Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams

Dr Gregory Williams

“Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams” Now is the time for you to step out of your own personal darkness and break the silence that has been hidden and closed up inside of you. “Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams” radio program will offer the listeners a Road Map to Hope each and every week with keys to discover within yourself that ray of light to make your day better and brighter. Dr. Williams will not only discuss his own personal journey of overcoming the darkness of years of horrific sexual child abuse in the hands of his father and his father’s friends, but Dr. Williams will also feature special guests that have their own personal stories of overcoming obstacles in their lives and becoming victors instead of victims. “Breaking the Silence” will also feature information from the professional and medical field that will dive into the important research involving Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) and how to build Resiliency in yourself and in your children. Along with this information will be special guests from greatest minds in the United States to share their expert research and thoughts on this very important subject that each person needs to be aware of. Now is the time to invest a few minutes each week with some awesome information to give you steps to HOPE and keys to HAPPINESS and PEACE. NOW is the time to Break YOUR Silence and breakout into a NEW and BETTER YOU! Join us each week beginning August 13, 2019 for “Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams”. You won’t want to miss a single program. Heard around the world on the best radio network on the airwaves, BSS Radio Network available on iTunes, Google Play, iHeart Radio, Facebook Radio, Spotify and over 100 other high quality digital radio stations.

  1. Oct 26

    Breaking the Silence, October 25, 2026

    Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams Guest, Liz Colvin https://www.moodshine.studio/ https://www.facebook.com/elizabeth.colvin.121 https://www.linkedin.com/in/liz-colvin-author-ab9643242/ Breaking the Spiral of Depression and a Caregiver's Journey Through Mental Illness with Liz Colvin Dr. Gregory Williams opens with the first three steps of his SHIELD method for defending against depression, then welcomes author and caregiver advocate Liz Colvin to discuss her memoir, Mood Shine, and the years she spent caring for her daughter through ADHD, bipolar disorder, and schizoaffective disorder. A Houston Evening and the Week Ahead Dr. Gregory Williams opens the broadcast from his home near the Texas Medical Center in Houston, Texas, noting he will be back at Baylor College of Medicine by early morning and showing viewers flowers marking his fifteenth anniversary at the church where he pastors just outside the city. He mentions an upcoming drive to Odessa, roughly five hundred ten miles away, where he will speak Friday morning after little sleep. Williams explains that the show always aims to share stories people can apply to their own lives rather than simply entertain, and tonight's topic is one the program has never covered before. He reminds listeners they can comment on the Shattered by the Darkness Facebook page, call the station at 888-627-6008, or text his private cell phone, then settles in with a Diet Mountain Dew before turning to the personal lesson he wants to share before introducing his guest. The SHIELD Method Against Depression Before bringing on his guest, Williams shares the first half of a six-step framework he calls SHIELD, built from a recent Armor of God Bible study, promising the remaining steps the following week. The S stands for stop the spiral, the idea that a thought entering the mind does not have to control it, much like a GPS suggesting a wrong turn the driver does not have to follow; he advises stopping for thirty to sixty seconds, breathing, and naming the emotion. The H stands for hear, recognizing that suppressed pain cannot be addressed, and he urges listeners to ask what they are feeling, what triggered it, and what the thought is trying to convince them is true. The I stands for interrupt, challenging the negative narrative with a compassionate, realistic alternative rather than forced positive thinking. Williams speaks openly about pretending for thirty-seven years that his own childhood abuse carried no effect, closing with the phrase, do not believe every story your sadness tells you. Introducing Liz Colvin and Mood Shine Williams introduces Liz Colvin, a retired insurance professional from the Austin area and a mental health advocate, holding up her book, Mood Shine: A Caregiver's Journey, due in print the first week of November though already available as an audiobook she narrated herself, sold on Amazon and at stonycreekpublishing.com. Colvin says recording the audiobook let her revisit the material and refreshed her perspective on her own story. Williams summarizes her background, noting she spent more than a decade navigating bipolar disorder and co-occurring conditions within her family, and asks which family member the book centers on; Colvin answers that it concerns her daughter. She describes Mood Shine as a cautionary tale and memoir chronicling her caregiving journey as her daughter's early oxygen deprivation progressed first to an ADHD diagnosis, then to bipolar disorder, and eventually to schizoaffective disorder, with frightful episodes of delusion the family survived through treatment and oversight. A Diagnosis, a Single Mother, and Hidden Costs Colvin explains that Mood Shine is written for any caregiver but carries a particular emphasis on mental health, including a resource section covering housing, veterans, and organizations such as NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness, where she now volunteers monthly as a facilitator working with other families. She traces the first signs back to her daughter's first-grade teacher raising concerns, which led to an evaluation Colvin calls shocking and debilitating. As a single mother, she says she masked the difficulty at work and felt embarrassed, until her own research revealed that she herself needed therapy as much as her daughter did. She credits her human resources manager with helping her secure private insurance coverage for her daughter as a dependent based on her diagnosis, opening access to a wider range of psychotropic medications than she could have found otherwise. Williams pauses the conversation there for a commercial break, promising to dig deeper into caregiver support on the other side. Structure, Family, and Lolly the Dachshund After the break, Colvin describes rebuilding her life around structure: changing her own habits, accepting constructive criticism, and developing coping skills before she could carve out a disciplined writing routine of five to seven each morning. She credits her late father's cancer diagnosis and watching her own mother serve as his caretaker, along with a wide circle of aunts, uncles, and a pastor uncle, for teaching her the value of family support and prayer. She also recounts adopting a dachshund named Lolly on her daughter's therapist's recommendation, recalling how her daughter, initially resistant and dealing with medication-related weight gain, bonded instantly with the dog and gradually began walking, shedding weight, and connecting with neighbors. Colvin says her daughter eventually graduated college, married, and had a daughter of her own despite living with schizoaffective disorder. Williams, who says he maintains his own strict daily structure, draws a parallel between Colvin's routines and his own coping methods. A Message for Churches and Looking Ahead Asked what advice she would give church leaders, Colvin says congregations should recognize caregivers directly, asking whether they need lunch or a break rather than assuming silence means they are fine, since unpaid caregivers like her, whose daughter was not covered by Medicaid, rarely receive any form of compensation or outward support. Williams admits he cannot recall ever asking caregivers in his own congregation to stand for recognition. Colvin says the message she most hopes readers take from Mood Shine's one hundred eighty pages is that people struggling with mental health need unconditional love and should never be given up on. She names upcoming appearances at the Texas Book Festival, The Secret Lantern, and Teakiez T, directs listeners to moodshine.studio, and reveals she is already writing a second book about the life of a psychiatrist. Williams thanks her for sharing her story and Lolly's, then closes the broadcast with his standing reminder that there is always hope. Moodshine: A Caregiver's Journey Book release October 2026. Stoney Creek Publishing presents: Author Liz Colvin. In this captivating memoir, she engages and seeks positive reflection on navigating care for a loved one. Pre-orders start now: https://www.amazon.com/Moodshine-Caregivers-Journey-Liz-Colvin/dp/196576679X/

