Episode 1

Our Origin Story: Zan & Troy

The Sacred SoulJourners Podcast isn’t here to preach—it’s here to walk the path with you. We’re Zan and Troy—two people who didn’t just meet… we recognized each other in the fire. Through breakdowns, breakthroughs, and everything in between, we’re learning what it actually means to trust yourself, follow divine guidance, and choose love over fear. This is for the spiritually curious—the ones who’ve outgrown dogma but still crave something real. Around this fire, we talk about spiritual sovereignty, shadow work, inner child healing, and manifestation through living altars—but not as concepts… as lived experience. Nature is our teacher. The fire is our mirror. And every conversation is an invitation back to your own inner authority. If you’ve ever felt like there’s more… but no clear map— pull up a seat. Takeaways Spiritual SovereigntyCuriosity over Dogma Manifestation through altarsSpiritual guidance and intuitionInner child healing and shadow workNature as a spiritual guideJourney of self-discovery and transformation Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Sacred SoulJourners Podcast06:24 Core Themes of the Podcast12:01 Troy's Journey and Background23:05 Divine Guidance and Spiritual Exploration50:28 The Sacred Souljourner Journey

49 min

Episode 2

Waking up Spiritually | You're not Losing it - Your buckets are Full

Episode 2 drops us straight into the fire. Awakening isn’t peaceful—it’s raw, emotional, and at times… confronting. In this conversation, we open up about what happens when old patterns rise to the surface and can no longer be ignored. We explore samskaras—the emotional imprints that quietly run our reactions, our relationships, and our triggers—and what it looks like to finally see them in real time. Through our own experiences, we talk about the intensity that comes with intimacy, how love becomes the mirror for what’s unresolved, and why awakening often feels like everything is falling apart before it comes back together. This episode is about recognizing the patterns, sitting in the discomfort, and choosing to move through it instead of running from it. If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed by your emotions, triggered in love, or confused by your own reactions… this is the work. Come sit with us at the fire. Takeaways : Awakening brings emotional intensity—not just claritySamskaras are the hidden drivers behind our reactionsIntimacy reveals what still needs to be healedChildhood wounds show up in adult relationshipsAwareness is the first step—but integration is the workGratitude and acceptance shift the healing process Chapters : 00:00 Entering the Fire: Awakening & Emotional Intensity 07:00 Intimacy as the Mirror 11:54 Childhood Wounds & Repeating Patterns 35:13 Facing Aggression & Shadow in Real Time 49:00 Gratitude, Acceptance & Moving Forward

47 min

Episode 3

Stop the Story: Breaking Assumptions, how it has helped us

Episode 3 opens with a grounded prayer for peace, inviting listeners to reconnect with their hearts and step out of the noise of the world and into conscious awareness. From there, Zan and Troy dive into one of the most subtle—but destructive—patterns we all carry: the stories we create in our minds. Inspired by The Four Agreements, they unpack how assumptions and taking things personally quietly fuel conflict, disconnection, and emotional pain—especially in relationships. Through real, vulnerable moments from their own week, they reveal how quickly the mind turns uncertainty into “truth”… and how often that truth isn’t real at all. But the deeper work isn’t just awareness—it’s choice. This conversation explores: The difference between reacting from old wounds vs. responding from your higher selfHow triggers reveal unhealed parts of you, not flaws in othersWhy most conflict is rooted in miscommunication, not intentionAnd how simple tools—like pausing, asking clarifying questions, and breathing—can completely shift an outcomeTroy shares a powerful breakthrough in choosing presence over reaction in a heated moment, while Zan reflects on releasing control, victim patterns, and the habit of taking things personally. They also introduce a practical next step: creating conscious relationship agreements—a framework that replaces assumption with clarity and alignment. This episode is ultimately about reclaiming your energy. Because when you stop believing every story your mind creates… you stop giving your power away. 🔥 Refined Takeaways (Make These Hit Harder):Most suffering comes from stories—not realityAssumptions are guesses your mind turns into factsTaking things personally is often a reflection of old woundsPause > React is a life-changing practiceClarity comes through breath, presence, and awarenessHealthy relationships require clear agreements, not mind-readingYour power is in how you respond—not what happens to you⏱️ Chapters (Cleaned + Stronger Language):00:00 – Opening Prayer & Setting the Frequency 05:10 – How Assumptions Create False Reality 21:19 – Why We Take Things Personally (And How It Hurts Us) 27:05 – Breaking the Pattern: Reacting vs. Conscious Response 47:50 – Creating Relationship Agreements That Actually Work

