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Midlife Misery: the Journals

Launa Hernandez-Sjongstan
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My name is Launa and I am a Survivor of Narcissitic Abuse, discovering herself through divorce, mental health, and female friendships. I am a 47 year old GenXer Born and raised on the West Coast. After "barely" surviving a Traumatic Event - in an Emergency Room - in February 2024 - when my Narcissit - Ex Husband - lied to the Emergency Room Staff while I was unconscious. My Abusive Ex Husband's actions that day in February 2024 - caused the ER staff to hold me on an Involuntary Psychiatric Hold, instead of treating me for my physical ailments. My EX Husband provided 5 FALSE Psychiatric Diagnoses to the ER staff that day and if they were true, I wouldn't be able to funciton out in society AT ALL. I certainly wouldn't be here today, able to tell my story in any type of rational, comprehensible manner.   I suffered another - equally traumatic event - by way of Spousal Abandonment one month later, in March 2024. When my Narcissistic Abuser - my EX husband - abandoned me and the marriage while I was taking a shower. He cut off all communication and filed for divorce less than a month later and I have not seen, comunicated, or spoken with him since. My Abusive Ex Husband continues to drag out the divorce - a process that has been going on for over a year. My Abusive Ex Husband has bankrupted me and turned my only family member, my Mother against me. My Abusive Ex Husband continues to stalk and harrass me while he weaponizes the Divorce Court System against me.  This is my story and its a story about: Gaslighting and ManipulationHarassment Stalking via Flying monkeys and bluetooth TrackersCyber-terrosism Gangstalking Cyberstalking My Marriage to a Kratom addicted, narcissist & sociopathSpousal Abandonment Law Enforcement manipulation Mental Health System Abuse  Violations of the HIPPAA family privacy rulesViolations of Privacy and Therapist-Patient Confidentiality LawsMedical System ManipulationSuicide and Suicidal Ideation fabricationPossible longterm poisoning Potential Attempted MurderAnd last but certainly not least its a story that includes  Identity Theft  Superior Family Court Fraud andPotential Tax Fraud & Evasion  My journals have helped me get this far and sharing them was my first attempt at vulnerability..... I hope to continue this process by sharing more of my story on this Podcast as I navigate 9 year marriage to a Narcissistic Abuser and healing the trauma from my marriage. In addition to healing my childhood trauma that I've spend almost a decade working on in Therapy.  I'm figuring out how to forge my new path forward, realizing that I've always been happier alone and unchained. I'm learning how strong I am when I've been pushed to the brink.  I'm learning that I can still trust my judgment in people and within myself - Two BAD APPLES (who have claimed to be the "closest ones to me") did not spoil my entire bunch. I'm Finding comfort in the fact that my female friendships have always been and continue to be the MOST VALUABLE asset in my life and that I can FULLY TRUST MYSELF AND my emotional intelligence - despite what my Haters (the bad apples) want everyone else to believe . Thank You for listening it truly means the world to me - XOXO Launa Podcast Website Link Supporter's Club Link This story as told in the podcast and blog is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused  My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process in court

  1. Season 1 Episode 1: Malice in WIFILAND

    Episode 1

    Season 1 Episode 1: Malice in WIFILAND

    Season 1 Episode 1 In this Episode  I give a brief history about how I met my Anchor Face of Death and my ExBFF - The Tobias Funke of Therapists I introduce “THE NEIGHBOR ”my spouse refers to him in my Medical Paperwork.  I give a brief background of the YEARS LONG TENSION BETWEEN OUR APARTMENTS beginning in 2020 that escalated to the MASSIVE EVENT in October 2023  That MASSIVE EVENT in October IS the beginning of the CRAZY TRAIN BANANAS STORY that landed me in the hospital on a 5150 Involuntary Psychiatric Hold - Initiated by my Spouse/AFD - coordinated by my ExBFF/ Tobias Funke of TherapistsI point out a portion of my medical records where my spouse LIED to the Hospital ER Staff about my medical history, while conveniently providing the 3 exact types of Diagnoses that will inititate an IMMEDIATE placement into an Involuntary Psychatric hold.My spouse decided that he was the best person to provide my medical history to the ER staff while he completely excluded my acting Psychiatrist while also claiming that my Therapist told him to initiate the hold. Also a OUTRIGHT LIE.  I begin to tell about the WIFIGATE incident that ignited the Molotov Cocktail event in October. WIFIGATE is the funny little nickname my spouse and his co-workers coined for the sequence of events that lasted over a week but my spouse managed to BLAME ENTIRELY ON ME AND MENTAL ILLNESS. You can read my detailed journal entry of the September WIFIGATE events by clicking HERE Thank you so much for listening and remember - BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE - IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT - XOXO Launa Link to Podcast Website Link to Blog Entry with WIFIGATE timeline Link to Episode Webpage Link to Midlife Misery Supporter’s Club BlueSky Profile TikTok Profile Flashes Profile The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in court Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound

