Backward Mutters Podcast

Randall Edwards

At Backward Mutters I'll be posting thoughts on various topics of personal interest which will likely be limited to poetry, C.S. Lewis, and Jesus because, try as I may, I can't stop talking about either. backwardmutters.substack.com

  1. Apr 5

    A Pet Poem for Easter

    Good morning, listeners. Today’s poem is a poem for Easter. It was originally written in response to a poetry prompt in which we were to write a “pet poem.” At the time I was preaching a series from the book of Job and was thinking a lot about the monsters in that book: Rehab, Behemoth, and Leviathan. I was really taken by the image of Leviathan in Job chapter 41. Up to that point in the book of Job, Job has been suffering calamities, suffering so-called good friends trying to set him straight, suffering the silence of God, pleading his case, but in Job chapters 38-41 God asks Job some questions, and in Job 41, the Lord asks this, 1 “Can you draw out Leviathan with a fishhook or press down his tongue with a cord? 2 Can you put a rope in his nose or pierce his jaw with a hook? 3 Will he make many pleas to you? Will he speak to you soft words? 4 Will he make a covenant with you to take him for your servant forever? 5 Will you play with him as with a bird, or will you put him on a leash for your girls? Job 41:1-5 The image of the Lord making Leviathan nothing more than a pet for young girls sealed the deal for me. I had to write a pet poem about Leviathan. At about that same time, I was looking for the ways aritists imagined Leviathan. I found one image I particularly liked that was included in a 12th Century manuscript titled, Hortus Deliciarum (The Garden of Delights), a book was compiled by Herrad of Landsberg. In this image of Leviathan, some artistic monk drew Leviathan being fished for with a hook featuring Jesus’ human nature on the cross as the bait. I’ve included the imagine in the episode’s notes. The fishing line is composed of several patriarchs and prophets which resemble a Jesse Tree or a chain of prophecies in the Old Testament foretelling Jesus’ coming. Leviathan attempts to swallow Jesus, but in so attempting, Leviathan pierces his own jaw on the hook. In looking at the image, you can see how the text and image relate. One other thing, seemingly random but really related. Have you ever caught those TV shows about “noodlers”? Noodlers are catfishers who catch these huge catfish by sticking their hand in a catfish hole until the catfish bites their arm. Once the catfish bites, they pull the fish out of the water. Do they use dough balls? Chicken livers? [Nope.] They use themselves. They are the bait. In some way, that is just what Jesus Christ has done. He became the bait so that we might get the catch. In a manner of speaking, I’m saying, that Jesus’ resurrection on Easter morning means, the catfish hole of death is empty. Life has swallowed up the grave. Jesus makes death no more dangerous than a tame bird or a pet your little girls lead around on a leash. So, I’d like to wish you a Happy Easter. Hallelujah! Christ is risen! A Pet Poem Tied like bait and fastened to a tree He descended, cast himself to the depths Of this world’s chaos and calamity Sank ‘neath its waves and breathed his last breath. Swallowed by the gaping mouth of death In the dark of its belly he lay Until the barbed hook of justice set On the morning of the third day. Holding his rope in the beast’s jaw fixed fast The one who went down, was drowned, arose Bursting death’s belly, the scorned and outcast Led Leviathan out by the nose. In our loving, Redeemer’s victory The fears we fear, the terrors and threats Are of no more concern for you and me Than a bird a young boy might get, And Leviathan that dragon of death Is led for your girls on a leash like a pet. Description: God fishing Leviathan, using Jesus Christ’s human nature as bait. Jesus is depicted crucified, at the bottom of a w:Jesse Tree. Miniature from Hortus deliciarum. between 1167 and 1185. w:Herrad of Landsberg. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    6 min
  2. Mar 10

    Where Are You?

