me, of the works of Tolkien and Lewis. She had been reading Ralph Wood’s “The Gospel According to Tolkien” and I had just finished listening to the battle between Sam Gamgee and Shelob the Spider at the close of “The Two Towers” on the drive up to Arkansas from Texas. So, that’s where our conversation started, I believe. We talked about how stories and art affect us in very deep and transformative ways—ways that mere information doesn’t.   I had also just been listening through The Bible Project’s series on Creation, and one thing they discussed was the way that we come to a Biblical text expecting it to answer the kinds of questions we’re interested in, when the original authors were interested in very different kinds of questions. Specifically, the opening chapters of Genesis are addressing Agency not Mechanism. What does that mean? I mean in the modern west we are interested in mechanisms, because we like to know how things work. But the original authors weren’t interested in the science or mechanisms of Creation, they were interested in the Agency. What is agency? It’s the question of who made this world? Why did they do it? What are the relationships between things that clue us into its meaning, regardless of whatever mechanisms may be at work?   The mechanisms are fascinating, of course, but the meaningful relationships among the significant actors on the scene are what the original authors were really interested in. They write the way they do, because of what they care about, and it seems they care little to nothing about the things modern minds tend to prioritize.    Somewhere in that conversation, my friend Neha tossed out a little phrase that had stuck with her from having read the middle book in Lewis’ Ransom Trilogy, Perelandra. The phrase was “The sweet poison of a false infinite.”  That’s a phrase worth lingering over. But, if you haven’t read Perelandra, it needs a little context. Perelandra is an early sci-fi story from C.S. Lewis, the middle book in his Space Trilogy, or as some call it after the main character, The Ransom Trilogy. Edwin Ransom is carried by an angelic courier to Venus, where the first two human-like people have just been placed in a fresh, unfallen world. But he’s not the only person from earth who’s managed to get there. A demon-possessed man has also made the trip with the intent to cause this still-edenic planet to fall just like earth by tempting the first couple to sin. The devil and fallen humanity want to spread fallenness everywhere, if possible. Lewis, in the narrative, says this taste for spreading evil is fueled by “the sweet poison of a false infinite.”   A false infinite is a life that isn’t really life at all. It’s a false-life whose pursuit tastes sweet in the beginning, but can only ever end in bitterness and death. Lewis goes on to say that the “sweet poison of the false infinite” is born out of the combination of two things, 1) our hatred of death, and, surprisingly, 2) our fear of true immortality.   That’s interesting, isn’t it? The first one–the hatred of death–is obvious, but the second one did surprise me when I first read it…true immortality is kind of terrifying to us. We don’t really know what it looks like. We don’t know, if God were to have his way with us, how we might be changed from what is familiar to us. And we tend to prefer familiar, even if it’s miserable, since, at least, it’s predictable. The unfamiliarity of true immortality requires us to entrust ourselves to Jesus, whom we can’t control, which is to be vulnerable.  Okay, so there’s that.  Then, in my morning reading, I ran across the passage in 2 Corinthians 3:7-4:6. Since it’s long I won’t quote it here, but you can go read it for yourself. The gist of it is that Paul understands his ministry (and that of Christians, in general) to be one of unveiling or exposing any place where we thought there was glory that could give us infinite life, but, in truth, that glory has faded away. But wouldn’t we notice that the glory was gone? Not necessarily. We may not know it’s faded away, since a veil is covering it. In the context, Paul’s example is the Mosaic Covenant, which at one time had real life-giving glory, but was only temporary while we were waiting for “a better word than Sinai” —the enduring glory Jesus would bring through his death and resurrection. Paul says that, since Jesus has come and removed the veil, we are made able to see what has real glory in it and what doesn’t. The Spirit can teach us to tell the difference between what masquerades as life and the “life that is truly life,” as Paul encouraged Timothy.  We can sure it’ll be tempting to cling to old familiar things that used to have glory, since the fear of this true immortality that only comes through entrusting ourselves to Jesus, makes us feel so vulnerable. On top of that, there are those things that still do have some participation in real glory but can’t in themselves give life that captivate and distract us. This is a major theme in Lewis’ writings—that good things, if they’re not rightly ordered under Christ’s rule, can poison us. Anything that isn’t God that we treat as if it were, becomes a false infinite poisoning us, no matter how sweet that poison tastes. That’s the message of Psalm 115 where the worshippers of man-made idols with unseeing eyes and unhearing ears become just as blind and deaf as these false infinites to which they’ve devoted themselves.    To be honest, this idea came in a moment when the Lord was pulling back the veil on my desire for a kind of success that I envied in other writers and musicians. In my own heart, I was grasping at a desire for acknowledgment or affirmation that promised glory, but in reality, had no glory to give. The true immortality Jesus is calling me to, may in fact feel more like failure, foolishness, and obscurity. I have to go on trusting that Jesus knows what makes for life that is truly life. Surely, Jesus himself was in a similar position as he, trusting his Heavenly Father, walked willingly towards the foolishness of his own crucifixion? His death tore through another veil, you’ll remember, and the fading glory of the Old Covenant went to its grave with him, until, being fulfilled, it burst forth in Christ’s resurrected face with a new and everlasting brightness.  And now, Paul’s work, the freedom-bringing work of the Holy Spirit, and the work of Christians everywhere is to “pull back the veil” on anything that tempts us to sip on the “sweet poison of a false infinite,” and lift up instead the Cup of Salvation. As Jesus said, “…unless you eat the flesh and drink the blood of the Son of Man, you have no life in you. Whoever eats My flesh and drinks My blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day. For My flesh is real food, and My blood is real drink.” The post S6:E9 – The sweet poison of a false infinite appeared first on Matthew Clark.

