Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing & Everything At The Same Time

Christina Watka & Becky DeCicco

Noticing is a series of intimate conversations between long time friends Becky DeCicco and Christina Watka. Born out of consecutive months of deep conversation through voice memos during their paralleled years of awakening, Noticing explores the myriad of ways we can all acknowledge the mystery and live more fully in presence. DeCicco draws from her experience as a mindfulness teacher and lifelong lover of everything cosmic, spiritual, and religious while Watka comes from a background steeped heavily in the arts and a mind-body-spirit connection that naturally orients towards light. Through these conversations, they aspire to remind every person that our differences are what help us find a home in self, and only once we embody this authenticity can we seed the world we want to inhabit. noticingpod.substack.com

  1. Continual Edge and the Hollow Bone

    May 15

    Continual Edge and the Hollow Bone

    To mark the 20th episode, we came together without a guest. When we began this podcast 10 months ago, it was in response to a nudge we both had to just begin. Each episode has deepened us. We’ve planted seeds together and apart. We have leapt. For the first half of the episode, Becky shares how she and her family are moving to Maine where she suspects her creative energy will root and anchor her to the queasiness of uncertainty. We discuss what it feels like to be unmoored, how Pema Chodron teaches that change is constant, and the queasiness of uncertainty never goes away; only our relationship to it does. Both of us find ourselves unanchored right now, living life on an edge and learning to be there and stay in flow. Spoiler alert, it is destabilizing, difficult, and wonderful. In the second half of the episode, Christina shares candidly that her life is transforming in front of her, how through a series of events over the last six months, she has remembered that she is a healer. Lifelong mysticism and recent art installations in places of healing led her to this place. She notices light and makes art, and now when she touches people, she notices light move through them. This realization is asking her to see the world and her place in it differently. Christina shares how in many ways this shocks her while also feeling like the truest thing she has ever felt. As Terry Tempest Williams says, “what is mysticism but paying attention?” Go deeper into this episode * Watch Pema Chödrön discuss the queasy feeling and using uncertainty as the practice: * Read Christina’s latest substack (and subscribe if you aren’t already!) * Read Liturgies of the Wild by Martin Shaw, which contains the quote about geography as fate * Listen to The Nature Of podcast episode with Terry Tempest Williams: https://atmos.earth/podcast/uncovering-the-holy-ordinary-with-terry-tempest-williams/ * And PLEASE go look at the image of the 3D Universe!!! Every dot of light is an entire galaxy….and this is only an image of a very small segment of the observable Universe!!! https://noirlab.edu/public/images/noirlab2610a/zoomable/ Episode Transcript Christina: I am on my way to go see my grandmother. Um, she’s waiting for me. So I’m going, and, um, I just read this message, and I love this. It’s very much how I see the world. Like, I-- It, it, it reminds me too of like I believe that I am God and you are God. And so the eye through which I see God is the same eye through which God sees me. It’s all saying the same beautiful thing where there is no separation and, um... Yeah. It’s like I-- It’s so, it’s so real. I don’t even have anything else to say because it’s just so correct. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. To mark our 20th episode, Christina and I decided that it would be a good time to come back together again without a guest. So in this conversation, we talk about my upcoming move to Maine and what it’s like to live on a continual edge. In the second part of the conversation, Christina talks about some truly transformative things that have been happening in her life. Events that have felt both miraculous and obvious at the same time. To allow for a little more space for my upcoming move, we’re going to be taking a little bit of a break and coming back for the next episode on June 12. And in the meantime, I hope you enjoy We’re back. We’re back together. Christina: I know. It’s just the two of us now. It- we- we’re at episode 20, right? Becky: Episode 20. Christina: It was nice. You know, for a while it was ... Like, we established this together and it felt really good. Mm-hmm. And then it started to feel like maybe we could include some others. And then when we included others, that felt really good, and it still feels really good, but it’s kinda nice we both had the same inkling to just drop in a, a duo. You know? Becky: A du- kinda catch up with life, catch up with ... Um, things have changed a lot. So it’s been 10 months. So 20 episodes, 10 months. Mm. And yeah. Wow. Christina: ... You know, even between episodes I feel like we’ve been making these massive leaps in ourselves and just ... Yeah. I mean, you’re, you’re about to move here. Becky: Yeah, it’s been, like, the most obvious and easy and effortless journey, and also moments of what is happening. It, it’s like, it’s definitely all the feelings. I’ve been reflecting a lot on this lately because I’ve been feeling so ... Untethered is the word that I’ve been using, where I just feel strange, you know? Because there aren’t the rhythms and routines that I had before because we’re in the process of moving. So I’ve just been sitting with this untethered feeling, and I stumbled upon this, interview with Pema Chödrön, and she was talking about getting used to the queasiness. I like this word that she used, the queasiness of uncertainty, and how uncertainty is actually the practice. So yeah, I’ve been really sitting with that, of, of it’s an uncertain time in my life, but it’s also such an uncertain time now. But as she was reminding, reminding me, I re-listened to it last night, uh, that life is always uncertain, that it feels particularly, untethered and uncertain right now, but it’s... That’s not... This is, this is actually the truth of life, is there are no certainties in life. We can, fall into a sense of, control and a sense of something to grasp onto. Hmm. And we certainly try as humans. So I’ve been really feeling like this untethered feeling, this queasiness, is actually what it feels like to be fully alive. Christina: Mm-hmm. It’s really interesting that you bring that up first because, nobody knows this because we don’t usually share it on here, but we always start with a grounding meditation together. And in this grounding meditation this morning, I had this sense that I was a blade of grass in a field of grasses blowing around, and I was thinking like, “Ah. I actually- ... don’t really want to.” Like, I don’t wanna blow. I just... And then I was thinking, like, it’s frustrating to be a human being as a blade of grass because you think there’s so many other things that you need to be doing, and you’re actually not n- not used to, you know, being at the whims of the weather, and that’s what it feels like right now. That’s what I hear you describing. Hmm. That’s what... I talked to a parent yesterday as we were waiting for our kids to be done with tennis lessons. We talked about that. We talked about how it is so uncomfortable to- Mm-hmm ... be unmoored, untethered, unanchored. And yet those are the times in life typically when so much growth happens. Mm-hmm. And, sometimes life will just push you into that feeling, that situation that causes that feeling. Sometimes you will willingly leap, and that is also hard. Um, I’m here too. A lot of people are here right now. And it’s, you know, it’s, it’s everywhere. I mean, you g- you guys, when you were thinking about moving, there was a lot of thinking about it for a lot of time leading up to it, and a lot of, like, testing the waters, coming up here to live for a month, and doing all of this life research or, or that’s maybe how I would describe it, and then you just leapt, right? Mm-hmm. Becky: Yeah. Christina: And I think there’s always that moment of you can’t research your way to perfect clarity. And at some point you just have to decide to do the thing. And when you do the thing, you’re still leaping. Like I’ve been, saying no to a lot of things that I had said yes to for years, two years probably at this point. And, life s- is s- seems to be giving me an, a, a, an out because this series that I’ve worked on since the beginning of my art career that, like, put me on the map, and got me a cushy life as an artist making an income that served me well, which is more than many artists can say, and I’m aware of that. This series I think has found its inevitable ending- Because the glue that I use to install it with, which is the only thing I’ve ever found that works fully, is completely discontinued. It’s like- Oh ... not being made anymore. And so I’ve had... I’ve found all of these side roads. In COVID, it stopped being made in the form that I needed, so I would just buy these huge caulking guns full of it and, and I found these empty tubes that, like, lotion manufacturers probably buy. And I would squee- I would use a caulking gun and, like, squeeze my own tubes and tape them up and label them and, um, I can’t even do that anymore. And- Becky: Mm ... Christina: the woman who helps me, a friend of mine helps me make these individual pieces now, and, she’s moving. So she’s not close to me anymore, and it’s just like, well, shit. Okay, I can’t do this. I have to actually release this safety net. It’s not comfortable. No. It’s been the safety net that has provided me with financial security, ‘cause I can always kind of say like, “Yeah, I can do that. That can, like, fund the new ideas.” I, I feel like I’m someone who has a lot of faith in life- Mm-hmm ... and it’s still uncomfortable. Becky: Yeah, I mean, even Pema Chödrön was talking about, uh, the interviewer was asking her, “Does that feeling ever go away, that queasy feeling?” Mm. And she was like, “ no. ... the things that would give you the queasy feeling in the past tend to not evoke that same queasiness,” to use her language, “but you’re always at an edge, you know?” Yeah. Hopefully, I think life wants us to always be on an edge, always growing, a growth edge. Mm. So when you hit those edges,... that feeling’s never gonna go away, and I... and what she said was, and what I’ve been playing with for years, but just in a different language, is now it’s like when she gets the queasy feeling, it’s, it’s excitement because she knows- Yea

