Holy + Unhinged

Jac Kalaher, Jess Swearingen & Melissa Downey | St John's BFF

Where faith meets the feral and girl talk gets real. Holy + Unhinged is where we blend faith, real-life stories, conspiracies, laughter, and unfiltered conversations that normally stay in the group chat. Hosted by the women behind St John's BFF who believe you can love God, dabble in conspiracies and be unhinged. This podcast dives into faith, personal growth, relationships, business, and the chaos of everyday life — all with honesty and humor. If you're craving community, curiosity, and unfiltered conversations, Holy + Unhinged is for you. Faith-forward. Real-life. Slightly unhinged.

  1. Sep 8

    EP 14: 45 Communist Goals, Education & The New Normal

    This week on Holy + Unhinged, we're going straight into one of the most unsettling political rabbit holes we've covered yet: the 45 Communist Goals entered into the Congressional Record in 1963 and the later warnings from former Soviet propagandist Yuri Bezmenov about ideological subversion. What if the biggest political takeover doesn't happen with tanks, armies, or a dramatic coup? What if it happens slowly, over generations, by changing how people think? The conversation explores the four stages Bezmenov described: demoralization, destabilization, crisis, and normalization, and asks whether some of those ideas feel a little too familiar today. From there, things get personal. We debate public education, homeschooling, homework, how history is taught, the role parents should have in their children's lives, and whether modern culture is conditioning people to stop talking to anyone who disagrees with them. Then we get into COVID. Was the pandemic simply a historic global emergency, or did it also reveal how quickly fear, division, institutional trust, and social pressure can reshape behavior? The episode dives into vaccine mandates, political polarization, parental rights, family structure, distrust of institutions, and the growing tendency to treat disagreement like evil instead of something people can actually discuss. And underneath all of it is one big question: What happens when people become easier to control because they no longer talk to each other? In This Episode • The 45 Communist Goals • The Naked Communist and the 1963 Congressional Record • Yuri Bezmenov and ideological subversion • Demoralization, destabilization, crisis, and normalization • Education and changing cultural narratives • Public school versus homeschooling • Homework, conformity, and workforce conditioning • Political division and "us versus them" culture • Family structure and parental authority • The role of schools in shaping identity and worldview • COVID, mandates, fear, and social pressure • Institutional trust and distrust • Why admitting you were wrong can actually be a sign of growth • Independent thinking versus simply following the crowd • What "the new normal" really means As always, this episode includes personal opinions, historical claims, political discussion, and theories raised by the hosts. Do your own research, look at original sources where possible, and decide what you believe for yourself. Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a hilarious story or conspiracy theory? Send it our way. We may feature it in a future episode.

  2. Aug 25

    EP 13: 3 Meals of Shame & Underwear Adventures

    EP 13: Underwear, Walks of Shame & Friendship Boundaries How close is too close when your best friends have worn your underwear, your husband's boxers, and somehow know every humiliating story you've ever tried to forget? This week on Holy + Unhinged, the BFFs are trading conspiracy theories for confessionals, and apparently no one's dignity is safe. Melissa finally tells one of the infamous "meals of shame" stories, involving Maui, multiple carafes of wine, a promising dance-floor connection, a man we'll call Kylo Ren, an unfortunate mid-coitus nap, vomit-covered clothing, an unexpected family fish-cleaning session, and an entire next morning spent trying to escape without Uber. And somehow, that's only the beginning. The conversation spirals into airport baggage claims publicly displaying grandma panties, funeral-procession walks of shame, Kohl's fitting-room disasters, underwear-free bridal fittings, borrowed thongs, borrowed husbands' boxers, Oktoberfest wardrobe malfunctions, and the realization that there may actually be such a thing as being too comfortable with your best friends. Then, because this is still Holy + Unhinged, Jac brings it back to Scripture and the bigger conversation about shame. The takeaway? We've all had moments we'd rather erase. Some of us just happen to have witnesses who will continue retelling them for the rest of our lives. Key Topics Discussed • Melissa's legendary Maui "meals of shame" story • The night a romantic connection went very, very wrong • Life before Uber and being trapped with your bad decisions • The airport baggage claim underwear incident • Melissa's literal walk of shame beside a funeral procession • Jess getting caught pants-down in a Kohl's fitting room • Jac's underwear-free bridal fitting disaster • How close is too close when sharing underwear? • Borrowing your best friend's husband's boxers • Oktoberfest wardrobe malfunctions • Friendship, humiliation, and surviving your most embarrassing moments • Hebrews 12:2 and letting go of shame Important Lessons From This Episode Always wear underwear to Kohl's. Never assume a white sheet is opaque. If your friend says, "He's a nice guy," further investigation may still be required. Pre-Uber nightlife required significantly more commitment. And if your best friends know all your worst stories and still love you, you may have found your people. Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a hilarious story or conspiracy theory? Send it our way. We may feature it in a future episode.