    22 min
  3. Please, don't mind your own business

    FEB 23

    Please, don't mind your own business

    Please, don't mind your own business by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/OTW_S6_E8_Dont-mind-your-own-business.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here It was a chilly day in the Northeast, and I was bundled up and out for a walk on a narrow town road with a couple of friends. We walked past the houses and little fields of this small town, as they told me about the history of the area and their recent move there from the other side of the country. Winter was longer here, the temperatures lower for longer, and the culture was different as well from the warmer climate where they’d raised their children. It was such a joy to hear their stories and get to know these friends better. In fact, the Lord gave me the wonderful gift of discovering that these folks I had only known as acquaintances until now, shared some significant common experiences with me, but were further along in their journey of joy and hope.  Somewhere in the midst of our walk, we could hear a big pickup truck approaching. Soon enough, there it was and even sooner there it wasn’t, as it zoomed past us on the narrow road. It was a little startling, as the driver didn’t seem to slow as he barreled past us. My friend signaled gently with his hands for the driver to be careful, but now the truck was out of sight. We kept walking, resumed our conversation, and after a time, turned around to head back towards the house.   On the way back, we veered off onto a side road to look at a few things, when the big truck was apparently returning from wherever he had gone. He saw us and turned down the side road where we were standing. He stopped, rolled down the window, and called us over. He asked whether we had been trying to signal for him to slow down earlier when he had passed us on the road. Yes, my friend said kindly. What happened next startled me. The man quickly and angrily replied, “Well, next time mind your own business!” Then he sped off.   The shock of unkindness was just that, shocking. However, my friends didn’t seem too surprised and took it in stride. They said that they had been noticing that the culture of the region, in general, seemed to carry a lot of hurt and harshness like that. Their prayer was that their presence in the area might carry some of the hope and kindness of Christ in this place where they had chosen to make their new home. Their compassion opened my heart to imagine more generous responses than I was inclined to have.  The more I thought about it, there was such an irony in the man demanding that we “mind our own business.” We were sharing a public road, after all. If he had run over us, I don’t think a judge would dismiss our deaths as entirely unconnected, since really us getting run over by him was none of our business. To go one step further, the fact that the man stopped to involve us in his frustration shows that he couldn’t escape the fact of our mutuality. In a way, by kicking against it, he was acknowledging the inextricability of our lives. Why bother about it, if he actually believed our presence and his had nothing whatsoever to do with each other?  Our lives and his, our choices and his, whether either of us are willing to admit it, are inextricable from the other. My life is the angry stranger in the truck’s business, and his life is my business. To think otherwise is to be out of touch with reality.   If there’s a spectrum of responsibility toward others, and on one end there’s strict individualism and on the other is strict interdependence, where would you say you fall? Look, I’m an introvert, and I can be very selfish. But I have to admit that I need other people, and I’ve learned that our lives, even when we wish it weren’t the case, deeply affect one another. Strict individualism just doesn’t seem to reflect the reality of my experience in the world.    There’s a story early in Joshua that caught my eye this week. The context is that Moses has died, Joshua has been given the mantle of leadership, Israel has crossed the Jordan River and begun to claim the promised land, beginning with Jericho. But, in secret, one guy (Achan is his name) disobeys the clear instructions of the Lord by taking some of the forbidden plunder. This causes a disaster in Israel—their next battle should have been easy-peasy, but instead it goes terribly and thirty-six men are needlessly killed. Achan may not be directly responsible for those deaths, but he is culpable. The Lord tells Joshua about Achan’s secret, and Achan and his family, who seemed to have known about the treasure, since it was buried in the floor of their tent, are called out in front of the community and killed. The curse is lifted from the community and things are back on track.  I wonder whether at least one thing that’s going on here is that Achan is thinking selfishly, and individualistically. He’s fallen out of touch with the corporate, interdependent nature of reality, and God is trying to protect the larger community from thinking that any one family’s actions are “no one else’s business.” Achan’s secret disobedience sure was the business of those thirty-six men who should not have died, and by extension the fear and discouragement sown across the whole community at the very outset of this difficult mission to claim the Promised Land. The valley where Achan and his family are buried is named The Valley of Achor, which means the Valley of Trouble or Disaster.  Can you see how God is trying to get us in touch with the way things actually work? Our selfishness never hurts only us. Whether we like it or not, “mind your own business” won’t hold up in the final analysis. Maybe we don’t like the vulnerability of admitting that other people’s choices affect us, or maybe we don’t like the responsibility of admitting that our choices affect others. Either way, we are bound up in one another’s lives, and the Lord is working to educate us on how to live well and wisely in a world that requires of us both responsibility and vulnerability.   The flipside of saying your bad choices matter to others is to say that your choices really matter! If your selfish choices inevitably affect the lives of others, so do your charitable choices. The reality God has placed us in comes with high stakes, since hurt is possible, but it’s the cost of living in a world where we can be sources of real kindness and blessing. We can be death-dealers or life-givers. It’s our choice.  And God sets the example for us to follow, since he, too, is a choice-maker whose choices matter. In fact, remember that valley where Achan was buried? Disaster Valley? It shows up again in Isaiah and Hosea. But guess what, God is stepping into Disaster Valley to reclaim and rename it. What does he name this place that for centuries has represented nothing but trouble? He calls it a Doorway to Hope. What!? Disaster Valley is going to become a Doorway to Hope? Yep. This is just the kind of thing God loves to do. This is the cross, the empty tomb. Potentially, this is every grief and trauma we’ve ever suffered at the hands of hurtful humans, if we let God accompany us in that disastrous place.  One last fun connection along these lines this week came just last night. I was watching a youtube channel called Veritasium with my buddy, and I saw this same pattern of reality at work as the host talked about the science of Network Dynamics. I’ll put a link to the video on the podcast homepage (matthewclark.net/podcast), but the gist is that we’re so much more connected than we might imagine, and our choices, research shows, reach so much further than we’d think. Not only that, but both hurtful and kind choices have a sort of domino effect. Surprisingly large numbers of people can be influenced toward harmful choice-making by a surprisingly small number of hurtful people. But the opposite is also true; if someone is brave enough or stubborn enough to make a choice like, say, forgiving the angry guy in the big fast truck, forfeiting the treasure for the sake of the larger community, or, if we want to get really crazy, going silently like a lamb to the slaughter, they might just change the world for the better. Maybe this burnt out world of disaster could be transformed into a doorway to heavenly hope, like the darkness of a torture-filled tomb opened and emptied by the light of resurrection.    The Nighttime Windowsill There is a droplet on a petal;   In the droplet the whole forest curves  Like a child curled up with and in a book,  The big trees sway in the little clearing,  In the nighttime windowsill.    I have not seen the droplet,  I have not seen the forest, or that flower.   In fact, no one has. Well, no one  But the Lord who, because he sees all,  Sees all into blessed being.     But I love the petal and the droplet

