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Portia spent four and a half years of her life in federal prison and her life was transformed. This is an account of kindness, faith and enduring friendships discovered in federal prison. Her story is told with the passion and insight of one who lived it. Portia opens our eyes and hearts to the real challenges and struggles that people in prison face.

  1. Catch Me If You Can - Matthew Cox

    2D AGO

    Catch Me If You Can - Matthew Cox

    Follow Matthew on www.youtube.com/@InsideTrueCrime Welcome to an extraordinary episode that dives deep into the fascinating and often dark world of crime, deception, and redemption. In this episode, we sit down with Matt Cox, a notorious con artist whose life story reads like a Hollywood thriller. From humble beginnings marked by struggles with dyslexia and a challenging childhood, Matt’s journey takes us through the high-stakes world of mortgage fraud, identity theft, and elaborate scams that amassed millions of dollars and made national headlines. Matt’s story is a rollercoaster of deception, risk, and ingenuity. He shares how his dyslexia, once seen as a debilitating obstacle, became a unique strength as he crafted complex schemes that fooled banks, lenders, and authorities alike. His ability to manipulate systems and create convincing fake documents led to a series of elaborate cons, including fake bank websites, fabricated corporate histories, and staged property transactions. Despite the danger and legal consequences, Matt describes the adrenaline rush and addictive nature of outsmarting the system, which kept him on the edge for years. Throughout our conversation, Matt openly discusses his arrests, federal indictments, and the lengthy prison sentences that followed—26 years initially, later reduced through a series of legal appeals and cooperation efforts. He reveals the internal struggles, the moments of regret, and the ways prison life became a surprising source of clarity and transformation. His self-awareness about his addictive personality and his past choices offers a candid perspective on how he navigated a path filled with deception. But this episode isn’t just about the crimes; it’s about the human side of a man who, despite his flaws, seeks redemption and a new purpose. Matt talks about his post-prison life, including how he’s built a new career as a podcaster, author, and speaker. He discusses the importance of honesty, the lessons learned from a life of crime, and the hard-earned wisdom that now guides his decisions. His story is a testament to resilience, showing that even in the darkest circumstances, change and growth are possible. Join us for a raw, unfiltered conversation that explores the mind of a con artist turned storyteller. Whether you're interested in true crime, personal transformation, or understanding the complexities of human behavior, this episode offers valuable insights and a compelling narrative that will leave you thinking. #TrueCrime #ConArtist #Fraud #CriminalJustice #PrisonStories #Redemption #SelfAwareness #MentalHealth #Deception #LegalDrama #CrimeStories #LifeLessons #Motivation #Podcast #Storytelling #CrimeDocumentary #Justice #DarkWeb #IdentityTheft #MortgageFraud #LegalSystem #Resilience #Transformation

    1h 46m
  2. From the Courtroom to the Cell Block

    MAR 27

    From the Courtroom to the Cell Block

    Check out Sean's channel: https://www.youtube.com/@THEPODCASTWITHSOUL Welcome to an eye-opening episode of the Living Louder podcast, where raw honesty meets inspiring transformation. In this powerful conversation, we sit down with Sean Gunby and Portia Louder—two individuals whose lives have been forever changed by crime, incarceration, and the journey to redemption.Sean Gunby openly shares his story of rising from a challenging upbringing in North Jersey, battling addiction, and eventually building a successful business empire. Despite reaching the heights of wealth and success, he faced the devastating reality of federal charges, arrest, and a prison sentence. Sean’s candid account reveals how prison became a pivotal moment for self-discovery, humility, and ultimately, personal growth. His story is a testament to how even the darkest moments can lead to a brighter, more authentic life.On the other hand, Portia Louder’s journey is equally compelling. From her early struggles with legal battles, financial ruin, and the heartbreak of losing her freedom, she describes her experience with brutal honesty. Her story covers years of legal battles, betrayal by loved ones, and the emotional rollercoaster of facing prison. Yet, through resilience and faith, Portia found a path to healing, purpose, and community service, helping others navigate similar struggles.In this episode, they discuss the profound lessons learned behind bars—about identity, integrity, and the importance of self-perception. They explore how prison can serve as a spiritual awakening and a death of the old self, paving the way for rebirth and renewal. Their stories highlight the power of hope, forgiveness, and the importance of embracing one’s truth, no matter how painful it may be.Whether you’ve faced your own battles or seek inspiration to overcome adversity, this conversation offers valuable insights into resilience, second chances, and the transformative power of authenticity. It’s a reminder that no matter your past, you have the strength to redefine your future.Join us for this candid discussion filled with lessons of humility, perseverance, and the importance of living louder than your fears. Don’t forget to like, share, and subscribe for more inspiring stories that challenge and uplift.#LivingLouder #RedemptionStory #PrisonTransformation #OvercomingAdversity #SelfGrowth #Inspiration #SecondChances #Authenticity #MentalHealth #PersonalDevelopment #CrimeAndRedemption

