Caffeinated Trauma

Mike Colaianni
  • 5.0 (12)
  • Mental Health
  • Updated Bimonthly

Welcome to Caffeinated Trauma, the podcast that brings you powerful and honest conversations with first responders and military members who have faced life’s toughest moments. We dive deep into their personal stories of courage, resilience, and recovery as they recount the traumatic events they've endured in the line of duty. Through raw and open interviews, we explore how these heroes navigate the mental and emotional challenges that come with their service, offering valuable insights on coping, healing, and finding strength after the storm.

  1. Episode 13- Courtney

    5d ago

    Episode 13- Courtney

    In Episode 13 of Caffeinated Trauma, I sit down with Courtney, a registered nurse at Fort Hood, Texas, and the wife of a police officer. Courtney shares her unique perspective on life as both a healthcare professional and the spouse of a first responder. During the conversation, Courtney reflects on her experience working at Fort Hood during the 2014 active shooter attack, a tragic event that claimed the lives of several soldiers and left many others wounded. She discusses the emotional impact of working through a critical incident of that magnitude and how those experiences have stayed with her over the years. Courtney also opens up about the realities of shift work, the challenges of maintaining a healthy marriage when both partners work in high-stress professions, and the toll that trauma and stress can take on individuals and families. Together, we discuss the importance of therapy, communication, and seeking help when navigating the unique pressures faced by first responders, healthcare workers, and their loved ones. This episode offers an honest and powerful look at resilience, healing, and the often-overlooked challenges experienced by those who stand beside the men and women who serve. Listen as Courtney shares her story of strength, sacrifice, and growth in a conversation that will resonate with first responders, healthcare professionals, military families, and anyone facing the challenges of trauma and recovery.

    1h 10m
  2. Episode 11- Kim Pastore

    Feb 9

    Episode 11- Kim Pastore

    In Episode 11 of Caffeinated Trauma, we welcome Kim Pastore for one of the most powerful and emotional conversations to date. Kim’s husband, Jorge Pastore, was killed in the line of duty during a hostage rescue on November 11, 2023. What followed was every law enforcement family’s worst nightmare—sudden loss, unanswered questions, and a grief that reshapes everything. In this episode, Kim speaks with raw honesty about navigating life after tragedy, the long road of grief, and the invisible weight carried not only by surviving spouses, but by the SWAT officers who were there that day and continue to carry it with them. We talk about survivor’s guilt, brotherhood, and how critical incidents ripple far beyond the scene. Kim also shares how she turned unimaginable pain into purpose by founding the Jorge Pastore Foundation, an organization dedicated to providing free training to officers across the country—ensuring Jorge’s legacy lives on through preparation, safety, and service. This episode is heavy. It’s real. And it’s necessary.It’s a conversation about loss, resilience, marriage in law enforcement, and how spouses can survive—and support one another—when the job brings the unthinkable home.

    1h 15m
  3. Episode 10- Jimmy Wise

    09/08/2025

    Episode 10- Jimmy Wise

    Jimmy Wise started his career in New York City as an EMT with the FDNY, running into some of the toughest calls you can imagine. Eventually, he packed up and made his way to Texas, where he became a police officer and continued his life of service. Along the way, Jimmy has faced his own battles with mental health, something many first responders can relate to. Instead of hiding from it, he’s chosen to use his story to help others who are struggling, dedicating his life to being there for people walking the same road.

    46 min
  4. Episode 9- Tatiana Rivera

    09/01/2025

    Episode 9- Tatiana Rivera

    This week on Caffeinated Trauma, I sit down with Tatiana Rivera, a seasoned dispatcher with over a decade of experience behind the radio. Throughout her career, Tatiana has been the calm voice during some of Austin’s most critical moments—including six officer-involved shootings and the Austin bombing. Her dedication to first responders and the community has shaped her into not only a leader but also a source of strength for others. Now serving as a supervisor and member of peer support, Tatiana continues to give back by lending a hand to those navigating the weight of the job. Join me as she shares her journey, the impact of these defining moments, and the resilience it takes to stay strong while supporting those on the front lines.

