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Portia spent four and a half years of her life in federal prison and her life was transformed. This is an account of kindness, faith and enduring friendships discovered in federal prison. Her story is told with the passion and insight of one who lived it. Portia opens our eyes and hearts to the real challenges and struggles that people in prison face.

  1. Prison lessons and Life Wins

    4D AGO

    Prison lessons and Life Wins

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast — a raw, inspiring conversation about resilience, redemption, and transformation. In this episode, we dive deep into the powerful stories of women who have experienced the realities of incarceration and emerged stronger, wiser, and more determined than ever. Join us as we share heartfelt insights about life behind bars, the struggles of rebuilding relationships, the importance of accountability, and the incredible opportunities for growth that come through programs like ARDAP and others. Our guest, Meredith Fossey, generously shares her journey from growing up in Wyoming with LDS values, to a life of addiction and drug dealing, and ultimately to her time in federal prison. She talks openly about her experiences in various correctional facilities, the importance of education and therapy in prison, and how those experiences helped her find her true self. Meredith emphasizes that prison can be a place of healing if you’re willing to embrace the process and take accountability for your actions. She also reflects on her relationship with her kids, the challenges of reconnecting after incarceration, and the valuable lessons she learned about boundaries, self-worth, and personal growth. Throughout this episode, we explore the significance of programs like ARDAP, which provide women with the tools and support needed to turn their lives around. We discuss how these programs foster accountability, teach life skills, and help individuals understand addiction from a professional perspective. Meredith and I also talk about the importance of community, the power of forgiveness, and the necessity of setting boundaries — both in prison and in life. This conversation is not just about incarceration; it’s about hope, second chances, and the relentless human spirit. Whether you’ve experienced the system firsthand or are simply curious about stories of transformation, this episode offers valuable lessons on resilience, the importance of self-awareness, and the profound impact of taking responsibility for your life choices. If you’re interested in stories of real people overcoming adversity, or if you’re looking for inspiration to make positive changes in your own life, this episode is for you. Tune in to hear candid, heartfelt stories that challenge perceptions, inspire growth, and remind us all that it’s never too late for a second chance. Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more honest conversations about life, struggles, and triumphs. Share this episode with anyone who needs a reminder that redemption is possible, and that the journey to a better life begins with a single step. #LivingLadder #PrisonStories #Rehabilitation #SecondChances #Inspiration #WomenInRecovery #Accountability #Transformation #PrisonLife #HealingJourney

    38 min
  2. The Beauty in Brokenness: An Honest Conversation with Melissa Lozano

    JAN 16

    The Beauty in Brokenness: An Honest Conversation with Melissa Lozano

    In this powerful and heartfelt episode, we sit down with Melissa Lozano—a woman whose life story is nothing short of inspiring. From a tumultuous childhood marked by trauma, addiction, and chaos to a journey of healing, forgiveness, and hope, Melissa shares her raw and authentic experiences. Growing up in Utah with a mother battling addiction and navigating a world of instability, Melissa’s story reveals the harsh realities faced by many who are born into cycles of hardship. Despite the overwhelming challenges, she found the strength to break free from her past, rebuild her life, and discover her inner resilience.Melissa’s journey includes losing her childhood innocence, experiencing domestic violence, battling addiction herself, and facing the devastating loss of her mother. Her story is filled with moments of heartbreak, regret, and pain, but also incredible moments of love, faith, and redemption. She talks openly about her struggles with substance abuse, her experiences with the criminal justice system, and the difficult process of healing from deep emotional wounds. Through it all, Melissa emphasizes the importance of faith, perseverance, and the power of community in transforming her life.One of the most touching parts of her story is her relationship with her mother—despite the pain caused by her mother's addiction, Melissa’s love for her remains profound. Her journey of forgiveness and understanding highlights the complexity of love and the importance of compassion, even for those who have hurt us the most. Melissa also shares how her faith in God has played a pivotal role in her recovery, helping her find peace and purpose after years of chaos.Today, Melissa is a testament to the human spirit’s capacity for change and growth. She now has a stable life with a loving partner, a successful career, and a desire to give hope to others who are struggling. Her story encourages listeners to believe in second chances, to never give up, and to recognize that healing is possible—even after facing unimaginable hardships.Join us in this inspiring conversation that reminds us all of the importance of compassion, resilience, and faith. Melissa’s story is a beacon of hope for anyone who feels overwhelmed by their circumstances and is searching for the courage to start over. Whether you’re battling addiction, dealing with family struggles, or simply seeking motivation to keep going, this episode will touch your heart and ignite your hope for a better tomorrow.Hashtags:#Inspiration #RecoveryStory #OvercomingAddiction #HealingJourney #FaithAndHope #SecondChances #Resilience #MentalHealthAwareness #TraumaRecovery #WomenEmpowerment #LifeTransformation #Motivation #FamilyLove #Forgiveness #HopeForTomorrow

