Grieving Awake with Joya

Joya Sosnowski
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Grieving Awake is a podcast about awakening the heart through life's sacred thresholds. It's an exploration of what it means to listen to the soul and become more fully human through grief, loss, love, and the experiences that change us forever. Through conversations that weave together consciousness, grief, contemplative practice, intuition, mysticism, science, and the mystery of being human, we explore how life's greatest thresholds can awaken us to a deeper relationship with ourselves, each other, and Spirit. Every conversation is an invitation to become more heart-led, more intuitively guided, and more deeply connected to Spirit.

Episodes

  1. 2d ago

    A Medium Speaks on How to Feel Your Child's Presence (And Why It's Simpler Than You Think)

    Send us Fan Mail Grief can make the world feel smaller overnight, but it can also reveal a bigger reality you didn’t know how to name. From the Helping Parents Heal Conference, I sit down with Nicole Newman, a medium, teacher, and bereaved mom living in Maui, to talk about what happened after her son died and why so many people report after-death communication. Nicole shares how her journey began with something simpler than “hearing a voice.” She calls it communing: lying down, getting quiet, asking for help, and feeling a vibration of peace that steadies a wrecked nervous system. We dig into how mediumship can be learned as a skill, how the clairs can show up as subtle shifts in mood, temperature, memory, or awareness, and why most of us miss what’s happening because we’re trained to second guess ourselves. We also explore big ideas in grounded language: oneness, distance not mattering, and a powerful reframe of doubt and trust. Nicole explains why “closure” never fit her, and why continuation of relationship can be the real medicine for grieving parents. If you’re curious about spiritual connection, consciousness, grief healing, and practical ways to feel supported again, this conversation offers a calm, honest place to start. If this resonates, subscribe, share it with someone who’s grieving, and leave a review so more hearts can find these stories. What’s one moment you’ve felt presence, peace, or an unexplainable sign? Nicole Newman is a natural medium, mystic, teacher and healer whose lifelong relationship with Spirit deepened profoundly after the sudden death of her son Avery in 2013. Following his death, Nicole immersed herself in formal mediumship training and eventually founded Love of Avery Kind, where she now teaches and supports people around the world in developing their own relationship with Spirit, consciousness and intuitive intelligence. Avery remains central to her work, and Nicole experiences their relationship as continuing beyond physical death, including an ongoing sense of co-creation with him from the Afterlife. Her work explores mediumship as part of a much larger mystery: the continuation of consciousness, our multidimensional nature, and the extraordinary spiritual and perceptual capacities available to us as human beings. She believes these abilities are not reserved for a gifted few, but can be part of our own evolving relationship with Spirit and the Divine. Nicole continues to study, teach and collaborate with respected mediums and teachers, including renowned UK medium Tony Stockwell. She teaches online worldwide and in person from Maui, Hawaii and Crescent Beach, British Columbia. Website: loveofaverykind.com In Canda:  www.loveofaverykind.ca Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/loveofaverykind Instagram: @loveofaverykindn grievingawake.com joyasosnowski.com Follow me on IG Email me

    A Medium Speaks on How to Feel Your Child's Presence (And Why It's Simpler Than You Think)

  2. 3d ago

    Why My Life Review Only Showed the Good (And What That Means) - Holly Porter's NDE Story

    Send us Fan Mail The ICU is supposed to be the end of the story, but for Holly it becomes the beginning. After catching COVID in 2021, her oxygen crashes, her organs start to fail, and she’s rushed from the ER to the ICU with slim odds of survival. What follows isn’t just a medical crisis, it’s a consciousness-shaking account of out-of-body experiences, a near-death experience, and the confusing, painful reality of waking back up in a body that’s still fighting to breathe. We talk through the moments she remembers with startling clarity: traveling down hospital corridors, sensing other patients near death, and arriving at a stadium of light filled with thousands of beings. She describes the return of vivid senses after losing them in the ICU, the feeling of “all knowing,” and angelic music so beautiful she calls it the best concert she’s ever heard. Her life review shows only the good, and later she receives a message that reframes judgment and grief: “Love them where they’re at.” Then we go where most NDE conversations stop: the aftermath. Long COVID, PTSD, and stacked losses in her family trigger what she calls two years of hell, until surrender, IANDS (the International Association for Near-Death Studies), and a hypnosis session reveal more of the missing puzzle, including her eerie “kidnap” feeling and an encounter in the “in-between.” If you’re navigating grief, trauma recovery, spiritual experiences, or big life purpose questions, this conversation offers both wonder and tools you can actually use. Subscribe, share this with someone who needs it, and leave a review with the part that stayed with you most. You can Find Holly at neardeathshift.com | internationalretreatassociation.com  grievingawake.com joyasosnowski.com Follow me on IG Email me

    Why My Life Review Only Showed the Good (And What That Means) - Holly Porter's NDE Story

  3. Aug 27

    What if the life you haven't been able to live is locked behind the grief you haven't been able to feel?