  3. Aug 11

    EP 12: BFF Origins, Tartaria & Mud Floods

    EP 13: BFF Origins, Tartaria & Mud Floods What if an advanced civilization once stretched across huge portions of the world… and somehow disappeared from the history most of us were taught? This week on Holy + Unhinged, all three BFFs are finally back together. First, Jac and Jess tell the origin story of St. Johns BFF: how a simple idea for women to gather around business, faith, and friendship became an actual community, why pink became part of the brand, and how Melissa eventually got dragged in when somebody realized they needed bank accounts, technology, and Stripe links. Then things get considerably more unhinged. Dr. Jess introduces Tartaria, the historical region seen on old maps that has become the center of one of the internet's biggest hidden-history rabbit holes. Could an advanced civilization have existed and later been erased from the historical record? The conversation explores: 🏛️ Elaborate historic buildings and unexplained architecture 🌊 The "mud flood" theory 🗺️ Tartaria on historical maps ⚡ Free-energy architecture and Tesla connections ⭐ Mysterious star forts found around the world 👶 Orphan trains and repopulation theories 👁️ The Illuminati timeline 📖 Nephilim, biblical history, Revelation, and discernment The deeper the conversation goes, the bigger the questions become. Were these buildings really constructed when history says they were? Why do some old structures appear to have entire levels buried underground? Why are similarly shaped star forts found across multiple continents? And if history really is written by the winners… what happened to the stories of everyone who lost? We don't claim to have all the answers. We just have a lot of questions. Do your own research. Seek wisdom. Question everything. 👇 Tell us in the comments: Have you heard of Tartaria before? Do you think the mud flood theory has any merit? And what hidden-history rabbit hole should we investigate next? Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a hilarious story or conspiracy theory? Send it our way. We may feature it in a future episode. #HolyAndUnhinged #Tartaria #MudFlood #HiddenHistory #StarForts #AncientCivilizations #ConspiracyTheory #Nephilim #QuestionEverything #HistoryMysteries

