Mad Mel’s Mic

Melissa Smith

Hi there! Welcome to Mad Mel’s Mic!! Thanks for joining me. My name is Melissa and this is a podcast all about me! About my life. About life with PTSD. About my life with a husband, kids and friends. Thanks for tuning in. 

  1. MAY 6

    Jeff Explains How Alcohol Masked PTSD Until It Finally Caught Up

    Send us Fan Mail Season 2, Episode 11 ***TRIGGER WARNING: TALK OF SUICIDE, DEATH AND OTHER TRAUMA RELATED INCIDENTS**** Please listen with caution and seek help where needed. We sit down with Jeff, a medically retired police officer, to talk honestly about PTSD, alcohol dependence, and the moment his body and mind forced him to stop running. He shares how AA, inpatient treatment, and real connection help him rebuild family life and stay alive when shame and stigma try to keep him silent. • meeting in an outpatient program and what first impressions reveal about trauma and trust  • what inpatient treatment at St John of God feels like when you are scared and exposed  • how validation and peer support speed up recovery  • why cumulative trauma can start years earlier than you think  • alcohol as a coping mechanism that quietly becomes the enemy  • the fear of asking for help in policing and the risk of being “punished” for it  • pancreatitis as a turning point and what AA gives in early sobriety  • rebuilding marriage and parenting after quitting drinking  • the PTSD breaking point, suicidal thoughts, and the power of someone intervening  • coping strategies without alcohol, including service and routine in AA  • where to start if you need support, including GP pathways, AA, detox, and rehab  • a funeral letter that makes the case for reaching out early You can find me on Facebook and Instagram, and don't forget to like and follow. Song of the Week: Somebody Save Me - Eminem & Jelly Roll https://youtu.be/Vwa0HenQMi4?si=heG7LPvz-MorhMFs Thought of the Week: "To my friends, family and colleagues. Please, if you are struggling with an addiction, reach out for help. If you let your addiction ruin you, you will more than likely lose the most important things in the world to you. I am unfortunately proof of that. I am 176 days sober. Please reach out if you need help. / wish / would have reached out earlier and forced my demons. It is never too late to reach out for help. You are important and you are worthy." Please be kind to yourself and seek help if needed.

    1h 42m
  2. MAR 24

    Raising A Future Police Officer Through Trauma

    Send us Fan Mail Season 2, Episode 6: Watching PTSD up close is one thing. Watching it happen to your child is another. For this conversation, I bring on my mum and dad to tell the story people rarely hear: what it’s like to raise a strong-willed kid, cheer her on into the police force, and then sit in the shockwave when trauma finally shows up years later. We talk about the proud moments and the ordinary memories, but we also get real about the scary parts: not knowing the right thing to say, worrying when the phone stays quiet, and learning that you can’t “fix” someone else’s depression, anxiety, or post-traumatic stress. We unpack why PTSD can feel sudden even when the signs are hidden, how stigma around mental health hospitals can keep families stuck, and why inpatient care can actually be the safest, most supportive step forward. We also go into medical retirement at 37, the loss of identity that can follow emergency service work, and the coping strategies that helped me climb back, including education, therapy, medication, support from my husband and kids, and the small daily wins that signal the old me returning. If you’re searching for honest first responder mental health stories, PTSD recovery, and what family support really looks like, this one will land. If it helps, share it with someone who needs hope, then subscribe and leave a review so more people can find Mad Mel’s Mic. What part of the parents’ perspective hit you hardest? Thought of the Week: The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse - Daniel Mackesy "Sometimes, said the horse, Sometimes what asked the boy. Sometimes just getting up and carrying on is brave and magnificent"

    51 min

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Hi there! Welcome to Mad Mel’s Mic!! Thanks for joining me. My name is Melissa and this is a podcast all about me! About my life. About life with PTSD. About my life with a husband, kids and friends. Thanks for tuning in.