Proudly on Record

Proudly On Record
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Proudly On Record is a storytelling podcast documenting LGBTQ+ stories told in our own words and on our own terms. Hosted by Elise and Kari, we sit with LGBTQ+ folks (and the occasional ally who earned their spot) across generations to talk about identity, healing, joy, survival, faith, love, and the lives we’re building now. Our conversations explore the long-term effects of religious trauma, journeys of deconstruction, and finding yourself again. We also center celebrations of chosen family, finding acceptance, and the growth that comes from living life as your true authentic self. Proudly On Record is rooted in memory and resistance. It exists to place queer voices on record, where we cannot be dismissed or rewritten. We are here for those who believe our stories are the most powerful tool we have. May we never be erased. New episodes every Wednesday. Music Credit: VAAMP

  1. 4d ago

    From Mennonite Missionary Kid to AIDS Activist: Dan Shenk's Story

    Dan Shenk (he/him) grew up the son of Mennonite missionaries in Tanzania, East Africa, spent his teenage years boarding at a mission school, and later found himself ordained as a chaplain working inside Rikers Island and the Virginia State Penitentiary. But it's what happened next that defines his legacy: as a gay man coming into his own identity in 1980s New York City, Dan became one of the co-founders of what is now known as Bailey House, one of the first organizations to offer supportive housing to people living with HIV/AIDS. He also helped establish the Bronx Harlem Needle Exchange Program, now New York Harm Reduction Educators Inc. In this episode, Dan takes us through it all: a childhood split between Tanzania and the USA, the loss of his mother in a plane crash, discovering his sexuality while isolated in a school infirmary, and the years he spent on the ground during the earliest and most devastating days of the AIDS crisis, organizing candlelight vigils, raising money through fish bowls on Christopher Street, and building community in the middle of unimaginable loss. Dan is the author of the memoir Search for a Blessing: A Gay Man's Journey from a Mennonite Missionary Childhood to the Streets of AIDS Activism. If his story resonates with you, we highly recommend picking up a copy. Content warning: this episode includes discussion of sexual assault. Note: We're on a every-other-week summer schedule and will return to weekly episodes in September. YouTube subscribers get episodes first on Mondays, with wide release on all other platforms Wednesdays. If this episode moved you, we'd love it if you left a rating or review, it genuinely helps other people in the deconstruction and ex-evangelical community find us. #religioustrauma #exvangelical #deconstruction #churchtrauma #proudlyonrecord #AIDSactivism #mennonite #queerhistory #chaplain

    1h 8m

  2. Jun 24

    What is Trans Androgynous? Understanding the Identities Beyond Non-Binary with Spencer

    Proudly On Record sits down with Spencer, who is a non-binary lesbian, YouTuber, and community builder who grew up in a conservative Eastern European country where queerness wasn't visible or discussed. In this episode, they take us through the slow, nonlinear process of understanding their gender identity after immigrating to Canada as a teenager, encountering queer community for the first time, and eventually discovering trans androgyny as the framework that finally made sense. This conversation covers a lot of ground: Spencer's theory that sexuality and gender are more deeply linked than we tend to acknowledge, what it means to be a non-binary lesbian, and why androgyny can exist in femme presentations even when nobody tells us it can. Spencer also shares what it was like to build masculinity-free community spaces and why decentering how others perceive us might be the most important work we can do for our own gender identity. Topics covered: Growing up without queer representation Trans androgyny vs. non-binary identity The link between sexuality and gender Being a non-binary lesbian Androgyny in femme presentations Gender affirming clothing and binding Microdosing testosterone Decentering masculinity and body perception

    1h 13m

  3. Jun 11

    How the Church Gaslit You Into Not Trusting Yourself (And How to Get It Back) | Hangout Hour