    1h 8m
  3. Inside the Mind of a Former Gang Member

    MAR 20

    Inside the Mind of a Former Gang Member

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where raw, real, and inspiring stories come to life. In this episode, we sit down with Colin Jamal Carter, a former gang member with a powerful story of transformation, resilience, and purpose. Colin’s journey began in the streets of Glendale and Rose Park, where he grew up amid a challenging environment marked by gang violence, family struggles, and personal loss. From a young age, Colin was caught up in the cycle of gangs, guns, and prison, but through hardship and reflection, he found a new path—one focused on helping others and making a positive impact.In this candid conversation, Colin shares intimate details about his childhood, the struggles with addiction and family trauma, and the choices that led him to a 15-life federal sentence. He opens up about the violence he experienced and witnessed, his time in maximum security prisons, and how he navigated the dangerous world of gangs behind bars. Despite the darkness of his past, Colin’s story is one of hope and redemption. He discusses how prison became a turning point, the lessons he learned about himself, and how he’s now committed to helping others break free from cycles of violence and incarceration.Colin talks about the importance of purpose, the power of community, and how he’s working toward a brighter future—enrolled in college, pursuing a degree in substance abuse counseling, and actively involved in programs that support healing and recovery. His message is clear: no matter how hard your past may be, it’s never too late to change and live a life of meaning.This episode is a raw and honest look into the realities of gang life, the prison system, and the potential for transformation when someone chooses to turn their life around. Whether you're interested in stories of redemption, prison reform, or simply looking for motivation to overcome your own challenges, Colin’s story will resonate with you.Join us as we dive deep into the struggles, the victories, and the lessons learned along the way. Colin’s journey proves that even in the darkest moments, there’s a light—sometimes it just takes a little courage to find it.Hashtags:#LivingLouder #RedemptionStory #GangLife #PrisonStories #Transformation #Inspiration #OvercomingAdversity #Purpose #BreakingCycles #PrisonReform #Hope #SurvivorStories #MentalHealth #RecoveryJourney #SelfImprovement #Motivation #RealTalk #InnerStrength #LifeAfterPrison #SecondChances

