Behind the Citgo

Joshua Torbich
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Behind the Citgo is a candid, high-impact podcast exploring the real stories, hard truths, and transformative journeys within the world of recovery, leadership, and community change. Each episode features seasoned professionals, frontline practitioners, and individuals with lived experience, sharing insights that challenge assumptions, spark dialogue, and illuminate the path toward lasting transformation.

  1. Aug 21 ·  Video

    BTC EP#32: I Tried to Be My Sister's Keeper

    In BTC EP #32: I Tried to Be My Sister’s Keeper, host Josh Torbich sits down with Jwantana Frink for a deeply personal conversation about addiction, family, grief, faith, and the painful reality of trying to save someone you love. For the first time publicly, Jwantana shares the story of her sister Lawahna’s struggle with addiction and what it was like to become the family’s “manager”—watching for warning signs, trying to keep the peace, navigating difficult conversations, and carrying the weight of knowing something was wrong while hoping she could somehow help make it right. Jwantana reflects on the moments that, looking back, revealed just how serious her sister’s addiction had become—from withdrawing from family activities to the conversations and missed opportunities that still stay with her today. The discussion explores the impact addiction has on the entire family, including codependency, intervention, shame, grief, family dynamics, enabling, recognizing the signs of substance use, and finding the courage to confront addiction before it is too late. After losing her sister, Jwantana and her family turned their pain into purpose through Blossoms Parenting and More, carrying Lawahna’s legacy forward by helping women rebuild their lives and providing support for those transitioning toward greater stability after treatment. At the heart of this episode is a message for every family affected by addiction: trust your instincts, have the difficult conversation, ask questions, seek help, and don’t allow fear or shame to keep addiction hidden. Jwantana also shares the role faith has played in carrying her through grief and closes the episode with a powerful rendition of the Lord’s Prayer. Behind the Citgo is about the conversations most people never get the chance to hear—real stories of addiction, recovery, faith, family, loss, redemption, and hope. If you or someone you love has been affected by addiction, this is a conversation you won’t want to miss. Subscribe to Behind the Citgo and turn on notifications for new episodes. #BehindTheCitgo #SistersKeeper #AddictionRecovery #AddictionAwareness #FamilyAddiction #FamilyRecovery #SubstanceUseDisorder #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionSupport #GriefAndLoss #FaithAndRecovery #ChristianRecovery #Codependency #AddictionIntervention #FamiliesOfAddicts #OvercomingAddiction #RecoveryCommunity #HopeAfterAddiction

  2. Aug 13 ·  Video

    BTC EP #31: A Communitty Behind Recovery

    What happens when a community chooses to stand behind recovery? In Episode 31 of Behind the Citgo, Josh Torbich sits down with Art Dornfeld, Mayor of the Town of Shallotte, North Carolina, to discuss how local government, law enforcement, businesses, churches, and neighbors can help create a community where people in recovery have a real opportunity to rebuild their lives. They talk about the growth of Christian Recovery Centers, the importance of faith-based recovery, second chances, employment opportunities, and the impact people in recovery are making throughout Shallotte and Brunswick County. The conversation also explores how strong partnerships between recovery organizations and the surrounding community can create a model that other towns can learn from. Subscribe to Behind the Citgo for conversations about addiction, recovery, faith, leadership, and the people working to make lasting change possible. #BehindTheCitgo #AddictionRecovery #Recovery #ChristianRecoveryCenters #FaithBasedRecovery #ShallotteNC #BrunswickCountyNC #SecondChances #RecoveryCommunity #ChristianRecovery

  3. Aug 9 ·  Video

    BTC EP #30: Identity First - Prevention for our next generation

    What if addiction prevention starts long before drugs or alcohol ever enter the picture? In Episode 30 of Behind the Citgo, Josh Torbich sits down with Pastor Jordan Hise of Highest Praise Church and Southeastern Christian Academy to discuss why helping young people establish a strong identity in Christ may be one of the most powerful forms of prevention. They explore how parents, churches, schools, and communities can reinforce a consistent message about identity and purpose while preparing young people to face peer pressure, social media, temptation, adversity, and the pressures of growing up. The conversation also examines the difference between simply trying to change behavior and building an identity strong enough to guide decisions when life gets difficult. Identity is prevention. If we want to change the future of addiction, we have to reach the next generation before they ever need recovery. Subscribe to Behind the Citgo for conversations about addiction recovery, prevention, faith, family, and the issues shaping our communities. #BehindTheCitgo #AddictionPrevention #YouthPrevention #ChristianParenting #IdentityInChrist #FaithAndFamily #AddictionRecovery #MentalHealth #ChristianPodcast #YouthMinistry #Parenting #NextGeneration

