Unbecoming Me with Toi

Toi Waddles
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Unbecoming Me is a personal journey of shedding who we were told to be and growing into who we truly are. Hosted by Toi Waddles, this podcast explores healing after heartbreak, navigating lonely seasons, rebuilding self-worth, and learning to care for yourself in real and meaningful ways. Through honest stories and heartfelt reflection, Toi invites you to release old identities, face your truth, and step into your becoming — one layer at a time. If you're in a season of change, transformation, or rediscovery, you're not alone. This is where your unbecoming begins.

  1. Sep 30

    When You Stop Chasing, You See Who's Willing to Meet You Halfway

    The right person doesn't need convincing—and Toi repeats that truth three times in this episode. She reflects on mistaking one-sided effort for love, then lays out what changed her perspective: watch actions, not promises; stop doing all the reaching, planning, and paying; and let stillness reveal what someone's consistency—or silence—is really saying. With candid references to "potential island" and the toll of carrying a relationship, Toi makes the case for expecting reciprocity without proving your worth. A grounded listen for anyone wondering whether they're building a connection together or doing all the work alone.   Timestamps The opening (00:00:04) Toi introduces the show's themes of healing, growth, and becoming your authentic self. When you stop chasing and finally get chosen (00:00:46) Toi reflects on overextending herself in relationships and introduces the episode's central message. You don't have to prove yourself (00:01:23) She describes healing after relationships and explains that love should not require sacrificing your well-being. Watch actions instead of promises (00:02:00) Toi says potential and promises mean little without genuine willingness and consistent action. Let people come toward you (00:03:59) She encourages sharing the effort in relationships rather than always initiating, planning, or paying. Stillness reveals the truth (00:04:33) Stepping back from carrying a relationship reveals whether effort is mutual and helps clarify expectations. The right person doesn't need convincing (00:06:44) Toi emphasizes that the right person will recognize you and reciprocate without requiring proof. Closing remarks (00:07:35) The show closes with a reminder to be yourself and an invitation to rate, review, follow, and share.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode "I thought love required effort. I didn't realize I was doing all of it, though. I was doing all the work." "In a relationship, you shouldn't have to prove yourself. You should just be yourself." "I don't care how many times you cry, I don't care how many times you poke, you prod. If somebody is not going to do something, they're not going to do it. Point blank. Period." "Either they'll be consistent in effort or they'll be consistent in sitting back. But no matter what that looks like, it's still consistency." "The right person doesn't need convincing. They already see you, and you genuinely see them too."   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "The right person doesn't need convincing. They already see you, and you genuinely see them too."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  2. Sep 16

    The Audacity of Expecting Consistency, Respect, and Peace in Love

    In Episode 13, Season 2 of Unbecoming Me, host Toi tackles the bold concept of expecting healthy love in relationships. She challenges listeners to raise their standards, reject toxic patterns, and refuse to settle for bare minimum effort. Toi emphasizes that healthy expectations — including consistency, peace, and respect — are realistic, not unreasonable. She encourages self-worth, accountability, and choosing character over potential. Her key message: as you grow, your tolerance for less decreases. Healthy love exists and is attainable for everyone willing to do the healing work and boldly declare what they deserve.   Timestamps Podcast Introduction (00:00:04) Host Toi introduces the "Unbecoming Me" podcast, focusing on healing, growth, and self-discovery after personal challenges. The Audacity to Expect Healthy Love (00:00:46) Toi introduces the episode's topic: having the audacity to expect and demand a healthy, consistent, and peaceful love. Setting and Raising Your Standards (00:02:25) The importance of setting standards from the beginning of a relationship and continuously raising them as you grow. Healthy Expectations Are Not Unrealistic (00:03:36) Toi explains that wanting peace, respect, and consistency is realistic, despite what those accustomed to toxic relationships might think. Refusing the Bare Minimum (00:04:47) Discusses ending situations that offer only breadcrumbs and refusing to settle for being a last-minute or backup plan. Choosing Quality Over Potential (00:06:48) A person's potential doesn't equal their character or work ethic; it's crucial to choose quality over unrealized potential. Lowering Tolerance, Not Raising Standards (00:08:01) The host shares a quote about lowering tolerance for unacceptable behavior and manifesting the love you truly desire. Healthy Love is Possible for Everyone (00:09:05) Toi affirms that healthy, committed love exists for everyone and emphasizes stating your standards clearly from the start. You Deserve More Than Struggle (00:10:13) An encouragement to believe in your worth and understand that you do not have to settle for a difficult love. Rejecting Negative Projections (00:11:21) Advice on how to handle people who project their own toxic relationship experiences onto you and your expectations. Episode Wrap-Up and Call to Action (00:12:32) Toi concludes the episode, wishing listeners healthy love and asking for comments, shares, and future topic suggestions. Podcast Outro (00:12:55) The closing message encourages listeners to rate, review, follow, and share the podcast with others.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode "I stopped apologizing for wanting consistency." "The bare minimums are no longer accepted." "You don't deserve to be a backup plan; you deserve to be a prioritized person in somebody's life." "My standards didn't get higher; my tolerance got lower." "You're no longer settling because you know what your heart truly desires."   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "My standards didn't get higher; my tolerance got lower."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  3. Sep 2