    1h 9m
  4. From Prison Gang to Family Loyalty

    MAR 13

    From Prison Gang to Family Loyalty

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where raw, real stories of transformation, resilience, and hope are shared to inspire others to break free from their past and create a brighter future. In this powerful episode, we sit down with Dustin Blackner—a man who has lived through the harsh realities of gang life, addiction, and incarceration, and who has found a way to turn everything around. Dustin’s story is a testament to the fact that no matter how dark your past may seem, change is always possible when you decide to wake up and take control of your life. Dustin’s childhood was filled with trauma, abuse, and exposure to violence. Growing up in a rough neighborhood in Utah, he was introduced to drugs at a very young age and became deeply entangled in gang life by his early teens. His story includes heartbreaking moments like witnessing a murder as a young boy and enduring years of mental, emotional, and physical abuse from his stepfather. Despite these challenges, Dustin managed to survive and navigate a cycle of incarceration, addiction, and hardship for over two decades. But what makes Dustin’s journey truly inspiring is his unwavering desire to change. After numerous stints in prison, he reached a breaking point that sparked a profound internal shift. Through faith, community, and sheer determination, Dustin committed to sobriety and personal growth. Today, he’s been sober for nearly two years, actively working to rebuild his relationships with his family, especially his wife and children, and helping others do the same. In this episode, Dustin shares candid insights into the realities of prison life—challenging stereotypes and revealing the brotherhood, humor, and even love that exists behind bars. He discusses the importance of discipline, self-love, and the power of choosing positivity even in the darkest moments. His story highlights that change is not only possible but inevitable when you take responsibility for your life and surround yourself with supportive, like-minded people. Dustin also talks about the misconceptions often portrayed in media about prison and gang life, emphasizing that most inmates are just people trying to find their way, and that real strength comes from within. His message is clear: no matter where you come from or what mistakes you’ve made, you have the power to rewrite your story. This episode is a must-watch for anyone seeking hope, motivation, or a reminder that true transformation starts from within. Dustin’s story proves that even in the face of adversity, love, faith, and perseverance can lead to a life of purpose and peace. #TransformationStory #PrisonRecovery #OvercomingAddiction #GangLife #RedemptionJourney #MentalHealthAwareness #SelfGrowth #Inspiration #RealStories #BreakingChains #Hope #SobrietyJourney #Resilience #LivingLouder #InnerStrength #PrisonLifeUnfiltered #Motivation #SecondChances #FaithAndHope

    1h 25m
  5. From Prison to Power: An Inspiring Journey of Redemption & Faith

    MAR 6

    From Prison to Power: An Inspiring Journey of Redemption & Faith

    Welcome to the Living Ladder podcast, where stories of transformation, faith, and resilience come to life. In this powerful episode, we sit down with Michael Germaine Mansfield — a man whose life journey is nothing short of extraordinary. From growing up with spiritual teachings as a child to battling addiction, experiencing homelessness, and ultimately finding redemption through faith—Michael’s story is a testament to the profound power of hope, repentance, and perseverance.Michael’s early years were deeply rooted in spiritual teachings, influenced by his father’s involvement in the I Am Activity and the teachings of Saint Germain. These teachings emphasized the divine nature within each of us and the power of the “I Am” consciousness. Despite this solid foundation, teenage years brought chaos—drugs, addiction, and the allure of a fast-paced, dangerous lifestyle. He was heavily influenced by the cartel, gang culture, and the destructive cycle of addiction that nearly cost him everything.Through harrowing experiences—selling drugs, gang stalking, and hitting rock bottom—Michael’s life seemed destined for despair. But his story takes a dramatic turn when he chooses to turn himself in and serve time in prison. It was in the prison cell that he found the truth in the scriptures, particularly the Book of Mormon, and recognized how the adversary had taken control of his life. His journey of faith, sobriety, and repentance began here, and today, Michael is a living example of radical change.After prison, Michael committed fully to his faith and sobriety. He went on to study at BYU Idaho, earning a degree in construction management, and now works as a traveling construction manager—living proof that no matter where you start, you can rise above your circumstances. His story is one of hope for those battling addiction, incarceration, or feeling lost in life. Michael believes that everyone can change, and his mission now is to inspire others to overcome their struggles and find their purpose through faith and hard work.In this episode, Michael shares intimate details about his childhood, the teachings that shaped him, the challenges he faced in his teenage years, and the lessons learned along the way. He talks openly about the importance of accountability, faith, and divine guidance in his transformation. His passion for politics, the war on drugs, and his desire to advocate for prison reentry and rehabilitation shine through. Most importantly, his story demonstrates that true happiness and strength come from within—and that everyone has the power to change their life for the better.Join us for an inspiring conversation that will uplift your spirit, renew your faith, and remind you that no matter how dark the night, the dawn of hope is always within reach. Whether you’re battling addiction, facing tough life circumstances, or simply seeking motivation to live your best life, Michael’s story will resonate deeply.Remember, your past does not define your future. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Let Michael’s story be your inspiration to take that step today.#RedemptionStory #FaithJourney #Inspiration #Transformation #PrisonToPower #OvercomingAddiction #FaithInAction #Hope #Resilience #TrueStory #Motivation #LifeChanging #SpiritualGrowth #NeverGiveUp #ComebackStory #FaithHeals #PrisonReentry #SelfImprovement #BelieveInYourself #LivingLadder