  2. Oct 19

    Breaking the Silence, October 18, 2026

    Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams Surviving the Hagee Name: A Memoir of Childhood Abuse and Recovery with Nat Hagee Author and survivor Nat Hagee, niece of megachurch pastor John Hagee, joins Dr. Gregory Williams on Breaking the Silence to discuss her debut memoir, Surviving Hagee, and the years of childhood sexual abuse by her father that it confronts. A Houston Evening and a Busy Week Ahead Dr. Gregory Williams opens the broadcast from his home near the Texas Medical Center in Houston, mentioning the Texans' win and the Longhorns' disappointing season before describing the week ahead. He is preparing to train probation officers and security staff in Angleton on vicarious trauma, following an earlier session there with convicted perpetrators themselves. Williams reminds listeners they can call 888-627-6008 or text him directly, and that the show streams live on the Shattered by the Darkness Facebook page before reaching more than one hundred fifty podcast platforms. He calls the program the network's top-rated show and thanks the audience. Rather than work through his usual prepared opening, Williams sets his notes aside, offering to email listeners a free PDF covering steps for handling depression and darkness of mind if they text him their address. He says he wants to move straight into tonight's conversation, calling the upcoming guest connection one of the more meaningful author relationships the show has had. Introducing Nat Hagee and Surviving Hagee Williams introduces Nat Hagee, a San Antonio-based author, survivor, and speaker whose debut memoir, Surviving Hagee, is releasing on Amazon Kindle immediately and in print on October 31st. He explains that her last name carries weight because her uncle is Pastor John Hagee, the nationally known megachurch leader whose books Williams has read since college. Hagee confirms she has Houston-area roots, having grown up in Baytown, Texas. Williams notes that the book opens by naming the Hagee connection rather than burying it, and Hagee explains that she spent years burdened by the name and controlled by its weight, and no longer wants to hide it. She agrees to answer any question Williams asks. Williams praises the memoir's raw, direct, dark-humored tone, free of the sanitized self-presentation he associates with social media, and says he read it cover to cover before inviting her on the show. A Father's Abuse Begins in Childhood Hagee describes the abuse by her father beginning around age four or five as a game that gradually escalated over years into repeated sexual abuse by the time she was about ten, continuing several times a week into her teenage years. She explains that her father, then a police officer who rose to captain and was heavily involved as a music minister at their Baytown church, groomed her slowly and deliberately, telling her the relationship was special and must stay secret. As the youngest child, she assumed for years that this was simply how fathers behaved with their children. She recalls wanting to please him, receiving money and treats afterward, and only gradually recognizing as she grew older that something was wrong, even as conflicting feelings complicated her understanding of what had happened to her. The abuse slowed only after her mother died of cancer. Other Abusers and the Cost of Trust Hagee tells Williams that her father was not the only person who abused her as a child; a corner-store clerk, visiting family friends, and, later, several older church acquaintances also victimized her, including an incident she says was filmed by older children connected to a church deacon's family when she was twelve or thirteen. She says she assumed at the time that such treatment from men was simply normal. Williams asks how the abuse affects her now, and Hagee says she trusts almost no one, constantly studying people's mannerisms even in friendly conversation, and that it took her years to distinguish consensual relationships from abuse and use. After her father's crimes became public, she learned some older cousins had also been abused by him decades earlier, which leads her to suspect her mother may have known more than she ever revealed. Church Silence, Public Exposure, and a Family Divided Hagee says church leaders in Baytown learned of the abuse at the time and suppressed it rather than intervening, and that when her father was eventually arrested, members of that congregation accused her of lying about a man they considered a pillar of the community. She recalls her uncle, Pastor John Hagee, learning of the abuse, confronting her father, and telling him he was no longer welcome in the family; Pastor Hagee and his wife subsequently paid for years of her mental health treatment, including therapy and ketamine sessions, support she says she never expected given her reputation within the family as its troubled member. That support ended abruptly, without warning, shortly after she married her wife, and she and her uncle's side of the family no longer speak. Hagee says the experience of institutional judgment damaged her relationship with Christianity more than the abuse itself did. Addiction, Survival, and a Message of Hope Hagee describes turning to alcohol, cocaine, and other drugs from around age twelve to numb her pain, and recounts three attempts to end her life as a teenager and young adult before beginning sustained therapy. She says she no longer identifies with organized religion, instead describing accountability to something larger than herself, though she credits years of therapy and psychiatric care with helping her reach a stable place. She is already writing a follow-up book, tentatively called Life After Survival, and hopes to build a career as a speaker under the banner of moving from surviving to thriving. Asked what she would tell someone in their darkest moment, Hagee urges people to believe in and love themselves first, to keep basic routines, and to seek therapy when ready. Williams closes the hour thanking her for her openness and reminding listeners that, in his view, there is always hope through faith.