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  2. Bless the Foolish Ideas

    May 1

    Bless the Foolish Ideas

    In this week’s episode, we speak to Jenny O’Connell, a woman who has always lived in the world with her entire body. She is a writer, naturalist, outdoor guide, ultimate frisbee player, and fierce lover of the world who reminds us to leap. What feels remarkable about this conversation is how many times Jenny had faith in her life and acted accordingly. By radiating from her bright center, Jenny beckons us to reflect on the story of our own lives. What would it feel like to write our life story as we live it? She is an apt guide; her adventure memoir WILDHEART comes out on June 1, 2027 with DK Books at Penguin Random House. Jenny identifies many moments where her life caught her, pulling her like a hook behind her belly button in a new and surprising direction, notably the time when a short conversation with a neighbor’s elderly mother changed the course of her life. Her intuition was strong enough, she says, that thankfully she was always willing to pivot where life asked her to go. Jenny sees this moment as one where she can reignite our collective heart sparks and invite us into our own wildness, which as we discuss in this episode, can take many forms. Jenny shows how stories catalyze something deep within us, and we believe her story of wildness and homecoming will arrive into your hearts as both a catalyst and an invitation. How do we, as women, fill the room with our own power? How do we protect our sovereignty? Dare to let Jenny’s aliveness catalyze something in you. Dare to ask what form wildness takes. This invitation can be as quiet or loud as you need it to be, because after all, as Jenny kindly reminds us, “we are a creature that forgets we’re alive all the time.” For more of Jenny, check out her: Website Instagram Jenny is also on Substack! Subscribe below: A few other inspirations from this week’s episode: “Writing a woman’s life” by Katherine Heilbrun “Women who run with the wolves” by Clarissa Pinkola Estés The John O’Donohue episode of On Being Christina references Episode Transcript Christina: You know what’s cool about just staying with a feeling is, well, like sometimes, first of all, sometimes you have to like figure out where that feeling lives. And then once you get it to just be like, oh yeah, hey, I see you. I see you fear. Hello. I am afraid of this thing. And then, like, I feel so much lighter now that I’ve addressed it. Um, not to say that it’s done, but it was really great to identify like, oh, I think actually this thing is holding me back. And then to, to figure out why and releasing that, you know, like I know that everything changes. Everything changes. So when I think about like, what if I could go reach out into the world to do what I’m meant to do in large or small ways and then to come back and be fully present in this place, um, rather than trying to like squeeze the large and small ways into this place? It’s an interesting thought. Um, and yeah, Jessie Buckley came to mind because I remember seeing like a quick clip of her speaking with the chick who played Alphaba in Wicked in the movie. And that actress was saying like, “I always watch your roles, Jessie, and I feel like worried about you. Are you okay? ‘Cause you throw so much of yourself in them.” And Jessie Buckley’s answer was like, “Yeah, my life is so simple. So I’m able to go and throw my whole self into these roles because I come back to like this really nourishing, simple, grounded place, um, where I build everything back up again. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. In this week’s episode, we speak to Jenny O’Connell, a woman who has always lived in the world with her entire body. She’s a writer, a naturalist, outdoor guide, ultimate Frisbee player, and a fierce lover of the world who reminds us all to leap. What felt remarkable about this conversation is how many times Jenny had faith in her life and acted accordingly. I know it inspired me and I hope it inspires you. I hope you enjoy. Christina: I have the pleasure of introducing a dear friend today. Jenny O’Connell is someone who wrote straight into my Soul and I saw her writing in, in many ways, and I think we started following each other’s newsletters or something, or Instagrams or something. It doesn’t really matter. It was just a very pointed feeling and every time I read something she wrote, I felt this is someone who was cut from the same cloth that I am. And I actually, that’s a very big deal for me to say that because I’ve never met someone that I’ve found. So closely seemed to metabolize the world like I did, and share it with a abandon. Like I feel I must someone who can tap, joy and aliveness in the way that I feel I am able to do, in a world where like I don’t, I don’t see a lot of people doing that. And then one day, I don’t remember who asked who it, it might have been me, we just decided like, can we just go sit on a beach? And it was the end of springtime, so the water was still cold. And I had seen her as someone who sometimes gets in the Cold Sea and and I said, maybe we could just go to the beach and. Just see what happens. And so we did, and it was, I will use your words back at you, Jenny, when you say like, you know, when your life just catches you sometimes being on the beach with Jenny felt like my life was catching me because we immediately went to like a deep thread that we both shared. And meeting a stranger when you can get so immediately real with them is, um pretty uncommon. And since then, uh, we have just, our friendship has deepened and it’s always been supported and incredibly authentic and refreshing to me in this life. And I am thrilled to talk to Jenny today. Becky knows you now as well. And yeah, there’s so much more I could say, but, but just meeting someone who feels like a true kindred spirit in a way, unlike anyone I’d ever met, is what I would call you. Jenny O’Connell. Jenny: Oh, so good to be here. Christina, can you just introduce me for everything I do for now? That was the most heartfelt introduction. Christina: Yeah. Jenny: There’ve been like 40 cold dips since, and I’m so glad about it. Christina: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yep. Um, and actually I was thinking, uh, ‘cause you know, I, I’ve mentioned it here before and probably to you in real life, but, um, I read Mary Oliver. I have her Devotions book, which has a selection of lots of different, pieces, pieces of poetry from different books she’s published throughout her lifetime. And I read it to my daughters before bed. And I have one that I’d love to read because it, it, it was, it reminded me of you. And then we can just go. So here it’s, it’s called The other Kingdoms. Consider the other kingdoms, the trees, for example, with their mellow sounding titles. Oak, Aspen, Willow, or the Snow for which the peoples of the North have dozens of words to describe its different arrivals or the creatures with their thick fur, their shy and wordless gaze, their infallible sense of what their lives are meant to be. Thus, the world grows rich grows wild, and you two grow rich, grow sweetly wild as you two were born to be. Jenny: Hmm. Christina, I can’t believe you picked that one because, that quote, the end of that poem, just those last two lines, are listed as an epigraph in the draft of my book right now that I have, uh, grow sweetly wild. Christina: Mm. I mean, that feels like. I mean, nobody even knows that you have a book. Do you wanna start talking about, I mean, I didn’t tell, I didn’t list, we purposefully don’t list people’s accolades or things. It’s um, yeah. So you’re a writer. Jenny: Um, yeah. Yeah. Well I love that. I love that you just start with the connection and it grows from there. But since you’re my friend, you also know that this is basically all I can talk about right now because I am in the process of finishing it. I have been writing a book for 10 years it’s a adventure memoir, it’s called Wild Heart. And it follows a journey that I took back in 2014, when I met. It was based in a meeting I had with a woman who was a legend in Finnish Lapland. I was, I’m a big zig zacker. I started as a musician. I, studied music in college and then I fell in love with the natural world and just, I’ve always been in love with it. But, when I came out of college, I just kept getting these nudges like, you need to go outside. You need to be outside. You need to be moving your body outside. You need to be connecting to place. And so I did a 180 from my music education career and ended up becoming an outdoor guide. And I moved to San Francisco to this national recreation area just outside the city where I taught, as a naturalist, and started to get into outdoor guiding around California as well. And it was such a strong pull. And when I met, uh, the woman’s name was Petronella, I was 26 years old, and I had been, following this poll from wild places from nature to connect. And I had been really reorienting my sense of the world around that. And I was just starting to wake up to some of the ways that I had been, for lack of a better word, tamed by my society. Ways that I had, been taught to live or to think about what I could expect from my life. And I was craving something wilder and I didn’t know how to do it. I, you know, was looking for examples. And my friend down the hill from where I lived in this coastal village in California, was taking care of her 89-year-old mother who had dementia. And so I just brought over quiche and a bottle of wine one night. And the first thing that her mother said to me, she looked at me and she said, I walked to Lapland and I was 26 and foolish enough to jump, you know? Becky: Yes. Jenny: Um, which like, may I still be, please? Im 39. Um, but I just had this moment. It was something else passed between us, like something more than just conversation. There was li