    52 min
  2. Supporters Club EP #1 - My Grandfather's Legacy and My Ex's Continued Stain on My Family

    Episode 1 • Subscribers Only

    Supporters Club EP #1 - My Grandfather's Legacy and My Ex's Continued Stain on My Family

    This is the first offical Supporter's Club Episode - I am incredibly grateful to the subscribers!! I honeslty can't thank you enough for supporting me and for your interest in my story In this episode I continue to tell mine and my family's story and focus on my Grandfather, who stepped up to fill a major role in my life when my Dad passed when I wasn only 6 years old. I weave in my first journal entries in January 2024, where now, in the hindsight I can see that I was very aware that something was very wrong in my life and in my marriage but I was fighting off those feelings and desperately trying to rationlize them and downplay the very real threat that my EX posed in my life. I share a story about how those feelings were very reminiscent of another traumatic event in my life, over 20 years ago, when my Grandfather passed away. I read a journal entry from the blog, that I wrote in June 2023 - entitled "Lessons From My Grandfather's Legacy" Link to June 18, 2023 Entry I share more about my phone conversation with my Mom that didn't go well at all in June 2023 before my trip to her home in the midwest when I picked up all my Dad's items. I round out the episode by reading the most recent post on the blog - which are my first 5 journal entries of January 2024 entitled "Transforming Pain Into Progress:  Understanding Change in the New Year" Link to January 2024 Journal Entries Once again, I am so incredibly grateful for your support - thank you so much for listening and remember - BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE - IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT - XOXO Launa

    1h 15m
  3. Season 1 Episode 2: The Nightmare B4 CRYTOber

    Episode 2

    Season 1 Episode 2: The Nightmare B4 CRYTOber

    Season 1 Episode 2 In this episode I introduce the McPnutz family - who - along with - the Tobias Funke of Therapists, SGT & PPT the nefarious neighbors - round out my Anchor Face of Death/ExHusband's Stalker Death Posse that continues to harass, stalk, and make my life a living hell to this day. I provide a short history of my relationship with the McPnutz family and how I failed to see how intertwined in our life they had become. My Anchor Face of Death hid his flying monkeys well.  I describe more of the intricacies of the September 22-27, 2023 WIFIGATE scandal, as coined by my AFD and his co-workers and how he used that to set up the perfect narrative for what he would call "her first mental breakdown". Factually, my ONE & ONLY mental breakdown occurred almost 1 year prior, in November 2022 and you can read about that in my first blog post. I elaborate more about how the brick wall I kept running into when I kept trying to get my hometown Police Department to acknowledge my Dad and his service to the community 40 years earlier and how my Anchor Face of Death manipulated that to turn me into the "mentally unstable" wife he would hospitalize on an Involuntary Psychiatric Hold/5150 - 3 months later in February 2024. I begin to share more about the Molotov cocktail cluster of events that truly ignited WIFIGATE into the dumpster fire my life would soon become - all expertly orchestrated by ANCHOR FACE OF DEATH and his Cyber Stalker Death POSSE Please visit the Website - www.mmmblmd.com For more information about this episode and to view screenshots of the super complimentary and not harassing or victim blaming text messages I talk about in the episode. Some of the MANY messages Ten Head Horse Chick, one of the "twin sisters" in the McPnutz family felt the need to send me. Ya know, because Anchor Face of Death hates confrontation and needs to have others do his dirty work for him......AND It's a lot harder to play victim to all my friends if they come from him. I also provide MORE evidence of the years long feud between SGT and our apartment that is WELL DOCUMENTED but that AFD skillfully manipulated to make it AN ISSUE THAT I CAUSED AND MY PROBLEM ALONE - with SGT.  Also provided below are text messages from Anchor Face of Death - one to my friend who lives out of state - where he claims my first mental breakdown occurred in October 2023. I ALSO PROVIDE one AFD SENT to MY ACTING LICENSED THERAPIST ALMOST 2 MONTHS AFTER HE FILED FOR DIVORCE.  A CLEAR Violation of Privacy and Therapist-Patient Confidentiality Laws Click HERE to view section 2 of the CAMFT confidentiality ethics code - my therapist acted CORRECTLY - ANCHOR FACE OF DEATH SEEMS TO THINK HE IS ABOVE ALL LAW OR CONSEQUENCE OF HIS ACTIONS - AND ACTED INCORRECTLY like all of his actions in this story. Click HERE & HERE to read more about AFD's EGREGIOUS, ENTITLED, DISGUSTING, NARCISSISTIC action of contacting MY THERAPIST UNDER FALSE PRETENSES AND LYING TO HER JUST LIKE HE LIED TO THE ER STAFF ON 2/13/2024 Thank you for listening - and remember - BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE - IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT. XOXO Launa Link to the Episode page on the website with examples of the harassing texts THHC sent to me TikTok Profile BlueSky Profile Link to the Website Episode Webpage Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/midlife-misery-the-journals--6430471/support.