  4. Jul 31 ·  Video

    BTC EP #29: God Sent A Hurricane to Get Me Sober

    Aaron Martin’s addiction began in middle school and eventually cost him his military career, marriage, home, and relationship with his children. His turning point came when he found himself barefoot, homeless, and alone during Hurricane Matthew. In this episode of Behind the Citgo, Aaron shares how that desperate night led him to detox, long-term treatment at Christian Recovery Centers, and a complete transformation through faith, surrender, and recovery. Today, Aaron has rebuilt his relationship with his children, created a loving family, become a successful business leader, and serves others through church ministry and Bible studies inside the New Hanover County Jail. This powerful addiction recovery testimony is a reminder that no person is too broken and no situation is beyond God’s ability to restore. Subscribe to Behind the Citgo for honest conversations about addiction, recovery, faith, treatment, leadership, and family restoration. Listen on all major podcast platforms, including Apple Podcasts, Spotify, iHeartRadio, Amazon Music, YouTube Music, Player FM, Podchaser, Boomplay, and other major listening platforms. #BehindTheCitgo #AddictionRecovery #RecoveryStory #ChristianRecovery #FaithBasedRecovery #HurricaneMatthew #GodOfRestoration #Sobriety #AddictionTestimony #RecoveryPodcast

  5. Jul 23 ·  Video

    BTC EP #28: Unbroken - Women Rising from Addiction and Exploitation

    Addiction and human trafficking are often deeply connected—but the path to freedom begins when someone is willing to build a relationship, earn trust, and remain present until a survivor is ready for help. In BTC EP #28: Unbroken – Women Rising from Addiction and Exploitation, host Josh Torbich sits down with Beverly Weeks, CEO of Wayne Pregnancy Center and Cry Freedom Missions, for a powerful conversation about addiction, sexual exploitation, human trafficking, trauma, faith, and long-term recovery. Beverly shares how an encounter with a young woman living in addiction and exploitation changed the direction of her ministry. What began as street and hotel outreach eventually grew into a comprehensive effort serving women who are vulnerable to trafficking or actively being exploited. This episode explores the realities that often remain hidden from public view: women exchanging sex for drugs, food, shelter, or survival; traffickers using addiction, fraudulent promises, psychological coercion, and fear to maintain control; and survivors who may not initially recognize that they are being trafficked. Beverly also explains why rescue is rarely a single moment. Meaningful intervention often requires repeated contact, patience, trauma-informed care, addiction treatment, safe housing, vocational opportunities, spiritual support, and relationships built over time. Beverly shares several difficult but important survivor stories that demonstrate how addiction and exploitation can affect people from every type of family and community. She also explains why survivors sometimes return to dangerous environments—and why organizations must be prepared to continue offering support without judgment. At the center of the episode is a clear message: lasting freedom requires more than removing someone from an immediate crisis. Survivors need safety, healing, purpose, community, practical support, and the opportunity to rebuild their lives. Cry Freedom Missions provides emergency placement, case management, long-term residential support, trauma-informed services, vocational training, addiction-recovery resources, and faith-centered care for individuals affected by human trafficking and exploitation. Learn More or Request Assistance Cry Freedom Missions: https://cryfreedommissions.com Cry Freedom Missions Hotline: 919-988-9262 If someone is in immediate danger, contact 911 or the appropriate local law-enforcement agency. Suspected trafficking can also be reported anonymously.

  6. Jul 16 ·  Video

    BTC EP #27: Rare of Breed Episode

    In BTC Episode #27, Josh Torbich sits down with Rob Hardin of Rare of Breed for a powerful conversation about addiction, redemption, identity, perseverance, and the transforming power of faith in Jesus Christ. Rob shares the remarkable story of being removed from his home and entering foster care at eight years old, using poetry and music to process childhood trauma, struggling with drug addiction as a teenager, attending Tar Heel ChalleNGe Academy, facing incarceration, and ultimately reaching a life-changing moment of surrender. On September 4, 2011, Rob and his future wife walked to an altar together, surrendered their lives to Christ, and were baptized. That decision changed the direction of their lives and became the foundation of a ministry that would eventually reach millions of people through music, concerts, prison tours, and Rare of Breed’s distinctive blend of Christian rap, country, Southern rock, and faith-filled storytelling known as “God Twang.” Rob also discusses the ten years of unseen work that preceded his success, the importance of developing strong spiritual roots, the temptation to quit, the role his wife played in encouraging him, and why lasting purpose requires faithfulness long before anyone sees the results. Behind the Citgo is also available on major podcast and streaming platforms, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Audible, iHeartRadio, and other leading podcast services. Search for Behind the Citgo on your preferred listening platform and follow the show for future episodes. #BehindTheCitgo #RareOfBreed #RobHardin #GodTwang #ChristianRecovery #AddictionRecovery #RecoveryPodcast #ChristianPodcast #FaithBasedRecovery #ChristianMusic #ChristianRap #CountryRap #RecoveryTestimony #RedemptionStory #FosterCareSurvivor #PrisonMinistry #IdentityInChrist #FaithAndRecovery #JesusChangesEverything #WeDoRecover