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  4. Growing up wise and innocent

    FEB 16

    Growing up wise and innocent

    Growing up wise and innocent by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/OTW_S6_E7_Wise-and-Innocent.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here There’s a story in our family that doesn’t belong directly to me, but I’ll share it, because my grandmother loved to tell it. It’s really my sister’s story, and it happened when she was probably around four years old. I can guess the time-frame, because she’s five years older than me, and it’s a story that concerns our grandfather’s death about a year before I was born.   My grandmother was in the kitchen looking out the window at the backyard in Ackerman, Mississippi. She noticed my sister Angela standing near where the big oak tree used to be. Angela was just a little thing, but she wasn’t playing in the yard. She appeared to be engaged in a serious conversation with an invisible presence. Grandmother could see her pointing her finger at someone, clearly addressing this unknown listener. Her animated gestures showed she was making an emphatic point.   Eventually, Angela came in from the yard, and Grandmother asked her about the scene she’d been observing from the kitchen. “Honey, what were you doing out there in the yard?” My sister’s response was clear and plainspoken, “I was talking to God.” Maybe my grandmother fought off a little laugh at the funny things kids say before going on to ask, “Oh, really? What about?” Again, the response came back clear and simple, “I told God he needed to send Grandaddy back.” Here, I imagine Grandmother pausing for a moment; the death would still have been fairly recent, the sting still close at hand. Maybe her eyebrows knitted as a shadow of sorrow passed over her face, but then she relaxed, curious what this little toddler might come up with to say next. “Oh, you told God to send Grandaddy back? Well, what did God say about that?” For the third and last time, the little four-year-old stated calmly and matter-of-factly as could be, “God said, no, he wouldn’t do that. Grandaddy is with him and he’ll take good care of him.” Even though it wasn’t the answer she’d wanted, Angela had been more or less satisfied with God’s response, it seemed.  I don’t know that Angela remembers this experience, but it’s been preserved in our family, mainly by way of my Grandmother’s delightful penchant for storytelling. If it weren’t for her, we’d have forgotten that my brother Sam, as a child, famously exclaimed,“Voila!” followed by the knowing aside “That’s chinese, you know.”     Recently, a friend told me the story of a woman who approached her at church with a curious expression, wondering whether she might ask a sort of strange question. She wanted to know whether my friend’s four-year-old daughter was in the habit of exhibiting any kind of unusual spiritual insights, even if they might exceed the awareness of the child. It turns out my friend’s daughter had asked if this woman was pregnant just a few days before the woman herself discovered that she was.  I’m not trying to be spooky. That’s not the point. It could absolutely be nothing more than a coincidence. I’d even say, the most likely thing is that it was only that. But, I also had to comment on the story with a big, “Who knows?” Who knows what kind of perception little kids have in those very early years before they’re eyes have adjusted to the world. Who knows what, in their proximity to their origins, they can still see before “these sandpaper eyes [have rubbed] the lustre from what is seen” as the songwriter Mark Heard puts it in his song “Worry too much.”   Somewhere I think I remember G.K. Chesterton saying that the goal of maturity is to keep childhood’s way of seeing the world, but to draw it up and into the higher capacities of adulthood. For him, these things were not mutually exclusive. The child’s way of perceiving need not be anathema to adulthood, instead it might be one of the keys to it, if the two could be rightly integrated.  The stories and thought of Tolkien and Lewis seem to me to be working along those lines, asking, “What happens when the child and childhood’s tales grow up together, but do not part ways?”  And, if we’re on the right track, this mature union is hinted at in the Scriptures. Children and those who can be like them, have line-of-sight above the crowd of grownups to perceive the God-man approaching. From the mouth of babes, we say, and there’s Zaccheus, the old tax collector who remembers how to climb trees again like a kid. Zaccheus was a wee little man, a childlike adult, who climbs the branches of a tree to perceive the approach of the unimaginable from a vantage point above the more seasoned and reasonable heads below. In this case, the man’s shortness opens the way for a higher vision, his low state opens the way for his state to climb. When he gets up there, the humblest of all men tells Zaccheus to come back down to meet God all over again, for God has bent down low to be in the midst of his children.  Who knows what a man or woman might see, if they were to become like a child? A man might become more man-like, if he were to glimpse the Father’s form through the life of the only begotten Son. A woman might become more woman-like upon contemplating Jesus, from whose wholeness both manhood and womanhood are disbursed in order that the goodness of interdependence might be imaged on earth.  A friend of mine once said that you have to be taught to disbelieve the gospel. That has stuck with me. Failing to see and believe the gospel is not our natural state, it’s a learned thing. We live in a world that makes obvious things very hard to see. A world where we’ve learned to call evil good and good evil. A world where good and evil are confused, like a field planted with both wheat and weeds that look so much like wheat it’s impossible to sort them out ourselves. We need someone clear-eyed and unconfused, someone who was there before the world’s birth, who still remembers what it was like in its infancy, before the luster was rubbed off. Before, as Chesterton said, sin and unbelief made us old, tired, and closed to the wonders of God’s life in our midst.   There’s one correction to the formula for maturity I mentioned earlier that is worth mentioning. I said, with Chesterton, that we want to keep the child’s way of seeing, but draw it up into the wisdom and capacities of adulthood. Here, maybe we could make a distinction between the childlikeness we want to preserve and the childishness we ought to be working to leave behind like clothes that no longer fit. Paul says, when he grew up he rightly left childish ways behind, so we know the glorious destination God dreams of for us is not characterized by selfishness, irresponsibility, sulking, naivete, and the like. There’s no room for those in the realm of mature love.  Yet there is all the room in the world for the characteristics of childlikeness—those of wonder, trust, innocence, delight, affection, deep and joyful desire, playfulness, lack of pretense, and the like. These things, Jesus seems to say, ought to be recovered and magnified in our estimation, so that, as we grow up into the fullness of our Father’s perfect love, we might be both shrewd as snakes and innocent as doves.  By the power of the Holy Spirit’s ministry in our hearts, we might become mature in Christ’s way of seeing and loving—that as children in the good care of Jesus’ perfect Father, we might grow up to be, not so much big and strong, as wise and innocent.  The post S6:E7 – Growing up wise and innocent appeared first on Matthew Clark.