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  3. How Stories Connect Us

    Apr 17

    How Stories Connect Us

    This week, we speak with Christina’s friend and old boss, Sam Wedelich who navigates the world as a children’s book illustrator, storyteller, and self-proclaimed deep feeler. Sam takes us on a journey through her creative life full of unfinished drawings, toys, and stupid mental health walks. She holds the weight of the world and delivers it in both serious and light-hearted ways, connecting with children through shared experiences and comedy. As a writer, Sam reminds us that we tap universality through specifics, and she uses details from her own story to reach her readers and everyone she touches. She welcomes us to live in a world of curiosity. “It’s easy to keep hope when you are around children a lot,” Sam says. She has published several books and is working on more (details of which she candidly shares with us in this conversation), laughing as she describes how she gets into kid mode to begin writing or drawing. This conversation is both buoyant and real, just like Sam. We left feeling connected to ourselves, each other, and humanity through Sam’s willingness to shed light on what unifies us because, as she lovingly says, “we are all the ages we ever were.” We highly recommend checking out Sam’s website where you will find her illustrations and books, as well as some amazing free (and extremely fun) resources. Sam has also curated a list of a few titles she read recently and loved or which would be a great place to start for the uninitiated. Young Graphic Novels: * First Cat in Space (4 books in series) by Mac Barnett and Shawn Harris (This one is great for DogMan fans) * Reggie Kid Penguin by Jen De Oliveira * Gnome and Rat by Lauren Stohler * Cabin Head and Tree Head by Scott Campbell Middle Grade Graphic Novels: * Fresh Start by Gale Galligan * Speechless by Aron Nels Steinke * Wildfire by Breena Bard * Uprooted by Ruth Chan * Huda F Are You? Huda Fahmy * Family Style by Thien Pham Episode Transcript Christina: I am receiving my own life and it’s making me fall into a puddle of tears almost every other hour. It’s a privilege to be so awake and I’m going to make myself some Indian food in the microwave. Ow. I love you. Don’t worry I have been MIA mostly just because I’m letting all of it wash over me. Whew. It’s really, really wonderful. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: The Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. This week we’re talking with Children’s book Illustrator, storyteller and self-proclaimed deep feeler, Sam Wedelich. In this conversation, Sam takes us on a journey through her creative life, full of unfinished drawings, toys, and stupid mental health walks. Sam welcomes us into a world of curiosity and reminds us that it’s easy to keep hope when you’re around children. So I hope you enjoy. Christina: Okay. Okay. Today we have Sam Wedelich on. She and I worked together in New York City. Um, so Sam was technically my boss. She and I worked for free people in New York City and we both built displays. And my memory of Sam was me being on like a 20 foot ladder in the middle of Rockefeller Centers free people store. And her being like to the right looks great um, but I always felt like I always got very excited when Sam and I were the ones that would have to go to New Jersey in a van. And we’d rent a van and go out to these little stores and, help them put their displays up. And I always got excited because I felt like the van was this very protective place where all of the professionalism that I saw Sam have to like box herself in and be like, Christina’s boss. So she couldn’t let things over the line of boss um, it would fall away and we would have these really amazing and deeper conversations. And then there would have to be like the professionalism, Sam, when we were in among her bosses. But I got this glimpse of this incredibly deep and soulful person who, when we were in the van, I would find out lots of amazing things. Like how she loves to sing soul music like I do. Mm-hmm. I think your birthday is coming up too, right? We both have birthdays right around now. And, um, just this fiery, deep, soulful, thoughtful, reverent human being that I loved getting to know. So then I, um, moved out of the city, started working on building my own installations, she moved outta the city and we’ve, we’ve kept in touch. Sam is a children’s book illustrator, an amazing illustrator who always was drawing at work all the time anyway, um, but, but now is like really thriving in this, and I’m sure we’ll talk about that today. And I moved up to Maine. Um, she’s still outside of New York City now, but, it’s been really special to watch you, Sam, deepen yourself into the things that I saw inklings of, and like whispers of things maybe you would wanna spend more time doing. And I’m doing the same thing up here. And every once in a while we’ll have a quick catch up. And it always feels really great and like an expanded version of the van. That’s my, that’s my little intro to Sam. I’m really happy you’re here. Sam: Oh, thank you. Thank you for having me. That’s really funny. I remember those two. I think I know what you’re talking about. I don’t know that I thought about that holding that line, but I did care about making sure that everything felt like, I don’t know, proper and correct, I guess. Becky: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Becky: I mean, when you were speaking, I was like, I know that feeling of like, you get into these corporate spaces and it’s, it’s not even a spoken thing, it’s so interesting when we get in spaces how. I don’t know. And I don’t, I’m not assuming that’s your experience, but that’s what it rang true for me. Sam: That’s fair. I think there’s a certain amount of code switching that happens maybe organically in that. Um, also to, to put it into more context, it was a team, right? Like I managed a team of artists. So I think I was also just being really careful to never appear to have favorites. Like, like a mom is trying to be like, I love all of you equally. Christina: Yeah. I think you did a good job of that. And, and then I loved getting, um, I loved getting the, the deeper Sam when you felt like there was space for that. Sam: Oh gosh, yeah. Yeah. I mean, I don’t know. I’m a pretty open person. It’s also about my sense of safety too, like , in places like this or in places where I feel safe or invited or comfortable, I’m pretty open book. But I’m the opposite of that. If I don’t feel that way Mm. Like I’m a total wallflower. Um, and I would, I’m much more comfortable just watching and taking things in. So I it’s kind of an on off switch a little bit. Becky: Yeah. Mm-hmm. Sam: Yeah. Becky: I know that feeling for sure of like, yeah, feeling out where do I feel safe to be fully myself and, and when do I not, I think it’s an intelligent strategy. Christina: Sure. Yeah. I was always trying to find the places, because I’ve always felt very safe to be myself, and then all of a sudden I was put into a more corporate setting and I was like, what? People can’t just, what, they can’t just be fully themselves. I don’t know what to do. Mm-hmm. And it really confounded me. So I found safety and. Those van moments. Yeah. Sam: Makes me happy. Christina: Mm-hmm. Becky: So, Sam, this is the first time I’m meeting you, but I, you know, we, we don’t do, we intentionally don’t do research on this podcast ‘cause we wanna just show up and see what’s alive. But I could not help looking at your artwork and then I was drawn in, so I am so curious. I mean, I have so many questions, but first of all, I, I’m curious how that transition happened of like, moving from like how does one start writing children’s books and getting in that world? Sam: So there are so many versions of how people do that. Like most things, like a lot of it is timing, and a little bit of luck. But I think all of that always. Is dependent upon having done the work, right? Like having readied yourself and, and shown up for yourself,, and to whatever is inside of you. So I was always drawing, um, and writing things since I was a small person. And I was one of those kids, which it’s funny ‘cause I’m now dealing with this with my own child. I was a, a margin doodler, right? Like to, to much to the frustration of my teachers. And I would get thumped on the back of the head in church constantly for drawing. But it’s how I listen and it’s how I process information and I’m always kind of moving my hand, and translating things that way. I just, without going too far into it, I never thought of it as a job, for a lot of reasons. And, but I, I made a hard turn in college to go to art school, and. Then when my husband, I got married young. I’m from Texas originally, so it didn’t seem young to us at the time, but then to the rest of the world, getting married at 23 is young. And Russ, uh, got into a grad school program, in Miami and we were, had only ever lived in Houston area. And so I needed a job and I did for the first time, I couldn’t just use my network to get random art gigs, which is what I had been doing with my art degree at that point. And so I went, I got a job doing window display for anthropology. Mm-hmm. And that sort of started my corporate journey. And it was fine, you know, like it paid the bills. It got us through grad school, and then he got a job in New Jersey, so we moved to the Northeast and I just kept doing it. Took a year off and tried to make a go of it with my own illustration, and was doing pretty well. And then, you know, kind of got offered the golden handcuffs to come back mm-hmm. To one of the sister brands, to free people. And I, I mean, the health insurance and the stability at that time in life was hard to say no to. So I didn’t, but I kept drawing on the side. I couldn’t do as many craft fairs or, or shows like I had been doing. But I don’t know, I thin