    Well, friends, spring arrived in my neck of North Carolina while my wife and I were in Lancaster, PA at this year’s Square Halo Conference. Square Halo’s a wonderful two-day conference for those thinking about how art and creativity intersect. It is a community big on collaboration, and I am grateful for how they’ve worked to collaborate with other artists and groups of artists across the US and the world. As I was saying, spring arrived. And one of my favorite things about spring is that the almond tree on the grounds of the church that I pastor is now blooming. This tree was planted in 2018 by some friends who heard my longing for such a tree after preaching a series on Jeremiah. Our church’s almond tree first bloomed in March of 2020. I cannot tell you how timely that was for me. As we entered the Covid pandemic, I was able to see a living picture of the Lord’s promise of presence and faithfulness. That tree has been preaching to me through the seasons ever since. I highly recommend getting one for yourself. So, how does this almond tree preach? Firstly, the almond is an early flowering tree. It is one of the first trees to bloom, and it oftentimes does so before ‘spring-ness’ has arrived. The almond blossom takes on the symbol of a fore-sign of the good that is coming even though the present circumstances don’t seem to show it. The almond tree makes several appearances in the Bible. The menorah candelabra in the Tabernacle and the Temple was fashioned to look like an almond tree — with leaves and blossoms. The almond tree also makes and appearance in Jeremiah 1. In Jeremiah 1 we read that the Lord calls Jeremiah into ministry at an early age. Jeremiah questions as to whether he’s worthy or old enough to be of any use to the Lord let alone have anything to say that his people would be inclined to hear. The Lord answers Jeremiah with a question. Apparently, Jeremiah is having his conversation with the Lord in the spring of the year outside somewhere. The Lord asks Jeremiah, What do you see? Jeremiah looks and replies, I see an almond branch. To which the Lord responds, “You see well son, for I am watching over my word to perform it.” Now that sounds good in so far as we understand it in English, but embedded in the Hebrew is something more. The Hebrew word for almond is “shaqeed”. Jeremiah says, “I see a shaqeed.” And the Lord responds, You see well son, because I am shoqued (watching over). Right here in this significant moment of calling, and right in the moment of doubt and unconfidence, the Lord responds to Jeremiah with a sort of ‘dad joke’…a pun. I find that delightful. What kind of father is our Heavenly Father? The Lord uses the almond pun to assure Jeremiah, that just a child desires their parents’ approval at something they are undertaking, Jeremiah’s Lord and Heavenly Father is watching approvingly over Him. And the beautiful thing is that whenever Jeremiah saw an almond tree from that day on, he not only saw an almond tree, but he heard the Lord saying that he was shoqued-ing over Jeremiah. Now, that’ll help you. Today’s poem is one I’ve been reworking since 2020. It is my Jeremiah 1, almond tree poem. I’ve borrowed a line from Eugene Peterson who somewhere translated “almond branch” to “almond stick.” He employed stick to try and get at the pun of shaqeed and shoqued. I’ve borrowed it here in my poem. I hope it helps you as it has helped me. So happy spring. If it’s not where you are yet, take heart. The almond tree is blooming. What Do You See? I loved you before I made you in love In the hidden place of your begetting; The mission of your life comes from above; As my watchman, you’ll speak, my word spreading. “Ah, but Lord God, who am I? Can’t you see? I am just a youth; I cannot speak. Who would hear or listen to me? I don't know how; I'm not strong but weak.” Ah, indeed. Do not say, “Ah!” Do you hear? I’ll put in your mouth my word of power You shall say what I say. Speak! Do not fear; Though they beat, you’ll remain my strong tower. “But how will I know that you are with me?” I said to myself as I walked along. Jeremiah, tell me, what do you see? I looked up, “I see a stick of almond.” You see well, son! I’ll be sticking around — To watch you work my word for years to come. You watch each spring when this stick of almond Reminds with its blooms the sticking I’ve done. Remember this stick, son. I’m sticking around Whether you work to plant, pull up, or tear down. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    7 min
  3. A Poem for Your Pocket

