歡迎收聽傑尼龜的podcast 😍 你的支持是我繼續努力的動力！ // 時間軸： 00:00- 02:20 開場 02:20- 12:30 內容 // 逐字稿如下：(Apple podcast 字數有限制，可以點這個連結看完整版）https://reurl.cc/zZremQ Think about it, have you ever experienced failure in life? If yes, what was the occasion? How did you feel about that? Perhaps, your Internship interviews got no reply, or you failed an important exam, or maybe, you just kept messing up on everything. You felt like the whole world was against you. At that moment, some terrible ideas might even flash into your mind. What’s the purpose of my life? What are my values? Well, I had experienced that as well. So, today I want to share my story of transferring from the department of education to the department of English and tell you how come the failure turns into an opportunity. Back in my senior high school, I already made up my mind to study English in college. However, I failed in my college entrance exam(學測). You know what, when I finished my English test, I thought that, umm, I’m pretty confident that this time I would definitely get the full score. But, when I got home and was checking my answers, in an instant, a terrible idea swept over me, I found that I did not complete my translation part. So, I only got 14 at the end. It means that there’s no way for me to study English at NTNU. Yet, taking the advanced subjects test (指考) would do no good for me since my Chinese, geography, and history suck. So, I planned to first enter the department of education at NTNU, then transfer to the English department. Just when I considered everything was under my control, our school changed the policy. What a coincidence! Again! The whole world was against me. Originally, if students would like to transfer to the English department, they only needed to take a test. But, now, students have to first pass the Standard English Test, such as TOEFL or IELTS, then they are qualified to sign up for the interview. I didn’t notice that until the last minute, so I got no time to prepare for my Toeic oral test. As you can guess, I failed again. // However, that was not the worst. I remembered when I was having my Mentor Meeting with my professor, I inquired about the questions about transferring to the English department. Out of my expectation, he did not answer my questions directly, instead, he told me a short story. Here’s what he said, Well, I remembered several years ago, one of my students said he would like to transfer to the department of history, but then, he failed. Then, he decided to take the college entrance exam again, but still, he did not succeed. After hearing that story, I was paralyzed by perplexity, I could not even utter a word. Inside my mind, I was asking myself why did he talk about this? What’s the purpose of telling the story? Was he trying to convince me staying in the department of education? I didn’t know whether he was intended to do this. The only thing I’m sure of was he successfully infuriated me. After a couple of days, I hang out with a group of close friends, and I talked a lot about my current situation, and how am I going to do next. At this moment, one of my friends, no, I should say “acquaintance”, so one of my acquaintances responded in a sarcastic way, “Oh, but you are not yet a student from the English department.” That was how she spoke, in a malicious intonation. Holy crap, I should have punched her right on her face. Wouldn’t she suppose to support me and encourage me, as a close friend? No, instead, she was undermining my confidence. I was already **on the verge of collapse. 瀕臨崩潰邊緣 ** The next day, I received the score of my Toeic oral text, I clicked on the message immediately, then I burst into tears right on the spot, fretting about my inability to live up to my own expectations. (達到自我期望) I did not perform well on my college entrance exam, and now, I still couldn’t seize the second chance. Am I worthless? I asked myself again and again. For the following three days, I was crying all the time. I lived like a walking dead. // However, On the fourth day, amazingly, I woke up in the morning, felt like I’ve recovered. There’s no exaggeration, even my roommates were surprised by my quick recovery. I remembered she said, “What the hell? How can you adjust your mood so fast?” I don’t know, for me, I think the best way to release my negative emotions is crying. Here, please note that I don’t mean that you shouldn’t be depressed, I know it’s human nature, but what I mean is that after leafing off the steam (發洩情緒), you should focus on how you are gonna fix the problem. As the saying goes, “It’s no use crying over the spilt milk.” (覆水難收) You can’t just dwell yourself in the depths of despair. It’s time to reflect on yourself thoroughly. Think about why this misery happened? What’s wrong during the process? And, what can you do to compensate for that? // Take myself as an example, after examining myself deeply, I understood it’s my lack of practice that caused the problem. So, what should I do next? I decided to give myself a third chance. That is, to wait for another year. Since then, I set a clear goal for myself and tried many ways to sharpen my English skills. I went to our school’s TM club, which offered me chances to practice my impromptu speech and learned how to speak in front of a group of audiences. I still remembered my first time standing on the stage, it was awkward. My hands were shaking, my teeth were chattering, and my heart was beating like a drum. But, now, I do enjoy the spotlight and when I grab a microphone, I feel like the whole world is my oyster. 世界是我可盡情揮灑的舞臺 (這句話出自沙士比亞) Additionally, I also cultivated the habit of reading and listening to International news every single morning. You might be wondering, won’t you feel exhausted and lazy? How can you persist in doing the same thing every day? My answer is, when the alarm clock rings every morning, the sarcasm from my friends, the denial from my professor, and my own expectations motivate me to jump out of my bed. Nothing was going to stop me because I was eager to prove that I am capable. So, after one year of practicing, I finally succeeded in transferring to the department of English. // Now looking back, I do appreciate those past failures though it was a harsh and stressful period. Really! If I hadn’t failed, I wouldn’t have jumped out of my comfort zone. If I hadn’t failed, I wouldn’t have noticed that I had a great room for improvement. If I hadn’t failed, I wouldn’t have become who I am today. That’s why I would say “out of crisis comes opportunities.” (危機就是轉機) Sometimes a put-down is the best fuel to fire you up. When things happened, right at the moment, it seems to be terrifying. I know. But, if you can look from an opposite angle, it's actually perfect timing to take a rest and reevaluate yourself. Those obstacles can serve as a stimulus to help you turn inspiration into action because you will put in more effort in the next trial, and when you do that you do not end up with the same mistake as the previous one. Some of you might have doubts and think that “What if I can’t do it, or what if I fail again?” My reply, That’s the future, throw it out. Do not set limitations on yourself. 不要畫地自限 // At the very end of my podcast, I invite you to spend time pondering, Have you ever had a similar experience in your life? At first, something was getting out of hand, and it may look like a failure, but then it turned out to be an important turning point? If so, feel free to share with me. I would like to hear your stories. // 喜歡傑尼龜的 Podcast 話幫我訂閱分享唷~~~~🐢🐢🐢
