Out of Order with Ella | Not Just a Grief Podcast

Ella
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Out of order loss is the kind that does not follow life's expected timeline. I'm Ella, and I lost my brother and boyfriend when I was 22 years old. On Out of Order with Ella, I blend everyday life updates with raw reflection, highlighting how grief is in everything I do, but not all that I am. This show displays how hard topics like grief, trauma, and loss can coexist in everyday conversations without stopping them. I hope it feels like a catch-up call with a friend and a good therapy session all in one—because the there is no grief without light and love. talk to you Monday! 3

Episodes

  1. 08/05/2025

    8 - you are not exempt from grief

    attention! this message is for everyone yes, you too. + welcome August, World Juniors, & end of clinical year ____ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA  __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw  __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/  __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608  Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116  Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella  Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg  __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  2. 07/29/2025

    7 - four years without them

    what actually goes down during support group meetings & raw feelings and reflections from 4th death anniversaries of Mack and Sam ____ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA  __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw  __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/  __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608  Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116  Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella  Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg  __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  3. 07/21/2025

    6 - holding space for grief

    onward and upward in pediatrics, graduating SO SOON, applying to jobs, internet hate, and a personal check in leading up to the 4 year anniversary of losing Mack and Sam __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  4. 07/15/2025

    5 - ask them this not that

    starting my pediatrics rotation, new JB, and asking "how's today?" instead __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  5. 07/10/2025

    4 - 10ish ways i helped my mind and body after trauma

    4th of July recap with a trip down memory lane, getting back in the workout groove, and 10ish tips that ACTUALLY helped me in the first days, weeks, and months after losing Mack and Sam that I still do to this day __ check out Rêve https://www.revestudios.co/ __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  6. 06/30/2025

    3 - how to be there for people in grief

    on to rotation 9 of 9, Beau's 21st birthday recap, how to actually be there for your people in grief, and out first special person shoutout - Dylan also, check out Kaylyn Sahs - https://open.spotify.com/artist/7Muz7D0pEhoHGuosDjbSgK?si=uGQHVIVRSCSTK0BKOGvVKQ __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  7. 06/23/2025

    2 - you can still do hard things

    weekly update + 3 things that have allowed me to do hard things while grieving Check out Minnesofa! https://minnesofafurniture.com/?srsltid=AfmBOopegFAlI1rG6-5rKxB7v5uxbl4qurSmcaFIzCwfzBVtJxScNyau Article referenced: https://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0322416#sec030 __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

  8. 06/19/2025

    1 - what is out of order?

    episode 1! hi, I'm Ella. I'm 26 and live in Minnesota, and I lost some really important people far too young. my life has turned upside down over and over and over again since that day. each day since brings new challenges, AND newfound joy. I'm not the only one walking through grief, so I'm here to share my healing journey, and maybe create community along the way. whether it's just for me to reflect, my friends and family to keep up, those who know grief to feel seen, or those who simply want to better understand-- thank you for creating space to listen. 3 __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJghwYV8DftGaJnnX52K1w_aem_JO7e4FQrZuYMKlxLCr8JZw __ follow Out of Order with Ella on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/outoforderwithella/ __ Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0NqdoPbwe0uoYVAoRyaAtq?si=e99af7d5d3754608 Listen on Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/out-of-order-with-ella/id1821751116 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/01a976f1-2b67-433d-a5b5-d4bf8757fe4c/out-of-order-with-ella Listen on YouTube https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEe3wLJotntuRWbhSG-qP6LFihkIHflD7&si=yQDU-kacfgXUzfGg __ No part of this podcast is intended to serve as or replace medical advice from a clinician. All views expressed are completely my own and independent of those of my school, employer, or people around me :)

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Out of order loss is the kind that does not follow life's expected timeline. I'm Ella, and I lost my brother and boyfriend when I was 22 years old. On Out of Order with Ella, I blend everyday life updates with raw reflection, highlighting how grief is in everything I do, but not all that I am. This show displays how hard topics like grief, trauma, and loss can coexist in everyday conversations without stopping them. I hope it feels like a catch-up call with a friend and a good therapy session all in one—because the there is no grief without light and love. talk to you Monday! 3

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