    1h 5m
  4. Season 1 Episode 3: The WIFIGATE Scandal and the Friday the 13th of Cryptober Massacre

    Episode 3

    Season 1 Episode 3: The WIFIGATE Scandal and the Friday the 13th of Cryptober Massacre

    ****The content of the following Podcast is meant for a mature audience and could be triggering for some - this episode discusses and contains depictions on the topic of suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening**** Season 1 Episode 3 In this episode I discuss January 9th, 1984 and how this WAS the most impactful day of my life up until my Narcissist, Abusive, Spouse decided to change that. My spouse decided to make all of 2024 & his incessant abuse by way of 5150/spousal abandonment/ and filing for divorce the NEW most impactful time of my life because he can’t stand PLAYING second fiddle to ANYONE especially MY DAD. My spouse quadrupled down on the tremendous about of TRAUMA I was already trying to process and has provided me with a new, never ending supply because that’s what narcissists do.  I provide a real life example of my spouses egregious breech of the Psychotherapist-Patient Privilege Law - almost 2 months after he filed for divorce and his obvious attempt to manipulate my acting Therapist of 7 years I discuss the first few weeks of October and how they would turn my life into an upside down nightmare that I’m forever stuck in. I provide examples of the myriad of ways my spouse planted ideas into my head that he would later use to further manipulate my narrative and gaslight me beyond belief. I discuss bluetooth trackers, wifi hacking and the very real threat of Cybersecurity - or lack thereof - that we all face today and how my spouse breadcrumbed his ideas expertly into my psyche. I tell about the downstairs neighbors and their BFF Alexa and how she would be their STRONGEST ALIBI when they were called out by A DIFFERENT Neighbor for hacking into their wifi. I speak to how my spouse NEVER confronted the downstairs neighbor - who had been harassing and stalking me FOR YEARS - I give a real life example of the time MY SPOUSE, instead, CHOSE TO sit, watch, and listen - to the neighbor outwardly, Loudly, and Publicly HARASS me - in real time - and tell how my SPOUSE DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT, Defend me, or protect me and instead CHOSE TO LET IT HAPPEN AND GO ON TO PRETEND IT NEVER HAPPENED. I Dedicate this episode to MY DAD - whose name I am still unable to say because of my spouse’s choice to DRAG OUT HIS DIVORCE within the courts. I LOVE you DAD - this episode is for you - XOXO Launa Link to Webpage for this Episode Link to Midlife Misery Supporter’s Club Link to Website BlueSky Profile Flashes Profile TikTok Profile The story as told in the podcast, social media accounts and the website  is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in court Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound

    1h 4m
  5. Season 1 Episode 4: The DEEPBLOATware of WIFIGATE - Anchor Face of Death