    20 min
  5. Building forward into something that will never end

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    Building forward into something that will never end

    Building forward into something that will never end by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/OTW_S6_E6-Building-forward.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here The highway west of Ft. Worth is crammed with vehicles doing their best to wade through the thick construction. I’m in the passenger seat of the family van, with my buddy driving and his teenage son, Thomas, in the back. There’s a phrase coming to mind just now that Thomas said. He was asking about having some friends over on a certain day next week, but his dad reminded him they had a lot of work to do that day, which meant he was asking to have his friends over on a day when he would be too tired to enjoy them. What Thomas said next stuck with me. He said something like, “My future self is telling me that’s the wrong day to have them over.”  That was wise, wasn’t it? And isn’t it interesting that you and I are the kind of creature that can, in some sense, imagine forward into the future, read a possible outcome, and make decisions now that will benefit us then? In short, we can make plans. We can pull together what we know from past experience, what we know of how things work, and plot some kind of a course forward that, rather than being random, is wise and thoughtful. We can imagine our way through the ways a certain decision may affect us and the people involved. That’s the kind of thing we are, and that’s the kind of world God has made for us to live in.   For the most part, this is so obvious we don’t even think that much about it. We just do it, most of the time, on autopilot. Although, the ability to rely on autopilot, of course, didn’t come pre-programmed. It is something we learned from a natural apprenticeship to older humans in our sphere of interaction during the course of our developmental years. Someone taught you not to run with scissors, to butter the bread after it comes out of the toaster, not before, or to plant this seed if you want to wind up with tomatoes.  Other things we learn the hard way. Back when I was building Vandalf the White, the sprinter van I converted into a camper, I was doing a lot of woodworking. Sometimes I’d get so into a task, but it was really more than that day could cover. Still, I’d push to wrap it up before the sun went down. I’d get worn out, and when you get worn out you get careless. Careless is not a great thing to be when you’re around power tools. Well, one day, the light had nearly worn down to evening, and I should’ve called it quits. Instead, I heaved one last piece of plywood onto the table saw in order to split it. I got about halfway there and somehow I caught an edge. It was enough to suddenly shove that big plank right back into my stomach and just about knock the wind out of me. I don’t remember whether I wound up on the ground or not, but I threw my hands up and stepped back from the tools. That day was over. I learned the hard way, I was too tired to work anymore. But that was a lesson I carried with me for the rest of the build. I started to pay attention to that invisible threshold that marked the difference between whether it was wise or foolish to proceed.    This morning I woke up before daylight. Bubba, Thomas, and I were driving up to the church to meet a bunch of other guys to help unload some chairs. Before we left, I was thumbing through the end of 1 Corinthians where Paul talks about whether or not the Resurrection is real. This is a favorite chapter of mine, and I appreciate how honest Paul is about the implications, if Jesus didn’t really rise from the dead. The long and short of it, he says, is that if there’s no life coming after this one, then there’s not much to live for. Eat and drink while you can, then die.   Now, forgive me, I don’t mean to sound cynical or depressing, but I’ve been around long enough for some of the shine of life to be rubbed off. In the scheme of things, my life has been easier than many, of course, and I have much to be thankful for. But I’m also not under any illusions that life is as it should be. There’s a kind of optimism that is really closer to self-delusion, to denial. Life really is hard. It is an interweaving of wonder and grief, astonishing tenderness, and astonishing sorrow. There are hopes whose ache I thought might be eased with time, that I now begin to suspect can only be borne as gracefully as a broken heart can manage for the time being.  Nonetheless, I am absolutely convinced that the flesh of reality is sweet and only its tough, thin rind is bitter. The rind will be peeled away one day, and it won’t amount to much compared to what’s left once it’s gone. The center of Reality is inexhaustible Joy and Life.   Paul assures us, that hard as it may be right now to imagine where this world is going, it is going somewhere very very good. In fact, one example he gives is of a seed and how unlike it is to the thing it produces. Would anyone in the world ever guess that this gigantic oak and that little acorn are related in any way? But the long apprenticeship of life has shown us the bizarre linkage over and over again. I don’t think we’d believe it otherwise. It’s not intuitive. It’s quite a leap, actually. If it weren’t so astoundingly normal, there’s no way I’d buy it.  Paul says, that’s the situation we’re in. Jesus is the first person to have been resurrected, he’s the pioneer, the firstborn of a new kind of human. They planted his body like a seed, watered by the Holy Spirit, called forth by the Father. So the pattern is set for us by our Master, and the apprentices follow.     Friends, this life is painful. It is crammed with good and bad — a thousand species of death, alongside a thousand reasons to keep going. The resurrection is not a metaphor, or some sentimental image to paste over life’s ultimate meaninglessness til we finally expire. It is a real, concrete hope. Paul seems to suggest it’s a foundation we can build wisely upon, knowing that no work we do in that direction will be a waste of time. He encourages us to lean into it, as if you could hear a loving voice from the future urging you not to let your hands droop at your sides in sorrow. This is not empty work. Your life is not a waste. Jesus is calling you and me to build forward into something that will never end.  The post S6:E6 – Building forward into something that will never end appeared first on Matthew Clark.