    04/28/2025

    A Poem for Your Pocket

    I learned several years ago from a member of my congregation that April 29th was Poem In Your Pocket Day. Though it’s a part of National Poetry Month, I’ve just discovered that it isn’t a fixed day during the Month, but rather it can move. Maybe it’s something like a moveable feast in the church calendar. Or maybe it’s something like the difference in Easter Sunday between the Julian and Gregorian Calendars. Though I’m a week and a half late, every day one should have a poem in their pocket. So, for all my Substack, Poetry Pub, Goodness Tea Party, Almond Tree Peeps, and anyone who has an empty pocket out there. Here’s a Poem for Your Pocket. I need a poem for my pocket-- One that I can take with me, One that turns into a rocket, Shoots me up and out and free… One that lifts my eyes to heaven, Enables me to see, Words that work in me like leaven, Or root me like a tree. My pocket holds an iPhone Some change and several keys But my pocket needs a poem To put my mind at ease. (So) Here’s a poem for your pocket: One to take where’er you go, A promise in a locket, A promise you should know. His word is written in you Is seed a Sower’s sown, It sprouts and grows within you, Till you become a poem That sings His Hallelujah Or weeps in sad lament, Leaves you speechless in the awe Of the Gospel Word He’s sent. Like a poem in the pocket Of His waistcoat near His breast You are sealed in the locket Of His loving heart, and blessed. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    3 min
  4. 02/26/2025

    Endings

    Good morning! Today is February 26, 2025 and today’s poem is inspired by the ending of the book of Job. I began writing poems inspired by the book of Job in the fall of 2020 when I preached a series through the book — a book I had avoided because I couldn’t imagine how one could preach forty chapters of poetic dialogue. Thankfully, there are smarter people than me, and I was helped by the books and preachers who have commented on and preached through the book before. Now there are many opinions about the book of Job and how to read it. My take on one of the great themes the book is coming to terms with the inadequacy of a religion that merely views justice as retributive and success the reward of a life lived well. These are not in themselves wrong. All you have to do is read through the book of Proverbs to see that these ideas are commended and encouraged. You cannot have hope that things will be set right if wickedness is not punished. Neither will you thrive if you don’t believe a person reaps what they have sown. The problem is that neither of these explain Job’s circumstances. A person is only two-thirds right if they only believe that one gets what they deserve AND that a person reaps what they have sown. But this two-thirds theology is all the theology Job’s friends have. They believe that Job must’ve done something very wicked to suffer they he has and is suffering. However, there is another third that these friends can’t seem to imagine. Through the book, Job gets glimpses of this other piece when with confidence and hope in the face of all the circumstantial data, he says, “I know that my Redeemer lives, and in the end he will stand on the earth (Job 19:25).” He gets another glimpse in his apprehension of the existence of wisdom which can bring him to understand and navigate the complexities of life. But, Job never does get the answer to why these things have happened to him. (The reader of Job knows more than he does). Though Job doesn’t get an answer, God does come to him, and in coming to Job, Job is able to behold the Lord; it is in beholding the Lord that his anger and bitterness fall off. And get this, none of his circumstances change, yet he sees something, and that something answers suffices for all his questions. I think this is to what C.S. Lewis’ points at the end of, Till We Have Faces when Orual says, I know now why when asked you utter no answer. It is because you yourself are the answer.” Here’s my poetic supposal of Job’s response to seeing the Lord. Endings There was nothing left to do But put my hand over my mouth, Not speak another word. You are right and strong, And though I still believe I did nothing wrong, I know you did not either. For now my eye sees you, Sees all that you have done, Perceives something you will do, And it is too wonderful for me; For not only can you do all things, But you will do everything That needs doing. I see the work of your hands And something of their stretched span, Something more than getting what’s owed, Someone in between, In between merely getting the reaping Of that which was sowed, And the strong arm which can Work or hold or let go. Somewhere between the span of those two hands Is a heart that will be betrayed and broken— Broken open in an effusion of blood And water and love. I had heard of You, but I have spoken Of things I did not understand, Things I did not know. And though I still sit on this heap of ash, And though I have more questions I could ask, I am at peace, am comforted, and at rest. For I am Yours, and You are mine, And that is best. Now, whatever good You send Will not be first but only the rest And resting in You shall never end. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    6 min
  5. 02/19/2025