    47 min
  5. Episode 8- Sara Stoutamire

    07/14/2025

    Episode 8- Sara Stoutamire

    Sara Stoutamire is an 18-year veteran dispatcher with the Austin Police Department, bringing nearly two decades of experience behind the radio. Throughout her career, Sara has been the calm voice guiding officers through some of the city's most critical and traumatic moments,including officer-involved shootings and high-stakes emergencies. Unlike those on scene, Sara's world was shaped by the voices she heard and the silence that followed, leaving her to build the imagery of each traumatic event entirely in her mind. For years, Sara carried the weight of these invisible wounds without fully realizing the toll it had taken. Eventually, she made the courageous decision to seek therapy, a step that transformed her life and helped her process the trauma she had silently endured. Today, Sara is a powerful advocate for mental health and resilience in first responders, offering a unique perspective from the headset side of the badge.

    42 min
  6. Episode 7- Jeff Hutchison

    05/12/2025

    Episode 7- Jeff Hutchison

    In episode 7, I sit down with Jeff Hutchison.Jeff is a seasoned law enforcement officer with 13 years of dedicated service. One of the most defining moments of his career came during a critical hostage rescue operation that would test both his training and resilience. In the face of overwhelming gunfire, Jeff played a pivotal role in navigating the chaos and helping to bring the situation to a resolution. His story is one of courage under fire, and the lasting impact such incidents have on those who serve. Jeff joins the podcast to share his experience, reflect on the emotional aftermath, and speak openly about the realities officers face during life-threatening operations.

    52 min
  7. Episode 6 - Colin Guzman

    04/07/2025

    Episode 6 - Colin Guzman

    In this powerful episode of Caffeinated Trauma, we sit down with Colin Guzman—a former LAPD officer who carries on a proud family legacy of service. During his 5 years with LAPD, Colin served on patrol and the gang unit. Colin has faced some of the city's harshest realities head-on. But nothing could prepare him for the night he found himself off duty at a bar when an active shooter stormed in, ultimately claiming the lives of 11 people. Colin opens up about the trauma, the weight of legacy, and how these life-altering moments have shaped his identity both in and out of uniform. This is a story of survival, strength, and the enduring impact of service.

    1h 7m
  8. Episode 5- Brad Ray

    03/10/2025

    Episode 5- Brad Ray

    Brad Ray has spent 17 years in law enforcement, serving in some of the most high-stakes assignments in the profession. Throughout his career, he has worked patrol, SWAT, and homicide, eventually rising to the rank of sergeant over a violent crimes task force. He has been directly involved in two officer-involved shootings and supervised a third, experiences that have left lasting impressions on his career and personal life. The weight of investigating homicides has taken its toll on Brad over the years, but his battles haven’t been limited to law enforcement. Outside of the job, he has faced life-threatening situations, including a terrifying rock-climbing fall and being kidnapped in Mexico—both of which tested his resilience in ways few can imagine. On this episode, Brad shares the raw and unfiltered truth about the emotional and psychological impact of his career, as well as how he has processed and survived the unthinkable. His story is one of survival, resilience, and the lasting effects of living on the edge.

    1h 24m
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About

Welcome to Caffeinated Trauma, the podcast that brings you powerful and honest conversations with first responders and military members who have faced life’s toughest moments. We dive deep into their personal stories of courage, resilience, and recovery as they recount the traumatic events they've endured in the line of duty. Through raw and open interviews, we explore how these heroes navigate the mental and emotional challenges that come with their service, offering valuable insights on coping, healing, and finding strength after the storm.

Information

  • Creator
    Mike Colaianni
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2026
  • Episodes
    13
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Mike Colaianni
  • Show Website
    Caffeinated Trauma