    The Greatest Lesson in Healing: Learning to Receive Love

    In Episode 12 of Unbecoming Me, host Toi explores the theme of receiving love without guilt. Drawing from five years of personal growth, she discusses the pitfalls of over-giving in relationships and the importance of allowing others to take initiative. Toi emphasizes that love should never feel like something that must be earned, and that true partnership requires mutual effort and intention. She encourages listeners to step out of "survival mode," embrace being pursued, and recognize that healing sometimes means learning to receive rather than constantly give.   Timestamps Podcast Intro (00:00:04) Host Toi introduces the podcast "Unbecoming Me," focusing on healing, growth, and releasing old identities to become your true self. Receiving Love Without Guilt (00:00:46) The episode's theme is introduced: accepting love isn't the same as earning it, and the importance of not over-giving. The Problem with Over-Giving (00:01:18) Over-giving is a bad habit that attracts "takers" who only offer the bare minimum in relationships, which you shouldn't settle for. Letting Someone Else Initiate (00:02:25) As a natural giver, it's important to let others take the lead, show they care, and initiate conversations and plans. Allowing Yourself to Be Pursued (00:03:40) Take a step back and allow someone to be intentional with you, especially if you desire a long-term, committed partnership. The Discomfort of Receiving (00:05:16) For givers, receiving can feel uncomfortable because you want to do your part and not seem ungrateful or like a charity case. Breaking Free from Survival Mode (00:06:01) After years of relationship survival mode, it's time to stop over-giving and relax, letting someone else lead for a change. Intentionality Over Extravagance (00:07:45) Dating doesn't have to be expensive; quality time and genuine effort matter more than trendy, costly outings or struggle love. The True Meaning of Healing (00:09:30) Healing isn't about learning to give more; sometimes, it's about learning how to be on the receiving end of love. The Value of Intentionality and Time (00:10:48) Someone who is truly for you will pursue you, invest their time, and show reciprocation, which is priceless. Episode Recap and Final Message (00:12:22) The key lesson is reiterated: healing is learning to receive. Allow someone to pour into you before you try to reciprocate. Podcast Outro (00:13:40) The episode concludes with a reminder to rate, review, and share the podcast with others on their own healing journey.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode "Over the past five years, I've been through the fire, releasing who I thought I had to be so that I could finally become who I'm meant to be." "I had to learn that accepting love isn't the same thing as earning it." "I realized that I don't want to be in survival mode." "Once you get out of this struggle love, trust and believe you me, you never want to look back." "The biggest lesson that I've learned in this part of the chapter is healing isn't learning how to give more; sometimes it's actually learning how to be on the receiving end."   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Healing means learning to receive, not just learning to give."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  4. Aug 19

