The Stories We Leave You

Ryann and Julie Beck
  • 5.0 (6)
  • Personal Journals

Between coming out, building a family and breaking cycles, we don’t know what the fck we’re doing but we sure as hell aren’t going to shut up about it.  The Stories We Leave You shares the messy, heartbreaking, and healing moments that make us who we are and make you say “holy sh*t same.” Expect a little chaos, a lot of honesty and the kind of raw, unfiltered storytelling you needed to hear growing up. You might cry from laughing, or just flat out cry but no matter what, you’re going to feel something (for once). 

  1. 3d ago

    "Married Shmaried" | Falling for a Married Woman, Coming Out & Our Rocky Beginning

    In this episode, we’re finally telling the full story of how we got together—and spoiler alert: it was messy. What started as a friendship through a summer job turned into flirting, late-night conversations, complicated feelings, and a relationship that definitely didn’t take the easy road. We take you back to 2006 and 2007, when we first met working at summer camp, became friends, and eventually found ourselves developing feelings for each other under less-than-ideal circumstances. We talk honestly about navigating attraction, coming out, marriage, divorce, guilt, heartbreak, and all the bad decisions we made along the way. If you've ever looked back at your younger self and thought, "What the hell was I doing?" this episode will probably feel familiar. We also dive into the reality of ending a long-term relationship, grieving a marriage even when you know it's the right decision, and the complicated emotions that come with discovering your identity later than expected. From awkward first dates and emotional conversations to breakups, moving away, and questioning everything, this is the beginning of a love story that almost didn't survive its first chapter. This episode is part one of our relationship origin story—a raw, honest look at how two very imperfect people somehow found their way to each other. There are plenty of laughs, a little cringe, and more than a few moments where we wonder how we're still together nearly twenty years later. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    29 min

  2. Jun 3

    "Sad Little Pancakes" | Big Boobs, Breastfeeding & Body Image at Every Size

    In this episode, we’re talking about boobs—loving them, hating them, feeding babies with them, and in Ryann’s case, getting rid of them altogether. What starts as a funny conversation about aging bodies and “sad little pancake boobs” quickly turns into a deeper discussion about breastfeeding struggles, body image, gender dysphoria, and the complicated relationships we can have with our bodies. Julie opens up about her experiences trying to breastfeed all four of their children, the emotional toll of pumping for years, postpartum struggles, tongue ties, feeding specialists, formula guilt, and donating breast milk to other families. The conversation explores the pressure many parents feel around infant feeding and the reality that sometimes the “natural” thing doesn’t come naturally at all. Ryann shares what it was like growing up with an extremely large chest, the physical pain and limitations that came with it, and the journey from wanting a breast reduction to ultimately realizing top surgery was the right decision. Together, they discuss body image, gender identity, chest dysphoria, breast reduction versus top surgery, and how differently people can feel about the same body part. This episode is funny, honest, emotional, and surprisingly relatable—whether you’ve breastfed, formula fed, struggled with body image, considered surgery, or just have complicated feelings about your own body. It’s a conversation about expectations, identity, and learning to make peace with the body you’re living in. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    34 min

  3. May 27

    "Luckily They Weren't D*cks" | Meeting My Half-Sister, Deadbeat Dads & Family Reunions

    In part two of this unexpected family story, we finally meet the half-sister Julie discovered through a DNA testing website—and things get even more emotional. After weeks of processing the shock of learning she existed, Julie shares what it was like preparing to meet her 16-year-old sister for the very first time. From the nerves and overthinking leading up to the visit, to instantly clicking during a chaotic birthday weekend with kids, reptiles, and family dinners, this episode captures the strange mix of emotions that comes with building a relationship with someone who is technically family… but also still a complete stranger. We also dive into one of the hardest parts of the entire experience: bringing her sister to meet their biological father in the hospital. Julie opens up about the anxiety of seeing her dad again after years of no contact, the complicated feelings surrounding his addiction and abusive past, and the painful reality of watching her sister realize in real time that their father still seems emotionally disconnected. This episode explores the emotional fallout of abandonment, the long-term impact of toxic family dynamics, and the complicated question of whether people who hurt us should ever truly be held accountable. Throughout the conversation, we talk about therapy, emotional processing, family trauma, and the unexpected responsibility that can come with discovering a sibling later in life. There’s humor, awkwardness, honesty, and a lot of reflection about what family actually means when biology, abandonment, and healing all collide at once. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    23 min