    17 min
  6. Come live in my driveway!

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    Come live in my driveway!

    Come live in my driveway! by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/OTW_S6_E5_Come-live-in-my-driveway.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here A year ago in February some friends and I started a new tradition. I drove six or seven hours to their house and parked my camper van in their driveway. These folks were some of the very first friends I made when I moved to the Jackson, MS area over ten years ago. I met them at church, and then discovered that they lived just down the street from me. I could just about walk to their house, and although I never did walk there, I dropped in a lot. They assured me that they really were the kind of people who actually meant it when they said, “Just drop by anytime.” So, I tried them out, and, it turns out they weren’t lying.  For the few years they lived down the street, we had a little small group that met at their place. It wasn’t attached to any particular church. Instead, it was just made up of people this couple had met out and about—at the coffeeshop or at work. I did go to church with them, but I don’t think anyone else in the group did, and some didn’t go to church at all. At any rate, that small group became a lifeline in the early days of living here, and this particular family became like family to me.  Time sped on, and eventually they moved to another state. We missed each other a lot, but we kept up and I made short visits whenever I was passing through on house concert tours. Then, about two or three years ago, a January rolled around that was particularly lonely around here, and I felt like I needed to get out of town and go see some friends. So, I called up these friends, the Humphreys, and they said, “Come live in our driveway.” I thought, “Well, I’ve always wanted to live in your driveway! I’ve even got a tiny house on wheels that would do the job quite nicely.”   Not long after that, I rolled out of Mississippi and headed West to Texas. Before long, I was nicely situated just a few feet away from the friends I had so missed. Originally, the idea was to stay a few weeks, but by the end I wound up staying over a month. It was hard to leave when the time came. I had gotten so used to being included in the rhythms of their family and household. They made me feel right at home. Maybe more at home that I was able to feel in my actual home during that season.   It was such a wonderful experience, that we decided to make it a bit of a tradition. I’m heading out tomorrow to spend the month of February living in their driveway again.   But this story reminds me of a few things. For starters, it is good for me to remember that it’s always possible to begin brand new traditions. I mean, if there’s some good idea about something I wish was a part of my life, I can try to think of ways to start building it into the way I live. And friends can do those kinds of things together, as well. Friends can come up with new creative constructs that benefit and continue to cultivate their connections with each other. I’ll admit, in my case, the Humphreys are unusually hospitable, flexible, and even adventurous in that way. And the friendship accumulated for years before it was ripe for an experiment like ours.   I’ve tried other traditions that didn’t quite work. That’s good to be realistic about. Sometimes the timing is off, the relationship isn’t quite there, or who knows? For whatever reason, the spark doesn’t catch the kindling. But here’s the basic idea: life is, and friendships are, opportunities for creativity, imagination, and adventure. Like any art-form in any medium, making something new takes risk and vulnerability, and sometimes doesn’t work out. But be on the lookout for friends who might be willing to collaborate on new ways on connecting, or making new traditions.   I have another friend who had a significant birthday approaching, and she asked herself, “If I could do anything to celebrate this birthday, what would it be?” She decided to ask a few friends to spend a long weekend at an airbnb near her favorite national park. Did it feel like a crazy idea? Was it a risk? Yes. What if everybody said no or couldn’t make the trip? She bravely took that risk, and created a new tradition—even connecting friends of hers that didn’t know each other. In that way, she facilitated the creation of brand new friendships. We can do things like that.    The second thing I think of, is the simple fact that we really need friends. I know I do. I need substantial real-life presence with people who know and love me. With the Humphreys, for example, one of the biggest blessings is simply being around as they’re living their normal day-to-day life, so much more so than any big interesting thing we manage to do while I’m there. Maybe we’re just chatting on the porch, watching big, noisy trucks drive past, or working on a puzzle box in the kitchen while the kids eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. One day last February we spent a whole day taking apart a clothes washer to replace a water pump. It was so fun just being together working on something.   It’s been deeply important to me to find those folks out there who take friendship seriously. The Humphreys aren’t the only ones in my life. There are many delightful people who have loved me so, so well, and in whose homes I’ve been made to feel like a part of the family.  One of my favorite verses is from Psalm 68:6. It says that God sets the lonely in families. For me, that has not primarily meant blood relatives, though I am very thankful for my biological family, especially my brother Sam with whom I live. My life hasn’t always taken the shape that I expected or hoped it would. At times that has ranged from frightening to disappointing, from sad to frustrating. But, what I have seen over time, is the truth of that little verse. God has never stopped working to lead me to people and help me discover ways to find friends who’ve made a place for me in the world. The Lord has been persistently kind in his efforts to supply me with kindred, even across all my wanderings. He knows better than I do that it is not good for a human to be alone.  A Liturgy for Friendship Lord, you said that it is not good for a human to be alone.  You have made yourself clear; it was never your intention that we should endure loneliness. Rather, your dream for your children was that they should be held— always and ever embraced—always and ever embedded in the fabric of belonging love.   But, Lord, we are lonely!  The brokenness of the world, the schemes of our diabolical Enemy, and our own bent and bruised natures, drive wedges where there ought to be wonder, dig graves where there ought to be gracious welcome, breed fear where there ought to be faithful love, sow weariness where you long for us to find rest.   Hear our cry: “Lord, when will you set the lonely in families!”  Lord of kindness, make for us ways towards finding kindred. Warm-hearted Savior, gather us to those you know can warm our own hearts, before they grow too cold. Oh Holy Trinity—you who are our true home—make for us a place and home in your presence with those who have found their abiding place in you.   Oh Holy Trinity, you are, in yourself, the pattern of family and loving belonging we were created to image-forth in this world, would you weave the stranded threads of our lives into the living fabric of reality that is your very life.  Strengthen our hands to serve, our ears to listen, our mouths to speak wisdom and courage, and grace us with creativity and hope as we venture out towards those lives you have made to cross our path. May we seek first to offer belonging, and in so doing, learn to receive it.   Bless your people with the gift of friendship, Oh Lord. May we offer a taste of your kingdom to a lonely world, where Christ has already come, calling all who would listen, to be set within his everlasting family.   In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Amen. The post S6:E5 – Come live in my driveway! appeared first on Matthew Clark.

