If I Am Being Honest

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If I Am Being Honest is a podcast about raw, real conversations on mental health, growth, and community. Hosts Nishani Jayawardena and Himgauri (Gigi) Alve share honest truths and big leaps to help you feel seen and inspired.

  1. Oct 2

    Your Body Is a Compass: Coming Back to Yourself with Xandrine Ayla

    She's called five countries home, and every time she started over she learned the same thing: wherever you go, there you are. In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Nishani and Gigi sit down with Xandrine Ayla, an embodiment mentor who guides women through life's biggest transitions back to who they really are, to talk about getting out of your head and back into your body. Xandrine shares how years of mysterious rash outbreaks that no doctor could fix led her from mindset coaching into body-based work, and why she now calls her body her compass. She opens up about growing up in a conservative culture in the Philippines, her five-year conscious celibacy journey, and learning to source her own pleasure instead of outsourcing it. We also get into the identity shift she's moving through right now as her daughter spends more time with her dad, why mom guilt grows when you don't carve out time for yourself, and what happens when your growth triggers the people around you, from crab mentality to a family comment about her dancing videos. This one is for anyone who's ever lost themselves in a role, a relationship, or a new chapter, and is ready to find their way back home to themselves. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Xandrine Ayla 03:00 Moving Countries and Starting Over 06:31 Your Body as a Compass 11:10 From Mindset Coaching to Body-Based Work 17:07 Living From the Neck Up: First Steps to Reconnect 22:04 Why No One Can Fix You 31:33 Growing Up in the Philippines and Reclaiming the Body 33:30 Conscious Celibacy and Self-Sourced Pleasure 39:28 Losing Your Identity in Relationships and Motherhood 45:35 Finding Herself Again After Full-Time Motherhood 52:40 How to Come Back to Yourself 1:05:42 Mom Guilt and Carving Out Time for Yourself 1:10:41 When Your Growth Triggers Others 1:14:47 How Deep Can You Root? Connect with Xandrine Ayla: Website: xandrine.com Email: hello@xandrine.com Instagram: instagram.com/xandrine.ayla YouTube: youtube.com/@XandrineAyla Podcast: Spotify Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health guidance. Please consult a qualified provider for personal concerns.

  2. Sep 18

    Signs of OCD No One Talks About with Dr. Danielle Henderson

    She specializes in treating OCD for a living — and still spent months secretly battling it herself after having her first child. In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Nishani and Gigi sit down with Dr. Danielle Henderson, PsyD, LPC — Clinical Director and Founder of Break Free Counseling Center and co-founder of THRIVE — to talk about what OCD actually looks like, on and off the surface. Danielle breaks down the real difference between obsessions and compulsions, why OCD can show up as intrusive images, memories, and urges instead of just visible rituals, and the leading theories on where it actually comes from. She opens up about pulling out her own eyelashes at twelve years old, the postpartum OCD she kept hidden from her own providers and her husband, and how long it took her to actually use the tools she teaches her clients every day. We also get into her leap from corporate mental health into entrepreneurship — leaving a job with nothing else lined up, the burnout and hospitalization that pushed her there, and what it's really like building two businesses while managing anxiety, perfectionism, and people-pleasing along the way. This one is for anyone who's ever wondered if their own habits, rituals, or "that's just how I am" moments are actually something worth naming — and worth getting support for. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Dr. Danielle Henderson 03:01 Understanding OCD and Anxiety 09:46 The Impact of OCD and Anxiety on Daily Life 22:23 Challenges Faced by New Mothers 27:04 Exploring [Just Right / "Gesturite"] OCD (pending confirmation) 28:16 Influence of Family Behaviors on OCD 30:53 Entrepreneurship and OCD 36:06 Impact of Entrepreneurship on Mental Health 49:19 Treatment Plans for OCD 56:35 Specialized Therapy for OCD and Anxiety 57:11 Success Stories and Treatment Impact 1:10:02 Prevalence and Challenges of OCD Treatment Connect with Dr. Danielle Henderson: Website: breakfreecenter.org / thriveocd.com Instagram: instagram.com/breakfreecounseling LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/danielle-henderson-psy-d-lpc-7657691a3 Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health guidance. Please consult a qualified provider for personal concerns.

  3. Sep 4

    Your Birth Card Knows You Better Than You Think | Shelbie Mariah Moore

    She was seven years old doing tarot readings with a deck of playing cards and offering candy to her ancestors — until her mother shut it down. Ten years ago, the day after her wedding, that same instinct came roaring back, and it became her life's work. In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down with Shelbie Mariah Moore, cardology educator, author, and mother of three neurodivergent children, to talk about what it means to understand yourself through the wisdom of a regular deck of cards. Shelbie breaks down what cardology actually is — the ancient study of playing cards as personality assessment and divination — and makes the case that playing cards are the original tarot deck. We get into her monthly Cardology Shadow Circle, why your shadow side isn't something to fix but something to befriend, and the story behind her son's birth card that sent her down this path in the first place. Shelbie also opens up about her own shadow, her Saturn card, and the reflective questions inside her new book, The Light & Shadow of Your Birth Card. This one is for anyone who's ever wondered why certain people feel like home and others feel like friction — and what their own light and shadow might be trying to tell them. Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Connect with Shelbie Mariah Moore: Book: a.co/d/0ePRMAnY YouTube: Cardology Wisdom Instagram/TikTok: @CardologyWisdom Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not a substitute for professional spiritual, medical, or mental health guidance. Please consult a qualified provider for personal concerns.