    The Greatest Power of Consistency: Finding Peace Over Chaos

    In Episode 11 of The Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi reflects on her five-year healing journey, exploring how her perception of relationships transformed. She candidly shares how she once mistook chaotic, hot-and-cold relationships for passion, confusing nervous excitement with genuine compatibility. Through self-discovery, Toi learned that her nervous system had normalized drama and anxiety. Now, she champions consistency as the ultimate form of love, emphasizing that it represents peace rather than boredom. She encourages listeners to prioritize emotional safety, reject chaos, and recognize that true love never causes unnecessary pain or sleepless nights.   Timestamps Introduction to the Episode (00:00:46) Toi introduces episode 11, discussing her personal growth journey and how she is starting to find her breath again. When Consistency Starts to Feel Sexy (00:01:22) Toi explains how she used to confuse butterflies with compatibility but now finds consistency and communication incredibly attractive in relationships. When Chaos Stopped Being Attractive (00:02:51) Toi reflects on her past hot-and-cold relationships, realizing that the chaos she experienced was not her normal upbringing. Breaking Free from Chaotic Relationships (00:04:38) She describes being a "fixer" in past relationships, which left her exhausted and broken until her support system helped her. How the Nervous System Adapts to Chaos (00:06:52) Toi explains how her body and nervous system became accustomed to the constant drama and anxiety of unhealthy relationships. Excitement vs. Emotional Safety (00:08:38) The difference between the initial "honeymoon phase" excitement and the deep, trusting feeling of true emotional safety in a relationship. Creating Your Own Peace (00:10:28) Toi emphasizes her commitment to her own inner peace, stating she won't settle for anything less from a partner. Predictability is Peace, Not Boring (00:11:48) She reframes predictability in relationships not as boring, but as a comforting and peaceful presence that provides stability and security. Consistency is the Presence of Peace (00:13:04) Toi shares the episode's main takeaway: consistency isn't about a lack of passion, but about creating a peaceful foundation.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'I used to confuse butterflies with compatibility; now consistency gives me all the butterflies.' 'I then understood the difference between excitement and emotional safety.' 'I've created a sense of peace within myself that I'm not sacrificing or settling for anything less than this.' 'Now, predictable is not boring at all; it's a presence of peace.' 'Consistency isn't the absence of passion; it is the presence of peace.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Consistency isn't the absence of passion; it is the presence of peace."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  5. Aug 5

    The Most Important Lessons in Healing and Relationship Discernment

    In episode ten of Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi reflects on 200 days of her 365-day healing journey, exploring whether she is truly healing or simply hopeful. She shares lessons learned about self-worth, discernment, and relationships, including the mistake of prematurely trusting partners before they've earned it. Toi distinguishes between genuine leadership and love bombing, emphasizes consistency and how partners treat children as character indicators, and highlights that true healing means seeking nervous system regulation over fleeting butterflies — prioritizing lasting peace and emotional stability over excitement.   Timestamps Podcast Introduction (00:00:04) The host, Toi, introduces the "Unbecoming Me" podcast, focusing on healing, growth, and peeling back layers to become oneself. Am I Healing or Just Hopeful? (00:00:46) Toi introduces the episode's topic and shares she is 200 days into her 365-day healing journey. The Mistake of Crowning a Man Too Early (00:01:34) Toi discusses her past mistake of giving a partner the "man" title and benefits before he earned them. Knowing Your Worth (00:02:44) The importance of recognizing your own value to avoid situations where you are not appreciated or taken for granted. Trust is Earned, Not Gifted (00:03:52) Toi emphasizes that trust should not be given freely and must be earned through consistent actions and respect. The Importance of Consistency (00:04:55) Observing a person's consistency through all of life's seasons is crucial to understanding their true character and discipline. How a Partner Treats Children (00:05:54) A partner's treatment of your children (or their own) is a significant indicator of their character and capacity for respect. Leadership vs. Love Bombing (00:06:59) Toi explains the difference between genuine leadership in dating (courting, consistency) and manipulative love bombing (intense, short-lived affection). Recognizing a True Provider and Protector (00:09:06) A true masculine partner provides safety and reassurance through actions, making "struggle love" undesirable once experienced. Be Open-Minded in Dating (00:11:09) Your blessing might come in an unexpected package, so it's important to be open-minded about a potential partner's type. Nervous System Regulation Over Butterflies (00:12:22) True healing means seeking a regulated nervous system and peace, not the anxiety-inducing "butterflies" often mistaken for excitement. Episode Wrap-Up (00:13:35) Toi concludes the episode, reiterating the importance of nervous system regulation as a sign of true healing and discernment.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'I've had the problem of crowning a man too early and staying too long once I've crowned him.' 'You know what I learned in my grown age? That trust is earned and it's not gifted.' 'Another thing I learned is to watch consistency, even if the person is under pressure.' 'I'm not looking for butterflies anymore; I'm looking for nervous system regulation.' 'Your nervous system will be regulated, and that's when your body will finally be at peace.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Healing teaches you to stop chasing butterflies and start choosing the peace that lasts."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  6. Jul 22