    Religious trauma is real abuse and it's time we stop letting it get minimized. In this episode, Elise and Kari sit down for a candid conversation about the deep and lasting impact of religious trauma, why it maps almost perfectly onto CPTSD, and how the church runs the same narcissistic abuse cycle that keeps survivors stuck, confused, and doubting themselves for years. They get into: Why religious trauma is still minimizedReligious Trauma Syndrome and how its symptoms overlap with Complex PTSDThe four stages of the narcissistic abuse cycle and how churches use every single one of themConfession culture used as surveillance and controlHow purity culture and shame disconnects you from your bodyThe weaponization of forgiveness against survivorsHow religious gaslighting gets installed before you're old enough to question itWhy anger is the key to leaving abusive situations (and why the church suppressed it on purpose)What actually helps: IFS therapy, somatic work, body-based healing, and learning to trust yourself again

    51 min

  4. May 28

    Faith, Sexuality & Sobriety: A Former Missionary's Story | Angela

    In this episode of Proudly On Record, we sit down with Angela (she,they), a 36-year-old from Houston, Texas, who shares their remarkable journey from charismatic Christian missionary to openly queer woman in recovery. Angela talks about growing up in a non-denominational church where "God loves you no matter what" was the message, even as subtle signals told her being gay was something to hide. She takes us through her 18+ months living overseas as a missionary intern and the isolation and loneliness she dealt with while there. We discuss: What missionary training is like Being outed by a 12-year best friendLosing her church community after coming outFinding sobriety through AA and rediscovering a "universalist" faithReturning to church for the first time in 11 years at an affirming Episcopal congregation Content Note: Around the 40-minute mark, we discuss culturally insensitive missionary training methods. We do not condone these practices but believe it's important to expose what happens in these institutions. Schedule Update: We're switching to bi-weekly episodes for the summer! No new episode June 3rd and we'll be back the following week.

    54 min

  5. May 20

    Queer Mennonite Preacher Reclaims Christianity from Evangelical Toxicity | Stephen Lowe

    Pastor, educator, and queer theologian Stephen Lowe (he/they) joins us for a conversation about reclaiming Christianity from evangelical toxicity and finding liberation as a queer Anabaptist Christian. Stephen grew up in a tight-knit Mennonite community in Virginia's Shenandoah Valley, where his family had been rooted since the 1600s. As a queer, gender non-conforming pastor now serving in Appalachia, they share how falling in love with Jesus' actual teachings (and yes, his six-pack abs on the crucifix) led them deeper into faith rather than away from it, and into the work of building communities that honor the divinity in every person. We dig into the 500-year history of Anabaptism and how Mennonite theology radically differs from the evangelical Christianity that dominates American culture. Stephen makes a compelling case for how evangelicalism "mistakes the reward for the goal" by fixating on individual salvation and afterlife rewards while missing the entire point of Jesus' message: community, justice, and reconciliation here and now. In this episode, we cover: Growing up Mennonite in a 500-year-old Anabaptist traditionThe difference between evangelical Christianity and actual Christ followersWhy individual salvation theology misses the entire point of Jesus' messageReconciling queerness with faith and moving beyond apologeticsWhy judgment can sound like justice for those who are marginalizedThe Trinity as an orgy (yes, really) and queer theology as liberationCommunal discernment vs. evangelical individualismReclaiming "sin" as structural injustice rather than personal failingBeing too queer for church and too churchy for queer spacesWhy the Bible was never meant to "say one thing" Whether you're deconstructing, healing from religious trauma, exploring queer theology, or just trying to understand that not all Christians are evangelicals, this episode is a vital and surprisingly healing listen.

    1h 1m

  6. May 14

    James Dobson, Purity Culture & Church Abuse: How Evangelical Parenting Groomed a Generation