  4. Jul 28

    EP 11: CERN, Mandela Effects & Healing Frequencies

    Is the world's most powerful particle accelerator is doing more than smashing atoms? This week on Holy & Unhinged, the crew dives headfirst into CERN, the massive research facility buried beneath the border of Switzerland and France. What begins as a discussion about particle physics quickly spirals into black holes, alternate dimensions, the Mandela Effect, biblical prophecy, time travel, and the theory that reality may have shifted while CERN was shut down. The ladies unpack what CERN claims to be studying, how the Large Hadron Collider works, and the scientific discoveries connected to the facility. But the real rabbit hole begins with CERN's unusual symbolism, including the Shiva statue outside the facility, staged ritual videos, claims about temporary black holes, and theories that the organization may be opening portals or disturbing dimensions we were never meant to access. Then the conversation turns to collective memories that do not seem to match reality. Did the Monopoly Man have a monocle? Did the Fruit of the Loom logo include a cornucopia? Are these simply false memories, or evidence that different timelines have somehow collided? Jac also connects the conversation to prophetic books, biblical end-times themes, fallen angels, portals, and the question of whether humanity is trying to rewrite an ending that has already been written. Just when the episode cannot get any stranger, Jess pulls out a 128-hertz tuning fork and begins conducting an impromptu healing session in the studio. The group experiments with sound frequencies, pressure points, nervous-system regulation, pain relief, parasite cleanses, and a toothbrush made from an African miswak root that tastes significantly worse than anyone expected. From billion-dollar particle accelerators to frequencies, prophetic dreams, gout treatments, and sticks that allegedly whiten your teeth, this episode delivers exactly the right amount of science, conspiracy, faith, and chaos. Key Topics Discussed • What CERN is and how the Large Hadron Collider works • The Higgs boson, also known as the "God particle" • Temporary black holes and theories about dimensional portals • CERN's Shiva statue and unusual symbolism • The theory that CERN caused a timeline shift • The Mandela Effect and collective false memories • Time travel, alternate realities, and biblical prophecy • Prophetic fiction and end-times symbolism • Sound healing and 128-hertz tuning forks • Vagus nerve stimulation and nervous-system regulation • Parasite cleanses, detox theories, and frequency devices • Miswak roots as natural toothbrushes Questions Raised Could CERN be affecting more than particle physics? Why do so many people remember the same details that apparently never existed? Are Mandela Effects simply flaws in human memory, or signs of overlapping timelines? Could sound frequencies influence pain, stress, or the nervous system? And why does every Holy & Unhinged episode eventually turn into an unauthorized medical experiment? Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a hilarious story or conspiracy theory? Send it our way. We may feature it in a future episode.

  5. Jul 14

    EP 10: Project Bluebeam, Aliens & One World Government

    EP 10: Project Blue Beam, One World Government & Revelation Episode Description What if the biggest event in human history isn't an alien invasion... but a carefully orchestrated illusion? This week on Holy & Unhinged, the ladies dive into one of the internet's most controversial conspiracy theories: Project Blue Beam. The conversation explores the alleged four-stage plan involving holograms, AI, satellites, mind manipulation, and the possibility of a manufactured global event designed to unite the world under one government. From there, the discussion expands into the Book of Revelation, biblical prophecy, discernment, digital currencies, global identification systems, media manipulation, and whether today's technology is creating conditions that previous generations could never have imagined. Is Project Blue Beam real? Could governments stage an event using advanced technology? How should Christians approach conspiracy theories while remaining grounded in Scripture? The conversation doesn't claim to have all the answers—but it asks some fascinating questions. As always, we encourage everyone to do their own research, think critically, and seek wisdom above fear. Key Topics Discussed • What is Project Blue Beam? • The alleged four stages of the conspiracy • One World Government theories • AI, satellites, holograms, and emerging technology • The Book of Revelation and biblical prophecy • Spiritual discernment versus fear • Digital currencies and financial control • The role of media in shaping public perception • Preparing spiritually instead of panicking Highlights 00:00 Project Blue Beam explained 04:55 Holograms, AI, and global deception 11:28 Revelation, discernment, and biblical prophecy 18:10 Digital currency, surveillance, and one-world systems 25:34 Could governments fake a global event? 34:42 Florida, real estate, uncertainty, and preparing for the future 43:20 Final thoughts on faith over fear Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a hilarious story or conspiracy theory? Send it our way. We may feature it in a future episode.