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  4. Scaffolding For Community

    Apr 3

    Scaffolding For Community

    As a part of our “the world is on fire what can I do?” series, we bring in Lea Urguby, Becky’s friend of decades and someone who has, in large and small ways, changed Becky’s life. Lea brings a humility and a sociologist’s brain to this conversation and speaks about her lifelong activism with groundedness and a deep desire to be a harbinger of actionable change. She speaks with compassionate urgency about how we must build the scaffolding for community, highlighting that “we are only as strong as our interpersonal relationships.” She reminds us that community takes practice, even offering tangible steps we can take everyday like waving at a neighbor. As someone who grew up with a mother who is very much awake to the world, Lea’s formative experiences included laying her 8 year old body down in communion with her favorite frog habitat upon learning it may be in jeopardy. Lea gracefully delivers a refreshing, long view of a world on fire. She reminds us that there are so many ways to show up as a community member— from noticing the pattern of breath in the person standing in line behind you to donating funds to a far away issue that you believe in —it all matters. Nothing is too small. Our longest episode yet, we cover a lot of ground. From the ways art reconnects us by buoying us to joy to how hyper local organizing work is the most sustainable, this conversation is rooted in action and an understanding that we are not separate from one another. Finding our connection, Lea notes, is the greatest catalyst for change. Here are this week’s invitations to explore this conversation further: * Check out Lea’s consulting website * Listen to Dean Spade’s podcast Love in a F*cked Up World, especially the episode with Andrea Ritchie * Listen to the NPR podcast Throughline - pretty much any episode is likely to shift your perspective on how we got to this moment * Explore the work of Prentis Hemphill * And if you haven’t read Parable of the Sower, consider yourself officially invited. Really just read all of Octavia E. Butler. Episode Transcript Christina: So I was thinking about our conversation with Lea and um, one of my favorite notes that I keep on my phone is people I meet with dogs and I put their name and their dog’s name so that when I’m in the woods and I see the dog, I’m like, oh, shoot. And I open up my notes app and I look for the person. I’m like, oh, great. That’s Lisa with Buck or whoever. And it, um, it just reminds me of like, you know, her note of making a note of the person’s name, who serves you, your coffee at your local store. Um, yeah, it’s great. It’s a, it’s one extra step, but it works really well. Also, Lisa’s a jeweler. She’s a real person. I’m not just using a fake example. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. This week we’re joined by my dear friend Lea, who was the first person who I thought of when we started this conversation around “the world is on fire what can I do?” Lea is someone who grew up with an activist mother, and we talk about her roots. Literally laying her 8-year-old body down in front of an excavator to save her favorite frog habitat. This episode is jam packed full of wisdom as we explore together what it means to set up scaffolding around community and how to show up as a community member. We explored so many ways. It all matters and nothing is too small. I hope you enjoy. So today we are joined by my dear friend Lea, who, so on this podcast, if you haven’t been listening, when we have guests, we like to introduce each other not from like, here’s your cv, here’s the bio, but like, here is how my heart sees you. So how are you perceived by someone who loves you? Lea was actually the first person that popped into my mind when we started having these conversations around this moment and how we can each stretch ourselves a little bit, to show up in an authentic way, but in a more engaged way for this moment because Lea has been doing this work of movement and like we the conversations we’ve been having before from my perspective, have been kind of feeling into how to do something new. And not that this moment isn’t new, isn’t new for you Lea. ‘cause it’s new for everyone. But you’ve been doing this work for so long that I was very interested to talk, um, talk to you. So Lea is, I’m remember distinctly when I met Lea, I had moved to San Diego. I was about 25 and I was, canvassing for Environment California. So I was one of those, well-meaning big hearted, but annoying people who stands outside of the grocery store and is trying to basically guilt you into giving money. Um, and I remember, uh, almost the exact words that Lea said, which if you, my memory is not a lot of things stick like this, but this stuck. She was basically like, you know, that they’re just, that organization’s just raising money so they can keep raising money. And it just stopped me in my track. And there was, I’ve reflected about this, about like, what was that that stopped me in my tracks and it was just the facts. But in this loving like. There I didn’t feel an ounce of judgment for what I was doing. I felt like this loving invitation to think about the world differently. Um, and that is like the core, when I think of Lea, that’s what I think of. And so I probably quit this the next day and was like, I’m out. And basically, became like a little puppy following Lea around. ‘cause at the same time she was, opening her, uh, to call. So it was called the Rubber Rose. And to call it a, erotic or sex shop is like selling it short. It was an art gallery. It was a, um, you know, sex positive, queer positive place to learn and grow and be in community. And I was just, that was the first of many times my perspective. My worldview was exploded open, by Lea and, um. Yeah, the, the shop is no longer there, but her work obviously continues in many ways in her engagement in community, in her pursuits of academia. Before she popped on, we saw an image of her gorgeous, wonderful daughter who she took to school with her in college, which I always love. Um, and is now bringing her talents to, classrooms and also to businesses and organizations who are interested in aligning their business with, sustainability, equity justice. And, um, what we always talk about is seeding a more, loving, equitable and sustainable world. Lea is now doing that through consulting with businesses who might not have her deep well of expertise, and I’m really excited to watch that grow and progress and, yeah, very excited to have you here today. Because like I already, already me mentioned you have such a different perspective of this moment that I definitely do. And yet just like every moment they’re unprecedented. You are in a different space personally. So I’ll open this dialogue with kind of the core of what we’re trying to get at is how is this moment living in you and what, yeah. I’ll just stop there. Lea: Hmm. Um, well first thanks for all those memories. Um, that’s a fun little, a little memory lane. I love that you remember like our first meeting, sorry, environment, California or whoever it was. Greenpeace or, Yeah, I mean, I think that this moment is living in me in a very different way than moments that have come before that have felt, you know, just as urgent, as a parent. Um, my kiddo is turning seven in a couple months and so these last seven years have really been for me, like attempting to do a really intentional pivot so that I can continue to show up in the world in the ways that I have in the past, but in a way that feels, With, with a couple extra layers of protection around me and my family. Um, and so I, I’m just sort of sitting with the duality of what that often means. And so, um, since becoming a parent, I oftentimes feel the urgency almost more intensely. And yet, because of the work that I have done in the past and typically have done in the past, the restraint kind of comes just as quickly after. And so it’s like a really interesting tension for me. And I think that that tension is existing for a lot of folks that I grew up in the activist space, I guess. Mm-hmm. With, um, as were many of us, um, have chosen parenthood over the last 20 years and many of us are aging and, the ways that we’re moving is very different than the ways that we would’ve used to have moved. And so, what I find interesting about that is that the feeling that I am feeling is likely very similar to the one that people who are almost maybe new to movement work or new to sort of seeing this. Sort of the layers peel back in front of them that they might also be experiencing something very similar. So I think it’s interesting that it sort of like brings me back full circle to sort of like entryway into movement work. Mm-hmm. Um, because I think that the tension, I think that that tension exists within a lot of folks. They feel an urgency and they feel an uncertainty about where there places in it and how to move and how to move safely. Um, yeah. And so, yeah, I think I’ll stop there for a second. Just that’s sort of how it’s landing in my body. Becky: Yeah. Lea: Um, yeah, just kind of layers of, layers of conflict and sort of conflicting emotions and feelings. Becky: Yeah. Lea: Yeah. Christina: I am curious what the literal difference, like, can you, can you kind of parse out what the actual difference of, maybe I’m hearing that you’re, you’re putting some more protections around your life and your family life. Um, what does that look like in like, the literal commitment that you have in the day to day, and how are you showing up in a way that feels right for you right now in these activist spaces? Because all I’ve heard from Becky is just like, we gotta get Lea on here. She’s like, she’s the person, she’s the person that, that guides all of my activist impulses

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  5. Sparks!

    Mar 20

    Sparks!