    46 min
  3. Overcoming the Trauma of Prison and a Sex Offense

    JAN 9

    Overcoming the Trauma of Prison and a Sex Offense

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where we dive deep into stories of resilience, hope, and transformation. In this heartfelt episode, Portia and her daughter CJ share their extraordinary journey through some of life's most challenging moments — from incarceration and trauma to healing and growth. This honest and raw conversation offers a rare glimpse into the struggles faced by families affected by incarceration, sexual abuse, and mental health issues, all while highlighting the power of love, forgiveness, and resilience. Portia opens up about her experience going to prison, the shock and pain of being separated from her children, and the emotional toll of facing a long sentence. She reflects on the difficulty of explaining her absence to her young children and the process of rebuilding trust and connection once she returned home. CJ shares her perspective as a young girl who was only seven when her mom was taken away, describing how she coped with the separation and navigated life in her mom’s absence. She honestly discusses the feelings of loneliness, confusion, and the moments where she felt she had to be strong for her family. The conversation takes a powerful turn as CJ reveals her journey through trauma and abuse, and how therapy and open communication helped her find healing. She talks about the importance of honesty, vulnerability, and seeking support, emphasizing that healing is a process that takes time and courage. This episode also explores the impact of societal judgments, the importance of compassion, and how shared struggles can foster deeper understanding and connection. Throughout the episode, Portia and CJ emphasize the significance of choosing love over bitterness, the importance of forgiving oneself and others, and the strength found in vulnerability. They discuss how their shared experiences have shaped their outlook on life, relationships, and the importance of mental health awareness. Both share inspiring messages of hope for anyone going through similar hardships, encouraging listeners to embrace their journey and focus on healing and self-growth. Whether you're interested in stories of family resilience, mental health, overcoming trauma, or simply looking for an honest, inspiring conversation, this episode offers valuable insights and a reminder that even in the darkest times, there is hope and light. Join Portia and CJ as they share their truth, celebrate their progress, and inspire others to live louder, love deeper, and never give up. Hashtags: #LivingLouder #FamilyResilience #HealingJourney #TraumaRecovery #IncarcerationStories #MentalHealthAwareness #MotherDaughterBond #OvercomingAbuse #Forgiveness #HopeAndHealing #SelfGrowth #VulnerabilityIsStrength #FamilyLove #Inspiration #BreakTheSilence

    31 min
  4. Life After a Sex Offense

    JAN 2

    Life After a Sex Offense

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where honest conversations, hope, and transformation take center stage. In this inspiring episode, host Portia Louder sits down with a remarkable guest, James, a man who has faced incredible challenges, taken full ownership of his past, and turned his life around through faith, accountability, and love. Their candid discussion delves into difficult topics like incarceration, sex offenses, forgiveness, and the power of vulnerability—offering hope and encouragement for everyone navigating their own struggles.James shares his personal journey from a successful business career to facing prison time for a sex offense. Despite the stigma and societal judgment, he emphasizes the importance of owning one’s mistakes, learning from them, and choosing to become a better person. His story highlights that true change is possible, even in the darkest moments, when we accept responsibility and lean on faith and support from loved ones. James openly discusses his experience with excommunication from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and how that period of spiritual humility paved the way for his re-baptism, redemption, and future aspirations, including returning to the temple.Throughout the episode, Portia and James talk about the significance of honesty, vulnerability, and the importance of a loving support system—whether it's family, friends, or faith community. They share stories of forgiveness, including powerful accounts of victims who have found peace through understanding and service, illustrating that healing is possible at any stage of life. Both guests emphasize that forgiveness is a personal journey, and while it’s not always easy or immediate, it’s a vital step toward inner peace and growth.This conversation is a call to action for listeners to confront their own pasts with courage, to support loved ones with compassion, and to understand that everyone deserves a second chance. Whether you're someone who has made mistakes, a family member of someone who's struggled, or a victim seeking healing, this episode offers hope, practical insights, and the reassurance that with faith and effort, transformation is within reach.Join us as we explore how faith, accountability, and love can help us all live louder—beyond shame and judgment—toward a brighter, more hopeful future.Hashtags:#LivingLouder #RedemptionStory #HopeAndHealing #Accountability #Forgiveness #FaithJourney #SecondChances #Transformation #OvercomingStigma #MentalHealthAwareness #FaithAndRecovery #Inspiration #SelfGrowth #HealingJourney #MentalHealthMatters #FaithInAction #HopeAfterIncarceration #OvercomingShame #SupportAndLove