    15 min
  7. We're going to need a new song, Moses

    JAN 26

    We're going to need a new song, Moses

    We're going to need a new song, Moses by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/01/OTW_S6_E4_a-new-song-Moses.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here The branches are covered with ice down here in Mississippi, which is unusual, so most people I know are hunkered down indoors. We made a big pot of chicken soup a few days ago that’s been keeping us warm as the temperatures have dropped.   Speaking of dropping temperatures, a verse that has come to mind over and over again the last handful of years has been a line spoken by Jesus after his disciples got him talking about the destruction of the Temple, and the hard times to come as the world’s end approaches. Jesus says that because of the increase of wickedness in those days, the love of most will grow cold. You can find that whole conversation in Matthew, chapter 24.   I have felt it in myself. I have felt the creeping coldness. When I see how wickedness seems to flourish in the world, climbing and climbing to the top of the heap again and again, when I see how selfishness and scarcity have chilled the air in the habitat of my soul, I know Jesus was right. He was, as usual, deeply realistic about things, not to mention insightful of the human heart, meaning he always sees into it clearly.  And, yet, his own heart did not freeze up, somehow. Jesus remained, incredibly, both clear-eyed about the wickedness of the world and the tendencies of the human heart, and he remained warm-hearted about the future. He wasn’t blindly optimistic, it’s worth noting. I mean, he didn’t pretend like everything was going to be fine. In fact, Jesus’ realism can be pretty uncomfortable. He sees the cross coming, he sees the eventual destruction of the temple and all the misery to come. But, he also sees something else up ahead. Something so bright, beautiful, and substantial that it thaws the ice. Or, if it doesn’t thaw it, allows him to somehow skate on top of it to his destination. He, as Hebrews 12 says, sees joy up ahead. And the writer of Hebrews says that if we can get a glimpse of that joy Jesus came to make available to us, it will fortify our hearts against the creeping chill of evil in this world.   It won’t remove it, of course. That joy didn’t remove the experience of evil even for Jesus himself. He was still murdered all the same. Joy doesn’t spare us heartache. Doesn’t spare us suffering—even unjust suffering. But it does give us something to contrast against evil, and joy gives us a promise of God’s loving accompaniment in the midst of suffering, since joy is a fundamentally relational reality. Joy means someone good is glad to be with us. That good presence clarifies the difference between the works of God and the works of the Enemy.     The story the Bible tells is, in large part, that of a God who suffers unjustly at the hands of cold-hearted humanity. A God, who through a long, complicated process of relationship over time, continues to move with warmth towards those very people who treat him with such coldness. It’s the story of a God, who against all odds and a world of opposition, holds onto the hope of saving the world from drowning in the waters of chaos because the surface of the lake had become an impenetrable layer of ice. He is always working to melt that barrier and call us up and out of those waters, making our passage through chaos a baptism into new life, rather than a permanent prison.   And so, Jesus laments the wickedness of the world that is always threatening to freeze our hearts, steal, kill, and destroy our joy, and drown us in despair.     This week, I’ve been watching the news. It is chilling. I am praying for my friends in Minnesota. And this morning, I was reading the end of Deuteronomy, where I found something that surprised me. Let me back up for a little context… in the history of God’s relationship with his beloved (and broken) world so far, he’s reached out to a man named Abraham, whose family is going to become a sort of custom-made people-group. In order to save the whole wide world, God is going to make his focus really tight, and work with one family. This family, over the next few generations, is going to get bigger and bigger while they’re enslaved in Egypt, then God will rescue them in Exodus, and at Sinai, he’ll begin shaping them into a nation with a totally different cultural form from everyone around them. They’re going to be weirdos, honestly, because the God who actually made the world, has become strange to the world. So Israel will be a custom-made nation whose culture God will shape in such a way that it will provide all the contextual structures for later on, when Jesus comes, so the things he says and does will actually be intelligible to the people he’s trying to talk to. It’s a long play on God’s part.   When we get to Deuteronomy, this is the second time God has brought his people to the very edge of the land he’s been preparing for them. This is where, once they’ve settled here, God can continue the work of shaping them culturally as a curated context to support the salvation he’s planning to pull off when Jesus comes. That context is necessary, for instance, without it, John the baptist calling Jesus “the lamb of God” is meaningless gibberish. With it, all kinds of meaning clicks into place.     But I mentioned something that surprised me about the end of Deuteronomy, right? Yes, at the end of the book, Moses is preparing to die, even as he is preparing the people to enter the promised land. And God is realistic about how this is going to go. Like Jesus in Matthew 24, he is clear-eyed about human hearts, and he’s very honest with Moses about it. He knows these people’s hearts are going to grow cold and wicked, even in the promised land. In fact, the promised land may just be the place where they get cozy enough to take the old warmth for granted, allowing the fire to die.   But the thing that surprised me was God’s tactic for addressing the coldness. After chapter upon chapter of listing all the laws he knows the people will eventually forget, God says something like, “Moses, things are going to go badly just so you know, but I’ve got this great idea: let’s write a song for them to sing.” What? A song? Yep. God commands Moses to teach the people a song for when they’re love grows cold and they begin to slip away from the warmth of God’s ways. Embed this bit of sung poetry into the culture, so the people have something like an “axe for the frozen sea” to quote the title of a Ben Palpant book.   As a songwriter that caught my attention. This song is God’s protest song against the coldness of his people’s hearts toward him and toward one another. It’s a song that lays a picture of joy in contrast to evil, it’s a song that wafts like smelling salts under the nose of a numbed out brain, it’s a song that’s brutally honest about the terrifying consequences of giving in to the chill of wickedness, as well as, beautifully hopeful about the God who never stops inviting his frigid lovers to sit by his hearth and learn the ways that lead to life. And it is a song that promises God will meet anyone that is ice-bound along the way, to break them free of death’s overwhelming grasp.   God sings a protest song against our enemies, and even against us, when we have taken up the battle banner of rebellion against God’s ways. He invites us to listen, because if we do, this song will, “descend like dew, like showers on new grass, like abundant rain on tender plants.” Can you hear the warm rain fall, like ice melting, caught up in the cupped hands of the crucified God? The God of perfect justice and abounding mercy? The post S6:E4 – We’re going to need a new song, Moses appeared first on Matthew Clark.