    This week, we are joined by the dynamic and joyful spark of a human Kate Garmey who, as a self-proclaimed Chief Play Officer, claims one of her keywords as FROLIC. She seems to have already lived a million lives. On paper, she is a comedian, writer, community-builder, mother, and weaver of stories. This raw conversation beautifully encapsulates the way Kate’s life (like so many of us right now) has led to a distinct moment of upheaval and rebirth. Maybe we call it a homecoming. Whatever it is, Kate notices that JOY is the persistent reorienting force for her; so much so, she calls it a “state of being.” We discuss joy as resilience, how fear and grief can enter the body and how essential it is to learn to let them out. We question the difference between joy and happiness and how privilege plays into it all. Kate is a standout example of someone who consciously chooses the inner path despite living in a world that is so externally-focused. She was quite literally gutted, a testament to the age old statement that “the body keeps the score,” but we’ll let Kate take you down that road….as she says, “that’s what we call a ‘hook’ in the business.” We recommend checking out The Joyfire Project and listening to the incomparable Adrienne Maree Brown creating joyful songs while making tea. If you want to learn more about Christina and Becky’s work outside of this podcast, check out our websites and Substacks. Thank you for being here! christinawatka.com beckydecicco.com Episode Transcript Christina: This is so great. It’s so beautiful. Um, it’s, yeah. Isn’t it just like so freeing that we can just flow? And I also love that, um, that Kate also identified how nourishing it is to have you be this grounding presence with the meditation at the beginning. Um, it’s so lovely. Uh. And it’s you. It’s you like singing your song, you know? I love it so much. Okay. I love you. I, it’s starting to snow. It’s like so beautiful, but like a little bit of beautiful falling, gentle snow that is covering my hair. But other than that, it’s just lovely and it’s not gonna accumulate. I just feel like I’m walking through Narnia or something. Um, life is so, so magical. I just, I feel so, um, awake. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. You are in for a treat. This week we are joined by the dynamic and joyful spark of a human being. Kate Garmey. Who as a self-proclaimed Chief Play Officer, claims one of her favorite keywords as frolic. In this raw conversation, we talk about a lot of things. We talk about homecoming. We talk about guts, both metaphorical and literal. We talk about joy as resistance, and we question the difference between joy and happiness. And we laughed a lot. So I really hope you enjoy. Christina: It is Christina and I’m wearing eyeliner because today feels like a party because we have, we have um, our good friend Kate Garmey here, and Becky tasks me with introductions for people. So, um, I don’t prepare at all ‘cause I like to really throw from the hip. And Kate Garmey is someone that I have known now for probably lifetimes, certainly in the flesh one year, maybe a little more than a year. Um I walked into a dinner party of, I’ll say a generation of above me, women identifying writers. Kate was in there and I walked in and I was just like, who is this? Who is this? Like Sparky magnetic, bright, um. Uh, tenacious, bold human being standing in front of me that I’ve never met before. Proceeded to then talk to her and basically only her all night long. And, then left. And I think you’ll have to correct me after I say this, Kate, but like, let me finish my spiel about you. But I think that I sent you an email or you sent No, I think you sent me an email saying like, we both live in the same town I can’t even believe that. That’s so exciting. And then I just proceeded to write one of the most authentic and bold and real messages and was like, this is just the beginning for us. ‘cause they just knew it. So I find Kate to be just this completely, sparky, Sparky’s the best word I can come up with, human being. The more that I find out about you, Kate, the more that I’m interested to find out more because you seem to have just like. So much in you and in your life that you’ve experienced. And you’ll be like, oh, when I was backpacking through Spain and I met this Catholic nun, could I tell you that story? And I’m like, oh my God. So she holds Kate Garmey holds multitudes. And I I’m so excited to have her on here. She’s also one of the funniest people I know. And yeah, that would be my Lucy goosey intro to this beautiful human being that I’m seeing on my screen now. Kate: Well, that is a beautiful introduction. Thank you so much, Christina. This love story is quite reciprocal because Yes, I remember our first meet and greet too. And uh, I believe I sent the first email, and it’s true. Your response was so, something I’ve never received before. There’s the before times. And I think I was really sensitive going into that dinner, to be honest, because I’ve just had moved back to Maine, you know, having left a city and my identity, the quick identifiers of a career, a thing I was doing and building. So I was in a really raw space and that was what was even more incredible to me, to meet you at that time and have you respond to it. ‘cause I didn’t have the keywords. I didn’t know how to describe myself at that time. So I think that’s an absolutely beautiful introduction. I’m very grateful to have someone who sees me like this and in my life as a friend. And I think, . Sparky. Let’s do it. Let’s, I love it. You, I, so it’s all I can doy, it’s all I can do not to do some jazz hands right now. Are you feeling that too? Are you feeling that? I’m so goofy and so out there , and, in many ways, like a little, like part golden retriever, you know, like, come on with a lot of energy. It’s genuine, but sometimes you just don’t want me to drool on your lap. Like, you know, it’s like, it’s, it’s good and it’s kind of got its own limitations. It’s not for everyone. We’ll put it that way. Hmm. But I, I love that Christina saw it even deeper into me, maybe to a place I didn’t quite see for myself. And I think it’s really interesting and not nothing that this introduction does not say where I’ve worked or what I’ve done or where I’ve studied or any of those things because I’m in a very intentional remaking phase of my life. It doesn’t mean those things are gone, they’re just not the things I lead with. And it means a lot that I am here now having a conversation that I’ve drawn in and starts from that place. And I think that a big piece of what this year since I’ve known Christina has been, was of first I was white knuckling, like the release of some of those pieces of my ego. That is a really hard, that’s a tight grasp. Christina: Mm-hmm. Kate: Um. But it does allow for room to fill up with different things and certainly different people. And I am just so grateful. Becky, I’ve only recently gotten to know you, but this is again, just a beginning. I listened to you. Obviously you’re pretty big time in my world. Um, but I am very grateful, to have such genuine and brilliant people in my life, who are so supportive and so interesting. So yeah, when you said, let’s chat, I’m here for it. What are we talking about? Let’s go. Becky: I have a, so I have a calling if, if that’s okay. Yeah. If no one has a strong preference. But when you were talking about the, the relationship with the CV version of you. It flashed me back so quickly to when I first moved to New York City and yes, the first question everyone asked me was, what do you do? You know, what do you do? What do you do? And it was really uncomfortable for me when I first moved there. But after, almost a decade living there, I kind of conformed myself to that worldview. So it really struck a chord with me when you said that about, leaving this identity of what you did and what you did is, so like, I’ve only scratched the surface and I’m mind blown. Like you’re kind of in this, from my perspective, what I’ve seen is you’re, you’re moving out of that way of being and into a new way of being. And I’m really curious to the extent that you feel comfortable talking about that, like how that lived in you. And, and the reason I, I kind of wanna start here is because we’ve talked a lot about you know, how are we meeting this moment? And as I think about what this moment is. It’s not about this moment, it’s about systems that haven’t been sustainable or supporting a large portion of the population are starting to crumble. And so I’m curious, like to me it speaks to those systems and paradigms crumbling within you. Mm-hmm. And what is that lived experience? Kate: I think that’s a really thoughtful framing and question. And I think, I think it’s something I’m still in the process of living through some. Mm-hmm. I’m still trying to understand. I think I feel less fear about what’s happening, and I would say that. Christina, when you said what we’re doing here is trying to figure out how we individually meet the moment. There’s been sort of a convergence here for me, which is, really having to get to my essence first. Very reluctantly. This was against my, against my will to certain not that sounds very dramatic, but I am dramatic. So that’s appropriate. I just mean I didn’t intend to do a hard stop on working. I have paused my life. To give some context to what you’re saying, Becky. Mm-hmm. Um, pause my working life to support and fill in important needs within my family. So my working life is working to, um, you know, in the home, but it relates to a whole lot of things and caregiving and supporting. Just the needs of, of what’s at hand. It’s very immedia

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  6. The World Is Still Beautiful

