Sage in the Sky

Carrie Barr

A soul-led podcast exploring shadow work, Tarot, Scottish folklore, and witchcraft for healing and self-discovery. Each Sunday, journey through myth, magic, and the mysteries within. Guided by a Scottish-rooted spiritual practitioner weaving stories, reflections, and ritual to help you reclaim your light through the dark.

  1. 3d ago

    The Hill You Keep Avoiding

    There's one particular thing you've been walking the long way round for years. You don't have to search for it, it arrived the moment you read that sentence. The conversation. The decision. The appointment. The thing you already know. This week's Light Over the Hill is about that, and about a claim I'll make and then spend the hour defending: the hill is not what's hurting you. The circling is. We begin at a ford at dusk, with the Bean Nighe, the Washer at the Ford, who kneels at Scottish crossing places washing the shrouds of those about to die. The old rule was unambiguous: if she sees you first, or you turn your face away, you lose the use of your limbs. Approach her, and she must answer you truthfully and the fate she's washing for can be turned aside. Flee, and be paralysed. Approach, and be answered. We follow that into the Highland world of fosterage, where the way to master the thing you dread was not to fight it but to go close enough to make it kin. Then we look, honestly, at what avoidance does inside a person: the relief that teaches your brain to keep avoiding, the hill that grows because you never gather evidence against it, and the world that quietly narrows around it. Including the disguises avoidance wears in capable women, because "staying busy," perfectionism and always putting other people first are on the clinical list of ways we avoid. The over-functioning is the long road round the hill, and everyone praises you for walking it. And then the good news, which is better than you'd think: research on how badly we predict our own feelings, and the psychological immune system you keep forgetting to count. The dread isn't a preview. It's a tax. And we sit with the card people cancel readings over: Death. Four figures meet the rider, a king who tried to outrank it, a bishop who stands and looks, a child offering flowers, and a maiden whose face is turned away. And behind all of them, between two pillars on the horizon, the sun is rising. The light is on the far side of the thing they're all avoiding. It always was. The episode closes with a gentle guided practice. We're not climbing anything. We're just going down to the water to look. A note: this one talks about avoidance, and about the Death card, steadily, and without drama, but come to it when you have a little quiet. Not all avoidance is a problem, and the episode says so. Next week: When Hope Doesn't Feel Bright ~ for anyone listening to all this with a hill they genuinely can't climb yet. This week's card: Death ~ not an ending so much as a transformation, and the only card in the deck with a sunrise behind it. The light is on the far side. Your free companion Walk with a lantern of your own. The Light Over the Hill is a free six-card tarot spread that lays out along a path climbing the slope, to help you find your own hill, what you're carrying, and your own next step. Download it at sageinthesky.com, and you'll also start receiving the weekly Light Over the Hill letter: a story, a card, a prompt, and one small practice, every week.

    The Hill You Keep Avoiding
  2. Jul 12

    Sometimes the Light is Ahead, Not Behind

    We spend so much of our lives facing backward, toward who we were, what we had, the version of ourselves that feels, from here, like the real one. This week's Light Over the Hill is about the most human thing there is, the backward glance, and the slow, permitted turn toward what's ahead. We begin at a sculpture on the far north coast of Scotland, an emigrant family, the man facing forward, the woman facing back, a child between them learning both and with the grief of the Highland Clearances, handled with care: not a metaphor, but a real loss, and a real lesson in how those who were torn from the land carried the whole of it forward with them, songs and language and all. Then we turn to the strange history of nostalgia, coined in 1688 as a disease, now understood as one of the mind's genuine resources and the crucial difference between visiting the past with your arms open and moving in: the comparison that holds then against now, so now can only ever lose. We look at what it means to grieve not a person but a self, and at why healing was never about "letting go." And we read the Eight of Cups: the quiet, weary, sacred card of the traveller who turns from a life that works but isn't enough, and walks ~ without looking back ~ toward mountains they cannot yet see. The episode closes with a gentle guided practice: name what you keep facing, keep the love but set down the comparison, and turn, just far enough to take the next few feet toward the light ahead. A note: this one touches on grief and loss, gently. Come to it when you have a little quiet. Next week: The Hill You Keep Avoiding ~ the change you already know is coming, and the card that frightens people most and shouldn't. Death. In this episode ~ Which way are you facing? Why hope over the hill isn't enough if your back is turned to it ~ The Emigrants at Helmsdale, the Clearances, and the grief of the backward glance ~ What the cleared carried across the ocean and why the past doesn't have to stay on the shore ~ Thomas the Rhymer and the threshold you can't walk back through ~ Nostalgia: from 17th-century "disease" to one of the mind's real resources ~ The difference between nostalgia and comparison, the past as fuel vs the past as a courtroom ~ Grieving a self, not just a person and continuing bonds: moving forward with, not on from ~ The Eight of Cups, and the missing cup worth crossing the mountains for ~ A guided practice: name it, keep the love, turn, take one step This week's card: The Eight of Cups ~ the courageous, tender turn away from a good-enough life toward the something-more you can't yet see. Not looking back isn't coldness; it's how you walk forward. Your free companion Walk with a lantern of your own. The Light Over the Hill is a free six-card tarot spread that lays out along a path climbing the slope — to help you find your own hill, your own light, and your own next step. Download it at sageinthesky.com, and you'll also start receiving the weekly Light Over the Hill letter: a story, a card, a prompt, and one small practice, every week.