    41 min
  6. “Melissa Chavez Her Fight For Her Life And Family”

    FEB 27

    “Melissa Chavez Her Fight For Her Life And Family”

    Join us on this powerful episode of the Living Louder podcast as we sit down with Melissa Chavez—an inspiring woman who has faced unimaginable trauma, addiction, and abuse, and has emerged stronger than ever. Melissa’s story is a testament to resilience, hope, and the transformative power of vulnerability and faith. Her journey from a childhood filled with generational trauma, early abuse, and a tumultuous life of addiction to achieving sobriety, healing broken relationships, and becoming a beacon of hope for others is nothing short of extraordinary.In this candid conversation, Melissa shares the raw details of her childhood in Utah, where she endured the pain of losing her father at a young age, being sexually abused by her stepfather, and grappling with the heartbreak of feeling invalidated and alone. She opens up about her teenage years, marked by gang involvement, early pregnancy, and a cycle of chaos fueled by addiction. Melissa discusses how she navigated through domestic violence, incarceration, and loss, all while trying to protect her children and find her identity.Despite the hardships, Melissa’s story is ultimately one of redemption. She talks about her decision to seek help through treatment, her journey to sobriety, and the incredible work she’s doing today to support others facing similar struggles. Her transformation is a powerful reminder that no matter how dark the past may be, there is always hope for a brighter future. Melissa emphasizes the importance of surrendering to the process, trusting in God, and embracing vulnerability as key steps toward healing.Throughout this episode, Melissa offers valuable insights on overcoming trauma, breaking generational cycles, and finding self-worth. Her story highlights the importance of community, support, and the courage it takes to heal from deep wounds. Whether you're struggling with addiction, trauma, or simply seeking inspiration to turn your life around, Melissa’s journey will motivate you to believe in the possibility of change and growth.This episode is not only a testament to one woman’s resilience but also a call to action for anyone feeling overwhelmed by life's challenges. Melissa’s honesty and vulnerability serve as a powerful reminder that healing is possible, and that each of us has the strength within to overcome even the darkest moments.Tune in for an emotionally charged, inspiring conversation that will leave you feeling empowered and uplifted. Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more stories of hope, recovery, and transformation.#LivingLouderPodcast #TraumaRecovery #Inspiration #OvercomingAddiction #SurvivorStory #MentalHealthAwareness #HealingJourney #Resilience #SelfLove #RedemptionStory