    Writer and podcaster DL Mayfield (they/them) joins us to unpack the deep harms of religious authoritarian parenting and the legacy of evangelical culture in America. DL grew up as a homeschooled pastor's kid, deeply immersed in end-times theology and evangelical purity culture. As a late-diagnosed autistic, non-binary parent, they share how reading, parenthood, and listening to their own kids ultimately led them out of the faith and into the work of helping others heal from religious authoritarian upbringings through their project, Strong Willed. We dig into the legacy of James Dobson and how his bestselling parenting books shaped generations of American families through ritualized corporal punishment disguised as godly love. DL makes a chilling case for how breaking a child's "strong will" doesn't just damage them in the moment, it severs their connection to their own inner knowing, setting them up for a lifetime of exploitation by abusers, employers, toxic relationships, and authoritarian systems. In this episode, we cover: Growing up evangelical, homeschooled, and convinced the world was endingHow James Dobson's parenting books shaped generations of American familiesWhy religious authoritarian parenting is a form of ritualized abuseThe connection between corporal punishment, fascism, and authoritarianismHow purity culture created safe havens for predators in the churchThe disturbing overlap between evangelical parenting methods and child sexual abuseHow disconnecting kids from their "strong will" makes them vulnerable for lifeReparenting yourself, honoring your inner child, and finding joy after religious traumaComing out as non-binary at 38 and going no-contact with familyWhy protecting children is the foundation of resisting fascism Whether you're deconstructing, healing from religious trauma, parenting differently than you were parented, or just trying to understand how American evangelicalism got us here, this episode is a vital listen. Find DL Mayfield: strongwilledproject.com Strongwilled Podcast @dlmayfield on Instagram & Threads

    1h 8m

  7. May 7

    LGBTQ+ Life in Nigeria: Surviving, Thriving, and Finding Community

    Vivian (she/her) is a Nigerian writer, singer, web designer, and queer activist working as a paralegal and first responder for STAG Initiative, a trans-focused NGO. Raised Catholic in an orphanage, she found her way to queer community through literature, social media, and underground gatherings, all while navigating a country where being LGBTQ+ is criminalized. In this episode, Vivian pulls back the curtain on what queer life in Nigeria actually looks like: the secret pride parties, the catfishing dangers, the NGOs fighting to protect their community, and the surprising ways wealth and class shape who faces consequences under the law. She also talks about the funding crisis hitting Nigerian queer organizations, the unique challenges facing trans people, and why she still calls Nigeria home.

    54 min

  8. Apr 30

    Reclaiming Your Inner Authority After Religious Trauma with Dr. Tanya Johnson

    In this episode, we sit down with Dr. Tanya Johnson (she/her), licensed mental health counselor, clinical supervisor, and counseling professor, for a deep dive into the psychology of religious trauma and high-control groups. Dr. Johnson breaks down exactly how high-control religions use behavioral, emotional, thought, and information control to keep members compliant and disconnected from their own instincts. In this episode we cover: Why religious trauma is so hard to recognize and why we minimize itThe BITE model and how cults control every aspect of your inner worldHow high-control groups train you to interpret your emotions through their lensWhy anger is repressed in religious spaces and what that costs youThe connection between the fawn response and religious conditioningWhy neurodivergent people can have a unique relationship with high-control groupsHow to talk to loved ones who are still inside a high-control religionWhy leaving religion can feel like losing your identity and map for realityReclaiming your inner authority and learning to trust yourself againThe martyrdom complex and how it follows you out of the churchWhy doing it scared is the only way through conditioned guilt and fear Dr. Johnson also shares resources for finding religious trauma informed therapists and her own courses for both clients and therapists in training.

    1h 12m
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Proudly On Record is a storytelling podcast documenting LGBTQ+ stories told in our own words and on our own terms. Hosted by Elise and Kari, we sit with LGBTQ+ folks (and the occasional ally who earned their spot) across generations to talk about identity, healing, joy, survival, faith, love, and the lives we’re building now. Our conversations explore the long-term effects of religious trauma, journeys of deconstruction, and finding yourself again. We also center celebrations of chosen family, finding acceptance, and the growth that comes from living life as your true authentic self. Proudly On Record is rooted in memory and resistance. It exists to place queer voices on record, where we cannot be dismissed or rewritten. We are here for those who believe our stories are the most powerful tool we have. May we never be erased. New episodes every Wednesday. Music Credit: VAAMP

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  • Creator
    Proudly On Record
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    37
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    Explicit
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    © 2025 Proudly On Record
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