  4. May 20

    "Your Dad Was a Big Old Slut" | DNA Tests, Half-Siblings & Family Secrets Revealed

    In this episode, we share one of the wildest plot twists our family has experienced so far: finding out Julie has a 16-year-old half-sister she never knew existed. What started as a casual search into ancestry and possible Canadian citizenship quickly turned into a shocking DNA discovery through AncestryDNA. We talk through the moment the “half-sister” match appeared, the emotional spiral that followed, and the complicated reality of learning your estranged, drug-addicted father secretly had another child. As the story unfolds, we dive into the messy emotions surrounding family secrets, generational trauma, addiction, and what happens when DNA testing changes someone’s entire identity overnight. Julie opens up about her dad’s history with addiction, infidelity, and abandonment, while also navigating the guilt, curiosity, anger, and hope that come with suddenly gaining a sibling later in life. We also talk about the emotional weight of meeting a biological sibling for the first time, how this impacts existing family relationships, and the unexpected way this discovery may force Julie to finally confront her father again after years of no contact. This episode is part family mystery, part emotional processing, and part “this sounds fake but somehow it’s real.” From awkward Facebook stalking and therapy breakthroughs to preparing for an emotional first meeting, this conversation explores how complicated family connections can be—and how DNA tests can completely rewrite the story you thought you knew about your life. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    33 min

  5. May 13

    "Suck My F*ing Ahole" | Couples Communication, Conflict Styles & Learning to Fight Fair

    In this episode, we dive into one of the biggest reasons relationships either survive or completely fall apart: communication. After nearly 20 years together, we’re talking honestly about how our completely opposite personalities, childhood experiences, and conflict styles have shaped our marriage—for better and for worse. From explosive arguments and shutting down emotionally, to learning how to actually communicate without destroying each other in the process, this episode is a very real look at what long-term relationships actually take behind the scenes. We get into the ways childhood trauma and family dynamics still show up in adulthood, especially in the way we handle conflict, process emotions, and respond during arguments. We talk about attachment styles, emotional reactions, therapy, people-pleasing, conflict avoidance, and how growing up in very different households created very different communication habits. There’s also plenty of chaos and humor along the way—including “suck my f*****g a*****e,” raining coupon inserts during a fight, and the realization that maybe we weren’t exactly relationship experts in our twenties. This episode is part relationship therapy, part comedy, and part “how the hell are we still together?” conversation. Whether you’re in a long-term marriage, navigating communication struggles with your partner, or just trying to unlearn unhealthy patterns from childhood, this one will probably feel painfully relatable. We’re not experts—but we have survived almost two decades together, and honestly, that feels worth talking about. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    35 min

  6. May 6

    Holiday Jews & Paper Towel Fights | Growing Up Jewish, Family Dysfunction & Suburban Chaos

    In this episode, we shift perspectives and dive into Ryann’s childhood—offering a very different experience from the trauma-filled upbringing shared in previous episodes. Ryann reflects on growing up in a suburban, middle-class household, where life looked “normal” from the outside but still came with its own challenges. From parents who met on a blind date and quickly knew they’d get married, to a dad who traveled frequently for work and a mom who held everything together at home, this episode explores the dynamics that shaped Ryann’s early life and personality. We get into the realities of growing up with a parent who was often away, the impact of a loud household filled with arguments, and how those experiences influence relationships and communication styles as adults. Ryann also shares what it was like being diagnosed with ADHD as a child, struggling in school, and constantly comparing themself to an older sibling who seemed to have it all together. The conversation highlights how even in “good” childhoods, there are layers of emotional complexity, sibling dynamics, and unmet needs that stick with you into adulthood. We also talk about family relationships—what it looked like growing up with an older brother they never fully connected with, navigating strict parenting and teenage rebellion, and the role grandparents and extended family played in shaping a sense of stability. This episode is a reminder that not all trauma looks the same, and even seemingly typical upbringings can leave lasting impressions on how we show up in relationships, parenting, and everyday life. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    29 min

