The Raw Mumcast

Annamaria Papayova
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A show about the wins and f*ckeries of motherhood with a dash of Human Design and a sprinkle of shadow work. Let's normalise motherhood and mothering, ditch the mum guilt and celebrate being good enough - in motherhood and beyond.

  1. May 30

    RMC 22 - Intuition, energy and mothering in Nicaragua with Anna Pearson

    In this episode, I’m joined by Anna Pearson, an English mother, former primary school teacher, and intuitive guide now living in Nicaragua with her husband and daughter. Through her work, Anna explores conscious living, intuition, meditation, and reconnecting with our natural rhythms.  Together, we explore: Navigating motherhood between English and Nicaraguan culture  Raising children with more intuition, freedom, and trust  The beauty and challenges of intentional living  Home birth and reconnecting with the wisdom of the body  Parenting alongside differing beliefs around medicine and healing  Setting boundaries with grandparents and extended family  Letting children lead instead of constantly controlling or correcting  Learning when to step back and create space  Slowing down in a world that rewards busyness  Grieving the maiden as we become mothers  The identity shifts of matrescence  Trusting your inner knowing as a mother  This episode is a reminder that motherhood is not just about raising children — it’s also about unlearning, remembering ourselves, and choosing what kind of life we actually want to create. Connect with Anna on Instagram @anna.iamsoul www.flowwithanna.com   Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    27 min

  2. May 3

    RMC 21 - The “before & after” of becoming a mother

    This episode is a raw reflection on how I used to see mothers before becoming one, and how much of that perception was shaped by judgment, conditioning, and internalised beliefs I didn’t even realise I was carrying. I talk about the invisible “glass wall” between women and mothers, and how I used to view mothers as loud, messy, and somehow less than. Women whose best years were behind them. I share honestly about the expectations I had, the kind of mother I thought I would be, and how that changed once I entered motherhood myself. I go into the reality of matrescence, postpartum anxiety, rage, and the parts of motherhood that are rarely spoken about. I also reflect on the messages we hear and repeat, like “at least the baby is healthy” or “you chose this”, and why they dismiss the full experience of being a mother. This conversation also touches on the deeper layers: how growing up in a culture rooted in martyr motherhood and patriarchal expectations shaped my beliefs about women, mothers, and worth. And what it looks like to start unlearning that. Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    35 min

  3. Apr 16

    RMC 20 Raising boys and the woman within with Kate Okello Tarrant

    This is one of those conversations that doesn’t really end, it just stays with you. Today I’m joined by Kate Okello Tarrant (aka Mrs. OT): a mother of three boys, whose words carry a poetic kind of honesty. The kind that doesn’t try to fix or perform, but simply tells the truth of what motherhood and womanhood actually feel like from the inside. We explore the identity shift that comes with becoming a mother: the ongoing process of meeting yourself again and again in new forms, in new seasons of matrescence. And we also go deep into what it really means to raise boys in today’s world. The tenderness, the responsibility, the questions around masculinity, and the awareness it asks of us as mothers. We speak about: how motherhood changes you in ways you don’t expect the evolution from one child to two… to three the reality of raising boys beyond the surface-level narratives masculinity, role models, and what we’re navigating as parents today what it means to mother as a Projector in a world that often expects constant output unlearning, questioning, and evolving as a mother Being a Projector in motherhood and honouring your energy the woman you are becoming through it all Visit Kate's website and connect with her on Instagram as Mrs OT If you enjoyed this episode, you can support the podcast by: sharing it with a friend or another mum, leaving a rating or review or simply sending me a message with your thoughts. It really helps this space reach more women who need it. Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    45 min

  4. Apr 2

    RMC 19 - From perfectionism to power: A mother's wake up call with Dakota Ashton

    In this episode, I’m joined by Dakota Ashton, who describes herself as a fierce health mentor helping perfectionist moms step away from the norms that keep them stressed, burned out, and disconnected from their bodies. But this isn’t a surface-level conversation about wellness. This is about what happens when a woman realises she’s been fighting herself for years. Dakota shares her own journey — from experiencing hair loss, skin issues, and gut imbalances, to trying everything the experts recommended… only to find herself more disconnected, more depleted, and more at war with her own body. And then motherhood entered the picture. With it came the pressure, the engraved perfectionism, the “good girl” conditioning — and a moment that became her wake-up call. A moment of anger and overwhelm that made her realise something had to change. From there, our conversation opens into what so many mothers are silently navigating: chronic stress, nervous system dysregulation, burnout disguised as normal, and the constant urge to fix, control, or suppress what we feel — in ourselves and in our children. We talk about nourishment, energy, metabolism, and why so many women are running on adrenaline instead of true, sustainable energy. We question the advice we’ve been given about food, health, and control — and what it means to actually trust your body again. And we also go into motherhood in real time — what it looks like to hold space for a dysregulated child without trying to fix them… and what it looks like when everything turns into complete chaos (including a locked bathroom, a kicked-in door, and a sofa almost set on fire). This episode is honest, human, and deeply reflective. If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed, disconnected from your body, or like you’re constantly trying to “get it right” — this conversation will meet you there. Connect with Dakota on  Instagram - @fiercelyimperfectkota Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    46 min