  3. Oct 12

    Breaking the Silence, October 11, 2026

    Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams A Life Shaped by Poetry: From Paris and India to the Smithsonian with Lee Woodman Poet Lee Woodman joins Dr. Gregory Williams for a full hour on Breaking the Silence, reading from her Heartscapes collection and tracing a global childhood in Paris and India through a long career at the Smithsonian into the healing craft of poetry. A Rescheduled Guest and a Full Hour Dr. Gregory Williams opens the broadcast from his home in Houston, Texas, overlooking the Texas Medical Center, and tells listeners the show survived a bit of technical difficulty before tonight's guest arrived. He explains that last week's scheduled guest had to cancel after her father and her husband's father both passed away in the same week, and he reassures listeners that he and the guest have already rescheduled her appearance for the middle of November. Williams calls out the station's number, 888-627-6008, reminding callers that BBS Radio and BBS TV can patch them straight through to him and his guest, and notes the program streams live on the Shattered by the Darkness Facebook page and will reach more than 150 podcast platforms within days. He decides to give tonight's guest the entire hour rather than working through a prepared list of questions, saying he wants the conversation to feel like coffee between friends rather than a rehearsed interview. Introducing Poet Lee Woodman Williams introduces Lee Woodman as the author of a series of poetry collections he calls the "Scapes" books: Heartscapes, Colorscapes, Soulscapes, Artscapes, Lifescapes, Homescapes, and Mindscapes, with Heartscapes released that August. He jokes that if he had written that many books the next one would be called Escape, and Woodman laughs along. Williams reads through a long list of honors, including the Indie Reader Discovery Award, the Independent Press Gold Award, the Nautilus Gold Award for Poetry, the William Meredith Prize for Poetry, the Atlanta Review International Poetry Competition Merit Award, and a first prize from Carve Magazine. Woodman thanks him and says she finds it interesting to talk with someone who mixes medical knowledge, mental health, and ministry, predicting a good conversation. Williams admits he saw her face for the first time only a minute before the broadcast began, since he prefers not to hold pre-interviews and wants their talk to come from the heart rather than from a publisher's prepared questions. What Makes Poetry Special Williams asks Woodman why people hesitate to give poetry a chance, and she says many were taught difficult poems too early without enough instruction in sound, rhythm, and rhyme, so the form feels scary rather than musical. She describes her own process as rooted in specific observation, staring for long stretches at nature, cities, architecture, or overheard conversation in a museum or marketplace, then jotting notes in a small notebook before researching the subject further, whether it is a peacock's mating habits or a culture's walk and speech patterns. Williams asks whether an exceptional poet simply sees past the surface of an object more deeply than most people do, and Woodman agrees, pointing to differences in gait, tone, and language across cultures as the kind of detail she chases. She calls the final stage of shaping a poem into free verse or a traditional form like a haiku or sonnet "puzzle fixing," something she finds genuinely fun. Poetry as Ancient Medicine Williams compares reading poetry to reading scripture, noting that the same verse can feel flat one week and strike with sudden truth the next, and asks whether good poetry works the same way. Woodman agrees and traces the idea back before written language, to shamans who used poems as prayers and to the biblical King David, who soothed King Saul's depression through poetry and reading. She says communities need that slowing down now more than ever, and cites studies showing that listening to or reading poetry lowers stress hormones in the body. Williams then asks her to read live, and after the show's single commercial break, featuring an advertisement for his own book, Embracing Your Scars, Woodman reads "A Mulch Pile Prayer," a poem about her father's garden and his quiet, humor-laced faith, built as a parody of the Lord's Prayer involving Brussels sprouts, tomatoes, and rutabagas. She also discusses "Recompose," a poem about returning a body to the earth through natural burial. A Childhood in Paris and India Woodman traces her path into poetry back to an unusual childhood. Her father, a World War II veteran who landed on Omaha Beach, became a Fulbright professor of psychology in Strasbourg, taking the family to Paris, where French became Woodman's first language. The State Department later sent them to India, first to Madras and then New Delhi, and Woodman and her sister did not move to the United States until their teens, growing up instead as global citizens surrounded by many languages, dances, and cultures. She studied art in college, danced seriously in her mother's international ballet school, and eventually built a long career in Washington, D.C., spending twenty years at the Smithsonian Institution and ten years running her own media company for clients including the Library of Congress and the World Bank. She later served as deputy director for American History at the Smithsonian before retiring at sixty-six to return to the creative passions of her childhood. Reading Hallelujah's Echo and Closing After retirement, Woodman took her first poetry classes since college and found herself "sublimely thrilled," spending the next twelve years studying with poets including Richard Blanco, President Obama's inaugural poet, while citing influences from William Carlos Williams and Elizabeth Bishop to Li-Young Lee. She reads "A Kind of Gospel," written during COVID and inspired by Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah," prompting Williams to recall k.d. lang's performance of the song at the Olympics, and Woodman shares that Cohen himself praised lang's rendition backstage that night. She closes with "Strange Currency," a playful poem about falling in love after divorce. Woodman directs listeners to her website, poetleewoodman.com, where her books, an artist's statement, and audio recordings are available, and reveals that her eighth collection will be titled "Escapes." Williams thanks her for a joyful, unhurried hour and closes the broadcast with his standing reminder that no matter what listeners are facing, there is always hope, inviting them back next week.