  6. Jun 30

    EP 09: Vatican, Brain Scans & Zero Gravity Beds

    EP 09: Vatican, Brain Scans & Zero Gravity Beds ~ Holy & Unhinged What if some of history's biggest secrets have been hiding in plain sight? This week on Holy & Unhinged, Melissa goes down a late-night rabbit hole that starts with the Vatican and quickly spirals into Roman history, hidden symbolism, mystery schools, Egyptian obelisks, serpent architecture, and the theory that the Roman Empire never truly disappeared—it simply rebranded itself. The conversation explores everything from St. Peter's Basilica and the Sistine Chapel to the strange symbolism surrounding the Vatican, why world leaders continue to visit, and whether religion, government, and global power may be more connected than most people realize. Along the way, the hosts discuss spiritual discernment, New Age practices, inherited spiritual strongholds, and why asking questions doesn't mean abandoning faith. As if things weren't unhinged enough, the episode pivots into brain mapping technology, ADHD discoveries, multitasking myths, wellness trends, float therapy, and why one hour in a zero-gravity float tank might be the equivalent of three hours of restorative sleep. Whether you love history, conspiracy theories, neuroscience, or simply enjoy questioning everything you've been told, this episode is guaranteed to send you down a rabbit hole of your own. Key Topics Discussed • The hidden history of the Vatican • Did the Roman Empire ever really fall? • Egyptian obelisks and ancient symbolism • Mystery schools and modern New Age movements • Spiritual discernment, witchcraft, and inherited spiritual strongholds • The serpent architecture conspiracy surrounding the Vatican • Brain mapping, ADHD, and how different brains process information • Why multitasking may actually be hurting your productivity • Float therapy, wellness technology, and optimizing brain health Highlights 00:00 Melissa's Vatican rabbit hole begins 05:20 The theory that the Roman Empire never truly disappeared 11:10 Obelisks, pagan symbolism, and the Vatican's mysterious architecture 16:35 Spiritual discernment, New Age practices, and inherited spiritual strongholds 22:40 The serpent-shaped Vatican audience hall and hidden symbolism 24:30 Brain mapping, ADHD, and surprising scan results 30:05 Zero gravity float therapy and optimizing brain health Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a conspiracy theory, unexplained experience, or fascinating rabbit hole we should dive into? Send it our way! Your topic might just become the focus of a future Holy & Unhinged episode.

  7. Jun 16

    EP 08: Daddy Ball, Sideline Saints & Parents Gone Wild

    What happens when youth sports stop being about the kids? In this episode of Holy & Unhinged, the crew dives into the wild world of youth athletics, where screaming coaches, sideline drama, Daddy Ball, referee abuse, and thousand-dollar tournament weekends seem to have become part of the game. The conversation starts with a story about a coach berating a young player until a complete stranger finally stepped in. From there, Jess shares her frustrations with playing-time politics, Jac pulls back the curtain on what it's really like helping run a youth lacrosse league, and Tracy offers the perspective of a longtime referee, coach, and sports parent who has witnessed the evolution of youth sports firsthand. Things really heat up when the group discusses coaches who forget they're talking to children, including one memorable coach who told a group of young players he didn't care if Jesus Christ Himself told them to go left if he said go right. The conversation also tackles referee abuse, travel team culture, the psychology behind positive versus negative coaching, and the staggering costs families and nonprofit leagues face just to keep kids on the field. At the end of the day, the group comes back to one simple question: Are we raising athletes? Or are we raising great humans? Key Topics Discussed • Daddy Ball and playing-time favoritism • Coaches who motivate versus coaches who intimidate • The coach who brought Jesus into a football practice • Referee abuse and sideline meltdowns • The psychology of positive coaching • Recreational sports versus elite travel teams • The rising cost of youth athletics • Running a nonprofit youth sports league • Why youth sports should still be fun Highlights 00:00 A coach gets called out for berating a child 04:35 Daddy Ball and playing-time politics 10:48 The infamous "Jesus told you to go left" coaching story 17:42 Referees, parents, and sideline chaos 24:30 Jac shares what it's really like running a youth lacrosse league 31:05 Travel teams, tournament weekends, and exploding costs 38:15 Did youth sports lose their way? Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Podcast IG: @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW Have a hilarious youth sports story, sideline meltdown, or Daddy Ball experience? Send it our way. We may feature it in a future episode.

