Where I am right now

Kassandra

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Where I Am Right Now is a raw, real-time audio journal of living through breast cancer. Hosted by Kassandra, this podcast is unpolished and honest, a place to speak freely while still inside the experience. This space is for honest conversations, emotional processing, and the in-between moments that don’t fit into updates or captions.

May 21

Episode 16: In my radiation era ...

In this episode, I’m talking about the part of cancer treatment that feels quieter… but somehow still consumes your entire life. I’m currently 6 out of 19 rounds into radiation, and I wanted to share what this phase has actually been like physically, mentally, and emotionally. From the daily routine of radiation, to the exhaustion that slowly builds, to feeling like life is supposed to be “normal” again when you’re still very much in it. This episode is about the emotional weight of continuing treatment after you thought the hardest part might be over, and learning how to keep showing up anyway. 6 down. 13 to go.

22 min
May 8

Episode 15: What I’d Tell Myself at the Beginning

In this episode, I asked a simple but deeply meaningful question in one of my breast cancer support groups: “What is one thing you would tell yourself when you were just starting this journey?” The responses… they were honest, raw, and comforting. The kind of words you don’t always hear from doctors or even the people closest to you, but the ones that come from women who have actually lived it. Today, I’m reading through those answers. If you’re newly diagnosed, I hope this feels like a hand to hold. If you’re further along, you might hear something that takes you right back… or something that reminds you how far you’ve come; just know that you’re not doing this alone.

12 min
May 4

Episode 14: The Next Phase; My First Round of Kadcyla

After finishing six rounds of chemo, I thought I was stepping into a lighter part of treatment, but the journey isn’t over yet. In this episode, I’m sharing what it felt like to start my first round of Kadcyla, the targeted chemo I’ll be on for the next year. I talk about what my symptoms have been so far. and I explain a bit about what Kadcyla actually is and what makes it "targeted" chemo. This phase looks different and I’m learning how to navigate it in real time. If you’re entering a new stage of treatment or adjusting to the “in-between,” this one’s for you. And to add, it always seems like there's IN BETWEEN throughout this cancer journey, seems enervating ending.

17 min
Apr 24

Episode 13: My pathology results & What comes next

In this episode, I’m sharing my pathology results after surgery, and being completely honest about how it felt hearing them. After going through chemo and even having an MRI that showed no visible tumor, I really believed I was heading toward a certain kind of outcome. But my pathology told a different story. There was still cancer present. I’m talking about what that moment was like, why I don’t think we’re always fully prepared for results that fall somewhere in the middle, and how I’ve been processing that emotionally. I’m also sharing what this means for my treatment moving forward, including why I’ll be starting Kadcyla and how the Katherine Trial plays a role in that decision. If your results haven’t looked the way you hoped, or you’ve found yourself in that “in-between” space, this episode is for you

30 min
Apr 22

Episode 12: Surgery, Healing & The Waiting Game

This episode is about the part no one really prepares you for… the waiting. I’m sharing my experience going through surgery, from the day of, to the early days of healing, and what it’s felt like physically and emotionally to slow down after everything. But more than anything, I’m talking about this in-between space… the time after surgery where you’re just waiting for pathology results and your mind doesn’t stop. The what-ifs, the hope, the fear, the lack of control… it’s all here. If you’re in this part of the journey too, you’re not alone

18 min
Apr 20

In between. After chemo and before surgery.

This week feels like a turning point. (Posting a little late due to issues) I’m heading into surgery , a lumpectomy, sentinel node removal, and having a benign mass removed, and at the same time, I’ve stepped into a new phase of treatment after my first Phesgo injection without chemo. Everything feels… different. In this episode, I’m talking about where I am right now, the mental space before surgery, the weird in-between of “not done but not where I was,” and what it felt like to walk out of treatment and not feel completely wrecked for the first time in months. It’s honest, a little all over the place, and exactly where I am in this moment.

19 min
Mar 6

I finished chemo!

n this episode I’m talking about a major milestone in my cancer journey; finishing chemotherapy. On Tuesday I completed my final round of chemo. It’s a moment I’ve been working toward since the beginning of my diagnosis, and while it feels surreal to say it out loud, it’s also a mix of emotions. While finishing chemo is a huge milestone, my journey isn’t over yet. Next comes surgery, radiation, and continuing targeted therapy. This episode is a moment to pause, reflect, and acknowledge how far I’ve come , while also looking ahead to the next steps in healing. If you’re going through something similar, I hope this conversation reminds you that you’re not alone.

28 min
Feb 26

My heart and Cancer

After navigating chemo, medications, and everything that comes with a cancer diagnosis, I’ve started experiencing heart rhythm changes that have left me feeling anxious, confused, and honestly… scared at times. I talk about atrial ectopics, AV block, high vagal tone, the “about to faint” feelings, and what it’s like when your heart doesn’t beat the way you expect it to.

24 min

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Where I Am Right Now is a raw, real-time audio journal of living through breast cancer. Hosted by Kassandra, this podcast is unpolished and honest, a place to speak freely while still inside the experience. This space is for honest conversations, emotional processing, and the in-between moments that don’t fit into updates or captions.

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Kassandra
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