    Sometimes the Light is Ahead, Not Behind
  3. Jul 5

    The Light Over the Hill

    Welcome to Light Over the Hill ~ a new weekly companion for the woman standing at the foot of a climb she already knows she has to make. This first episode sets the premise of the whole series: not a guide at the top of the mountain telling you it's easy, but a companion slightly further up the same path, turning round to say there's a light up here, keep coming. We begin where our people always began: on the hill. We sit inside the old Scottish need-fire, the tein-éigin, when a whole township would let every hearth go dark and rekindle them all from a single flame carried down the slope and we look to the pole star our ancestors steered by, a light that shows you none of the ground and somehow enough. Then we turn to the psychology of hope, and the distinction that changes everything: optimism waits, but hope walks. Most of us aren't missing the goal, or even the path, we're missing the quiet belief that we're allowed to take the step. And we read The Star: the card of hope after the storm, the woman with her eyes on the light and her foot still working the ground. The episode closes with a small guided practice ~ name the hill, name the light, take the next few feet ~ because that has always been all that hope asks at the start. Next week: Sometimes the Light Is Ahead, Not Behind ~ on why we spend so long looking backward, and how to turn gently toward what's actually in front of us. In this episode The premise of the series ~ the companion slightly further up the pathThe Beltane need-fire (tein-éigin): one flame on the hill, a hundred hearths relitThe pole star, the lost Gaelic sky, and light that shows the way without showing the groundWhy hope isn't optimism ~ goals, pathways, and the agency that wears thin in the capable womanThe Star tarot card, and why its hope is never passiveA guided practice: name the hill, name the light, take the next few feetThis week's card: The Star ~ hope after the storm; the fixed light you steer by, and the foot that keeps working the ground. Your free companion Walk with a lantern of your own. The Light Over the Hill is a free six-card tarot spread that lays out along a path climbing the slope, to help you find your own hill, your own light, and your own next step. Download it at sageinthesky.com, and you'll also start receiving the weekly Light Over the Hill letter: a story, a card, a prompt, and one small practice, every week.

    The Light Over the Hill
  4. Jun 21

    The Giant You Don't Realise You Are ~ Imposter syndrome and your own hidden power

