outfield

Robert Infield

two bestfriends discuss their lives through ten plus years of adddiction to cocaine and heroin and their recovery and how they survived the insanity of it all

  1. Oct 20

    soft approach

    The conversation revolves around the experiences of addiction, recovery, and the complexities of relationships affected by substance abuse. The speakers share personal anecdotes about their struggles with addiction, the lies they told themselves and others, and the challenges of supporting loved ones without enabling their behavior. The conversation delves into the complexities of addiction, friendship, and the moral dilemmas surrounding helping others without enabling their addictions. It explores personal experiences with substance use, the challenges of maintaining sobriety, and the importance of understanding the nuances of addiction in relationships. The conversation delves into the complexities of addiction, societal perceptions, and the struggles of sobriety, highlighting personal experiences and reflections on the impact of drugs during the COVID-19 pandemic. It also touches on themes of control, powerlessness, and the challenges of supporting others in their addiction journey. Takeaways Addiction leads to denial and liesSupporting addicts requires careful boundaries Addiction impacts friendships deeplyHelping vs. enabling is complex Addiction's grip is complexSobriety requires personal readiness Chapters 00:00 Technical Difficulties and Podcast Introduction01:53 Seasons Change: Reflections on Time02:49 The Lies We Tell: Addiction Denial05:10 Justifying Addiction: Excuses and Blame08:05 Different Paths: Coping with Hard Times11:40 Therapy and Accountability in Recovery12:30 Approaching Loved Ones with Addiction15:34 Enabling vs. Supporting: Finding the Balance18:56 Understanding the Addictive Mindset22:56 Setting Boundaries in Recovery25:56 Cruise Control: Maintaining Recovery30:41 Friendship and Addiction Dynamics35:53 Navigating Support and Enabling42:46 The Impact of Night Jobs on Recovery49:55 Boredom and Finding Healthy Hobbies56:55 Existential Thoughts on Life and Choices01:01:33 Surviving Historical Trauma01:04:14 Conspiracy Theories and Reality01:09:01 The Impact of COVID on Addiction01:21:07 Navigating the Path to Sobriety

  2. Oct 6

    what is my fault

    In this conversation, Robert Infield and Zach Sillick discuss various aspects of addiction, including personal experiences, societal perceptions, and the importance of accountability in recovery. They explore how addiction can affect anyone and the significance of understanding one's role in their circumstances. The conversation delves into the experiences of addiction, recovery, and the importance of personal accountability. It highlights the struggles of overcoming a victim mentality, the role of harm reduction strategies, and the complexities of relationships formed during addiction. The conversation delves into personal experiences with family, recovery, and the importance of accountability in life choices. It also touches on societal issues and conspiracy theories, emphasizing the need for personal responsibility and growth. Takeaways Addiction can affect anyoneAccountability is crucial in recovery Life's purpose amidst strugglesAccountability is key in recovery Accountability is crucialRecovery requires commitment Chapters 00:00 Podcast Setup and Challenges01:43 Life, Addiction, and Daylight Savings04:10 Understanding Addiction and Its Triggers22:14 The Importance of Accountability in Recovery27:04 A Close Call with Death28:33 Reflections on Life's Purpose29:53 Beliefs and Accountability30:43 Overcoming Victim Mentality32:52 The Power of Personal Responsibility34:37 Navigating Recovery and Relapse36:37 Harm Reduction Strategies39:55 The Role of Accountability in Recovery42:43 Justifying Addiction and Selfishness46:46 The Illusion of Helping Others54:07 Family Dynamics and Accountability58:50 The Journey of Recovery01:01:09 The Podcast Experience01:04:25 Conspiracy Theories and Society01:15:02 Taking Accountability for Life Choices

  3. Sep 17

    who invented curtains

    The conversation covers topics related to breaking in, the importance of a reliable tow guy, recovery and addiction, owning up to responsibility, defining bottom and recovery, the dark times and addiction, the obsessive capacity and problem solving, and reflecting on the past. The conversation delves into the wild experiences of addiction, the culture of drug use, and the implications of time travel on the lives of addicts. It also explores criminal thinking, organized crime, and humorously imagines the presence of addicts in historical contexts, including the time of Jesus and the disciples. The conversation delves into the nature of addiction, exploring the idea of rebirth and the impact of upbringing on addiction. It then transitions into a discussion about friendship, loyalty, and shared experiences. The conversation takes a controversial turn, touching on conspiracy theories, beliefs, and the business of addiction. It concludes with light-hearted banter and humor, including a discussion about handwriting and upcoming birthdays. Takeaways The importance of having a reliable tow guy for emergenciesReflection on addiction and recovery, and the impact of cult mentality in recovery programs Addiction transcends time and cultureCriminal thinking and organized crime have historical roots Addiction is an obsession of the mind, influenced by upbringing and experiences.Friendship and loyalty are enduring, even in the face of shared struggles and challenges.Conversations can transition from serious topics to lighthearted banter, reflecting the complexity of human interaction. Chapters 00:00 The Art of Breaking In03:10 The Importance of a Reliable Tow Guy05:51 Recovery and Addiction: AA and Cult Mentality06:21 Owning Up to Responsibility07:32 Defining Bottom and Recovery13:07 The Dark Times and Addiction20:54 The Obsessive Capacity and Problem Solving24:08 Reflecting on the Past26:11 The Wild West of Addiction31:19 Suicidal Acts and Drug Culture35:31 Time Traveling Addicts40:15 Criminal Thinking and Organized Crime50:50 Jesus and the Disciples52:09 The Nature of Addiction54:13 Friendship and Loyalty55:21 Controversial Conversations01:05:01 Conspiracy Theories and Beliefs01:11:35 The Business of Addiction01:18:39 Humor and Banter

