Is it Me or is it Them? with April Boyd

April Boyd
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Toxic friends. Difficult family. Frustrating partners. Endless overthinking.If you've ever found yourself asking, "Is it me or is it them?" this podcast is for you.Hosted by therapist, relationship coach, and author April Boyd, Is It Me Or Is It Them? explores the patterns, dynamics, and difficult questions that show up in our relationships and our lives.Each week you'll find practical tools, honest conversations, and hard-earned insights on boundaries, communication, self-trust, grief, anxiety, conflict, and connection—so you can stop second-guessing yourself and start showing up as the kindest, wisest, and bravest version of yourself.

  1. Jan 16

    What If I'm the Problem? When Growth is Isolating

    What if the question isn’t “What’s wrong with me?” — but “What if I’ve outgrown the room I’m in?” In this episode, April explores a quiet question many self-reflective people carry: What if I’m the problem? You’ll hear about: Why depth and honesty are often mislabeled as “too much”How growth can feel isolating, even when you’re lovedWhy editing yourself isn’t the same as being adaptableWhat it can mean to crave deeper, more honest conversations This conversation isn’t about leaving your relationships or replacing the people in your life. It’s about understanding what happens when you change—and your inner world has more nuance than your current circle can easily hold. If this episode resonates, Bold as Love is a small, thoughtful group for women who want a place to speak freely, reflect honestly, and connect without shape-shifting. Doors are closing soon. Thanks for listening. Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    9 min

  2. Jan 8

    When Saying No Isn’t Respected: Control vs. Connection

    Is there someone in your life who doesn’t take no for an answer? No matter how thoughtful, flexible, or accommodating you try to be, you still end up feeling pushed, dominated, or worn down. In this episode, we explore what’s actually happening when someone wants control, not connection. If your boundaries consistently create escalation instead of respect, this conversation will help you name the pattern and stop blaming yourself. You’ll learn how control often disguises itself as care, why your autonomy can feel threatening to certain people, and how power dynamics quietly replace reciprocity in these relationships. In this episode, we cover: The difference between connection and dominanceWhy “trying harder” doesn’t fix control-based dynamicsSubtle control patterns like decision hijacking, schedule overrides, guilt, and public pressureWhy boundary violations aren’t misunderstandingsThe relief that comes from correctly naming the problemHow to take care of yourself without waiting for others to change If this episode resonates and you want support navigating difficult or draining relationships — while staying grounded in your self-respect — I share more about the Bold as Love Collective, an intimate coaching space for women who are done proving their worth. Links & Resources: → Learn more about the Bold as Love Collective → Questions? Email me anytime april@lovelossproject.com Thanks for listening. I’ll see you next time. Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    22 min

  3. 12/30/2025

    Why Talking It Through Isn’t Working

    As the holidays wind down, many women are realizing that despite having the conversations, choosing their words carefully, and doing their inner work, nothing has really changed in their relationships. In this episode, April explores why talking things through sometimes backfires — and why trying harder to more clear can actually keep you stuck. The missing piece isn’t better communication. It’s understanding the competitive vs. collaborative disconnect — and learning how to interrupt gridlock before real connection is possible. In This Episode, We Explore: Why insight and self-awareness alone don’t create relational changeHow well-intended conversations can turn into new fightsWhy rehearsing conversations in your head rarely leads to breakthroughsThe idea of “relational software” — unconscious templates that drive conflictThe difference between a competitive mindset (me vs. you) and a collaborative mindset (us vs. the problem)Why collaborative people often over-function, explain, or justify — and why that backfiresHow competitive templates interpret explanation as dominanceWhy naming the dynamic matters more than arguing the contentWhat it really takes to “open the door” so understanding is possible Key Takeaways: You don’t need to be more patient, calmer, or clearerChange doesn’t come from one more perfectly worded conversationWhen one person is in competition and the other is seeking collaboration, conversations will stallYou cannot explain someone out of a competitive stanceReal change starts when you stop engaging in win/lose dynamicsThe work is not fixing yourself — it’s learning how to change the relational pattern Questions to Reflect On: When conflict comes up, do I tend to explain, justify, or prove my point?What happens in my body when I feel dismissed or misunderstood?Do my conversations feel like a battle — even when that’s not my intention?What would change if my first goal was opening the door, not being understood? About The Bold as Love Collective This episode reflects the deeper work we practice inside The Bold as Love Collective — a small, intimate group for women who want to stop repeating the same relational patterns and learn how to navigate conflict, connection, and self-respect differently. The group begins in January. Details and the link to join. Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    19 min

  4. 12/11/2025

    The Third Way: Between Doormat and “Difficult Woman”