  7. Apr 29

    "Oh, That's Just the Meth Lab" | Drug Addiction, Family Secrets & Growing Up Too Fast

    In this deeply personal and emotional episode, we continue the story with Part 2 of Julie’s childhood—diving into the reality of growing up with a parent struggling with drug addiction, abuse, and instability. From discovering her dad’s meth use to witnessing the paranoia, manipulation, and fear that followed, this episode paints a raw and honest picture of what life looked like behind closed doors. Julie shares what it was like living in isolation, navigating unsafe situations, and even making the terrifying decision to call 911 when things escalated. As the story unfolds, we get into the aftermath—her mom’s incredibly brave decision to work with the DEA, the arrest, and the complicated emotions that come with loving someone who caused so much harm. This episode doesn’t shy away from the long-term impact of childhood trauma, including fear that followed into adulthood, struggles with boundaries, and the ongoing process of healing. It’s a powerful conversation about survival, resilience, and the messy reality of holding both truth and empathy for a parent who caused pain. We also talk about what it looks like now—navigating a relationship (or lack of one) with her dad as his health declines, processing guilt, and asking the hard question so many people face: do you owe someone closure just because they’re family? If you’ve ever grown up in a toxic or abusive environment, or struggled with setting boundaries with a parent, this episode will hit close to home. If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic abuse, you’re not alone. You can call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or visit thehotline.org or text START to 88788, confidential help is available 24/7. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. Home - Julie Beck LLC

    26 min

  8. Apr 22

    Growing Up Walking on Eggshells: Childhood Trauma, Abuse & Toxic Family Dynamics

    In this deeply personal episode of The Stories We Leave, we shift the focus to Julie’s childhood—growing up in a small rural town in Missouri with young parents, a close-knit family, and a life that from the outside might have looked simple. But beneath that surface was a home shaped by control, fear, and instability. Julie shares what it was like navigating an abusive household, where everything revolved around keeping the peace, and how early experiences with emotional and physical abuse impacted her sense of safety, identity, and relationships. This is part 1 of a 2-part episode, where we begin unpacking the realities of childhood trauma—living with an unpredictable parent, witnessing domestic violence, and growing up in survival mode. Julie opens up about the contrast between fear and normalcy, the role her mom played as a steady and safe presence, and how those early years shaped the way she approaches parenting, relationships, and healing today. We also start to uncover another layer of Julie’s story as the conversation leads into addiction and its role in her family dynamic—something we’ll dive deeper into in part 2. Through humor, honesty, and vulnerability, this episode highlights how even the hardest childhood experiences can lead to growth, perspective, and a commitment to doing things differently. If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic abuse, you’re not alone. You can call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or visit thehotline.org for confidential support. New episodes drop every Wednesday. Follow the show so you don’t miss what’s next, and find us on Instagram to be part of the conversation. We’d love to hear your questions! Julie is a podcast manager who helps people tell the stories they’ve been too scared to share. If you’ve been thinking about starting a podcast… this is your sign. https://juliebeckllc.com/

    45 min
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Between coming out, building a family and breaking cycles, we don’t know what the fck we’re doing but we sure as hell aren’t going to shut up about it.  The Stories We Leave You shares the messy, heartbreaking, and healing moments that make us who we are and make you say “holy sh*t same.” Expect a little chaos, a lot of honesty and the kind of raw, unfiltered storytelling you needed to hear growing up. You might cry from laughing, or just flat out cry but no matter what, you’re going to feel something (for once). 

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  • Creator
    Ryann and Julie Beck
  • Years Active
    2K
  • Episodes
    16
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2026 The Stories We Leave You
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