    Mar 6

    The World Is Still Beautiful

    Elizabeth Brown joins us this week for a discussion in our “The World is on Fire What Can I Do?!” series where we reflect on how we are showing up in our world as we know it. She is a dynamic soul who does a little bit of everything (as a mother, an audiologist, an author with one book just published, another on its way, and a third in process at her desk, and a flower farmer) with a refreshing humility, groundedness, and a buoyancy of spirit. Drawing from her upbringing in York, Maine that she lovingly refers to as alternative and wild, Elizabeth takes us on a beautiful journey through the dark time of pandemic where she threw herself full into political movements and suddenly lost a father. This used up all of her resources and quite literally forced her outside into her back yard, in the soil to make something honest from scratch. What blossomed from this experience was—still is!!—full of healing and hope. Tending her own garden rippled out infinitely— reaching Elizabeth, her family, her patients, and her community in ways she had tried so hard to do before but never found. Over and over in these conversations, we are hearing that the greatest change begins with what you already have. Let’s let Elizabeth describe this to you in her own words through this promising conversation. If you want to learn more about Elizabeth’s work, check out Foxglove Farmhouse and look for her amazing first book The Beginner’s Cut Flower Garden: Grow, Nourish, and Create Bliss Year-Round at your favorite book seller. Show Notes If you want to start playing with the garden metaphor as an entry into finding your own authentic role in movement, check out the list that dear friend of the podcast, Ashley O’Brion created. We view this as a starting point for understand, a first draft, not a rigid framework that’s universal. Send us a message or comment if this resonates or you have anything to add/alter. We would love to hear from you! 🌱 The Gardener (Seed Planter) * Imagines new ways of being * Starts experiments, pilot projects, cultural shifts * Often misunderstood early on Strengths: Vision, hope, imagination Watch-outs: Burnout, being ahead of the moment ⸻ 🍂 The Composter (Transformer) Sits with the hard, messy work of breakdown. * Names harm, grief, and failure * Breaks down old systems, stories, and power structures * Holds truth without rushing to “solutions” Strengths: Depth, honesty, healing Watch-outs: Getting stuck in despair or endless critique ⸻ 🌿 The Tender (Caretaker) Keeps things alive day-to-day. * Nurtures people, projects, and morale * Checks on burnout, builds trust, offers care * Makes movements sustainable Strengths: Empathy, consistency, relational intelligence Watch-outs: Over-giving, invisibility, martyrdom ⸻ 🌾 The Cultivator (Systems Builder) Turns ideas into something that can last. * Builds structures, workflows, and processes * Connects people, resources, and timelines * Helps movements scale without losing their soul Strengths: Practical magic, follow-through Watch-outs: Rigidity, becoming more system than human ⸻ 🐝 The Pollinator (Connector / Messenger) Carries ideas between communities. * Translates language across groups * Spreads inspiration, stories, and tools * Helps movements cross-pollinate Strengths: Communication, charisma, bridge-building Watch-outs: Overextension, dilution of message ⸻ 🌳 The Canopy (Protector / Elder) Provides shelter and long view. * Shields vulnerable folks from harm * Holds memory, context, and lineage * Knows when to slow things down Strengths: Wisdom, protection, stability Watch-outs: Gatekeeping, resistance to change ⸻ 🪵 The Mulch Layer (Rest & Recovery Holder) Often overlooked but crucial. * Creates conditions for rest, integration, and pause * Holds space for grief, joy, and celebration * Marks endings and transitions Strengths: Rhythm, attunement, nervous-system care Watch-outs: Being undervalued or sidelined ⸻ 🌧️ The Weather Watcher (Strategist) Reads the larger conditions. * Tracks political, cultural, and economic shifts * Helps movements time their actions * Knows when to plant, wait, or retreat Strengths: Foresight, adaptability Watch-outs: Analysis paralysis, emotional distance ⸻ 🪨 The Mycelium (Invisible Networker) Not flashy, deeply powerful. * Builds trust quietly behind the scenes * Shares resources, information, and support * Connects struggles across distance and difference Strengths: Resilience, interdependence Watch-outs: Being unseen, taken for granted Episode Transcript Christina: Okay, so we just went for a off leash, frozen pond jaunt with Palo, and he completely ran away and started hunting this deer that was in the woods. And we didn’t see him for a long time, and Lucy was like, “oh no, we’re never gonna have a dog again”. And she literally was in the snow. I sat down next to her and she was like, are you worried? And I was like, no, I think you’ll come back. And she literally looked up at the sky and said, “God, please bring my dog back”. And she started talking to God. And you know, we don’t go to church. I’m not, not talking openly about God. If she has questions, I answer in my honest way, but like, she’s so connected. And um, and then. She asked him like what to do and God gave her an answer. And basically she, she like told me what the answer was and it was basically just like, don’t worry, your dog’s gonna come back. Just let him be in the woods for a while and like he will come back to you. You don’t have to worry. I am with you. So she just said that out loud. She’s like, oh, there’s my answer actually. And I said. Um, I was like, wow, that’s really cool. I don’t think we have to worry either. And she said, yeah, I usually ask an answer and then I get an, or I ask a question and I get an answer in my heart. And so I just kind of let it go. And then Palo literally came back as soon as she got her answer and told me out loud. And then, um, then on the way back I said, Hey. Um, where did you learn to talk to God like that? And she was like, oh, I just knew how to do it. I just decided to try one day. And so I asked a question and I immediately heard an answer. I asked a question in my head, and the answer came into my heart and. Um, she kept referring to God as he, and I said, how do you know God is a he? And she was like, well that’s, you know what? I guess you’re right. I guess it could. I think there are two. I think there’s a she and a he. And um, so, you know, when Mimi died, she went back up and became a she ‘cause the, she was Mimi. And I was like, okay. And then, um. And then I said, okay, so like, no one ever taught you how to do that. And she said, no, I just, it’s just something that I knew how to do. And I just, I, I only get a response when I ask a question. So she’s like, mom, you should try it. And I was like, I do, I do get an answer in my heart when I ask a question. I just never told you about that, so I didn’t know. That you knew? And she said, yeah. And she said, well, how many countries are there? And I was like, I don’t know. There are lots of countries. Well, there’s one God per country, and they’re in a line. And when someone in that country asks a question, the God that is for their country gets to the front of the line and all the gods are really close, and then they all go back together again. And she was just speaking super, super openly about it and then was just like, yeah. Anyway, when we get home, you should totally try it. ‘cause I bet that my God and your God are very similar. ‘cause families probably have the same one. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. This week, we are continuing our series: “The World is On Fire. What can I Do?” And we’re speaking with mother, audiologist, author, flower farmer, and refreshingly humble and grounded human, elizabeth Brown. In this conversation we talk about Elizabeth’s journey through the pandemic where she threw herself into political movements and suddenly lost a father. Finding herself depleted of all of her resources, Elizabeth turned to the soil in her backyard to make something honest from scratch. And what blossomed is full of healing and hope. I hope you enjoy. Um, before we start, Elizabeth. Mm-hmm. My wife Tarra told me to tell you that she’s loving your book. Oh, yay. I haven’t even gotten to read it yet ‘cause she’s, she’s hoarding it. Elizabeth: Oh, I’m so glad to hear that. You know, um, when I get those little messages, it means so much that it’s made me realize I need to do the same for other authors who have been meaningful to me because it’s super, I mean, you guys know, putting out your work to the public, it’s so vulnerable. Becky: Yeah. Elizabeth: Like it’s, it’s intense. You’re sharing this big portion of yourself and as much as you can be like, this is fine. No ego, I’m putting it out there. It is what it is. When someone comes back and says it resonates for them, it’s like, oh, thank goodness. Yeah, Christina: totally. And that’s not even the original reason why you necessarily make the thing so that you get this pat on the back. But it’s really beautiful realizing. Mm-hmm. That it ripples out. It’s the same with feedback we get about this podcast actually. Elizabeth: Yeah. Yeah. I think that’s it. That it’s like, um, you put something out in the world that’s doing good and having an impact, that feels good. Becky: Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yep. So, Christina, for today, I thought since, um, you know, we started this podcast introducing each other. What if you introduce Elizabeth. Christina: Oh my, Becky: I didn’t prep her. Christina: You always like, seriously, you just like drop these Becky: because I know you can handle it. Christina: Oh Elizabeth: my God. Do you want a little cv I can whisper into your ear.