    21 min
  8. Horse-sense and the Meaning of the World

    JAN 19

    Horse-sense and the Meaning of the World

    Horse-sense and the Meaning of the World by Matthew Clark | One Thousand Words https://www.matthewclark.net/mcwordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/01/OTW_S6_E3_Horse-sense-and-the-meaning-of-the-world.mp3 FollowFollowFollowFollow Sign up for the Newsletter Thanks for signing up! First Name Last Name Email Subscribe Become a Patron PartnerI depend on the support of Patrons like you to make podcasts, music, books, and more. A one-time or monthly gift makes a huge difference! Click Here There’s an anecdote attributed to Beethoven, at least as I heard it somewhere, that I love. The story goes that after playing a certain piece of music, someone asked him, “Maestro, what does this piece of music mean?” “Ah!” he said, “good question,” and immediately he sat down at the piano and played the whole piece again from start to finish. You get the idea. The meaning of a piece of art can’t be separated from the art itself, as if, in the case of a story, for instance,  a so-called moral could be extracted from it, such that the story could be discarded. The meaning of the music, or the story, or the poem is not separate from its medium, but bound up with it. Can you imagine a smile meaning something without a face? No, the meaning of the smile can’t be separated from the medium through which the smile is made available, the peculiarities of a loved one’s bodied expression. Often it is the medium or mode of the communication that shapes us as much or more than the message itself. It was philosopher Marshall McLuhan who said, “The medium is the message.” What does that mean? Neil Postman, in his book “Amusing ourselves to death,” applies McLuhan’s phrase to television, specifically Sesame Street. Now, I grew up loving Sesame Street, but Postman argues that, for all its merits, even a wonderful show like Sesame Street, can’t help but teach us to love its medium, which is television. He explains that if we love a TV show, at least one thing that’s happening is we’re being trained to love television, which is the show’s medium.  Nowadays, even if this (hopefully beneficial) podcast is what you go to your smartphone for, you’re still being trained to love the medium, which, in part at least, is the device itself. It’s just a pattern of reality, not itself bad. For instance, like we mentioned above, if the message is love through a hug, smile, or loving words from a friend, the medium is that person, and you’re being trained to trust and attach to the medium. The medium and the message are inextricable. That’s why what is said and how it is said go together. Like music and its meaning, like language and the people who speak it, like a smile and a face.   I love to read outloud. One reason is because words don’t come from thin air, they come from people. People with bodies, body language, voices, gestures, and expressions. They have a way about them. The best writers make their characters real as you read—you can see how they move, you can just hear how they would say such and such.  I’ll give you an example from a song I wrote called “Looking for you.” Here’s the first line of the song, it goes, “what if you found out someone had been looking for you the whole time?” It depends as much on how it is said, as much or more than what is said. You can imagine other ways of saying that line, can’t you? Let me try it out with two different ways of saying it:  What if you found out someone had been looking for you the whole time. (with a threatening tone)  or What if you found out someone had been looking for you the whole time. (with a comforting tone)  That lyric could get creepy real fast, right? The non-verbal music or tone of the phrase matters to its meaning. I’ve heard it suggested that something like 85% of communication is non-verbal, implicit, and intuitive. That non-verbal 85% is one of art’s sweet spots, and it’s reflected in God’s artwork, the Creation.   