    Embracing Peace in Relationships: How Leadership, Intentionality, and Safety Transform Love After Healing

    In this episode of Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi explores what peace looks like in relationships after surviving difficult seasons of healing and letting go. She contrasts chaotic "struggle ships" with peaceful, healthy connections characterized by leadership, intentionality, consideration, and predictability. Toi highlights meaningful gestures — planned dates, thoughtful surprises, and clear communication — as signs of a genuinely caring partner. She emphasizes that true peace feels like safety, allowing authenticity and vulnerability. Encouraging listeners who have done the inner work, Toi reminds them that peaceful love is quiet, steady, and deeply fulfilling — and absolutely worth embracing.   Timestamps What Peace Looks Like After the Storm (00:00:46) Toi introduces the episode's topic: finding peace in relationships after going through a difficult "detachment season" from past connections. Leadership Qualities in a Partner (00:01:26) The importance of a partner showing leadership, initiative, and intentionality in getting to know you and building a connection. Rejecting "Struggle Love" (00:02:38) Toi denounces "struggle ships" (struggle love), stating she is too mature for relationships that require constant effort and struggle. The Importance of Consideration (00:03:47) A partner's consideration, like remembering your children, is highlighted as a key sign of a healthy and caring relationship. Effortless Planning and Intentionality (00:04:48) Peace is when a partner plans things without being chased or hinted at, showing genuine effort and clear intentions. Predictability Feels Like Peace (00:08:19) Predictability in a relationship is framed as a positive, calming, and nourishing force, contrasting it with chaotic "struggle ships." Genuine Connection Over Superficiality (00:09:47) A peaceful partner values your genuine self, seeing the beauty within you beyond surface-level appearances like makeup and clothes. Safety as the Foundation for Trust (00:11:00) Feeling safe in a relationship allows you to let your guard down, trust your partner, and be your authentic self. Constructive Criticism and Final Thoughts (00:12:09) Peaceful relationships allow for constructive criticism given with love. Toi concludes by reiterating that peace is quiet and valuable.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'Struggle love is ghetto.' 'I'm not raising a significant other.' 'Predictability feels like peace, because it is.' 'Peace for me is when I can feel safe.' 'If I feel safe, I can show you who I truly am, flaws and all.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Peace isn't boring—it's the safety to be fully yourself without fear."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  7. Jul 8

    Why Detachment Is the Key to Ending Emotional Overextension and Finding Yourself Again

    In episode eight of The Unbecoming Me with Toi, host Toi introduces "Detachment Season," exploring why boundaries stop feeling mean. She discusses breaking cycles of over-giving, over-functioning, and emotional overextension in relationships. Toi emphasizes matching energy rather than over-functioning, using boundaries as tools for self-protection and data collection about who truly respects you. She also highlights the importance of observation over explanation, recognizing toxic behavioral patterns, and protecting children from unhealthy dynamics. The episode encourages listeners to honor themselves by setting firm boundaries without guilt, reframing them as acts of self-love rather than punishment.   Timestamps Welcome to Detachment Season (00:00:46) Toi introduces episode eight's topic: setting boundaries and detaching from over-giving and over-functioning in relationships and friendships. The Act of Detaching (00:02:38) Discusses practical acts of detachment, like stopping location sharing, and the controlling reactions this can provoke in others. Matching Energy, Not Being Petty (00:04:32) Explains that matching energy is about mirroring behavior, not pettiness, and why people who over-functioned struggle with this shift. Protecting Your Peace (00:06:06) Slowing down response times is not being nonchalant; it's a method of protecting your peace from takers and selfish people. Protecting Your Child's Peace (00:07:52) For parents, setting boundaries also protects their children, whose intuition about people is often pure and should be trusted. Observation Over Explanation (00:10:41) Emphasizes choosing to observe someone's actions and body language over listening to their words, as actions reveal true intentions. Boundaries as Data Collection (00:11:25) A boundary is not a punishment but a tool for data collection; how someone reacts reveals their true feelings.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode 'They liked the VIP treatment, the over-functioning, the over-giving; they loved being the priority of your life while you were an option in theirs.' 'Going from over-functioning and pouring your everything into them to being nonchalant is actually protecting your peace and your sanity.' 'You must learn how to choose observation over explanation.' 'The boundary wasn't punishment, it was data collection.' 'How a person reacts to and respects your boundary is how they care about you.'   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Boundaries don't push the right people away—they reveal who truly respects your peace."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