  4. Oct 5

    Breaking the Silence, October 4, 2026

    Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams Getting Back in the Game: Naming Pain, Calming Down, and Finding Rest Dr. Gregory Williams broadcasts alone on October 4 after a scheduled guest fails to log in, and uses a late Dallas Cowboys win over the Houston Texans to talk about getting back up after life's hits. He covers naming pain instead of saying fine, calming down, leaning on faith, and why he believes there is always hope. Waiting for a Late Guest Dr. Gregory Williams opens the October 4 broadcast from his studio in Houston, Texas, as the evening light fades outside his windows. He is waiting for a guest who has not yet logged in, and he fills the time by talking with listeners, inviting calls to 888-627-6008 and noting that the show is also running live on Facebook. Williams admits that live radio brings unpredictable nights, and he jokes that a guest from California may have misunderstood the time change. He then turns to the Dallas Cowboys and the Houston Texans, whose game had ended with a late loss for his team, and uses it as a picture of life. Problems often hit like a linebacker from the side, and the real question is how a person gets back up. Williams asks listeners to take a quick inventory of how they face each day after health problems, relationship struggles, grief, or abuse. A Hard Room in a Group Program Williams recalls a group program where he spoke to a room of men who had been convicted of sexual abuse. He began by standing in silence and looking at each face, telling them he did not expect them to want to hear him, then walked the aisles touching shoulders as he went. He told his own story and the damage the abuse had done to his life, asking them to see him as someone not there to judge or re-convict. He then asked how many had been sexually abused themselves, and by his estimate most of the room raised a hand, somewhere between 85 and 90 percent. Some may have kept their hands down out of embarrassment. Williams says the silence he left after speaking was hard but powerful, and he hopes the message took root. He will likely never learn how the men were affected, though they had been asked to write notes for their counselors about the talk. The experience reminds him that the people who have lived through pain have the most to teach him. Naming What Happened Instead of Saying Fine Williams compares life to a football game, in which a team studies its opponent long before the kickoff. He says one of the first steps toward getting through a hit is to name what happened, rather than answering a caring friend's question with a quick 'I'm fine.' He admits that for thirty, thirty-five, perhaps forty years he never told anyone about the abuse he suffered as a child. He minimized it, pushed it away, and covered it up so that his life looked perfect from the outside. Eventually, he says, that silence began rusting out whatever solid foundation he had left. When he finally told a few friends, he apologized for keeping the truth hidden, and they answered that they understood and did not need an apology. Williams says that single conversation lifted a wall and a weight from him. He calls claiming, naming, and admitting what happened huge steps toward healing, and he notes with candor that he does not have many friends. Setting Down the Weight of Silence Williams describes carrying a secret as like hauling heavy shopping bags for decades instead of minutes. He says the weight disorganized his mental library, so that when a new hurt came he reached for an old answer that had nothing to do with the problem. Once he began to express and record what happened, the weight lifted and his thinking grew clearer. He keeps journals filled with his experiences, though some chapters of his life he may never reveal publicly. He draws a comparison to the NFL, where players are only now recognizing that repeated head impacts can have lasting effects decades after retirement. Williams argues that trauma works the same way, and that people who simply dust themselves off and insist they are fine may still be affected. He then imagines a listener whose loved one is slowly losing memory to illness, asking how that person could get through it. Calming Down and Rebuilding on the Sideline Williams explains that after being knocked down, a person first needs a safe place, both emotionally and physically, and safe people they trust. Like a player carried off the field, they need to calm their body before trying to solve the problem. He says he does this himself through prayer, reading scripture, sitting quietly, and journaling, which he compares to the debriefing that follows a crisis at a school or church. He then describes a rebuilding stage, in which a person stands, walks the sideline, and gets clear-headed enough to return to the game. Williams urges listeners to set boundaries, to tell the people around them what to keep away from, and to learn from what happened rather than turning away from life. He insists that resilience is greater than most people imagine, and he admits that he is not a strong person by nature. He says he endured by leaning on a stronger source than himself, which he describes as the Lord and Savior. Rest, Hope, and an Invitation Back Williams closes the hour with a message about rest, which he describes as emotional, mental, and spiritual rest rather than only physical rest. He invites listeners who have never turned to faith to consider it, asking what they have to lose, and promises that the Lord will be present during the storm, not only afterward. He repeats the program's core message that as long as a person has breath, there is hope, and he urges listeners to get back in the game. Williams then explains that his guest, whom he had hoped to interview that night, may be rescheduled for the following week if she reaches out to the station. The announcer reminds listeners that Dr. Williams can be reached by phone at 832-396-6525, and that the show airs each Sunday night at 8:00 p.m. Central Time on BBS Radio. The broadcast ends with Williams wishing listeners a good week and saying never give up, and there is always hope.