    1h 10m
  7. A Father and Son’s Comeback Story - Manny Lopez & Manny Gallegos

    FEB 20

    A Father and Son’s Comeback Story - Manny Lopez & Manny Gallegos

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where stories of resilience, redemption, and unbreakable family bonds take center stage. In this powerful episode, we sit down with two remarkable men, a father and son duo named Manny, whose journey through hardship, prison, and ultimately forgiveness will inspire you to believe in the power of love and second chances.Manny (the son) shares an honest and heartfelt account of his tumultuous past — navigating foster care, failed adoptions, juvenile hall, and multiple stints in prison. Despite these challenges, he reveals how prayer, faith, and a relentless pursuit of purpose helped him break free from a cycle of adversity. His story is one of resilience, showing that no matter how dark the path may seem, hope and hard work can lead to transformation.On the other side, Manny (the father) recounts his own struggles growing up in a tough environment, living through hardships with his mother, and searching for his son for years before finally reconnecting. His emotional journey of forgiveness, understanding, and pride in his son's progress highlights the importance of compassion and the healing power of reconnecting with loved ones. Both men share candid insights into their healing process, emphasizing that true strength lies in vulnerability and love.Throughout this episode, you'll witness an inspiring narrative of how a family’s love can transcend pain, mistakes, and even years of separation. They talk openly about their shared experiences, the impact of social influences, and the importance of working on oneself to positively influence others. Their story underscores that change is possible at any age, and that every setback can become a setup for a comeback.Moreover, they discuss the importance of community programs, mental health, and the need for more initiatives that offer hope and opportunities for those struggling with addiction, incarceration, or broken relationships. Their journey illustrates that healing begins from within, and when we choose to rise above our circumstances, we can create a legacy of love, hope, and resilience.This episode is a testament to the power of faith, perseverance, and the human spirit. Whether you're facing your own struggles or seeking inspiration to support loved ones, their story will encourage you to keep moving forward, to forgive, and to always believe in the possibility of a brighter tomorrow.Join us as we celebrate the victories, acknowledge the scars, and honor the journey of these two inspiring men. Their story proves that no matter where you come from, you can live louder — with purpose, love, and hope guiding the way.Hashtags:#RedemptionStory #FamilyReunion #Inspiration #OvercomingAdversity #Forgiveness #HealingJourney #Hope #Motivation #PrisonToPurpose #LoveConquersAll #LivingLouder #FamilyBond #SecondChances #MentalHealthAwareness #CommunitySupport

    27 min
  8. Lost and Found - From the Streets to Finding My Son

    FEB 13

    Lost and Found - From the Streets to Finding My Son

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast! In this powerful episode, we dive deep into a story of redemption, love, and transformation that will inspire your heart and renew your faith in second chances. Meet Manny, a man whose life has been marked by struggles with gang violence, incarceration, addiction, and hardship, but who has ultimately found hope through faith, music, and the power of family.Manny's journey begins in the streets of South Central Los Angeles, where he was introduced to the harsh realities of gang life at a young age. From being arrested at just 11 years old to spending years in juvenile detention and adult prison, his story is one of survival amidst chaos. Yet, despite these dark moments, Manny’s story is also about resilience and the incredible ability to change.Through years of hardship, Manny turned to music and faith as his outlets for hope and redemption. He shares heartfelt stories of how he left behind a life of drugs, violence, and crime, and found purpose through his family, his wife Jabel, and his music career. Manny speaks openly about his struggles with addiction, his time in prison, and the pivotal moment when he truly decided to change his life — a moment of prayer, surrender, and a desire to be better for himself and his loved ones.What's truly remarkable is his journey to reconnect with his son, Manny Jr., after decades apart. Manny had always known about his son but didn’t know where he was or how to find him. Thanks to DNA testing and perseverance, they were finally reunited in an emotional encounter that Manny describes as life-changing. This reunion exemplifies hope, forgiveness, and the unbreakable bond of a father's love.In this episode, Manny also reflects on the importance of honesty, integrity, and the power of using one’s skills for good. He shares stories of his musical journey, managing legendary artists, and how his past experiences have shaped his present. His message is clear: no matter how dark your past may be, there is always hope for a brighter future if you’re willing to seek it.Join us as we celebrate the power of faith, family, and second chances. Manny’s story reminds us that no matter where you come from, you can always choose a different path — one filled with love, purpose, and transformation. Whether you’re struggling with your own challenges or simply seeking inspiration, this episode will leave you inspired to believe in the possibility of redemption.Tune in to hear Manny’s story and be reminded that it’s never too late to turn your life around.Hashtags:#RedemptionStory #FamilyReunion #SecondChances #Inspiration #Faith #Transformation #StreetLifeToSuccess #Motivation #MusicHeals #OvercomingAddiction #TrueStory #Hope #Forgiveness #LifeChange #Fatherhood #NeverGiveUp

    37 min
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Portia spent four and a half years of her life in federal prison and her life was transformed. This is an account of kindness, faith and enduring friendships discovered in federal prison. Her story is told with the passion and insight of one who lived it. Portia opens our eyes and hearts to the real challenges and struggles that people in prison face.

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  • Creator
    Portia Louder
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    37
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Portia Louder
  • Show Website
    Living Louder

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