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  7. Start Where You Are, Shape What Only You Can

    Feb 20

    Start Where You Are, Shape What Only You Can

    This week’s conversation is a continuation of our series: “The World Is On Fire. What Can I do?” And this week we’re in conversation with our friend and friend of the podcast, Ashley O’Brion. In this conversation, Ashley shares how she’s finding ways to show up in this moment that feel aligned and accessible and really sweet. If you’re enjoying these conversations, share your favorite episode with a friend, subscribe on Substack, and like or comment. We would love to be in conversation with you. If you would like to know more about Ashley or Becky and Christina’s work outside the podcast, check out our websites. ashleyobrion.com christinawatka.com beckydecicco.com Show Notes Check out the On Being podcast with guest Adrienne Maree Brown to dive deeper into emergent strategy and fractals. And if you want to start playing with the garden metaphor as an entry into finding your own authentic role in movement, check out the list that Ashley created. We view this as a starting point for understand, a first draft, not a rigid framework that’s universal. Send us a message or comment if this resonates or you have anything to add/alter. We would love to hear from you! 🌱 The Gardener (Seed Planter) * Imagines new ways of being * Starts experiments, pilot projects, cultural shifts * Often misunderstood early on Strengths: Vision, hope, imagination Watch-outs: Burnout, being ahead of the moment ⸻ 🍂 The Composter (Transformer) Sits with the hard, messy work of breakdown. * Names harm, grief, and failure * Breaks down old systems, stories, and power structures * Holds truth without rushing to “solutions” Strengths: Depth, honesty, healing Watch-outs: Getting stuck in despair or endless critique ⸻ 🌿 The Tender (Caretaker) Keeps things alive day-to-day. * Nurtures people, projects, and morale * Checks on burnout, builds trust, offers care * Makes movements sustainable Strengths: Empathy, consistency, relational intelligence Watch-outs: Over-giving, invisibility, martyrdom ⸻ 🌾 The Cultivator (Systems Builder) Turns ideas into something that can last. * Builds structures, workflows, and processes * Connects people, resources, and timelines * Helps movements scale without losing their soul Strengths: Practical magic, follow-through Watch-outs: Rigidity, becoming more system than human ⸻ 🐝 The Pollinator (Connector / Messenger) Carries ideas between communities. * Translates language across groups * Spreads inspiration, stories, and tools * Helps movements cross-pollinate Strengths: Communication, charisma, bridge-building Watch-outs: Overextension, dilution of message ⸻ 🌳 The Canopy (Protector / Elder) Provides shelter and long view. * Shields vulnerable folks from harm * Holds memory, context, and lineage * Knows when to slow things down Strengths: Wisdom, protection, stability Watch-outs: Gatekeeping, resistance to change ⸻ 🪵 The Mulch Layer (Rest & Recovery Holder) Often overlooked but crucial. * Creates conditions for rest, integration, and pause * Holds space for grief, joy, and celebration * Marks endings and transitions Strengths: Rhythm, attunement, nervous-system care Watch-outs: Being undervalued or sidelined ⸻ 🌧️ The Weather Watcher (Strategist) Reads the larger conditions. * Tracks political, cultural, and economic shifts * Helps movements time their actions * Knows when to plant, wait, or retreat Strengths: Foresight, adaptability Watch-outs: Analysis paralysis, emotional distance ⸻ 🪨 The Mycelium (Invisible Networker) Not flashy, deeply powerful. * Builds trust quietly behind the scenes * Shares resources, information, and support * Connects struggles across distance and difference Strengths: Resilience, interdependence Watch-outs: Being unseen, taken for granted Episode Transcript Christina: Here’s what I’m noticing for myself. Um, I’m at a very, like, I’m at a very, um, essential point of integration. And for me right now, that means that like the extraneous voices cannot enter me. That’s what I’m feeling a lot. Like I’m, I’m leaving Instagram for a while. Uh, I am not searching for information really, but more that like over and over I’m hearing the answers are within you. The answers are within you. That is my nature. That’s just me. That’s like the Aries in me, right? But also it’s just me. I don’t need anything else to define that. Um, but I. Yeah, it’s time right now for me to kind of like shut off the noise and, um, work with the intentional spaces that I have cultivated to welcome that noise in. Like the chosen noise really. What I’m consuming is really, it really matters to me, like in, um, in actual food and hydration and things. All I want is like tea and broth and real food and it feels like a, um. Like a great clearing and I’m so conscious of what doesn’t serve me and I don’t, um, yeah, I’m like really conscious of what I’m welcoming in. So, uh, that’s where that’s coming from, I think. And you know, the conversations that we’re having on the podcast and the conversations and the Creative Alchemy group and my studio time, like it’s really, that’s kind of like, and family life, that’s kind of all I have space for right now and I’m just acknowledging that. So, um, I love you and yeah, there’s that. Bye. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. This week’s conversation is a continuation of our series: “The World Is On Fire. What Can I do?” And this week we’re in conversation with our friend and friend of the podcast, Ashley O’Brion. In this conversation, Ashley shared how she’s finding ways to show up in this moment that feel aligned and accessible and really sweet. As this series continues, I find myself really wanting to just open the door of possibility a little bit wider with each conversation. Giving inspiration, and maybe even permission, for anyone who’s listening to find their own authentic entry point into this moment. Into greater awareness. Into expanding empathy and compassion beyond the small circle of your family and friends. Redefining what community is one conscious step at a time. So I hope you enjoy. Christina: All right. So we decided that it would make sense to bring Ashley back today for this episode because Becky and I have been really ruminating on the fact that we are here in a world that is on fire. There’s a lot of turmoil. A lot of people that we’re talking to in our circles are thinking, what can I do to show up? Is it even enough what I’m doing? And so we have, we’ve invited a couple of people that we love and know from all different walks of life. To come here and talk with us about that exact thing and really wrestle with it. so Ashley was someone that we thought we would bring back because we already have such a beautiful, solid ground of conversation here. Um, and it landed in her text inbox at the exact time that it was meant to because I think had she received the invitation a week earlier, she might’ve thought, I’m not really sure what I’m doing, but Ashley can speak to this more. But she’s sort of, um, it sounds, from what I’m hearing from you in our outside conversations, that you’ve, you’ve, um, tapped something that feels really fruitful and like you can put your energy towards something that feels generative and helpful, even if it’s quote unquote small. So take it away. Ashley: Yes. So. Um, in this moment, I think what I hear from a lot of people is that everyone is reaching for a way to meet the moment in a way, um, that maybe is outside of our normal ways of operating. And so for me, that that has been watching how other people are showing up, and then leaning on, um, some of those calls, as my doorway to show up. Um, and one organization that’s local to us in Maine is called Maine Needs, and they’re an organization that is, is really working, um, in real time to, to match immediate needs to, immediate responses. So it’s not, it’s not a general all call usually it’s, it’s like we had a caseworker reach out, um who knows of immigrants that are hiding in place and they are in desperate need of diapers, and that’s a very specific need. And because of their platform, um, they’re able to, to meet that moment and fill an entire room with boxes of diapers. So the organization has great power, in that way, um, in, in a helpful, connective way. And so that, that was the organization that I had reached out to first to just go in and volunteer because they’re constantly looking for volunteers. But when I went to sign up in this time, they are booked up on volunteers until May. So, I reached out to the, um, the founder of Maine Needs, who is a friend and asked her could she open up more spots? Is there anything else I could do? Um, and she said something that I’ve heard both of you say, which is we don’t often have to, to warp ourselves into new versions to meet a moment we can use what we already do to meet the moment. Um, so she suggested. Opening our studio, um, our ceramic studio in Westbrook, and inviting people in to do something. So they, they Maine Needs often, um, we’ll put out calls for kits so you can make art kits for children, um, to have something to do. You can make cleaning kits for people that don’t have enough money to gather cleaning supplies. You can put together warmth kits for the unhoused. Um, so that was where our, our minds went first. Um, we, we were thinking we would gather some friends together and we would make some kits. Um, but then we, we thought about using what we have in the studio. We have buckets of clay that we foraged from all over the state. Um, we’ve had these buckets in the studio and we’ve been, had plans to process the clay, and this has been years, like years of collecting buckets and being like, we’re gonna get to that project, we’re gonna get to that project.

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  8. The world is on fire, what can I do?

    Feb 6

    The world is on fire, what can I do?