  5. Sep 14

    Breaking the Silence, September 13, 2026

    Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams Different Wounds, Same Healing: Childhood Abuse Survivors Speak Out with Dr. Peter Verdin and Sonny Von Cleveland Dr. Peter Verdin - Gold in the Cracks — A Memoir of Silence, Performance, and Repair Sonny Von Cleveland - Sonny Von Cleveland | Author, Speaker & Advocate | Palm Springs Dr. Gregory Williams welcomes two survivors of childhood sexual abuse, former college baseball player Dr. Peter Verdin and motivational speaker Sonny Von Cleveland, whose very different roads through trauma, prison, and healing led them to become close friends and co-authors of companion memoirs. Football, 9/11, and a Double Booking in Houston Dr. Gregory Williams opens the broadcast live from Houston, ribbing his beloved Texans for blowing an early lead in their season opener and checking on the Dallas Cowboys, who are about to kick off a tough road game against the New York Giants. He turns serious to mark the anniversary of September 11th, thanking veterans, active-duty service members including his own son in the Army, and firefighters and emergency responders, and says the tragedy pulled the country together with a resiliency he believes can never be broken. Williams gives out the call-in number, 888-627-6008, and his personal cell phone for anyone who needs someone to talk to, and notes the show is also streaming live on Facebook. He tells listeners tonight brings a rare double booking, a dynamic duo he promises will be nationally known soon, and explains he is skipping his usual intro segment to bring on Dr. Peter Verdin and Sonny Von Cleveland right away. Two Survivors Connect Through a Shared Network Verdin explains he emailed the show after searching podcasts in the trauma-and-healing space and finding Williams' book, Shattered by the Darkness, dovetailing with his own manuscript, Gold in the Cracks, written while he sat on the floor in pieces. He credits Detective Jeremy Henson, who caught his childhood abuser and has stayed a friend for seventeen years since the trial, with connecting him to Jim Cole, a thirty-year federal investigator who co-hosts a podcast with Sonny Von Cleveland. Verdin and Von Cleveland talked by FaceTime for two hours the first time they spoke, before either knew the other's full story, and later met in person in Nashville, where Von Cleveland wrote the foreword to Gold in the Cracks. Williams reads a line from that foreword aloud, noting how one man wore his pain where the world could see it while the other learned to hide behind a resume, different armor over the same wound. A Little League Coach's Years of Grooming Dr. Peter Verdin describes being chosen at age nine for an all-star Little League team in Northern Virginia, where the coach, John Hamilton, began giving him private hitting lessons, took him to an Orioles game, and embedded himself in the family, even earning a seat at Christmas dinner. Hamilton abused him almost daily from age nine until his fourteenth birthday, and Verdin says he told no one until a phone call from his mother during his freshman year of college prompted him to name what happened; Hamilton was later sentenced to fifty-five years in prison. Verdin went on to start for three and a half years at the University of Georgia and was drafted by the Washington Nationals before burning out. He kept the abuse buried for years while building what looked, from the outside, like a successful life, until being fired from a job and an abrupt breakup left him, four months before this broadcast, at what he calls rock bottom. Abuse, Prison, and Years in Solitary Sonny Von Cleveland says his abuse began at age three inside his own family and eventually involved seven men over nine years; when he disclosed his uncle's abuse at age ten and testified at trial, the uncle received fifteen years in prison, but much of Von Cleveland's family did not believe him and blamed him instead. Already caught up in the juvenile system after a felony break-in at age seven, he describes his mother trafficking him to men for drugs and money, a cycle that sent him to prison at sixteen, where he was raped by two men at knifepoint in his first week and later stabbed one of his attackers with pencils. He would spend eighteen of the next twenty years incarcerated, including five years in solitary confinement, a period he calls an absolute blessing because it forced him to sit with his own demons. A motorcycle wreck years later, after which he says he had to lose everything to gain a new life, became another turning point in his healing. Forgiveness, the Body, and the Real Numbers The two men compare how they manage triggers today. Von Cleveland says he has forgiven every abuser he has ever had, calling forgiveness the ultimate trigger lock that frees him rather than the person who hurt him, alongside meditation and remembering survivors who cannot yet speak for themselves. Verdin takes a different view, describing complex post-traumatic stress disorder as a physical brain injury stored in the nervous system rather than something a person can simply decide to release, and tracing a chronic back injury directly back to the exact age his abuse ended. Both men lean on movement, EMDR therapy, and journaling. When Williams raises the widely cited statistic that one in six men experience childhood sexual abuse, both guests call the number far too low, arguing it only counts men who report, leaving out boys in rural communities, cultural groups where the subject stays taboo, and the more than thirty children Verdin's abuser was found to have victimized beyond the five who came forward. Advice for Men Who Have Never Told Anyone Asked what he would say to a man who has never disclosed his abuse, Verdin urges people to speak before they hit rock bottom, describing how writing his own story forced buried memories to the surface and noting that friends who finally learned his history told him it made him make so much more sense. Von Cleveland adds that no one can help a person whose struggle stays hidden, quoting Viktor Frankl's line that suffering ceases to be suffering once it is given a purpose. Williams closes by pointing listeners to both books: Von Cleveland's Hey, White Boy: Conversations of Redemption, already available in print, on Kindle and as an AI-narrated audiobook, and Verdin's Gold in the Cracks, due out the third week of October and previewable at his website. He invites both men back on the show, thanks them for giving up their evening, and ends the broadcast with the program's long-standing promise that no matter how dark it gets, there is always hope.