  4. Aug 21

    The 5-5-5 Rule: What Every New Mom Needs After Birth | Doula Natasha Kinner

    You were never meant to labor alone the question is who's standing beside you when it's time to ask for what you actually need. In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down with Natasha Kinner, owner and director of Live Light Doula, to talk about what it really means to advocate for a birthing person when the moment gets loud. Natasha shares how she sold everything and drove from Michigan to Belize in her mid-twenties, how a stranger's talk on birth work during a yoga teacher training in Costa Rica changed the course of her life, and how she eventually bought Live Light Doula from its founder and built it into what it is today. We get into the "555 rule" for postpartum recovery, why a doula's job isn't to hold the baby but to hold the parents, the real difference between a doula and a midwife, and the moment a doula has to step back and let a birthing person find their own voice even when that voice says "shut up and give me the epidural." This one is for anyone who's ever wondered what real support looks like when everything feels out of control. Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Connect with Natasha Kinner: Website: livelightdetroit.com Instagram: instagram.com/livelightdetroit Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not medical or clinical advice. Please consult a qualified healthcare or mental health provider for personal concerns.

  5. Aug 7

    Light Language, People-Pleasing & Reclaiming the Cookie with Nilzara Rivera

    Your soul has its own language; the question is whether you've given yourself permission to speak it. In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down with Nilzara Rivera, a light language healer and teacher who helps eldest daughters of addict fathers reclaim their mind, heart, and body, to talk about what happens when your soul starts speaking before your logic can catch up. Nilzara shares how she started speaking in tongues at age 10 in a Christian church, long before she ever heard the term "light language," and how three marriages, two of them abusive, eventually forced her to confront herself as the common denominator. We get into the difference between an "activation" and a "remembering," why people-pleasers often struggle to access their own intuition, and how she went from being told she was "acting white" for choosing to heal to niching her entire practice around eldest daughters of addict fathers. This one is for anyone who's ever felt something moving through them that they couldn't quite explain, and needed permission to trust it. Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Connect with Nilzara Rivera: Linktree: linktr.ee/lightlanguagemystic Instagram: instagram.com/lightlanguagemystic TikTok: tiktok.com/@nilzararivera Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not medical or clinical advice. Please consult a qualified healthcare or mental health provider for personal concerns.

  6. Jul 25

    Your Body Is Already Talking | Nervous System Healing & Holistic Wellness with Dr. Yakima Palmer, ND

    Your body has been trying to talk to you; the question is whether you've been listening. In this episode of If I'm Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down with Dr. Yakima Palmer, a naturopathic doctor, wellness educator, and founder of YAX Wellness, to talk about what happens when Western medicine runs out of answers. Dr. Yakima shares how the sudden loss of her son and her own health crisis pushed her out of a fifteen-year career in medical coding and into holistic healing, nervous system regulation, and bioresonance scanning as tools for understanding what the body is actually asking for. We get into the guilt women carry around rest, why chronic stress quietly becomes inflammation, and how she went from being told "we don't know what's wrong" to competing in a bodybuilding competition at 50. This one is for anyone ready to stop outsourcing their health to someone else's answers and start listening to their own body. Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Connect with Dr. Yakima Palmer, ND, CPC: Website: yakswellness.com Instagram: instagram.com/yaks_wellnesss LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/dr-yakima-palmer-nd-chhp-cpc-8355522a Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not medical advice. Please consult a qualified healthcare provider for personal medical concerns.

  7. Jul 10

    One Year of Being Honest: Our Podcast Anniversary, Real Talk & Everything We Learned

    It's officially been one year since we hit record for the first time. In this special anniversary episode of If I'm Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down just the two of them to reflect on a full year of podcasting the doubt, the growth, and everything they've learned along the way. We talk about why we started this podcast to "end the fluff," the fear of listening to our own voices, what it's really like to be women and entrepreneurs balancing high expectations with self-compassion, and our favorite guest moments this year acupuncture, family constellations, entrepreneurship, mental health, and immigrant identity. We also get into why "pain is temporary, quitting is permanent" became our motto this year, and what's coming in year two. Hosted by Nishani and Gigi If I'm Being Honest by Attunigrate Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not medical advice. Please consult a qualified healthcare provider for personal medical concerns.

  8. Jun 24

    Acupuncture, Anxiety & Women’s Health with Kat Barber

    What if acupuncture is not just about pain relief, but a way to support your nervous system, reduce stress, and feel more grounded? In this episode of If I’m Being Honest, Gigi and Nishani sit down with Kat Barber, a nationally board-certified acupuncturist licensed in Michigan with over 16 years of experience. Kat shares her journey from working as an HIV case manager in Chicago to practicing Chinese medicine, women’s health, fertility support, mental health, pain management, and facial acupuncture. We talk about acupuncture myths, “acu-high,” stress and inflammation, nervous system regulation, women’s health, hormones, PCOS, endometriosis, perimenopause, menopause, facial acupuncture, and how the body can hold stress in ways we may not always recognize. Guest: Kat Barber Licensed Acupuncturist | Women’s Health | Fertility | Mental Health | Facial Acupuncture Website: www.katbarberacu.com Hosted by Nishani Jayawardena and Gigi Alve If I’m Being Honest by Attunigrate Stay connected with Attunigrate: Website: www.attunigrate.com Instagram: instagram.com/attunigrate/ Facebook: facebook.com/attunigrate TikTok: tiktok.com/@attunigrate LinkedIn: linkedin.com/company/attunigrate/ Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and storytelling purposes only and is not medical advice. Please consult a qualified healthcare provider for personal medical concerns.

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If I Am Being Honest is a podcast about raw, real conversations on mental health, growth, and community. Hosts Nishani Jayawardena and Himgauri (Gigi) Alve share honest truths and big leaps to help you feel seen and inspired.

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  • Creator
    Attunigrate
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    23
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2026 Attunigrate