    Last Wish

    When I studied to be a pastor, one of my practical theology professors was Dr. Steve Brown. Steve is a native North Carolinian and went to college down the road from where I pastor now. From a North Carolina Methodist college to a Methodist seminary in Boston, Steve trained for and entered the pastorate. And then he became a Christian — not the usual progression for a minister. Eventually, Steve made his way to South Florida where he pastored Key Biscayne Presbyterian Church and founded Key Life Ministries. When the gospel got a hold of his heart and mind it transformed him. That transformation together with growing appreciation of the amazing grace of the gospel opened doors of opportunity. Steve came to find himself in many unique situations especially among the residents of Key Biscayne and Miami. In one such encounter, Steve found himself ministering to the wife of a dear friend who moved in what Steve says, was “a very fast crowd.” She was dying of AIDS. Now, this was in the 1980’s and this new disease carried with it a lot of fear and stigma and was untreatable. In ministering to her, Steve was able to help her understand and then grasp the great love of the Father as seen in and through Jesus. When she died, she died with hope and convinced of the forgiveness and love of God for her. The funeral took place in the couple’s home it was more like a cocktail party. The house was decorated with balloons and a jazz pianist played music while the guests mingled. You probably wouldn’t be surprised to hear that the guests at this funeral were not the sorts of people who went church. Though it was an unusual setting for a presbyterian minister, it wasn’t for Steve. Why was that? Well, I think in Steve’s mind, this was just the sort of place where Jesus would’ve been present. Steve recalls the funeral in his book, Approaching God. When it was time for him to speak, Steve writes, this what he got up and said, “I’m here…for only one reason. You needed someone to tell you the truth. I’m just one bad person telling other bad people the most important thing you will ever hear: God is God, and you should remember that. But if you go to him, he won’t be angry with you. In fact, he’ll love you. Our friend found that out, and we wanted to make sure you knew.” —Steve Brown, Approaching God When I first heard Steve Brown tell this story, I was inspired. It continues to inspire and move me. I’ve taken his words and his memory and turned it into a poem-story. The narrator’s perspective is from the vantage point of one of the guests. I’ve titled the poem, Last Wish. It did not seem like a funeral With all the booze and balloons, Just a way to deny the noumenal Life and death caricatured like cartoons. In the cocktail hour’s jazzy mix of Celebration and intoxication, Smartly dressed people laugh and chuckle Hide their unease behind conversation. And unease there is as we grasp with white knuckles Our Scotch like a roller coaster’s seat bar — Hoping these tumblers won’t let us fling out Into eternity like some shooting star. How can we escape when Death at last comes For spouses — takes friends into finality? But our booze and balloons makes light and numbs Us to the end of our common reality. —— A man stands up, clears his throat to say Why we’re here — why he’s come today. Says, “You need someone to tell you what’s true. You’re bad people, but I am one too. I’ve been invited to come in this sad season For one purpose, for this very reason: And if you’ll take a moment and lend an ear, I’ll tell you what I hope you’ll never un-hear. Something you should not ignore or laugh at: God is God. You should remember that. And though He is, and that He is, you should see, But what I want you to know more importantly Is that, if you turn to Him, he won’t be angry with you, That He will be glad because He loves you. Our friend, the one whose death brings me to you, Found that out at the last, and it meant all in the end. She came to know Love which did not withhold but send, Love willing to die, and in dying make things new. Our friend’s last wish, why she sent me to you Was to make sure that you knew it too.” Brown, Steve. Approaching God: Accepting the Invitation to Stand in the Presence of God. New York: Howard Books, 2008. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    6 min
  6. 02/12/2025