  6. Sep 7

    Breaking the Silence, September 6, 2026

    Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams Suicide Awareness, Emotional Darkness, and the Courage to Ask for Help with Anthony Gurley Dr. Gregory Williams battles a technical meltdown to welcome author Anthony Gurley, whose memoir Deadly Dilemma traces a childhood abandonment, a lifelong fear of asking for help, and the suicidal thoughts he carried quietly into old age. Technical Difficulties and a Live Broadcast Dr. Gregory Williams opens the program from his home studio in Houston, apologizing upfront for technical problems that have knocked out video and left the broadcast running as audio only. He notes that an unrelated program has mistakenly appeared on the station's Facebook feed and clarifies that he has no connection to its content. Williams tells listeners the show is beginning its seventh year on BBS Radio and Television, reachable by phone at 888-627-6008 or by text, and promises the episode will reach podcast platforms later in the week even if the live stream falters. He stays calm about the glitches, saying live radio simply comes with unpredictable nights, and mentions hopes that the station will soon be available on Roku. He describes the sun setting behind the Texas Medical Center outside his window, using the fading light to introduce the evening's theme of emotional darkness before his guest joins the conversation. Understanding Emotional Darkness Before introducing his guest, Williams spends several minutes describing the varieties of darkness people experience, from a room with the lights turned off to caves like Carlsbad Cavern where no light reaches at all, and finally an emotional darkness that can hide behind a smiling face at work or church. He lists grief, rejection, disappointment, loneliness, trauma, betrayal, fear, anxiety, shame and exhaustion as doorways into that darkness, and offers a rule he asks listeners to write down: a person cannot always keep darkness from entering, but can keep it from becoming where they live. He then walks through the first steps for staying out of emotional darkness, comparing a low-fuel warning light on his dashboard that morning to the internal warning signs of sadness, anger and anxiety, and cautioning that, unlike a car's light, these signals rarely start flashing before real danger arrives, so paying attention early matters. Dont Believe the Darkness, Ask for Help Williams adds two more principles before bringing on his guest: darkness has a voice that insists a person is alone, unloved and a failure, and that voice should never be trusted to make permanent conclusions from a temporary state. He warns that isolation is one of the fastest routes into emotional darkness and urges listeners to say the three words many people, especially men, resist: I need help. Using the image of two people carrying a heavy table instead of one, he argues that burdens do not get lighter alone, only more bearable when shared with a trusted friend, pastor or counselor. He then introduces Anthony Gurley, author of Deadly Dilemma: Suicide, Faith, and the Search for Identity and Purpose, describing him, in the words of his own publicity materials, as an ordinary person rather than a celebrity or athlete, someone whose book grew out of enduring failure, self-esteem struggles and disappointment rather than fame. A Fathers Departure and a Lesson in Silence Gurley explains that the book began as a private project meant only to introduce himself fully to his children and grandchildren, until a friend who edits professionally urged him to publish it for strangers who might recognize themselves in it, imagining a plumber in Dubuque who has never found the courage to face his own story. He recounts coming home from being cut from his school basketball team at age eleven to find his father walking out the door with a suitcase, an image tied to two remembered phrases: being told to stay out of the way because he could not see through muddy water, and being warned, don't ask me for a damn thing. Gurley says he spent his career at a small college for thirty years never once asking for a raise, a promotion or help, a pattern he now traces directly back to that day, and he credits his wife of fifty-four years, whom he proposed to after four months, as something close to providence. Friends, Choices, and Consequences After the commercial break, the conversation turns to a mantra Gurley developed for the college students he mentored for decades: friends, choices, consequences. He tells Williams to choose friends carefully and cultivate a small trusted circle, to make choices wisely while accepting that even wise choices sometimes go wrong, and to embrace consequences graciously since a person controls the first