    “History Doesn't Repeat Itself, but It Often Rhymes” – Mark Twain We are in a time when it is so easy to feel like how we show up is not enough. It is what we are hearing in our community outside of this podcast. In our conversations with friends outside of the podcast, we’ve both been circling around the fact that in this time we inhabit together, no one feels like what they are doing is enough. So in this conversation, we discuss that very thing. What IS enough? How do we acknowledge feelings of guilt so we can get out of our own way to do the work we are meant to do here and now? You’ll hear a lot of grappling and a lot of hopeless deep breaths in this episode. You’ll also hear plenty of promise, focused intention, and clarity. If you’re anything like us and the friends we are close to, you’re also on this rollercoaster ride. The world is on fire, what can I do? This conversation inspired us to continue it as a series because we believe we are spiraling around to the “same old problems” but with a new set of tools. And to be explicitly clear, these conversations stand on a common ground of our belief in democracy. We should all participate in local elections, call our representatives when something matters to us, and lift up a neighbor in need in any big or small way as we are able. And then to take one brave leap further: how can I step into this world with a deep understanding of what is mine to contribute? In the coming months, we will invite friends from all walks of life to discuss this with us. Through these conversations, we hope to evoke the same spirit of engaged Buddhism; a spirit of focused and joyful participation. As Becky so wisely says, “you can’t have hierarchy in a circle.” "When the crowded Vietnamese refugee boats met with storms or pirates, if everyone panicked, all would be lost. But if even one person on the boat remained calm and centered, it was enough. They showed the way for everyone to survive." — Thich Nhat Hanh Episode Transcript Christina: You like the way that you spoke about it today was so much more embodied. And um, through you as you, you know, it was beautiful. I loved talking to you about that today. And I also noticed when it came up, I was like, “yes, Becky”. Um, and what else was I gonna say? Oh yeah. The seeds and the growing and all of that, I completely agree with. This has been a beautiful experience and I’m so ready to continue it with you. Becky: Welcome to Noticing: A Podcast About Nothing And Everything At The Same Time. We are in a time when it is so easy to feel like how we show up is not enough. And that’s what we’ve been hearing from our friends and our community outside of this podcast. And we’ve both been circling around the fact that in this time we inhabit together, no one feels like what they’re doing is enough. So in this conversation, we discussed that very thing. What is enough? How do we acknowledge feelings of guilt so that we can get out of our own way to do the work that we’re meant to do here and now? So in this episode, you’ll hear a lot of grappling and a lot of hopeless deep breaths. You’ll also hear plenty of promise, focused intention, and clarity. If you’re anything like us and the friends we are close to, you’re also on this rollercoaster ride. The world is on fire, so what can we do? This conversation inspired us to continue it as a series because we believe we are spiraling around to the same old problems. But with a new set of tools. And to be explicitly clear, these conversations stand on a common ground of our belief in democracy. And how democracy demands our participation. In voting, especially in primaries and local elections, calling our representatives and being informed of what’s happening in our community and our nation. That is the foundation. Then to take one brave leap further, how can I step into this world with a deep understanding of what is mine to contribute? So in the coming months, we will invite friends from all walks of life to discuss this with us. Through these conversations, we hope to invoke the same spirit of engaged Buddhism, a spirit of focused and joyful participation. So I hope you enjoy. Christina: Hi. Becky: Hi is a good background. Christina: It’s pretty enchanting. Becky: Mm-hmm. Where to start today. Christina: I know. Um, Yeah. Yeah. So when we, we actually decided ahead of this conversation today, and on the heels of the last conversation that we had, about awakening and what that sort of looked like for both of us. And then we ended up realizing that the idea of the awakening process, which is like an uh, of never ending sort of active word, um, is that you find a home in yourself as you are, and you accept that, and then step into community as that. So for me to realize that I am not a composter and you are, is actually in service of, of everything, I believe. Um, so we were thinking about that and we were thinking, you know, it might be really nice to, um, continue talking about that. And there is a reality right now in my state of Maine, where ICE is is everywhere in Portland. There are signup sheets going around for anyone whose skin looks like mine and yours. To sign up to go shop and deliver necessary items to families who are sheltering in place because all of their immigration lawyers are telling them not to leave their homes. Because the literal color of your skin makes you a target, which is, um, something that is hard to understand for me, and I’m seeing it, I’m seeing friends post videos of blowing whistles when they see ice agents playing music outside of their hotels. Um, and it feels, uh, more important than ever for me to recognize the things that I can bring to the table in order to help in a time of great disruption and turmoil And, um. A time when I believe our worst nature is on, on the headlines all the time. You know? Um, so it was interesting for this to, um this experience, this like so close to Homeness, to be happening now on the heels of our last conversation. So it feels really important to just sort of address things as they are. Um, and I guess that would be where, how I would start, you know? Yeah. I, yeah. So I’m sitting with that. Becky: Yeah. Christina: Um, and one of the things that I am consciously doing, and you are a part of, we talk about this a lot, is seeding the world that we want to inhabit. Mm-hmm. Um, one of the things that I am actively doing as someone who is a conscious gardener. In the more metaphorical sense. Um, I am providing a place in my studio for a very small group of people who I admire and want to be in deep community with. You are one of them. Um, and there are 1, 2, 3, 4 others at the moment. Um, so a very intentionally intimate gathering of people who can hold uh, a quality of presence together where we can amplify our greatest gifts and assist each other in doing so by using our own gifts. And it was kind of amazing because, we have, I have one friend that I invited and she had, she recognized, which, which is so beautiful. She recognized that actually it’s not it, it’s like coming around at the wrong time for her. So she, uh, made the brave decision of acknowledging the reality in front of her, realizing that she’s actually already spread too thin and can’t, uh, inhabit this container that, that I am consciously seeding. And, and it’s like, there’s, there’s nothing good or bad about it. It’s just what? It’s um, Becky: I think it’s sacred. I think it’s a sacred, no, you know, it’s, it’s a sacred nos. Yeah. It’s so powerful to honor our no. Christina: Mm-hmm. Yeah. And the only reason that I can actually provide this quality of time and space in, in this studio is because I have honored sacred nos for the last two years. Mm-hmm. I think, um, and. Yeah, it, it’s just like this, this time in the, in our world I believe calls for us all to use the pause, use a true pause in which we reflect on what our answer truly is before we rush to answer or rush to protest or rush to sign up for things. Um, because there is a great, great, great need right now, 10 miles from my house, and what am I cut out to provide where I’m actually doing the deepest service, um, where I’m actually doing the deepest service and acknowledging what that honestly is, um, is really uncomfortable. Becky: What makes it uncomfortable. Christina: It’s just like, I would love to be able to be out on the streets whistling at ice, protesting, um, going and shopping for all of these people. I want to do all of those things. Mm-hmm. So it’s uncomfortable to realize that I can’t. Becky: Yeah. Christina: It hurts. Becky: That’s, yeah, I mean, I feel the discomfort as well. I just wanted to hear specifically what was coming up for you. ‘cause it is really uncomfortable and what was, hitting me as you were speaking is it’s, it’s such a wild time to be alive and we are constantly bombarded with, not bombarded. We are exposed to, we have access to, which is a double-edged sword, like the access to what’s going on in the world beyond our little circles. Um, especially if you seek it out and, and try to get outside of your social media bubble to expand your awareness is incredible. You know, and it can provide fuel for such growth. And, and, all I can think about is our poor nervous systems. You know, we’re presented with such great existential threat on a daily basis. Like save our democracy, you know, and our, um, save and our neighbors save our democracy and save our neighbors, you know? And when you’re perpetually online, your neighbors become the whole country, depending on how much you expand it your neighbors become the whole world, and when they’re in threat and you’re seeing that threat, your nervous system is processing it the same as if there’s a lion standing right in front of you and you have to do something about it, you know, and I think it’s

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Noticing is a series of intimate conversations between long time friends Becky DeCicco and Christina Watka. Born out of consecutive months of deep conversation through voice memos during their paralleled years of awakening, Noticing explores the myriad of ways we can all acknowledge the mystery and live more fully in presence. DeCicco draws from her experience as a mindfulness teacher and lifelong lover of everything cosmic, spiritual, and religious while Watka comes from a background steeped heavily in the arts and a mind-body-spirit connection that naturally orients towards light. Through these conversations, they aspire to remind every person that our differences are what help us find a home in self, and only once we embody this authenticity can we seed the world we want to inhabit. noticingpod.substack.com

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