    Send us Fan Mail The life you want might not be blocked by a lack of discipline, clarity, or ambition. It might be locked behind grief you’ve never been allowed to feel. We go deep on the “unmet self” the truest part of us that learned it wasn’t safe to exist and the “unlived life” that forms when we adapt to belong, survive, and be loved. When that aliveness gets buried, it doesn’t disappear. It shows up as pressure, chronic dissatisfaction, resentment, envy, numbness, rage, restlessness, addiction, or the nonstop urge to reinvent your life from the outside. I share how grief can become the doorway back through that entire sequence, including my own experience of compound grief while grieving my son and encountering deeper griefs for the mom I never was, the life I never lived, and the self that would have lived it. We also talk about why shadow work is grief work, not a project to “fix” your flaws, but a process of asking what a part of you had to give up, what she never got to become, and what needs to be grieved so she no longer has to stay buried. Then we bring it into the body: how the nervous system and the vagus nerve prioritize safety over goals, why you can’t positive think your way into freedom, and how self-kindness becomes a real somatic practice. I tell a practical story about integrity, temptation, and the quiet damage of secrets, because being a safe space for yourself is built in moments like that. We end by widening the lens to collective grief, generational patterns, and what becomes possible when we move from grieving awake into living awake. Next week, a near-death experience story from Holly Porter is on the way. If this resonates, subscribe, share the show with someone who needs it, and leave a review so more people can find this conversation. grievingawake.com joyasosnowski.com Follow me on IG Email me

    What if the life you haven't been able to live is locked behind the grief you haven't been able to feel?

  4. Aug 13

    Your Ego Is a Wild Horse - And Grief is the Pen It Can't Escape From

    Send us Fan Mail Grief can turn your inner world into a courtroom where your ego argues, your heart breaks, and your spirit quietly waits to be trusted. I’m Joya, and I share the moment everything changed for me: after my son Weston left his body, I began receiving him within 24 hours and spent months learning to trust what I was hearing and feeling. What follows is both tender and intense, because it’s not just a story about loss, it’s a story about learning to stop abandoning myself. I read from my journal a channeled conversation with the Magdalene frequency, including a prayer that asks to be led from darkness to light. We explore why doubt pushes us to seek external validation, and why the ego panics when it cannot control grief. The core metaphor is unforgettable: the ego is a wild horse. You don’t tame it by force or self-hate. You love it into service so it can partner with your soul, your body, and what you hold sacred. Along the way, we talk forgiveness, shame, integrity, and how judgment often hurts most when it’s self-inflicted. Then Weston “drops in” with teachings on trust, grace, heart-brain coherence, and what it means to feel separation while remembering love. Whether you approach this through spirituality, mindfulness, or grief healing, you’ll leave with practical tools you can use anywhere: the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding practice, awareness in your hands and feet, breathing into sensation, and “name it to tame it” emotional labeling to calm the nervous system. If this supports you, subscribe, share it with someone grieving or waking up, and leave a review so more people can find it. What part of you is ready to be loved into surrender rather than forces into compliance? grievingawake.com joyasosnowski.com Follow me on IG Email me

    Your Ego Is a Wild Horse - And Grief is the Pen It Can't Escape From

  5. Aug 5

    Why You Can't Let Go — What Mary Magdalene Knew - and Taught Me - About Grief and Regret

    Send us Fan Mail Regret can masquerade as wisdom, but a lot of the time it’s just unexpressed grief looking for somewhere to go. I share a “Magdalene download” that hit me hard: grief is tied to love and to regret, and when we’re aligned with truth, grief can stay clean. It becomes a pure sadness for what’s no longer here, without collapsing into the mental loop of wishing the past could be undone. We move through a teaching from the Gospel of Mary Magdalene and unpack the ideas of “the good” and peace as a return to origin. I explore the Aramaic roots that reshape the conversation: tabah as true natural harmonious oneness with God, bisha as unripeness and the illusion of separation, and shlama as wholeness and restoration. If you’re drawn to Mary Magdalene teachings, spiritual healing, or the meaning of peace beyond positive thinking, this offers language for what your body may already know. Then we get practical and embodied. I talk about discovering how hyper-rationalization can be a trauma response, what it’s like to live up in the head, and why grief often has no words. That’s where sound comes in: vocal expression, “sounding the body,” and letting the energy move until it completes and softens into breath, tears, and calm. We close with a guided inner sanctuary practice to witness intrusive thoughts, choose wholeness over separation, and return to the heart. If this supports you, subscribe, share it with someone who’s carrying quiet grief, and leave a review so more people can find this work. grievingawake.com joyasosnowski.com Follow me on IG Email me

    Why You Can't Let Go — What Mary Magdalene Knew - and Taught Me - About Grief and Regret
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Grieving Awake is a podcast about awakening the heart through life's sacred thresholds. It's an exploration of what it means to listen to the soul and become more fully human through grief, loss, love, and the experiences that change us forever. Through conversations that weave together consciousness, grief, contemplative practice, intuition, mysticism, science, and the mystery of being human, we explore how life's greatest thresholds can awaken us to a deeper relationship with ourselves, each other, and Spirit. Every conversation is an invitation to become more heart-led, more intuitively guided, and more deeply connected to Spirit.

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  • Creator
    Joya Sosnowski
  • Years Active
    2019 - 2026
  • Episodes
    5
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Turn Up Your Light Podcast | Rev. Dr. Joya Sosnowski
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