    49 min
  5. The More You Do, The More You Can Do - Manny Lopez

    12/26/2025

    The More You Do, The More You Can Do - Manny Lopez

    Welcome to the Living Ladder podcast — a powerful platform dedicated to sharing inspiring stories of hope, resilience, and transformation. Hosted by individuals who have faced life's toughest challenges, this podcast dives deep into real-life experiences of overcoming addiction, incarceration, trauma, and adversity, all while emphasizing the importance of faith, community, and second chances. In each episode, we sit down with authentic voices—former inmates, community leaders, faith-based advocates, and everyday heroes—who have turned their pain into purpose. These stories highlight the profound journey from darkness to light, illustrating that no matter how difficult life gets, redemption is always within reach when we believe in ourselves and lean on a higher power. Our guests share candid insights about their past struggles, the power of faith and forgiveness, and the pivotal moments that shifted their lives. From the importance of community support to the transformative power of love and loyalty, these conversations remind us that connection and compassion are the keys to healing. Whether it's a story of a person coming out of prison and reintegrating into society, or someone overcoming childhood trauma to find purpose, each episode aims to motivate and uplift listeners everywhere. The Living Ladder podcast emphasizes that everyone has a story worth telling and a potential for greatness. We believe that sharing these stories can inspire others to keep pushing forward, believe in second chances, and understand that our past does not define our future. Through faith and perseverance, we can all climb out of darkness and step into the light. Join us for heartfelt conversations, practical advice, and lessons learned along the way. Whether you're on your own journey of healing, supporting someone else, or just seeking inspiration, this podcast offers a space for hope, growth, and community. Together, we can build a ladder—step by step—toward a brighter future. Subscribe, share, and be part of the movement to transform lives through stories of faith, resilience, and redemption. Remember, no matter where you come from, you are worthy of a second chance. Hashtags: #LivingLadder #RedemptionStory #FaithAndHealing #SecondChances #OvercomingAdversity #Inspiration #RecoveryJourney #CommunitySupport #Transformation #HopeInDarkness #StrengthThroughFaith #RiseAbove #MentalHealthMatters #PrisonReentry #LoveAndLoyalty #NeverGiveUp

    43 min
  6. Jail Saved my Life. An Advocate, Destiny Garcia

    12/19/2025

    Jail Saved my Life. An Advocate, Destiny Garcia

    https://www.cleanslateutah.org/ In this powerful episode of the Living Louder podcast, host Portia Louder sits down with Destiny Garcia, an inspiring advocate, community leader, and mother who has overcome incredible odds. From a childhood marked by violence, abuse, and trauma, Destiny shares her deeply personal story of addiction, homelessness, and the journey to recovery. She candidly discusses her experiences with abusive relationships, her struggles with opiate and meth addiction, and her time spent cycling in and out of jail. Despite these hardships, Destiny’s resilience and determination led her to find hope, purpose, and a new life through advocacy, education, and community support. Destiny recounts the pivotal moments that transformed her life, including her participation in Operation Rio Grande, her efforts to seek treatment, and her eventual role as the executive director of Clean Slate Utah — a nonprofit dedicated to helping individuals clear their criminal records and rebuild their lives. She emphasizes the importance of sharing her story openly and loudly, not only to heal herself but to inspire others who feel trapped in the cycle of addiction, violence, or incarceration. Her journey from homelessness and addiction to working with local government and advocating for systemic change exemplifies the power of second chances. Throughout this episode, Destiny talks about the importance of mental health, the impact of trauma, and the significance of community support and belief. She highlights how her life changed when people in her community, including the mayor of Salt Lake City, believed in her and gave her opportunities she never thought possible. Destiny’s story underscores that everyone deserves a chance at redemption and that honest, open conversations about addiction and recovery can foster understanding and change. Join us as Destiny Garcia shares her heartfelt story, her advocacy work, and her hopes for the future. Whether you’re in recovery, supporting someone who is, or simply looking for inspiration to overcome your own struggles, this episode offers hope, encouragement, and a reminder that transformation is possible — no matter how deep the wounds. Tune in to be inspired by Destiny’s resilience and learn how community, faith, and perseverance can help turn pain into purpose. #LivingLouder #RecoveryJourney #TraumaHealing #SecondChances #AddictionRecovery #MentalHealthMatters #Inspiration #EndTheStigma #WomenInRecovery #CommunitySupport

    47 min
  7. Can Prison be Charming? Mistakes and Miracles.

    12/12/2025

    Can Prison be Charming? Mistakes and Miracles.