two but not the third. Williams connects this to his own grandfather's warning about running with dogs and catching fleas. Gurley describes founding a mentoring program called Motivation Ministry that paired Christian student athletes and artists with adult mentors after he retired from thirty years in financial aid, and recalls repeatedly pointing students toward Philippians 4:8, urging them to post the verse where they would see it each morning as a quiet influence on daily decisions. He admits he never had many close friends himself, something he now regrets, tracing it back to the same childhood instinct to stay out of the way and avoid being noticed. Suicide Awareness and the Courage to Ask for Help With September marking Suicide Awareness Month, Williams asks Gurley directly about the suicidal thoughts he describes in the book's unsent letter. Gurley says the thought has flitted through his mind throughout adulthood without ever becoming an attempt, and he now believes far more people share that experience than he once imagined. He describes a recurring image from the book, a snow globe admired from outside but never entered, and asks listeners whether there is a similar adventure they have envied but lacked courage to try. He recalls a high school coach telling him, at a ninetieth birthday party two Saturdays earlier, that asking for help is not weakness but strength, a reframing Gurley says he had never considered. Williams closes by naming the book, Deadly Dilemma: Suicide, Faith, and the Search for Identity and Purpose, pointing listeners to Gurley's website for crisis resources, and repeating the program's closing promise that no matter how dark life gets, there is always hope.

  7. Aug 31

    Breaking the Silence, August 30, 2026

    Breaking The Silence with Dr Gregory Williams Anniversary Special Seven Years of Breaking Silence: A Roadmap from Survival to Hope Summary Seven Years on the Air Dr. Gregory Williams marks the program's seventh anniversary after a scheduled guest is hospitalized and the planned suicide-awareness discussion is postponed. He reflects on entering the eighth year of broadcasting, thanks the BBS Radio TV team and the audience, and describes the show's expansion from audio-only programming to video and broad platform distribution. He also celebrates listeners in Australia and invites callers and viewers to share their favorite episodes. Memorable Guests and a Listening Platform The host recalls conversations with Dr. Bruce Perry, Lisa Jakub, Micah and Diana LeCert, the actor who played Little Ricky, Chief Matt, and other guests. He also names several people he still hopes to interview. These memories reinforce his goal of maintaining a noncritical, believing, and accepting environment where survivors and guests can tell their stories without fear of dismissal. Reading from Shattered by the Darkness Williams reads from Chapter Eight of Shattered by the Darkness, describing the period after he first refused further abuse by his father. Although the physical abuse stopped, he recalls insomnia, isolation, emotional neglect, a continuing desire for paternal affirmation, and the fear that nobody would believe him. He compares the aftermath of sexual abuse to a glass heart shattered by a sledgehammer and explains that recovery began one small piece at a time. Recognize, Find Safety, and Regulate The first three steps in the host's recovery road map are recognizing and naming what happened, determining whether the survivor is currently safe, and regulating the body's response before trying to solve larger problems. Williams discusses identifying triggers, unhealthy behaviors, intimidation, and perceived threats. He recommends breathing, tapping, walking, rest, and the five-four-three-two-one sensory exercise as ways to redirect attention and lower acute anxiety. Reach Out, Process, and Rebuild The next steps are reaching out to trusted people, processing the experience at a manageable pace, and rebuilding what trauma took away. Williams urges survivors to develop a support system, reject self-blame, examine their triggers and losses, and restore routines, confidence, goals, decision-making, and personal control. He distinguishes healthy boundaries, which protect a person, from walls, which keep everyone out. Growing from Survival Toward Hope The final step is growth: moving from merely surviving toward living with strength, purpose, and a renewed sense of personal worth. Williams introduces the SAFE reminder - stop, assess, find support, and engage the next step - while distinguishing stress, anxiety, trauma, and abuse. He closes by emphasizing journaling, Christian faith, service to others, and the message he has repeated throughout the program's history: there is always hope.