    Episode DescriptionMost women are taught there are only two ways to move through conflict and relationships: Be nice → swallow your feelings, smooth things over, keep the peace at your own expenseBe strong → armor up, go sharp, cut people off, or handle everything yourselfNeither one feels good. Neither feels like you. In this episode of Is It Me or Is It Them?, I share the lightning-bolt insight that helped me name the heart of what so much of my work is really about: a third way for women, a middle ground where you don’t have to choose between being a doormat or a battle axe, where you can hold soft power: clear, kind, and steady. You’ll hear how over-tolerating and over-hitting both come from the same place (fear), what it means to live from simply zeroing in on what's actually true, and how the Bold as Love Collective helps women practice this “soft AND strong” way of being in real life. In This Episode, We Explore: The two default “templates” many women are handed:be nice (self-abandonment) or be strong (hard, defended, distant)Why both options come from the same place: fear of conflict, rejection, and being “too much” or “not enough”How swinging between silence and explosion keeps you out of alignment with what you actually wantWhy we need to get honest with ourselves faster and act and speak from here (What is really happening here? What is actually true for me? What do I want to see happen here?)The idea of soft power:soft without being a doormatstrong without being a battle axeclear without being cruelhonest without burning everything downHow to set “rules of engagement” for yourself (your own internal policies for how you do relationship)Why “win–win relationships” can become a powerful compass when you’re deciding how to respondThe difference between tidying your side of the street vs. trying to control how other people reactHow practicing this third way changes not just big conflicts, but the tiny everyday interactions with partners, family, coworkers, and strangersKey TakeawaysFeeling powerful because you snapped or withdrew is not the same as feeling grounded, confident and steady in your truth.Numbing out and blowing up are both protection strategies, not self-respect.Soft power sounds like: “I’m neither collapsing nor exploding. I’m steady. I’ll have my own back, no matter what.”You can be honest and boundaried and still be loving, considerate, and kind.The real shift happens when your words and actions line up with who you actually want to be — even in the messy moments.Mentioned in This Episode: The Bold as Love Collective If you’re tired of choosing between being a doormat or being “the difficult one,” you’ll love Bold as Love Collective— A 3-month coaching circle for women who want: clearer, cleaner boundaries (without guilt or explosion)fewer spirals before (and after) hard conversationsa steadier, more self-assured presence in their relationshipssoftness without disappearing; strength without the hard shellIt’s part self-paced course, part live virtual circle, and fully focused on practicing this third way in the real world, with ourselves, the people we love and the ones who push our buttons. 👉 Learn more / join the next round: here. Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    19 min

  5. 12/09/2025

    Between Self-Abandonment & Explosion, Softness = Power

    We’re taught to toughen up, care less, harden ourselves. But you probably already know that none of that actually works. It doesn't make us safer or more confident, it just sends us into a tug of war with ourselves. In this episode, April unpacks the powerful middle ground — where softness and self-respect can live together — and shares a story that reframes what real strength can look like. In This Episode: Why “toughening up” disconnects you from your instinctsThe trap of believing softness equals weaknessHow we confuse fear-based posturing with strengthThe difference between the performance of confidence and genuine grounded powerWhat it looks like to be clear without being cruelHow to listen to your body’s cues instead of overriding themThe third option between collapsing and attackingWhy real safety lives in self-trust, not force. Key Takeaways: Softness isn’t vulnerability to harm — it’s your internal compass.If you have to try to force someone to respect you and treat you well- you're dealing with a completely different problem.Power isn’t making others bend to your will; it’s knowing you can have your own back in any room you walk into.Discernment comes from staying connected to yourself and listening to your emotions, not armouring up and shutting down.Links Mentioned: Join the Bold as Love Collective Experience (starting January)Learn more about the programConnect with April on Instagram / Email Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    18 min

  6. 12/06/2025

    How to Decide If a Hard Conversation Is Worth It

    When something feels off in a relationship, how do you know whether to speak up… or let it go? In this episode of Is It Me or Is It Them?, I walk you through two real-life friendship situations - one that led to a soft, productive conversation, and another that crashed and burned - to help you understand how to make this decision with more clarity and self-assurance. This episode is especially for you if you tend to overthink conversations, carry resentment quietly, or struggle with knowing when to address something versus adapting your expectations. In This Episode, We Explore: When the hurt or frustration “lingers” and why that’s an important signalWhy waiting before responding (instead of reacting) can change everythingWhat it actually means to “clear the air” — and what you’re really asking for when you doA real example of speaking up that led to reassurance, repair, and deeper understandingA second example where speaking up led to defensiveness, shutdown, and another problem to be solved.How to tell if you’re truly letting something go — or just going quiet and resentfulWhy not every relationship needs the same standardsHow boundaries are often about what you will do differently moving forwardLetting go of personalization when someone’s behaviour is about their own patternsDeciding who still gets a seat at your table — and on what termsMentioned in This Episode: Bold as LoveIf this episode resonates, you’ll love the work we’re doing inside The Bold as Love Collective— a small, intimate coaching collective for women who want to: stop overfunctioning and overgivingnavigate hard conversations with steadiness and clarityset boundaries without guilt or explosionfeel more self-trust, confidence, and integrity in their relationships👉 Learn more here. Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    36 min