  4. Sep 8

    keep doing the work

    The conversation covers topics related to addiction, recovery, social media, echo chambers, government programs for addiction, legalizing addiction, weaning off drugs, cocaine addiction, victim mentality, mental health, historical oppression, and the impact of social media on society. The discussion also delves into the concept of time and energy as a commodity, the separation and division caused by social media, and the unique challenges of addiction in the context of North Korea. The conversation covers topics related to North Korea's drug situation, personal experiences, and reflections on finding fulfillment and balance. It emphasizes the importance of hard work and the pursuit of happiness. Takeaways Addiction and RecoverySocial Media and Echo Chambers Finding fulfillment and balance is essential for happiness.Hard work is necessary for achieving worthwhile goals. Chapters 00:00 Racism and Work02:01 Podcast Naming and Overthinking03:23 Government Programs and Needle Exchange04:45 Needle Exchange and Drug Use06:15 Crack Addiction and Recovery08:22 Enjoyable Hits and Recovery09:04 Hot Takes and Controversial Statements09:48 Government Programs for Addiction10:15 Legalizing Addiction and Treatment11:16 Weaning Off Drugs and Addiction13:10 Xylazine and Drug Use14:06 Cocaine Addiction and Recovery14:28 Cocaine Use and Addiction15:28 Cocaine Use and Relationships18:47 Victim Mentality and Addiction19:18 Perpetuating Addict Mindset20:31 Social Media and Confirmation Bias21:06 Separation and Division22:03 Time and Energy as Commodity23:10 Fulfilling Life and Addiction24:12 Busy Life and Recovery25:10 Mental Health and Addiction26:28 Historical Oppression and Addiction27:28 Rich vs. Poor and Addiction28:28 Social Media and Separation29:22 Time and Energy as Commodity30:24 Social Media and Addiction31:16 Social Media and Echo Chambers33:10 North Korea and Addiction39:48 Personal Experiences and Reflections

  5. Aug 25

    no ones immune

    The conversation covers workplace frustrations, health concerns, drug use, and societal issues. It delves into personal experiences, reflections on life, and a sense of disillusionment with the world. The speaker expresses a desire to find meaning and purpose despite feeling disconnected from society. The conversation delves into the themes of finding meaning in life, the impact of past experiences, and the dynamics of personal relationships. It also touches on lucid dreaming and the behavior of pets. The conversation covers a wide range of topics, including near-death experiences, self-talk, life in jail, encounters with law enforcement, and the impact of addiction on individuals from all walks of life. Takeaways Workplace challengesHealth concerns and drug useReflections on life and society Finding meaning in lifeNavigating past experiencesPersonal relationships and dynamicsLucid dreamingPet behavior Self-talk and the need for sound or conversation as a coping mechanism.The impact of addiction on individuals from all walks of life. Chapters 00:00 Workplace Frustrations04:13 Health Concerns and Drug Use23:36 Reflections on Life and Society26:18 Finding Meaning in Life28:28 Navigating Past Experiences29:23 Personal Relationships and Dynamics30:59 Lucid Dreaming37:00 Pet Behavior50:45 Self-Talk and Coping Mechanisms52:00 Life in Jail and Encounters with Law Enforcement53:18 The Impact of Addiction on Individuals01:15:25 Relapse and Recovery