    The giant you fear and the giant you are have been the same size all along. On the longest day of the year, when the light climbs higher than on any other and your shadow shrinks to almost nothing beneath your feet, we go looking, not for the darkness we've hidden, but for the largeness we've disowned. This is an episode about imposter syndrome, about the growth that went invisible because you're living inside it, and about the golden shadow: the power you'd honestly rather not be responsible for. We follow Scotland's sleeping warriors into the hill, learn why people keep dropping the horn and running, and find the giant that has been breathing beneath you the whole time, wearing your own face. ~ The solstice as the day you can finally see your own height~ The shadow, re-explained and the part almost nobody mentions: the gold in it (Robert A. Johnson)~ Where the term "imposter syndrome" really came from, and why it found high-achieving women first (Clance & Imes, 1978)~ The sleeper under the hill: Fionn, Thomas the Rhymer, and the Sleeping Warrior of Arran (Donald Mackenzie)~ "Draw the sword before you blow the horn" — how to claim power without panicking~ Strength, the Queen of Wands & the Magician — three faces of the waking giant~ A ~13-minute guided visualisation: The Cave Under the Hill~ Five journal prompts to find your true size 1. The thing you call ordinary. Name one skill or quality that comes so easily to you that you've assumed it's nothing special. Now write it down as if describing a stranger who has it. Does it still look like nothing? 2. Where do you blow the horn twice and run? Recall a recent moment when you felt a bigger, more capable version of you start to rise and you pulled the smaller self back over you. What frightened you about the size of it? 3. Who carries your gold? Robert Johnson said we hand our finest qualities to the people we admire most, because we'd rather see them "out there" than own them. Who do you most admire and which of their qualities is, secretly, a sleeping part of you? 4. Draw the sword first. What would "taking up the sword before the horn" look like for one specific thing in your life right now, what is the knowledge or permission you'd need to hold first, before you act? 5. The right size. Not smaller, not grander — accurate. If you described yourself today with total honesty and zero shrinking, what's one true sentence about your capability you usually wouldn't let yourself say out loud? Sources & further reading:~ Donald A. Mackenzie, Scottish Folk-Lore and Folk Life (Glasgow, 1935)~ Robert A. Johnson, Owning Your Own Shadow: Understanding the Dark Side of the Psyche (1991)~ Pauline Rose Clance & Suzanne Imes, "The Impostor Phenomenon in High Achieving Women" (1978) Go deeper:~ Shadow Map Reading — a one-to-one tarot session to map your golden shadow → sageinthesky.com~ At the Threshold — self-guided shadow work, £11 → sageinthesky.com~ The Threshold Tarot Spread — free five-card download → sageinthesky.com Come and find me:~ Instagram: @sage_inthe_sky~ sageinthesky.com A note: this episode touches on self-doubt and self-worth. If what you're carrying feels heavier than a quiet "not yet" — persistent, grinding, hard to lift — please reach out to someone you trust or a professional who can sit with you in it. Being your full size was never meant to be done alone in the dark.

  5. May 31

    Running Away as a Spiritual Calling ~ When Leaving is the Brave Thing

    The companion to The Spiritual Meaning of Wanting to Disappear ~ this time turning the question around. Not the impulse to flee, but the genuine call to leave. Sometimes staying is the courage. Sometimes leaving is. This episode is about how to tell the difference. Inside ~ why the culture has a quiet stake in women staying exactly where they are, how fear-flight and intuition-led moving feel different in the body before the mind gets involved, the Fool as genuine spiritual courage rather than recklessness, and the story of Thomas the Rhymer ~ the man who chose the third road into the Eildon Hills and came back changed, unable to tell a lie. Four questions for discernment at the end. A note before you listen This episode is about the inner question of leaving, a life that no longer fits, a relationship that has quietly ended, a path you have outgrown. It is not about leaving a dangerous situation. If you are living with violence, control, or fear of what someone might do, the discernment in this episode does not apply to you — your fear is telling you the truth. Please reach out to one of the services below. They will not tell you what to do. They will help you think about your safety. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. United Kingdom — National Domestic Abuse Helpline (run by Refuge): 0808 2000 247, free, 24 hours. Scottish Women's Aid: 0800 027 1234. Northern Ireland: 0808 802 1414. Wales (Live Fear Free): 0808 80 10 800. Men's Advice Line: 0808 801 0327. Ireland — National Domestic Violence Helpline (Women's Aid): 1800 341 900. Male Advice Line: 1800 816 588. United States — National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 (call), or text START to 88788. Canada — services vary by province; ShelterSafe.ca lists local crisis lines. Australia — 1800RESPECT: 1800 737 732. In immediate danger, call 000. New Zealand — Women's Refuge: 0800 733 843. Shine: 0508 744 633. Mentioned in this episode The Shadow Map reading — a one-to-one tarot and oracle session, with a folklore archetype drawn for where you are standing, and ritual and journal prompts to take away. Not a reading that tells you what to do, but one that helps you see more clearly what you are already circling. sageinthesky.com The Lantern Letters newsletter — where I go deeper every Sunday. sageinthesky.com If this episode found you If it found you at your own cliff edge, the kindest thing you can do is pass it to one woman you think might need it. The work travels by word of mouth, and I am grateful for every listener who shares it.

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A soul-led podcast exploring shadow work, Tarot, Scottish folklore, and witchcraft for healing and self-discovery. Each Sunday, journey through myth, magic, and the mysteries within. Guided by a Scottish-rooted spiritual practitioner weaving stories, reflections, and ritual to help you reclaim your light through the dark.