  7. 12/02/2025

    The Hidden Weight of Always Holding It Together

    Are your expectations a little unrealistic? If you’ve been feeling that pressure to be endlessly composed, endlessly capable, endlessly “fine” — this episode is for you. We’re talking about the real reason perfectionism shows up (hint: it’s not a personality trait). It’s an old survival strategy your nervous system learned a long time ago… one that might be quietly running your life today. Inside this episode you’ll hear: why your self-criticism spikes when you make a mistakehow old patterns of people-pleasing and “getting it right” still shape your reactionsthe one question that shows you whether a standard is actually yours — or conditioninghow perfectionism disconnects you from yourself and your relationshipswhat to do in the exact moment you feel the trap door of shame start to open I also share a real-life story about a mistake I made last week — and how easy it is to fall back into old patterns unless we consciously choose something different. Perfectionism isn’t about being better. It’s about feeling safer. And once you understand that, everything softens. If this conversation hits close to home… You’ll love the work we’re doing inside The Bold as Love Collective, my intimate coaching circle for women who want to stop overthinking, stop over-functioning, and start showing up with truth, steadiness, and self-respect — in every relationship they care about. We start in January, and early registration is now open. Join us here → [link] Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    21 min

  8. 11/25/2025

    Reconnect or Keep Your Distance? Listen to this Before You Reopen Old Friendship

    Have you been feeling the urge to reach out to that old friend you took distance from? As we move into the holidays it can be tempting to re-connect— send a quick message, extend an invite, or reopen the door with someone we’ve drifted from. But how do you know whether it’s a relationship worth revisiting… or one that’s better left gently in the past? In this episode, we help you decide whether to re-engage with an old friend, or keep your distance. You’ll hear some important questions you need to ask yourself, real examples, and a grounded look at the difference between healthy discomfort and unhealthy self-abandonment. In This Episode We Explore: How duty and obligation can both connect and confine usHow to tell when a relationship brings more stress than supportWhy we need to think of our time and energy as "investments"How the people around you shape who you becomeSome key questions, like: Has anything actually changed?Getting honest about your standards and what you are willing to put up with Reflection Questions to Consider: What’s driving the urge to reconnect — guilt, habit, or expectation?Do you have the capacity to carry someone who brings weight instead of warmth?What kind of relationships do you believe in surrounding yourself with? A Takeaway to Sit With:You can love someone, care about them, and hold fond memories — and still choose distance. Protecting your peace can be an act of honesty, not rejection. For Women Who Want Support With This Kind of Work & More Connections with Likeminded Folk: I'm reopening The Bold as Love Collective — a three-month coaching circle for women who have a tendency towards overthinking, over-functioning, and over-giving, and want to feel calmer, clearer, and more grounded in their relationships and conversations. If you want to feel more seen without performing and more heard without raising your voice, check out all the info here and DM with questions. Want to get better at speaking up? Sign up for the free on-demand workshop that will help you be more confident in standing your ground when you're dealing with a boundary bulldozer. Sign up here. Get on the Newsletter List here. Have a topic or question you'd love to hear about? Message me and let me know. email april@lovelossproject.com Instagram @with.love.april https://www.instagram.com/with.love.april/ Please note: This show is not a replacement for therapy, assessment, treatment or diagnosis. This show is intended for educational and entertainment purposes only. See your physician, counsellor or local crisis support centre if needed All identifying details about the people and the stories shared here are removed to protect confidentiality.

    25 min
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Toxic friends. Difficult family. Frustrating partners. Endless overthinking.If you've ever found yourself asking, "Is it me or is it them?" this podcast is for you.Hosted by therapist, relationship coach, and author April Boyd, Is It Me Or Is It Them? explores the patterns, dynamics, and difficult questions that show up in our relationships and our lives.Each week you'll find practical tools, honest conversations, and hard-earned insights on boundaries, communication, self-trust, grief, anxiety, conflict, and connection—so you can stop second-guessing yourself and start showing up as the kindest, wisest, and bravest version of yourself.

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