    In this heartfelt and inspiring episode of Living Louder, hosts Portia Louder, Oaks Hendershot, and Michael Moyle dive deep into their personal journeys of faith, resilience, and transformation. From navigating the challenges of growing up in Utah to serving missions abroad, and from life in prison to finding divine purpose, these incredible young men share authentic stories that will uplift and motivate you to see God's hand in every aspect of life. Discover how Oaks's childhood in India and Utah shaped his perspective on service and compassion, and learn about Michael’s profound experiences with love, forgiveness, and understanding the Savior’s atonement. They openly discuss spiritual experiences, overcoming mental health struggles, and the importance of listening to the Spirit in everyday decisions—especially during life’s most difficult moments.  This episode also explores the power of friendship, the significance of belonging, and how divine guidance can lead us through life's trials and mistakes. Whether you're seeking encouragement, spiritual insights, or just a reminder that you're never alone, this conversation will leave you feeling inspired to live louder and love deeper. Join us as we talk about divine miracles, the importance of service, the role of the Holy Ghost, and the incredible ways God’s love manifests in our lives—sometimes in the most unexpected ways. Don’t miss this uplifting episode filled with real stories, honest reflections, and powerful lessons on faith and perseverance. Tune in and be reminded that no matter your circumstances, you are loved, guided, and capable of overcoming anything through Christ. #LivingLouder #FaithJourney #DivineGuidance #MiraclesHappen #SpiritualExperiences #OvercomingTrials #MissionLife #MentalHealthAwareness #JesusChrist #InspiredLiving #DivineLove #PersonalGrowth #FaithOverFear #GodsPlan #AuthenticStories

    1h 12m
  8. The Wilcox Family Shares: When your Daughter Goes to Prison

    12/05/2025

    The Wilcox Family Shares: When your Daughter Goes to Prison

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where we dive deep into inspiring stories of resilience, love, service, and personal growth. In this episode, we are joined by the incredible Wilcox family—parents, grandparents, and grandchildren—who share candid, heartfelt conversations about their life's journey. From overcoming childhood traumas to navigating the challenges of Vietnam war, prison, loss, and family struggles, this episode is a testament to the power of perseverance and unconditional love. Meet Cliff Wilcox, a Vietnam veteran who survived intense conflict, two Purple Hearts, and a series of health challenges including kidney failure and strokes. Cliff’s story is one of courage, determination, and transformation. Despite a tumultuous youth filled with risks and adventures, he turned his life around, embodying resilience and the spirit of a survivor. His reflections on his military service, the importance of choosing to be the best soldier he could be, and the value of having mentors who helped him through dark times serve as powerful lessons for all. Portia’s mother, Chris, shares her story of motherhood, loss, and unwavering faith. Her childhood was filled with unique experiences, growing up in a free-spirited, no-rules environment that fostered creativity and independence. She recounts her journey of raising seven children in the country, providing them with a childhood full of adventures, outdoor fun, and life lessons. Her compassionate heart shines through as she discusses her love for children, her service to neighbors and community, and how her faith has helped her weather life's storms, including the heartbreaking loss of a child and her own struggles with addiction and healing. Portia herself offers a powerful perspective on transformation, redemption, and the importance of working on oneself to influence positive change in others. She shares her personal journey of overcoming incarceration, battling addiction, and finding strength through faith and family. Her story underscores that it’s never too late to reinvent yourself and that hope and love can lead to profound healing. Together, this family embodies the true meaning of living louder—embracing life’s challenges with compassion, humor, and resilience. Their stories are a source of inspiration for anyone facing difficult circumstances, reminding us that no matter how tough life gets, love, service, and perseverance can guide us toward a brighter future. Join us for this heartfelt, real, and uplifting conversation that will inspire you to reflect on your own life, appreciate the legacy of your family, and find strength in your personal journey. Whether you're interested in family stories, overcoming adversity, or simply looking for meaningful inspiration, this episode of Living Louder is sure to resonate deeply. Don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review if these stories touch your heart. Let’s celebrate the power of family, resilience, and living louder than ever before! #LivingLouder #FamilyStories #Resilience #Inspiration #OvercomingHardship #VietnamVeteran #FamilyLegacy #PersonalGrowth #Hope #Healing #FamilyJourney #Motivation #FaithInAction

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Portia spent four and a half years of her life in federal prison and her life was transformed. This is an account of kindness, faith and enduring friendships discovered in federal prison. Her story is told with the passion and insight of one who lived it. Portia opens our eyes and hearts to the real challenges and struggles that people in prison face.

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  • Creator
    Portia Louder
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    27
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © Portia Louder
  • Show Website
    Living Louder

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