Bilingual Readings of Spring '22 Issue

Poetry Lab Shanghai

One poem, two worlds.

  1. 04/28/2022

    爱上和平莲 - Joleen Ancheta

    爱上和平莲 翻译:诗验室 我最近在尝试爱上一株和平莲。是在我祖母长眠后没多久。可我的努力却止步于花艺店……花店、苗圃,那个你可以购买表达痛苦或者祝福之礼的地方。我在过道上翻找,被情绪和甜美的味道弄得不知所措。在商店的一角,我看到装有像天使一样的和平莲的陶瓷花瓶。水滴顺着叶子落下,像泪。我无法让自己再靠近一步;我究竟是在庆祝一个灿烂且长寿的人生,还是在叹息一个过早结束的生命? 我曾经在乎过一支和平莲。是在我祖母长眠以前。它让我祖母开心 — 看着她最爱的孙女捧着她最爱的花朵。我将那支莲种在一只带图案的盆里,这个盆后来就一直待在厨房的柜台上。她每次经过那朵花时都会显得很满足,算是提醒自己因为抛掉在越南的生活,如今才能够帮助照看年幼的孙女。 我曾经不喜欢和平莲。是在我祖母长眠前很久。我觉得她们有点过于单调和怪异,与我未来的生活截然相反。我凭什么要喜欢一种代表用人生最后的时光与心爱的人哀悼短暂的脆弱转瞬即逝的光阴的花,或者象征一种作为少女的我无法真正体会的内心平和的花? 我原以为他们可以给和平莲更多的关怀。是在我祖母长眠的时候。此时的我却身处世界的另一个角落,通过视频对话目睹家人安葬她,眼里噙满泪水一片模糊昏暗不堪忍受和拒绝看着这位不等我回来亲自迎接我的人。我只是盯着屏幕一角一支看起来有点蔫了的百合。我又怎么会知道。 距祖母长眠已经有好几个月了。我觉得我会再次尝试爱上一支和平莲。

  2. 04/28/2022

    Caring for Peace Lilies - Joleen Ancheta

    CARING FOR PEACE LILIES  by Joleen Ancheta i recently tried to care for a peace lily. this was shortly after my grandmother took her final rest. i got as far as the florist...flower shop, plant nursery, this place where you purchase an expression of grief or a gift to celebrate. i scoured the aisles, overwhelmed by emotion and sweet scents. in the corner of the store, i spotted ceramic vases with peace lilies that looked like seraphim. water drops fell from the petals like tears. i couldn’t bring myself to go near; was i celebrating a long-lived life or grieving one cut too short?  i once cared for a peace lily. this was a time before my grandmother took her final rest. it made my grandmother grin—seeing her favorite granddaughter raise her favorite flower. i planted the lily in a painted pot, and the potted plant remained on the kitchen counter. she’d count her blessings each time she passed by the flower, as a reminder that the life she left behind in Vietnam led her to the teenage girl she could now help raise.  i once didn’t care for peace lilies. this was long before my grandmother took her final rest. i thought them too plain and eerie, the antithesis to the life that lay ahead of me. why would i favor a flower that represented the last moments of life on earth grieving ephemeral fragility fleeting moments with loved ones or symbolized an inner peace that a young soul like mine did not have the ability to truly comprehend? i thought that they could’ve given more care to the peace lilies. this was when my grandmother took her final rest. here i am on the other side of the world, watching my family lay her to rest through facetime, eyes filled with water blurry murky straining refusing to focus on the person that wouldn’t be there when i finally got to go back home. i was focused on one of the lilies in the corner of the screen that might’ve looked slightly wilted. i wouldn’t really know. it’s been several months since my grandmother took her final rest. i think i’ll try to care for a peace lily again.

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One poem, two worlds.