  6. Aug 16

    boredom and complacency

    The conversation covers a range of topics including personal stories, addiction, rehab experiences, and the behavior of addicts. It delves into the complexities of relationships, the impact of addiction on individuals, and the challenges of recovery. The discussion also touches on the use of drugs, the influence of security guards, and the dynamics of rehab facilities. The conversation delves into the speaker's experiences with addiction, rehab, and the chaos that comes with it. It explores the impact of complacency and the need for vigilance in recovery. The conversation delves into the challenges of recovery, the struggle with complacency, and the need to find purpose and fulfillment. It also touches on the impact of past experiences and the importance of recognizing and addressing personal weaknesses. Takeaways Addiction impacts relationshipsRehab experiences can be complex and challenging Addiction's chaos and complacencyRecognizing and addressing complacency in recovery Recovery requires finding purpose and fulfillment.Recognizing and addressing personal weaknesses is crucial for maintaining recovery. Chapters 00:00 Personal Stories and Relationships03:14 Addiction and Rehab Experiences06:37 Drug Use and Security Guards10:36 Rehab Dynamics and Recovery Challenges23:17 Influence of Addiction on Individuals30:15 The Chaos of Addiction40:03 Navigating Complacency in Recovery01:02:05 Struggle with Complacency01:05:04 Challenges of Recovery01:07:41 Impact of Past Experiences01:08:11 Recognizing Personal Weaknesses01:11:17 Finding Purpose and Fulfillment01:13:17 Addressing Personal Weaknesses01:22:08 Maintaining Recovery

  7. Aug 6

    where does the time go

    The conversation delves into the speaker's experiences with addiction, drug trade, and the impact of testosterone and steroids on behavior and decision-making. It explores the challenges of dealing with addiction, running missions, and navigating sketchy situations. Additionally, it touches on the dynamics of meeting families, drug use, and its impact on work performance. The conversation covers a wide range of topics, including experiences with steroids and bodybuilding, life after prison, struggles with work-life balance, encounters with law enforcement, life in rehab, challenges of sobriety, reckless behavior, and near misses. The discussion also delves into addiction, recovery, and personal growth, as well as the emotional instability and defensive nature of the speaker. Takeaways Addiction can lead to selfish behavior and a focus on personal gratification.The drug trade involves navigating sketchy situations and running missions to obtain drugs.The impact of testosterone and steroids on behavior and decision-making is a topic of interest and discussion. Struggles with work-life balance are common and can impact physical fitness and overall well-being.Addiction and recovery can lead to emotional instability and defensive behavior, impacting personal relationships and daily interactions. Chapters 00:00 Addiction and Selfishness03:04 Dealing with Addiction and Drug Trade05:49 Running Missions and Sketchy Situations08:59 Meeting Families and Dealing with Parents11:54 Drug Use and Work Performance28:51 Effects of Testosterone and Steroids30:41 The World of Steroids and Bodybuilding31:56 Life After Prison and Physical Fitness33:13 Struggles with Work-Life Balance34:06 Dealing with Addiction and Recovery35:34 Encounters with Law Enforcement39:03 Life in Rehab and Personal Growth50:49 Challenges of Sobriety and Emotional Instability57:14 Reckless Behavior and Near Misses

  8. Jul 22

    fentynal vaccine?

    The conversation covers a range of topics including personal experiences, encounters with law enforcement, parenting, workplace dynamics, and instant gratification. It delves into the challenges of leading by example and the impact of workplace politics and gossip. The conversation delves into reflections on recovery, personal growth, and the challenges of overcoming addiction. It also explores career aspirations, the concept of recovery coaching, and considerations around sharing personal experiences. The debate on the fentanyl vaccine, managing OCD, and navigating social interactions are also discussed, providing insights into personal struggles and growth. The conversation delves into the experiences of life in jail, encounters with smart individuals, the challenges of institutionalization and reintegration, the journey of recovery and sobriety, finding purpose and identity, different approaches to recovery, life after addiction, social dynamics and recovery, and the topic of vaccination and recovery. Takeaways Parenting and responsibilityEncounters with law enforcement Reflections on personal growth and recoveryExploring career paths and ambitions Life in jail exposes individuals to a diverse range of experiences and encounters.Recovery is a multifaceted journey that involves finding purpose, identity, and different approaches to healing. Chapters 00:00 Life and Work02:15 Highway Chase and Gunfire04:00 Parenting and Responsibility07:24 Encounters with Law Enforcement12:16 Merchandise and Instant Gratification18:13 Leading by Example19:36 Workplace Politics and Gossip26:35 Reflections on Recovery and Personal Growth27:18 Exploring Career Paths and Ambitions28:06 The Concept of Recovery Coaching29:13 Considerations on Personal Experiences and Sharing30:09 Venturing into New Career Paths31:48 Networking and Business Opportunities34:40 The Fentanyl Vaccine Debate42:26 Managing OCD and Intrusive Thoughts48:33 Navigating Social Interactions and Personal Insecurities52:46 Life in Jail54:39 Meeting Smart People in Jail56:39 Institutionalization and Reintegration57:38 Recovery and Sobriety58:08 Purpose and Identity01:02:24 Different Approaches to Recovery01:05:19 Life After Addiction01:15:27 Social Dynamics and Recovery01:18:23 Vaccination and Recovery

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two bestfriends discuss their lives through ten plus years of adddiction to cocaine and heroin and their recovery and how they survived the insanity of it all

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  • Creator
    Robert Infield
  • Years Active
    2026
  • Episodes
    18
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Robert Infield
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