    Episode 4

    Season 1 Episode 4: The DEEPBLOATware of WIFIGATE - Anchor Face of Death

    Season 1 Episode 4 In this episode I give a brief description of how I was able to view the MANY rogue devices that connected to our Wifi and interchanged connections between Wifi and Ethernet. I describe the difference between a Therapist/Psychologist and a Psychiatrist and tell a little about which one has the authority to diagnose and prescribe medication. I also describe how schedule 2 substances are handled when they are prescribed and the guidelines that must be followed when they are prescribed. I talk about how my spouse/AFD left breadcrumbs for me while he traveled along the road on his path and nefarious plan. I point out the time in April 2021 - when my spouse/AFD LIED to the property manager - and he told her that "I cancelled" a meeting that I asked to have - between AFD, me and the neighbor - and how that action helped SGT to escalate in his harassment towards me. I tell about the time in May 2022 - a year after the cancelled meeting - when I finally found out from the Property Manager - that the meeting never happened - BECAUSE MY SPOUSE LIED TO HER. I go into more detail about the week of October 16, 2023 - and tell how my spouse/AFD poured gasoline onto the Molotov cocktail and played his "perfect little victim" act while he did it. I talk more about October 19, 2023 - when we arrived at the Tobias Funke of Therapist's doorstep - IN THE MORNING (that will become a VERY IMPORTANT DETAIL DOWN THE LINE) and how TFT pretended to be supportive and understanding of my concerns and experience. I begin to tell about the SUDDEN INEXPLAINABLE ILLNESS that I came down with - the illnesses potential association with "2 random smells" that had been prevalent for years - and how TFT/her Spouse/ and Anchor Face of Death would all change the narrative for me and BLAME IT ALL ON MY MENTAL HEALTH. The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in court TikTok Profile BlueSky Profile Canvas Rebel Online Magazine Article Episode 4 Season 1 Page on Website - mmmblmd.com Midlife Misery Website Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/midlife-misery-the-journals--6430471/support.

    57 min
  6. Season 1 Episode 5: I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOber

    Episode 5

    Season 1 Episode 5: I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOber

    Season 1 Episode 5 I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOber In this episode I give examples of my spouse’s ongoing “misinformation campaign” he conducted post spousal abandonment and on the day he filed for divorce. During that time my spouse continued to PRETEND to be concerned about me, my mental health, my reality, and my safety - while he maliciously spread BLATANT LIES to my close friends about the days leading up to our “separation” - and conveniently leaving out the PERTINENT details about his meeting with his divorce attorney and his FILING of PETITION FOR DIVORCE WITH THE COURT. I take a break from the CyberCrimes/Technological aspects of the story and start telling more about the weird illness and ongoing physical symptoms I had been experiencing for years and how they seemed to be associated with the POSSIBILITY of something more nefarious and sinister. I share information I discussed with my therapist during the sessions we had during the WIFIGATE Scandal/CRYPTOber Massacre and how my unhealed childhood trauma contributed to the implosion of my life and marriage I wrap up the CRYPTOber timeline when my spouse and I abruptly moved out of our apartment, after 7 years, and stayed with my “BFF” for a week and half. I give details of the weird and sudden illness that came over me while we were staying at my “BFF’s” and the weird lack of concern or acknowledgment EVERYONE in the home had towards me as I spent 4 days incapacitated and violently ill. There’s a weird “neighbor” moment when my spouse and I return to the apartment - together for the first time in over a week and my spouse’s unusual reaction when pointed it out to him I go into more detail about the “smells” my spouse was reporting to me - the possibility of what one of them could be, its potential association with my sudden inexplainable illness, and how a “NURSE” may have assisted my spouse with obtaining the substance and source of the smell. I share a text message the “NURSE” sent to me in July, 2024 where I sent her a response and asked her about the substance and how her response to me was slightly suspicious. Episode Page Website BlueSky Profile TikTok Profile This story as told in the podcast, and social media, through visual presentation of my medical records and text messages is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused  My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process in court Music Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/midlife-misery-the-journals--6430471/support.

    59 min
  7. Season 1 Episode 6: Is it ME, Menopause, or Men-O-Poison???

    Episode 6

    Season 1 Episode 6: Is it ME, Menopause, or Men-O-Poison???