  8. Aug 16

    Breaking The Silence, August 16, 2026

    This week's guest is Chief Matt Antkowiak. Chief Matt is the Co-Founder of Team Unconquerable and the Invictus Foundation. U.S. Army veteran, firefighter, career law enforcement leader. He is the author of, "Unconquerable." From Pain to Purpose: Faith, Trauma, Training, and the Courage to Speak Faith at the Center of Recovery The episode begins with Dr. Gregory Williams celebrating nearly seven years on the air and introducing a returning guest he addresses as Chief Matt. Rather than following a prepared interview sheet, Williams chooses objects around his room to spark conversation, beginning with a cross. Matt describes his Christian faith as the central organizing force in his life and explains that he views his recovery from childhood abuse through the lens of Jesus, free will, redemption, and purpose. He says he spent years angry with God but eventually came to believe that his pain could be transformed into a platform for helping others. Turning Pain Into Purpose Matt recounts how disclosing his own abuse has encouraged other survivors to speak. He describes an 18-year-old former martial arts student who told him that hearing Matt share his story gave him the courage to disclose his own sexual abuse publicly. That encounter becomes a vivid example of what Matt calls the transformation of pain into purpose, purpose into platform, and platform into legacy. He credits Williams as a mentor who has encouraged him spiritually and professionally while he develops his own survivor-advocacy work and forthcoming memoir. Breathing, Truth, and Crisis Training Using an oxygen bottle as the next conversational prompt, Williams asks how Matt handles anxiety, physiological stress, and dangerous situations. Matt describes breathing as his first response and says he follows it by asking himself what is actually true in the immediate moment rather than what fear is telling him. Drawing on military, firefighting, law-enforcement, SWAT, and martial arts experience, he argues that people do not “rise to the occasion” in crisis but fall back on their training. He emphasizes repeated preparation, mindset, and the idea that courage requires fear rather than the absence of it. Forgiveness, Justice, and Difficult Encounters The conversation moves into forgiveness and evangelism when Williams asks what Matt would say to a condemned man he once pursued as a police officer. Matt says he would speak to him about Jesus and pray for his soul, and he describes wanting a similar face-to-face encounter with the man who abused him. He says he wants his abuser to see that he is no longer broken and that he also wants to speak to him about Christ. For Matt, forgiveness does not erase justice or minimize harm; instead, he frames it as a way to refuse continued emotional poisoning while still recognizing accountability. Writing Trauma Into Order A Bible and journal become the next prompts, leading to an extended discussion of writing as a tool for trauma recovery. Matt says journaling and writing his book help him bring “order to disorder” by placing painful memories into words that he can revisit and understand. Williams describes giving trauma survivors a writing exercise focused on sensory details such as colors, fabrics, smells, sounds, time of day, and surroundings. Both men say that putting memories into language can uncover details, clarify patterns, and provide a way to process experiences that had remained buried or disconnected for years. Therapy, Communication, and Hope The final portion of the episode centers on counseling, honest communication, and ending the stigma around therapy. Matt says therapy has helped him understand anger, shutdown responses, family relationships, abuse-related guilt, and the difference between responsibility and blame. He describes deliberately seeking a male Christian therapist with experience in PTSD and sexual trauma and encourages other survivors to enter therapy and tell the truth about what they are experiencing. Williams closes by urging listeners to write, talk to someone, lean into faith, and remember that even in the darkest moments there is still hope. SEO Keywords / Key Phrases faith-based trauma healing, child sexual abuse recovery, survivor advocacy, Christian counseling, PTSD therapy, journaling for trauma, forgiveness after abuse, crisis mindset training, trauma survivor testimony, purpose after pain

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“Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams” Now is the time for you to step out of your own personal darkness and break the silence that has been hidden and closed up inside of you. “Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams” radio program will offer the listeners a Road Map to Hope each and every week with keys to discover within yourself that ray of light to make your day better and brighter. Dr. Williams will not only discuss his own personal journey of overcoming the darkness of years of horrific sexual child abuse in the hands of his father and his father’s friends, but Dr. Williams will also feature special guests that have their own personal stories of overcoming obstacles in their lives and becoming victors instead of victims. “Breaking the Silence” will also feature information from the professional and medical field that will dive into the important research involving Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) and how to build Resiliency in yourself and in your children. Along with this information will be special guests from greatest minds in the United States to share their expert research and thoughts on this very important subject that each person needs to be aware of. Now is the time to invest a few minutes each week with some awesome information to give you steps to HOPE and keys to HAPPINESS and PEACE. NOW is the time to Break YOUR Silence and breakout into a NEW and BETTER YOU! Join us each week beginning August 13, 2019 for “Breaking the Silence with Dr. Gregory Williams”. You won’t want to miss a single program. Heard around the world on the best radio network on the airwaves, BSS Radio Network available on iTunes, Google Play, iHeart Radio, Facebook Radio, Spotify and over 100 other high quality digital radio stations.