So, let’s look at an example from nature… Like Beethoven’s music, you can dissect a frog and catalog all the parts, but what you’ll miss entirely is what a frog actually means. You might analyze what it is, but not why it is. George MacDonald, who wrote a whole essay about how the images in nature are meant to supply our imaginations with ways of thinking and feeling about ourselves and God, puts it this way:  In what belongs to the deeper meanings of nature and her mediation between us and God, the appearances of nature are the truths of nature, far deeper than any scientific discoveries concerning them. The show of things is that for which God cares most, for their show is the face of far deeper things; we see in them, as in a glass darkly, the face of the unseen. What they say to the childlike soul is the truest thing to be gathered of them. To know a primrose is a higher thing than to know all the botany of it—just as to know Christ is an infinitely higher thing than to know all theology. So Nature exists primarily for her look, her appeals to the heart and the imagination, her simple service to human need, and not for the secrets to be discovered in her and turned to man’s further use. Isn’t that interesting? Nature doesn’t primarily exist to be analytically autopsied, as if the message could be extracted from the medium, without destroying both. Gandalf’s comment about Saruman fits well here, “He that breaks a thing to find out what it is, has left the path of wisdom.”  John Ciardi says the same of poetry, citing Charles Dickens  …the language of experience is not the language of  classification. A boy burning with ambition to become a jockey does not study a text on zoology.  He watches horses, he listens to what is said by those who have spent their lives around horses, he rides them, trains them, feeds them, curries them, pets them.  He lives with intense feelings toward them. He may never learn how many incisors a horse has, nor how many yards of intestines.  What does it matter?  He is concerned with a feel, a response-to, a sense of the character and reaction of  the living animal. And zoology cannot give him that. Not all the anatomizing of all the world’s horses could teach a man horse-sense… So for poetry.   So meaning is not about mere information. It’s not about extracting the message. That means art has something to say about the inseparability of orthodoxy (correct belief)  and orthopraxy (correct living), for instance, since art-making emphasizes that meaning (or truth) only arrives when what is said and how it is said—the verbal and the non-verbal communication—harmonize. Christ says to obey (orthopraxy) is to love, which may suggest that the non-verbal how of our lives—the part that art tends to specialize in—is actually primary. Which is another way of saying I’ll know what you believe by how you live, not by what you say you believe. I’ll know what a frog is by watching how it frogs, not by reading the autopsy report. Or, in the case of Ciardi’s jockey, I’ll gain some horse-sense by being around horses, not by listening to a lecture about their characteristics.  Am I saying that truth-claims are secondary and not important? No. I’m saying the natural order of things is that truth claims are literally second, in the sense that, in real life, they don’t happen first. First the stranger smiles at you, then you meet them and learn their name. The relational experience of the person precedes the propositional conclusions we arrive at. I smell the flower before I set down my doctrine stating how pleasant it smells.   Recently I heard someone describe the moment they began to take Christianity seriously. They said they were tasked at their job to interview an old man, a believer in his late 90s. As the old man began to tell stories of God’s work in his life from over fifty years before, tears ran down his wrinkled cheeks and praise tumbled from his quivering lips. The young man realized he was in the presence of someone not just conveying information, but bearing witness to a relational reality. This old man really had met and come to love a living Jesus.   It’s interesting that Jesus invites his disciples to follow him long before he asks them “who do you say that I am?” In some sense, the experience of discipleship precedes conversion. You get to know someone before you make truth-claims about them. And the truth-claims of the church are the result of the cumulative witness of many who’ve heard the deep, throbbing music of God’s lovingkindness, steeped themselves in the poetry of the holy heartbreak of covenant history, experienced the forgiveness, kindness, and beauty of God’s healing work, and they’ve come to know its meaning. They’ve come to put a name and a face to it all. “The meaning of the world?” they say, “It is Jesus.”  Having said that, can you detect the idea we began with—that the medium is the message? The main mediums God uses to communicate himself are the beauty and intelligibility of Creation, humans who embody his ways, and art that narrates his relationship with the world, by which I mean, firstly, the Bible, and secondly, the things that people make, whether books, music, poetry, etc.

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