    Season 1 Episode 6 In this Episode, I speak to the text messages and accompanying photos my EX sent to my friend on April 12, 2024 - the day he filed for divorce. In his text messages my EX claims he went back to the apartment and observed “damage in the apartment” and claims that I caused the damage, however, the majority of the images he sent to my friend were edited on the same day he sent them. Ironically, the photos that are not of damage to the apartment are timestamped on April 6, 2024, the day my EX went to the apartment to gather items for the dogs. All of the photos of the actual “damage” that my EX is claiming I caused have all been re-sized and they were re-sized on April 12, 2024 around NOON - on the day he filed for divorce  I tell about the time my EX sent a photo of my replacement Driver’s License (for one I lost in the apartment) to me and my friend “on accident” because our names start with the same letters. I explain my suspicion that my EX meant to send my driver’s license to someone else with a very close relationship to the McPnutz family, to my EX, and one of my EX’s co-workers and I lay that out in red string on a wall.  I go over the timeline details for the first 4 days of November 2023 and describe the very last time I ever saw My EX BFF’s kids, who called me “Auntie” for years, and wonder how my EX and the EX BFF explain my sudden disappearance from their lives since I haven’t seen them since. During the first 4 days of November 2023, my EX and I returned to the “old apartment” to stay and continue packing up our things because we both felt we had worn out our welcome in my EX BFF’s home over the 2 weeks we spent there - but we both had very different reasons. Once we returned to the “old apartment”  my EX tells me about the “updates” the friendly neighbor’s shared with him about the complaints the property manager received about the nefarious neighbors hacking into the loud neighbors WIFI and how the Property Manager didn’t know what to do about it. I list out the meaning of MMMBLMD and then focus on the M - for Menopause - or Perimenopause  - which I blamed all of my “weird” ongoing symptoms.  I speak about the Formaldehyde Toxicity Symptoms and the CDC information I posted on last week’s episode webpage and go into detail about how all of them affected me and for how long. I also describe how all of the "weird" ongoing physical symptoms I had been experiencing for years - suddenly disappeared, once MY EX disappeared and filed for divorce  I share information about the burning hair smell I experienced in the week’s of January 2024 and how it peaked on February 13, 2024 the day my EX committed me on an involuntary Psychiatric Hold. The day the burning hair smell peaked on the day my spouse lied to the Emergency Room staff about my medical history. I share what I’ve learned about what the medical implications of smelling burnt hair and that I have never spoken about the burning hair smell until now because I was terrified my spouse would use it against me in the Emergency Room and with his twisted narrative about my mental health   Thank you so much for listening and remember - BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE - IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT - XOXO Launa Episode Webpage Website TikTok Profile BlueSky Profile Flashes Profile Link to Midlife Misery Supporter’s Club The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in court Music Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound

    1h 10m
  8. Season 1 Episode 7: Narcissistic Abuse in Relationships: Analyzing Texts and Manipulations from My Ex -

    Episode 7

    Season 1 Episode 7: Narcissistic Abuse in Relationships: Analyzing Texts and Manipulations from My Ex -

    Season 1 Episode 7 In this episode I talk about my Ex’s extreme patterns of manipulation and gaslighting I point out the different photos my EX sent out as “proof of the damage” in the apartment that he claims to have found when he went back “the other day” The photos that show ZERO damage are the photos that have not been edited and were taken on April 6, 2024 The photos that show actual damage - including our ripped up marriage certificate my EX can be seen holding up with both of his hands in the photo - were edited on April 12, 2024 - right before he sent the images to my friend - In my EX’s other text messages to my friend my EX claimed that I was “up there” wreaking havoc around all the SMALL TOWNS in the MIDWEST My EX sent the text messages and images to the friend with whom I had been staying with, for almost a week, by that time. A FACT that clearly made my EX LOOK VERY BAD and further confirmed My EX WAS LYING IN REAL TIME I talk about returning to the “old apartment” with my EX in early November 2023. I talk about the text message I sent to my EXBFF - where I poured my heart out and apologized to her profusely - and she COMPLETELY IGNORED IT - like all great therapists do…….right?? I talk a bit about being shaped by my Mom’s response, or lack there of, when I was sick and injured as a child in the 80’s And I go on a small diatribe about GenX - the Forgotten Generation - and why we take offense to being called Boomers I wonder what happened to my 3 rescue dogs that My EX STOLE and forbade me to see - despite me being their main caretaker for 9 years - I share a little about how I volunteered with a rescue organization and how, now, I’m much too traumatized by my EX’s theft of my dogs to even begin to think about volunteering or rescuing again, anytime soon Once my Ex and I return to our apartment to pack up - my EX immediately begins to tell stories of the conversations he’s having with the neighbors, who all seem to say the same thing……kind of like they’re reciting a script or something We get to the 9th and final wedding anniversary I will ever celebrate with my abusive EX Husband and tell about his extreme gaslighting behavior - in ALL OF HIS TEXT MESSAGES to me after he abandoned me in March, 2024 Link to Midlife Misery Supporter’s Club TikTok Profile BlueSky Profile Flashes Profile Episode Webpage Link to Website The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in court Music Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage Sound