    Surprised as Betjeman

    During the pandemic, poet, priest, and academic Dr. Malcolm Guite began his YouTube channel, Spells in the Library. These 10 minute videos were a way he could continue to offer “office hours” so to speak. As chaplain of Cambridge University’s Girton College, Dr. Guite kept office hours when students would stop for a visit. His Spells in the Library were a way Dr. Guite labored to keep something of the ordinary of ministry and hospitality during those unprecedented times. Since 2020, Dr. Guite has continued to offer his spells these incantations of moments in story and words. You’ll recall that the word “spell” is also the work of making words with letters. Many of the words Dr. Guite shares are poetic, and so this fits nicely with the enchantment of words put skillfully together. In this way, I think Dr. Guite is very much like the magician in C.S. Lewis’ The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Whether I am one of the children or one of Coriakin’s duffers remains to be seen, but I am happy to be either, and these spells over the last five years have been a continued source of encouragement and inspiration. Early on, in one of this spells, Dr. Guite shares a poem by John Betjeman who was poet laureate of England from 1972-1984. As Guite welcomes his us into his library, he gives a rambling introduction to the ‘chaos that has come again’ to his library and its book shelves. Welcoming us, he speaks with a poet’s rhythmic meter, and the language itself is poetic. I’ve embedded the video in the notes. Have a listen, and you’ll hear and see what I mean. Later in the episode, Dr. Guite introduces his viewers to a poem by John Betjeman titled, “St Saviours, Aberdeen Park, Highbury, London.” (The poem is also posted in the notes). “St Saviours, Aberdeen Park” is a significant encounter which Betjemen tells about a time he visited the church of his youth, a church which has since closed, and is up for sale. Betjeman’s experience, Malcolm’s introduction, together with a little inspiration all worked to stir a response in me. My response begins with a paraphrase of Guite’s bardic greeting and continues with my response to arrive together with Betjeman seated before the altar at St Saviours. Surprised as Betjeman “Chaos has come again,” as Othello says. I’ve got this Betjeman, (Don’t you see?) Where it’s perched precariously, Where it really shouldn’t be; This book, Betjeman’s Britain, Because I took it out of the shelf, And can’t actually… I can’t remember… I can’t find the gap for it myself. So you can see, All the other books That are on their sides, Books that, They have a home to go to, But I can’t… They can’t Find their way home At the moment. We all, like volumes Lie on our sides Where we shouldn’t be. We cannot find The gap where we fit— Where we slide In perfectly That place Snug up against another’s side— Cozy, upright, ready to be read, Where we sit. And we wait for the Reader Who gives life to the dead Who has gone before us Who has made for us the best Place where we might abide and rest. But chaos has come again. We can’t…I can’t…they can’t Find their way home Though they have a home to go to. Here we sit or lie; Here we wait until we do Find our way back and into That gap, the place our Reader choose. One day, in a moment, He will take us up and read, And by His voice blow the leaves Of these open pages, and with life breathe And speak us with words into being. We shall rise. We shall find our place Straight-spined, standing tall, awash In the grace of the Spoken Word Surprised as Betjeman Transfigured. "St. Saviour's, Aberdeen Park, Highbury, London, N" by Sir John Betjeman Highbury, London, N. With oh such peculiar branching and overreaching of wire Trolley-bus standards pick their threads from the London sky Diminishing up the perspective, Highbury-bound retire Threads and buses and standards with plane trees volleying by And, more peculiar still, that ever-increasing spire Bulges over the housetops, polychromatic and high. Stop the trolley-bus, stop! And here, where the roads unite Of weariest worn-out London — no cigarettes, no beer, No repairs undertaken, nothing in stock — alight; For over the waste of willow-herb, look at her, sailing clear, A great Victorian church, tall, unbroken and bright In a sun that's setting in Willesden and saturating us here. These were the streets my parents knew when they loved and won — The brougham that crunched the gravel, the laurel-girt paths that wind, Geranium-beds for the lawn, Venetian blinds for the sun, A separate tradesman's entrance, straw in the mews behind, Just in the four-mile radius where hackney carriages run, Solid Italianate houses for the solid commercial mind. These were the streets they knew; and I, by descent, belong To these tall neglected houses divided into flats. Only the church remains, where carriages used to throng And my mother stepped out in flounces and my father stepped out in spats To shadowy stained-glass matins or gas-lit evensong And back in a country quiet with doffing of chimney hats. Great red church of my parents, cruciform crossing they knew — Over these same encaustics they and their parents trod Bound through a red-brick transept for a once familiar pew Where the organ set them singing and the sermon let them nod And up this coloured brickwork the same long shadows grew As these in the stencilled chancel where I kneel in the presence of God. Wonder beyond Time's wonders, that Bread so white and small Veiled in golden curtains, too mighty for men to see, Is the Power that sends the shadows up this polychrome wall, Is God who created the present, the chain-smoking millions and me; Beyond the throb of the engines is the throbbing heart of all — Christ, at this Highbury altar, I offer myself to Thee. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    5 min
  7. 02/05/2025

