Happy To Disappoint

Happy to Disappoint
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We’re two best friends on a journey through cult recovery. Wheeee! We are on a mission to gain perspective, discover our values, tell some stories, and deconstruct the f****d up belief system from whence we came. This podcast is about learning to navigate life after growing up in an environment that discouraged questions and encouraged us to hate ourselves. It’s about normalizing talking about the subjects people LITERALLY join cults to avoid thinking about. Follow along as we make some educated guesses and invite some educated guests to share stories, call out patterns, and trade tips on how the hell to heal from all this shit! Sorry, mom! Sorry, Jesus! We're happy to disappoint.

  1. May 29

    S2 E3: The Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down Pt. 2

    Welcome back to the Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down! Today we’re getting a little further into the hierarchy, unpacking the structure of control and its effects from Uncle Icky on dowwwwn! In Part 2 we’re dishin’ some dirt on: Uncle Icky’s interests (ew)The creeps Uncle Icky kept aroundThe structure of controlThe information-collection systemWhy it still hurts now (ow) CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, St@lking, JRS DIRECT QUOTES, THE UPWARD FLOW CHART Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: Oops! I’m In A Cult (Episodes) Cult Leaders William Branham and John Robert Stevens | Interview with John CollinsRediscovering Christianity Post-Cult | Interview with Caleb LaPlanteHeld Liable | The Lawsuits Against the Living Word JRS Quotes: John Robert Stevens, This Week (1983), vol. 14 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 295–296.John Robert Stevens, This Week (1980), vol. 11 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 300–301.John Robert Stevens, This Week (1981), vol. 12 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 1093.

    1h 14m

  2. May 15

    S2 E2: The Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down Pt. 1

    Welcome to the Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down! This week we will be discussing the top dogs in the hierarchical structure of our cult, THE BIG 3! Strap in for this two-part episode about the head bitches in charge. In Part 1, we dive into: John’s system of controlA light introduction to “APCO”Marilyn the usurper and her army of word workersWhat it takes to be the perfect transcriberGary oozin’ up that ladderDippin’ our toe in the topic of Uncle IckyStay tuned for Part 2 where we will unpack who Uncle Icky was and the kind of people he kept around. CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, JRS DIRECT QUOTES, GIRLS TURN IT OFF!!! Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: Oops! I’m In A Cult (Episodes) Girls Turn It Off | Misogyny in ChristianityCult Leaders William Branham and John Robert Stevens | Interview with John CollinsThe Living Word Fellowship’s Secret Society: Interview With Kristy PfeiferHeld Liable | The Lawsuits Against the Living WordKelly Daniels in THE SUN Magazine https://www.thesunmagazine.org/articles/26338-golden-threadsJRS Quotes: John Robert Stevens, This Week (1983), vol. 14 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 295–296.John Robert Stevens,This Week (1980), vol. 11 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 300–301.

    1h 11m

  3. May 2

    S2 E1: A Brisk Jaunt Through a Tight 40 Years

    WE ARE BACK, YOU BEAUTIFUL DIAPPOINTING BABIES!!! We're still here and we're still healing. Beep beep! Hop on in! In this episode we'll be taking you through the decades to provide context on our cult's history and why we had so much to scream about last season. Aaaaaand why we're still screaming. Follow along as we unpack: Where Cult Daddy John Robert Stevens (JRS) got his secrets What kind of shenanigans JRS got up to as he built this cult The hostile cult takeover of a power-hungry “secretary” What happens when an immortal guy dies? CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Physical and Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, Childhood $*xual Ab*se, JRS DIRECT QUOTES, BEDROOM BLOOD TRANSFUSIONS Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: Oops! I’m In A Cult (Episodes) To Be a Charlatan | John Robert Stevens and The WalkJohn Robert Stevens | A Cult Leader is BornThe Witch Trials of 1967The Cult of Cures | Why My Mom Refused ChemoCult Leaders William Branham and John Robert Stevens | Interview with John CollinsThe Living Word Fellowship’s Secret Society: Interview With Kristy PfeiferHeld Liable | The Lawsuits Against the Living WordShiloh Compound Burning https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYEj6fuj3NEJohn Collins (Website & Podcast) https://william-branham.org/https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/leaving-the-message/id1584719188

    1h 42m
  4. Ep 13: The Magic Yule Bus (Christmas Truck)

    12/25/2025

    Ep 13: The Magic Yule Bus (Christmas Truck)

    Alright, Disappointments, here is our full run down of the events surrounding the event that was The Magical Christmas Caroling Truck. Follow along as we do our best to answer questions like: How did it start?Work Nights?!?Who did all that work?What the heck was this thing?Who was invited to the secret Christmas Party?What happened at the secret Christmas Party? CONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious Ab*se, High Control Environments, Grooming by Authority Figures, Mental Health Struggles, Substance Ab*use: Alcohol, 🚨CHRISTMAS CAROLS🚨