  8. May 19

    EP 07: The Firmament, Natural Deodorant & AI Water Crisis

    What if the government tried to break the dome… and ChatGPT accidentally confirmed it? In this episode of Holy & Unhinged, Melissa, Jac, Jess, and Tracy somehow begin with a passionate debate about natural deodorant and end up unraveling Cold War conspiracies, flat earth theories, AI water consumption, biblical cosmology, and whether humanity is slowly losing the ability to fact-check itself. The episode kicks off with the very real struggle of trying to find a natural deodorant that does not immediately ruin your life. Dr. Squatch enters the chat. Chlorophyll supplements make an appearance. Someone suggests carrying baking soda puff pads for your armpits. A business idea is almost born. Then the BFFs dive headfirst into Project Fishbowl, a real 1960s military operation involving high-altitude nuclear testing during the Cold War. What begins as a discussion about government missile defense quickly spirals into theories about "breaking the dome," Genesis verses about the firmament, and a viral ChatGPT experiment where users asked AI to create an image of Earth using only biblical descriptions. The results? Disturbingly similar dome-like worlds appearing over and over again. Things get even weirder when one of the hosts shares a deeply personal therapy and prayer vision involving Jesus, a circular library, giant bookshelves, and resting beneath a dome containing the sun and moon. Somehow the image looked nearly identical to the AI-generated earth maps the internet has been obsessing over. The conversation shifts again into AI infrastructure and whether massive data centers are secretly contributing to global water shortages. The group debates reports claiming ChatGPT consumes enormous amounts of water to cool servers, compares AI usage to cheeseburgers and milk production, and breaks down the growing concerns surrounding Corpus Christi's water crisis and the future of resource consumption. And because this is Holy & Unhinged, the episode also includes: live conspiracy debunking The Simpsons predicting dome theory why monkeys still exist if evolution is true whether AI is creating floods through evaporation cycles and Tracy quietly playing Snake in the background while everyone spirals into theological chaos. Somewhere between scripture, science, conspiracy TikTok, and deodorant trauma, the BFFs accidentally stumble into one of their most thought-provoking conversations yet. Key topics discussed Project Fishbowl and Cold War nuclear testing Flat earth and biblical firmament theories The viral ChatGPT Bible earth image prompt Genesis verses connected to the structure of Earth Faith science and creation debates AI water usage and data center concerns Corpus Christi water shortages and AI infrastructure Natural deodorant struggles and aluminum concerns Live conspiracy debunking and internet misinformation Therapy visions prayer and spiritual rest Highlights 00:00 Natural deodorant struggles begin 02:00 Dr. Squatch chlorophyll and armpit chaos 05:00 Project Fishbowl and breaking the dome 07:00 Genesis the firmament and biblical cosmology 09:00 The viral ChatGPT earth image experiment 12:00 A therapy vision involving Jesus and the dome 16:00 AI water consumption and data center debates 20:00 Corpus Christi water crisis discussion 24:00 Cheeseburgers vs ChatGPT water usage 27:00 Tracy plays Snake while conspiracy theories escalate 30:00 Live debunking internet misinformation 33:00 Final thoughts on faith science and questioning everything Connect with us! Jess Swearingen "Big or Small, She Sells it All" IG Handle: @jessicaswearingen.realtor Melissa Downey "Feral but Forgiven" IG Handle: @casuallyspontaneous Jac Kalaher "You Were Built on Purpose, For a Purpose" IG Handle: @jac.kalaher Also our podcast IG is @holyandunhingedbff SUBSCRIBE & LEAVE A 5-STAR REVIEW if you love real conversations, conspiracy rabbit holes, faith-filled chaos, and friends who somehow turn deodorant into theology. #HolyAndUnhinged #Podcast #ProjectFishbowl #FlatEarth #BiblicalCosmology #AI #ChatGPT #ColdWar #ConspiracyPodcast #FaithAndScience #ChristianPodcast #CorpusChristi #WaterCrisis #DrSquatch #NaturalDeodorant #BibleTheory #UnfilteredPodcast #WomenPodcast #Jacksonville #FeralButForgiven

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Where faith meets the feral and girl talk gets real. Holy + Unhinged is where we blend faith, real-life stories, conspiracies, laughter, and unfiltered conversations that normally stay in the group chat. Hosted by the women behind St John's BFF who believe you can love God, dabble in conspiracies and be unhinged. This podcast dives into faith, personal growth, relationships, business, and the chaos of everyday life — all with honesty and humor. If you're craving community, curiosity, and unfiltered conversations, Holy + Unhinged is for you. Faith-forward. Real-life. Slightly unhinged.