Silent No Longer with Mesha Paul

Mesha Paul
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Silent No Longer is a podcast for survivors ready to find healing, hope, and freedom after toxic or abusive relationships. Hosted by Mesha, survivor, author of Behind Closed Doors, and Christian life coach, you’ll hear real stories, faith-filled encouragement, and conversations that remind you: you are not alone, your past doesn’t define you, and healing is possible.

  1. 2d ago

    Mia Hanks: Behind the Perfect Marriage — 29 Years of Narcissistic Abuse & Finding Freedom

    Please note: At the guest’s request, this episode is being shared as audio only to respect and protect her privacy. Any images or faces that may appear have been covered for privacy reasons. We appreciate your understanding and respect for her decision to share her story in the way that feels safest and most comfortable for her. What happens when the life that looks perfect from the outside is very different behind closed doors? In this episode of Silent No Longer with Mesha Paul, I sit down with Mia Hanks, author of Bride-Maid and I’ve Made Plans: A Memoir of Rebuilding, to talk about her experience of leaving a 29-year marriage that she describes as involving covert narcissistic abuse. Mia shares how difficult it was to recognize the unhealthy patterns when she was living inside of them—and how years of being told that she was the problem affected the way she saw herself. Pasted text We have an open and honest conversation about psychological and emotional abuse, gaslighting, circular conversations, walking on eggshells, control, sleep deprivation, losing your independence, and what it feels like when everyone around you believes you have the “perfect” marriage. Pasted text But this conversation is also about what comes after. Mia shares what it was like to rediscover herself, do things she had been told she wasn't capable of doing, rebuild her independence, and finally experience the peace and freedom she had wanted for so many years. We also talk about my own healing journey, learning boundaries, trusting yourself again, recognizing patterns, and realizing that healing happens in layers. Pasted text If you've ever wondered why it can be so difficult to recognize psychological abuse—or what rebuilding your life can look like after leaving—this conversation is for you.

  2. Sep 28

    Julie Turner: When Your Body Still Remembers the Abuse

    In this episode of Silent No Longer with Mesha Paul, I sit down with Julie Turner, founder of The Movement Effect, a nonprofit bringing trauma-informed fitness and wellness services into domestic violence shelters for mothers and children. Julie shares her own experience of surviving an abusive relationship and what happened after she got physically safe. She began experiencing PTSD, heart palpitations, anxiety, and physical sensations that made her believe something was seriously wrong with her body. Over time, she discovered that movement—especially dance—helped her body feel grounded and calm. Pasted text We have a very real conversation about the nervous system, fight-or-flight, psychological abuse, boundaries, dating after abuse, and why healing doesn't always look the way we expect it to. We also talk about that strange transition from living in constant chaos to finally being safe—and realizing your body may still be responding as though the danger is there. Pasted text Julie explains that healing through movement doesn't mean everyone needs to dance or go to the gym. It can be walking, yoga, Pilates, swimming, lifting weights, or simply finding a way of moving that makes your body feel good, grounded, and connected again. Pasted text This episode is an honest reminder that leaving an abusive relationship may bring you to safety, but healing can continue long after you leave. 💜 Your body has been through the story with you. It deserves to be part of the healing, too. Real People. Real Stories. Real Hope. Julie’s Links:  https://themovementeffect.org Mesha’s Link https://stan.store/RiseUpBraveSouls

  3. Sep 20

    Mia Godfrey: Breaking the Silence of Shame, Abuse & Addiction

    What happens when shame convinces you that you have to suffer in silence? In this powerful episode of Silent No Longer with Mesha Paul, Mia Godfrey shares her journey from growing up under Romania’s communist regime to battling grief, addiction, abusive relationships, and the deep belief that she was unworthy of love. After losing her father at 18, Mia turned to alcohol and pills to numb her pain, carrying much of her struggle in secret. Mia opens up about the emotional and psychological abuse that left wounds long after the physical violence ended—and the years it took to rebuild her identity, forgive herself, and recognize that God still had a purpose for her life. Mesha and Mia also have an honest conversation about faith, shame, motherhood, self-forgiveness, therapy, grief, and why sometimes people don't need another Bible verse—they need someone willing to sit beside them, love them, and hold space while they heal. Today, Mia uses her story to help other women who have spent their lives being strong for everyone else find their identity, their voice, and their purpose. You do not have to keep suffering in silence. There is no shame in reaching out for help.