  8. Jun 25

    When Chemistry Distracts You from Character: How to See the Truth in Relationships

    In this episode of Unbecoming Me, Toi explores one of the biggest relationship traps: confusing chemistry with character. She explains how attraction, butterflies, and the excitement of a new relationship can distract us from seeing someone's true intentions and patterns. Through personal insight, Toi unpacks the dangers of breadcrumbing, inconsistency, and falling in love with someone's potential instead of their actions. She also discusses why overgiving without reciprocity leads to emotional exhaustion, how healthy relationships require leadership and accountability, and why observing a person's character is far more important than chasing temporary feelings. Toi closes the episode with a powerful reminder that we aren't always attached to the person—we're often attached to who we hope they'll become.   Timestamps Introduction & Episode Theme (00:00:46) Toi introduces the topic of how chemistry can distract us from recognizing someone's true character. Breadcrumbing and Emotional Inconsistency (00:01:40) She explains how avoidant behavior, mixed signals, and breadcrumbing create emotional confusion while keeping someone emotionally invested. Looking Behind the Mask (00:02:38) Using The Wizard of Oz as an analogy, Toi illustrates how excitement and attraction can hide a person's authentic character. Potential Isn't Reality (00:04:23) She discusses the danger of falling in love with someone's potential instead of evaluating their consistent actions. Giving Girlfriend Energy Without Leadership (00:05:30) Toi explains why overgiving without commitment, direction, or reciprocity ultimately leaves people emotionally depleted. Recognizing Bare Minimum Effort (00:06:42) She challenges listeners to stop accepting minimal investment while offering their highest level of love and commitment. When Attraction Stops Blinding You (00:07:58) Toi shares how recognizing that attraction alone isn't enough helps reveal unhealthy relationship dynamics. Final Mic Drop: Attached to Potential (00:09:46) The episode concludes with a powerful reflection on confusing attachment to someone's potential with genuine love.   Powerful Quotes from the Episode "If a person is not putting action behind that potential, then that's all it is, is potential." "You're just giving out your energy for free." "The moment you realize that the attraction isn't enough, that's when the distraction disappears." "I wasn't addicted to him. I was attached to who I thought he would become." "You have to realize that you weren't addicted to that person. You got attached to their potential."   RESOURCES: Connect With Me: Toi Waddles Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/toiwaddles?mibextid=wwXIfr Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unbecomingmewithtoi/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@unbecomingmewithtoi FOLLOW THE PODCAST: Unbecoming Me with Toi on Apple Podcasts and Spotify   "Don't fall in love with someone's potential—fall in love with their consistency."   Podcast Produced and edited by the team at ResilientVoiceMedia.com Contact us for expert podcast production and support.

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Unbecoming Me is a personal journey of shedding who we were told to be and growing into who we truly are. Hosted by Toi Waddles, this podcast explores healing after heartbreak, navigating lonely seasons, rebuilding self-worth, and learning to care for yourself in real and meaningful ways. Through honest stories and heartfelt reflection, Toi invites you to release old identities, face your truth, and step into your becoming — one layer at a time. If you're in a season of change, transformation, or rediscovery, you're not alone. This is where your unbecoming begins.

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  • Creator
    Toi Waddles
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    25
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2025
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