    1h 50m
  5. Ep 12: The Nick of Time with Nick Hays

    10/02/2025

    Ep 12: The Nick of Time with Nick Hays

    It’s our Season One FINALE, folks! Our guest this week is a guy we found in a bar that one time: Nick Hays. As the Living Word Fellowship was falling apart, Nick had a backstage pass to all the red flags as he and Leandra started to date, and also, Stasia was there!!! Now he’s here to share his unique perspective as an outsider with inside information on the collapse of a cult. Join us as Nick takes us through the timeline and recollects: Meeting two babes at the best bar in BurbankBeing reassured our church was “Not that kind of church”Finding out it is!Finding out it’s MUCH much worse!2018 and beyond!Don’t fret! We’ll be back this winter with a CHRISTMAS TRUCK Special (*ominous jingle bells*) and we’ll be super duper back in Spring 2026 with a whole new season! CONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious Ab*se, High Control Environments, Grooming by Authority Figures, Mental Health Struggles, Substance Ab*use: Alcohol, 🚨POPE HAT🚨

    1h 35m
  6. Ep 11: The Motherlode - Part 2 With Sandra Alex

    09/19/2025

    Ep 11: The Motherlode - Part 2 With Sandra Alex

    She’s BACK, ladies and gentlefriends, and she’s here to tell you some more wild shit in a really calm tone. This week is part deux of our interview with Sandra Alex, and we’re picking up exactly where we left off: with Sandra headed from Rio to Iowa. She’s a metaphorical mother to all, and literal mother to Leandra, specifically. Join us once again as we hold our collective breaths and listen to Sandra remember: Trying to be part of the “IN” crowd in Los Angeles Getting electrocuted at 18 because of a pastor’s negligence Her own understanding of the “Vision of the Kingdom” A “Prophecy” to John Robert Stevens from a KKK-affiliated “ministry” Navigating her faith after 2018 Cult ImplosionCONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious, $*xual, and Spiritual Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Grooming by Authority Figures, Substance Ab*use, 🚨JEZEBEL🚨, 🚨🚨GLEANINGS🚨🚨

    1h 47m
  7. Ep 10: The Motherlode - Part 1 With Sandra Alex

    09/05/2025

    Ep 10: The Motherlode - Part 1 With Sandra Alex

    HTD - The Motherlode! This is IT, Disappointments! The first installment of this mother loving episode is here! Our guest this week is Leandra’s ACTUAL mother, Sandra Alex! We had to break this one up into chunks because it is literal gold. It is: the MOTHERLODE! Join us as our jaws hit the floor over and over and over, while Sandra shares mind-blowing memories like: Getting DOUBLE GROUNDED by her mom in front of Jack Bruce from Cream (and some famous Brazilian musicians)Getting UNgrounded by attending a Cult Youth Group meetingLearning English to read cult literatureGetting called a Nephilim to her face by MarilynHelping to fund the first cult property in Brazil (Mount Zion The First) and what horrors subsequently occurred thereCONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious, $*xual, and Spiritual Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Grooming by Authority Figures, Depression,🚨🚨ARBA 🚨🚨

    1h 24m
  8. Ep 9: Burdened With Glorious Purpose With Stephanie Hardman

    08/22/2025

    Ep 9: Burdened With Glorious Purpose With Stephanie Hardman

    This week on HTD we talk to our childhood friend Stephanie Hardman about what it was like growing up in different Living Word Churches and how it impacted us in all kinds of crazy ways! Join us as we discuss: Dads!Being burdened with the purpose of The Living Word agenda Keeping the faithGod Lizards that totally did appearAs always, thank you and we treasure your attention! CONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious, $*xual, and Spiritual Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Grooming by Authority Figures, Suicidal Ideations,🚨DADDY ISSUES🚨, 😱SNIPPET OF WORSHIP SONG😱

    2h 54m
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We’re two best friends on a journey through cult recovery. Wheeee! We are on a mission to gain perspective, discover our values, tell some stories, and deconstruct the f****d up belief system from whence we came. This podcast is about learning to navigate life after growing up in an environment that discouraged questions and encouraged us to hate ourselves. It’s about normalizing talking about the subjects people LITERALLY join cults to avoid thinking about. Follow along as we make some educated guesses and invite some educated guests to share stories, call out patterns, and trade tips on how the hell to heal from all this shit! Sorry, mom! Sorry, Jesus! We're happy to disappoint.

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  • Creator
    Happy to Disappoint
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    17
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © Happy to Disappoint 2026
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