  5. Mar 19

    RMC 18 - A Flopped Launch: Motherhood, Identity, and the Parts We Avoid

    Recently my six-week program, motHERstory, was supposed to start, and no one signed up. In this episode, I’m not trying to spin that into something positive or hide it. I’m sitting with it and looking at what it actually revealed about me. Because this is the work I believe in:  not perfection, but self-honesty. I share the parts of me that weren’t fully in while expecting others to be. The pattern of getting excited about something and then pulling back when it comes to selling it. The doubt, the fear of being seen, and the deeper fear of what would happen if it actually worked. I also speak about my Human Design as a Sacral Generator, and how frustration isn’t failure but it’s feedback. An invitation for refinement. But more than anything, this episode is about the moment when life holds up a mirror and shows you something you didn’t fully want to see yet, and why finding yourself as a mother often starts with uncomfortable honesty. And maybe, if you’re listening, there’s something in your life too — something that feels exciting, but also uncomfortable. This is a gentle invitation to look at it with curiosity, not judgment. In this episode I talk about: What “not working” can actually reveal The gap between excitement and full commitment Frustration as feedback - especially juicy for Generators Fear of visibility, power, and capacity Why self-honesty is part of finding yourself in motherhood Connect with Olivia Iasonos, the Human Design business coach - Livy (@withlivy) | Stan Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    26 min

  6. Jan 29

    RMC 17 - Matrescence as initiation: Froom good girl to wild mother

    When I was pregnant, I had a plan. It was color-coded, cross-referenced, and carefully mapped out: at three months postpartum, I would return to work. I would launch programs. I would coach again. The maiden in me was determined to survive motherhood. None of it happened. What followed instead was a freefall — into postpartum, into identity death, into sleepless nights, illness, grief, shattered boundaries, and a nervous system stuck in survival. The first year of motherhood felt less like an arrival and more like an underworld descent. In this episode, I share my motHERstory — not as a success narrative, but as an initiation. I speak about: The shock of matrescence and the lack of language for it The shame of “knowing better” and still falling apart The difference between loving your child and surviving motherhood The good girl who needed control — and the wild woman who waited beneath her How giving birth became my wolf cry And how only years later I can see the immense power that was carrying me all along This conversation weaves together my postpartum journey, my relationship with my mother and maternal lineage, the stories we inherit without consent, and the tools that helped me remember myself — including Human Design, gentle embodiment practices, and being witnessed by other mothers. Motherhood softened my grip on control. It brought me closer to my wildness. It taught me that power doesn’t roar — sometimes it undercurrents. This episode also marks the birth of motHERstory — an online space for mothers who feel the pull to understand their story more deeply. Not to fix it. Not to optimise it. But to witness it, honour it, and consciously shape what comes next. Motherhood is not something we perform. It’s something we live. And every mother carries a story worth remembering. Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    29 min

  7. Jan 15

    RMC 16 - Mothering, Lineage & the Art of Matrescence with Lubna

    In this episode, I’m sitting down with my friend Lubna — an architect by training, and a mentor, witnesser, and guide for mothers by calling. We talk about lineage and inheritance — what it means for her to mother as a woman who is both Lebanese and Venezuelan, and how cultural roots live on in the body, in birth, and in the way we care for our children. Our conversation weaves through matrescence as art, sensuality in mothering, and the forgotten rites of passage around birth and death. Lubna shares how both the loss of her grandmother and her own birth experiences became awakenings — initiations into deeper womanhood. We speak honestly about the joy and the grief of motherhood, about why mothers need to be witnessed, and how much is lost when we rush women through these profound transitions without community or ritual. This is not a how-to conversation. It’s a remembering. Of motherhood as creative, sensual, ancestral, and alive — and of women as carriers of wisdom, not martyrs. Connect with Lubna on Instagram @mammalubi Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    27 min

  8. 10/30/2025

    RMC 15 - Should mothering fulfil you entirely?

    In this heartfelt solo episode, I share an honest reflection on a truth many mothers quietly carry: mothering is a huge part of who I am, but it’s not all of me. I speak to the tension between loving my child deeply and still craving creativity, purpose, and expression beyond mothering. It’s not about shame or guilt, but the permission to be both: fully devoted and still desiring. Through my Human Design lens, I explore how  energy is naturally oriented toward serving the collective, how I'm wired to share, teach, and contribute to the wider world — while also deeply honouring mothering as a sacred act of service in itself. I reflect on how mothering shapes the collective, and how being of service beyond the family circle doesn’t diminish mothering, but expands it. This episode is a love letter to the and — to the women who mother, create, dream, and serve all at once. You’ll hear reflections on: Why wanting “something more” beyond mothering isn’t a betrayal but a birthright How cultural conditioning fuels guilt and shame for mothers who want more The sacred service of mothering as a contribution to the collective The distinction between tribal energy (family, belonging, closeness) and collective energy (teaching, sharing, serving the wider whole) How honouring your energetic nature makes mothering more alive, authentic, and sustainable Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of mothering together.   LET'S CONNECT: Grab your e-book - Mothering Through Human Design On Instagram - @annamariapapayova My website - www.fabwmn.com Book a Becoming Session - BECOMING | Fab Wmn Send me your questions, podcast suggestions and reflections: hello@fabwmn.com

    20 min
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A show about the wins and f*ckeries of motherhood with a dash of Human Design and a sprinkle of shadow work. Let's normalise motherhood and mothering, ditch the mum guilt and celebrate being good enough - in motherhood and beyond.

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  • Creator
    Annamaria Papayova
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2026
  • Episodes
    22
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2024 The Raw Mumcast by Annamaria Papayova
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