    1h 2m
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My name is Launa and I am a Survivor of Narcissitic Abuse, discovering herself through divorce, mental health, and female friendships. I am a 47 year old GenXer Born and raised on the West Coast. After "barely" surviving a Traumatic Event - in an Emergency Room - in February 2024 - when my Narcissit - Ex Husband - lied to the Emergency Room Staff while I was unconscious. My Abusive Ex Husband's actions that day in February 2024 - caused the ER staff to hold me on an Involuntary Psychiatric Hold, instead of treating me for my physical ailments. My EX Husband provided 5 FALSE Psychiatric Diagnoses to the ER staff that day and if they were true, I wouldn't be able to funciton out in society AT ALL. I certainly wouldn't be here today, able to tell my story in any type of rational, comprehensible manner.   I suffered another - equally traumatic event - by way of Spousal Abandonment one month later, in March 2024. When my Narcissistic Abuser - my EX husband - abandoned me and the marriage while I was taking a shower. He cut off all communication and filed for divorce less than a month later and I have not seen, comunicated, or spoken with him since. My Abusive Ex Husband continues to drag out the divorce - a process that has been going on for over a year. My Abusive Ex Husband has bankrupted me and turned my only family member, my Mother against me. My Abusive Ex Husband continues to stalk and harrass me while he weaponizes the Divorce Court System against me.  This is my story and its a story about: Gaslighting and ManipulationHarassment Stalking via Flying monkeys and bluetooth TrackersCyber-terrosism Gangstalking Cyberstalking My Marriage to a Kratom addicted, narcissist & sociopathSpousal Abandonment Law Enforcement manipulation Mental Health System Abuse  Violations of the HIPPAA family privacy rulesViolations of Privacy and Therapist-Patient Confidentiality LawsMedical System ManipulationSuicide and Suicidal Ideation fabricationPossible longterm poisoning Potential Attempted MurderAnd last but certainly not least its a story that includes  Identity Theft  Superior Family Court Fraud andPotential Tax Fraud & Evasion  My journals have helped me get this far and sharing them was my first attempt at vulnerability..... I hope to continue this process by sharing more of my story on this Podcast as I navigate 9 year marriage to a Narcissistic Abuser and healing the trauma from my marriage. In addition to healing my childhood trauma that I've spend almost a decade working on in Therapy.  I'm figuring out how to forge my new path forward, realizing that I've always been happier alone and unchained. I'm learning how strong I am when I've been pushed to the brink.  I'm learning that I can still trust my judgment in people and within myself - Two BAD APPLES (who have claimed to be the "closest ones to me") did not spoil my entire bunch. I'm Finding comfort in the fact that my female friendships have always been and continue to be the MOST VALUABLE asset in my life and that I can FULLY TRUST MYSELF AND my emotional intelligence - despite what my Haters (the bad apples) want everyone else to believe . Thank You for listening it truly means the world to me - XOXO Launa Podcast Website Link Supporter's Club Link This story as told in the podcast and blog is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused  My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process in court

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  • Creator
    Launa Hernandez-Sjongstan
  • Episodes
    39
  • Seasons
    1
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © mmmblmdmedia
  • Show Website
    Midlife Misery: the Journals
  • Provider
    MMMBLMDMedia