A Crisis of Faith: My Story

Erica Mears
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Seeking to uplift, strengthen, and encourage as I fight against despair and fear while living with a life altering brain injury. Sharing the innermost part of my heart amidst my journey through faith challenges and physical challenges. My prayer is that my words will reach someone who is also struggling and fighting for faith. I strive for Christ-centered thoughts and inspirations, while sharing personal experiences and lessons learned. Feel free to visit my blog, "Pondering of A Mother's Heart."

Episodes

  1. 12/30/2025

    Be Not Afraid, Only Believe

    This is not how I anticipated spending Christmas day! But I awoke from a nap with the most PRESSING feeling I had to get this done. My gift to my Savior this year is sharing my imperfect witness of Him. My witness of Him has changed with my trials, and I hope what I share reaches people like me who at times struggle to find hope and faith through enduring suffering. Merry Christmas my friends! You can find the text of this episode on my blog using this link: Be Not Afraid, Only Believe

    14 min

  2. 09/27/2025

    Compensating Blessings

    "I hadn’t heard the phrase, “compensating blessings” until this year while listening to a message given by Bishop Gerald Causse. His words were like salve to a stinging wound in my soul. Never had I heard God’s mercy described in such a way. Bishop Causse explained how “…when circumstances beyond our control prevent us from fulfilling the righteous desire of our hearts, the Lord will compensate in ways that allow us to receive His promised blessings.” He also quoted Elder Maxwell who taught, “God…takes into merciful account not only our desires and performance, but also the degrees of difficulty which our varied circumstances impose upon us.” The transcript of this episode can be found on my ⁠blog⁠. Additionally, here are the links to resources I refer to: "Compensating Blessings" by Bishop Gerald Causse⁠ The widow's mite (Mark 12:41-44) Lehi's Vision⁠ (1 Nephi 8:21-23)

    18 min

  3. 12/09/2024

    To Those Who Feel Weak

    "To be honest, I’ve often felt ashamed with how weak I feel in this trial (admittedly I still battle with this at times). For years I wondered why I couldn’t be tougher, stronger—like the old Erica. Even when I was doing all I could to turn to God and follow Him, I still felt embarrassingly weak. I didn’t feel as capable as a mother, as a friend, in my church calling, in daily tasks, in my hobbies, in running my home, and in my spiritual well-being. Every part of me felt weak. EVERY PART. And it drove me mad. I couldn’t stand it. I couldn’t stand me." In this episode, I explore the argument that it is okay to feel weak, because God is strong. The transcript of this episode can be found on my blog. Additionally, here are the links to resources I refer to: "Abide in Me and I in You; Therefore, Walk with Me" Original Blog Post about weakness in 2017 (written 2 months prior to my accident) Account of Christ visiting the America's (3 Nephi 17)

    19 min

  4. 06/20/2024

    When All Darkness Gathers In

    Today marks 12 years since my 16-year-old brother Kj passed away. In honor of him, I feel it would be meaningful for me to share via podcast the article I wrote years ago entitled, “When All Darkness Gathers In.” I know it will bless me to have a recorded version of it, and I pray it can also help others who may be facing their own suffering. As I’ve mentioned before, ironically I wrote this blog post only 7 months before I fell down the stairs. In hindsight, I see how the Lord was helping me to prepare for the upcoming darkest moments of my life. Published Article: LDSLiving

    29 min

  5. 05/13/2024

    Finding the Way Forward

    There are times in our lives when moving forward feels impossible. Many days I struggle with such feelings--especially since 2017. Thankfully, there are ways for all of us to overcome and rise above.

    26 min

  6. 10/15/2023

    Grief & Hope

    "I often think of myself as house that was hit by a hurricane and then restored. The concussion destroyed portions of the house. The years of rehabilitation were like adding new lumber and materials onto the original design. To all appearances, the restored house is the same, but it is not. It is a composite of the old and new. I look and sound similar to my old self, but I'm really a blend of the old and the new. In the years after my concussion, I did a lot of grieving, and I learned to accept who I am now." -Dr. Diane Roberts Stoler References: "Coping with Concussion and Mild Traumatic Brain Injury", Dr. Diane Roberts Stoler and Barbara Albers Hill "The Refiner's Fire," by James E. Faust Music from #Uppbeat: ⁠https://uppbeat.io/t/swoop/success⁠License code: NRLU2WQL9PN55YME

    18 min

  7. 06/27/2023

    After my brother died, I was given a message

    This is a continuation of my story of lessons learned since I suffered my brain injury.

    18 min

  8. 01/12/2023

    A Crisis of Faith: My Story

    Five years ago, I fell down the stairs, sustaining a brain injury that would change my life forever. This is my story of darkness, faith crisis, and lessons learned. Although I feel vulnerable sharing this, I know God has asked me to share! Also, less than a year before my accident, I started a blog entitled, "Pondering of a Mother's Heart." The script of this podcast is posted on my blog for those interested (including references). Thanks! Feel free to check out my instagram page @_ericamears for similar content. For those interested, here is the link to my article, "When All Darkness Gathers In." Thanks for listening! Music from #Uppbeat: https://uppbeat.io/t/swoop/success License code: NRLU2WQL9PN55YME

    49 min

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Seeking to uplift, strengthen, and encourage as I fight against despair and fear while living with a life altering brain injury. Sharing the innermost part of my heart amidst my journey through faith challenges and physical challenges. My prayer is that my words will reach someone who is also struggling and fighting for faith. I strive for Christ-centered thoughts and inspirations, while sharing personal experiences and lessons learned. Feel free to visit my blog, "Pondering of A Mother's Heart."

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