  7. Jul 9 ·  Video

    BTC EP #26: Eric Machado - A Fearless Inventory

    In this episode of Behind the Citgo, Josh sits down with Eric Machado, Assistant Director of the men’s program and a proud graduate of Christian Recovery Centers, Inc., for a powerful conversation about recovery, honesty, accountability, and the life-changing work of Step Four. Titled “A Fearless Inventory,” this episode explores what it really means to make a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Eric shares from personal experience about facing resentment, shame, fear, guilt, responsibility, damaged relationships, and the difficult but rewarding process of getting honest about the past. Together, Josh and Eric discuss why so many people struggle with Step Four, why accountability matters, and how the Twelve Steps help create room for healing, faith, humility, and a new way of living. This conversation is especially meaningful for anyone walking through addiction recovery, sponsoring someone in a Twelve Step program, supporting a loved one in recovery, or trying to better understand the spiritual and emotional work behind lasting sobriety. Eric’s story is a reminder that recovery is not about pretending the past did not happen. It is about facing it honestly, allowing God to work through it, and choosing to live differently one day at a time. Behind the Citgo is where we pull back the curtain on the unseen truth of addiction recovery and talk about the things most people never get the chance to see. It is real, raw, honest, and rooted in faith and hope—because we do recover. Watch or listen to Behind the Citgo on YouTube, Spotify, Apple Podcasts, iHeartRadio, and Audible. Subscribe for more real conversations about addiction recovery, Christian recovery, the Twelve Steps, testimony, transformation, faith, leadership, and life after addiction. #BehindTheCitgo #AddictionRecovery #ChristianRecovery #RecoveryPodcast #TwelveSteps #StepFour #FearlessInventory #AARecovery #SoberLiving #RecoveryTestimony #FaithBasedRecovery #ChristianRecoveryCenters #Sobriety #RecoveryJourney #WeDoRecover

  8. Jul 3 ·  Video

    BTC EP #25: The Shepherd and the Streets - Pastor Caleb McCall’s Call to Recovery

    In BTC EP #25: The Shepherd and the Streets - Pastor Caleb McCall’s Call to Recovery, Josh Torbich sits down with Pastor Caleb McCall for a powerful conversation about addiction recovery, faith, family, ministry, and the call to reach people in the trenches. Pastor Caleb McCall shares his testimony of growing up in a Christian home, being introduced to drugs and alcohol at a young age, years of addiction, jail, brokenness, and the life-changing moment that led him into faith-based recovery. From Teen Challenge to launching Be the Bush Ministries, Miriam House, and Legacy Church, Caleb’s story is a testimony of redemption, obedience, and the power of God to rebuild a life from the ground up. In this episode, Josh and Caleb talk openly about the realities of recovery ministry, the importance of spiritual leadership, marriage after recovery, building healthy systems, helping families heal, and what it means to serve people who are rebuilding everything. They also discuss the challenges of pastoring, the need for balance, the role of grace, and why faith-based recovery still matters for people battling addiction today. This conversation is raw, honest, faith-filled, and deeply practical for anyone in recovery, anyone serving in ministry, or anyone who loves someone struggling with addiction. Topics covered in this episode: Pastor Caleb McCall’s addiction recovery testimony Teen Challenge and long-term faith-based recovery Be the Bush Ministries and Miriam House Legacy Church and recovery-friendly ministry Marriage, family, and rebuilding life after addiction Spiritual leadership in recovery ministry Grace, structure, discipline, and balance Why faith-based recovery changes lives Expanding recovery ministry into new communities The power of testimony, discipleship, and the Gospel Subscribe to Behind the Citgo for real conversations about addiction recovery, faith, leadership, ministry, and the unseen stories behind transformation. #BehindTheCitgo #AddictionRecovery #FaithBasedRecovery #ChristianRecovery #RecoveryPodcast #PastorCalebMcCall #BeTheBushMinistries #LegacyChurch #MiriamHouse #RecoveryTestimony #TeenChallenge #JoshTorbich #ChristianPodcast #AddictionMinistry #RecoveryIsPossible

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Behind the Citgo is a candid, high-impact podcast exploring the real stories, hard truths, and transformative journeys within the world of recovery, leadership, and community change. Each episode features seasoned professionals, frontline practitioners, and individuals with lived experience, sharing insights that challenge assumptions, spark dialogue, and illuminate the path toward lasting transformation.

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  • Creator
    Joshua Torbich
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    34
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © Copyright 2025 All rights reserved.
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