    They Have Not Prevailed

    Today’s poem is inspired by a song found in a collection of songs which were sung by pilgrims as they traveled from their homes to worship at the Temple in Jerusalem. The collector and organizer of the book of the psalms titles each of these fifteen psalms “songs of ascent” because in traveling to Jerusalem, you are ascending not only the Judean highlands, but you are climbing Mount Zion. This is why when a person going to Jerusalem, even if they are traveling from the north in Galilee, is said to be “going up to Jerusalem.” The Songs of Ascent contain the themes of pilgrimage: what inspires a person to set out, what struggles they may face in their journey, what encouragement they may need to continue, and the hope of the experience when they arrive. Psalm 129 speaks particularly to the endurance needed to persevere in the Pilgrim journey. It begins, “Greatly have they afflicted me from my youth” — let Israel now say— “Greatly have they afflicted me from my youth, yet they have not prevailed against me. The plowers plowed upon my back; they made long their furrows.” -- Psalm 129:1-3 It’s powerful psalm which is itself an act of defiant resistance in the face of oppression. You can imagine those being taken into captivity by Babylon and the mocking of the nations as they are being deported from their homeland. How, in such a moment, are you going to persevere in faith? Well, you need a walking song. Here’s my response to Psalm 129. I hope it helps you as fight the good fight of faith today. The poem is titled, “They Have Not Prevailed.” Since my youth, they have afflicted me-- Foremen who furrowed my flesh of life, Who scourged, whipped, beat, and knifed-- The plowers who plowed in red. Let all those trodden upon and left for dead Say it with me. Say it with me! "Though greatly afflicted, yet they have not, They have not prevailed over me!" Let the deeds they sow, though they sprout and grow, Wilt, wither, and waste in the sun's heat; Let their garnered glory fade in defeat, Leave them nothing in their hand. Bind them to emptiness as with a band. May these wicked be cursed, never know The peace of fullness, for they have not Prevailed, not prevailed, let them know. The Lord is good. He is just. He alone, right. He perseveres his people, breaks their chains; With the iron scepter of his rule and reign, He dashes as clay their oppression. But he delivers by his own dispossession, Takes the mortal cords, enters the night, Gives his back to plowers, who plow up his life To bury in death, snuff out the Light of Light. This was the plan, the eternal decree, That the Sower furrow into the ground, That in his plowing, bury death down, Beyond the tomb's door sealed. Greatly afflicted, by your stripes I'm healed; The limbs of your cross, my life-giving tree, My glory and boast over my enemy, My sin, which shall never, never prevail over me. © Randall Edwards 2017 This poem is for Christ’s church. If it is helpful, please feel free to copy or reprint in church bulletins, read aloud, or repost. I only ask that an attribution be cited to myself (Randall Edwards) and this blog (backwardmutters.com and/or backwardmutters.substack.com). Thanks. Artwork: Detail from an illustration of The Pilgrim’s Progress or Christian’s journey from the City of Destruction in this evil World to the Celestial City; Published July 1, 1813 by J. Pitts No 14 Great St Andrews Street Seven Dials. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit backwardmutters.substack.com

    5 min

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At Backward Mutters I'll be posting thoughts on various topics of personal interest which will likely be limited to poetry, C.S. Lewis, and Jesus because, try as I may, I can't stop talking about either. backwardmutters.substack.com