  4. Sep 13

    Ransom Kong: “I Became What I Never Wanted to Be” Breaking the Cycle of Domestic Violence

    What happens when you grow up around domestic violence and later realize you’ve carried some of those same patterns into your own relationships? In this powerful episode of Silent No Longer with Mesha Paul, I sit down with Ransom Kong, who shares his journey from growing up in a home filled with domestic violence to recognizing his own learned behaviors and choosing to do the work to change them. Ransom brings a unique perspective after nearly three decades of work in anger management, domestic violence education, and coaching. Together, we have an open conversation about generational trauma, learned behaviors, accountability, communication, emotional vulnerability, boundaries, self-worth, and the difference between toxic and abusive relationship patterns. We also get real about dating and relationships after trauma—learning to trust your instincts, recognizing when words and actions don’t match, slowing down emotional investment, and discovering what a healthy connection can actually look like. This conversation is a reminder that the patterns we learn in childhood can follow us into adulthood—but awareness, accountability, and intentional healing can help us choose something different. https://purposeoverpain.life Mesha’s Links: https://stan.store/RiseUpBraveSouls

  5. Sep 6

    Andy Campbell: The Seductive Lie That Makes Suicide Feel Logical

    What do you say when life keeps taking everything and you still have to choose to stay? Andy Campbell has survived childhood sexual abuse, relentless bullying, years of grief, stage 4 pancreatic cancer, and the devastating loss of his son to suicide - and he shares the hard-won beliefs that kept him alive.Mesha Paul guides a deeply honest conversation about suicide, depression, trauma, and what families actually face behind closed doors. Andy explains why “don’t quit” is more than a slogan, how suicidal thinking can feel seductive and irrationally logical, and why the most important intervention is often not control, but creating space for someone to keep choosing life one day at a time.You’ll discover: Why Andy says suicide is an irreversible decision that spreads pain far beyond one person The “one thread” method he used to help his son untangle overwhelming thoughts How his wife’s near-suicide revealed the danger of the “dark tunnel” mindset Why parents can do everything right and still not be in control of the outcome The difference between wanting to die and wanting the pain to stop Andy also shares the coping framework he’s built over time, including 15 core beliefs that help him navigate anxiety, treatment-resistant depression, and the ongoing reality of living through trauma. He opens up about therapy, EMDR, TMS, and why healing often requires more than willpower - it requires persistence, support, and the courage to ask for help again and again.Mesha brings her own powerful perspective as a parent who has walked alongside suicidal thoughts in her family, making this episode especially resonant for anyone supporting a struggling child, partner, or loved one. Together they talk candidly about communication, boundaries, shame, texting misunderstandings, and the difference between what we think we know and what is actually true.Essential listening if you’re navigating depression, supporting someone in crisis, or looking for hope that real healing is still possible. This is a conversation about pain, survival, and the stubborn, life-saving decision to keep going. Andy’s Links:   https://www.askandycampbell.com/15-core-beliefs Mesha’s Links: https://stan.store/RiseUpBraveSouls

  6. Aug 30

    Zulma Williams: She Escaped Abuse, Beat Cancer, and Chose a New Life

    Zulma Williams shares her journey of surviving abuse, overcoming breast cancer, and rebuilding her life later in adulthood. She reveals why leaving an abusive relationship is so difficult and reminds survivors that it’s never too late to choose freedom, pursue a dream, and turn pain into purpose. Links:   https://www.instagram.com/theswearingtherapist Mesha’s Links: https://stan.store/RiseUpBraveSouls Free Quiz,  Free Clarity Call, my book and so much more. .   Would you like to be on my show? Sing up here: https://www.joinpodmatch.com/meshapaul

  7. Aug 24

    Rowan Vale:Coming Back to Myself: Addiction, Recovery, Faith, and Learning I Am Enough

    In this powerful episode of Silent No Longer, Mesha sits down with Rowan Vale to talk about the connection between childhood trauma, addiction, identity, faith, and recovery. Rowan shares how growing up in dysfunction, abuse, and instability left him feeling like he never truly belonged. Those unresolved wounds followed him into adulthood, relationships, addiction, and eventually some of the darkest moments of his life. But his story didn’t end there. Through recovery, honesty, faith, and learning to face the pain he had spent years trying to escape, Rowan began finding his way back to himself. Together, Mesha and Rowan have a raw conversation about people-pleasing, losing your identity, breaking unhealthy patterns, learning to sit with your emotions, and realizing that healing requires looking inward. This episode is a reminder that no matter how far down you feel you’ve gone, you are not too far gone. There is still hope. Rowan’s Link https://www.amazon.com/ENOUGH-Rowan-Vale/dp/B0H5GJ3T5N https://www.facebook.com/share/1H6FLURxZs/ Mesha’s Links: https://stan.store/RiseUpBraveSouls Free Quiz,  Free Breakthrough  Call, my book and so much more.

  8. Aug 16

    Heather Justice: Beyond Churchy Answers. A Survivor’s Journey to Healing

    Heather Justice shares her powerful journey through hidden emotional abuse, betrayal, and manipulation, including deception by a trusted faith leader. She opens up about recognizing abuse without bruises, rebuilding her trust, and leaning on faith while healing. Heather’s Link: http://heathernjustice.com Mesha’s Links: https://stan.store/RiseUpBraveSouls Free Quiz,  Free Clarity Call, my book and so much more. .   Would you like to be on my show? Sing up here: https://www.joinpodmatch.com/meshapaul

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Silent No Longer is a podcast for survivors ready to find healing, hope, and freedom after toxic or abusive relationships. Hosted by Mesha, survivor, author of Behind Closed Doors, and Christian life coach, you’ll hear real stories, faith-filled encouragement, and conversations that remind you: you are not alone, your past doesn’t define you, and healing is possible.

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