45 min

Episode 4

Being in Flow: Activating ease & grace

Episode 4 is about what it really means to walk through the fire… and become the one who holds it. Not theory. Not spiritual fluff. This is what it looks like to live as a firekeeper of your own heart in real time. And here’s the truth… when you’re in flow—when you’re fully present and not trying to control every outcome—that’s when the magic actually happens. Recorded after a powerful weekend in Sedona, this campfire conversation is different. It’s lighter, it’s real, and it’s full of stories—moments where Zan and Troy chose flow instead of control… and watched life meet them in ways they couldn’t have planned. They share the shift from tension and emotional overwhelm into trust, alignment, and inner authority—not by getting it right, but by staying present when everything in you wants to react. This is about letting old identities burn, stepping into sacred union without earning love, and learning to move with life instead of against it. And in that space… something unexpected happens. Alignment. Synchronicity. A proposal that didn’t come from pressure—but from truth. If you’re in the in-between… if things are breaking down and you don’t fully understand why… this is the work. And flow? That’s the reward. This is the fire. 🔥

55 min

Episode 5

Powers of Love: Enduring Relationship through Loving Awareness

Episode 5 drops us straight into the fire. Love isn’t always soft—and this conversation doesn’t pretend it is. Around the fire on Sacred Souljourners, Zan and Troy sit with Heather Grace and Jason Michael of The Powers of Love to explore what it really means to be in an evolutionary relationship. This is where psychology meets lived experience—drawing from We: Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love and Evolutionary Love Relationships: Passion, Authenticity, and Activism—and bringing it into the raw, unfiltered reality of love that challenges you to grow. This isn’t theory—it’s happening in real time. As the conversation unfolds, Zan and Troy are actively processing their own patterns, triggers, and breakthroughs, revealing deeper truths as they move through them. You’ll hear what it sounds like when love becomes the mirror… when intimacy exposes what’s unresolved… and when two people choose to stay present instead of run. This is the work—messy, honest, and transformative. If you’ve ever felt triggered in love, caught in patterns you don’t fully understand, or called into something deeper than surface-level connection… come sit with us at the fire. Takeaways : • Evolutionary love challenges you to grow—not just feel good • Triggers are doorways into deeper awareness • Projection and unconscious patterns shape relationships • Intimacy reveals what still needs healing • Repair and presence are essential to conscious love • Real transformation happens through lived experience Chapters : 00:00 Entering the Fire: Love, Triggers & Awakening 07:00 Intimacy as the Mirror 12:30 Projection, Patterns & Deeper Truths 28:45 Real-Time Processing in Relationship 44:10 Repair, Compassion & Choosing Growth 58:00 Integration & Moving Forward References & Resources • Learn more about Heather & Jason: The Powers of Love https://www.thepowersoflove.com/ • We: Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love https://a.co/d/0ihvbhTc • Evolutionary Love Relationships: Passion, Authenticity, and Activism https://a.co/d/0gaGP7sR

55 min

Episode 7

Beyond the Story: Perception, Ego & the Power of Presence

Episode 7: Buckle up! What if the voice in your head… isn’t actually you? In this deeply personal campfire conversation, Zan Kavanah and Troy Hawkner explore the ego, perception, emotional triggers, and the painful realization that many of our reactions are rooted in old survival patterns—not present moment truth. Through raw stories from their own relationship, they unpack how childhood conditioning, trauma, the “pain body,” and inherited emotional programming shape the way we react, defend, control, and protect ourselves. Together, they explore what it really means to become aware of the ego while it’s happening—and how presence becomes the doorway to freedom. This episode dives into: • Why perception is not always truth • How the ego defends identity and emotional pain • The difference between reacting and responding • The “pain body” and emotional looping • Nervous system overwhelm and relationship triggers • Why awareness weakens the ego • The power of pause, presence, and conscious choice • What it means to stop “dumpster diving” through old wounds Recorded during the powerful Taurus New Moon and Fire Horse energies, this conversation is an invitation to burn away illusion, loosen the grip of the past, and remember who you are beneath the story. Resources mentioned in this episode: 📘 Eckhart Tolle – A New Earth https://www.eckharttolle.com/a-new-earth/ 🌍 Access Consciousness https://www.accessconsciousness.com/ ✨ The Clearing Statement http://www.theclearingstatement.com/ If you’ve ever found yourself reacting in ways you later regret… if you’ve felt exhausted by old emotional patterns… or if you’re learning how to stay present while everything inside you wants to defend itself—this episode is for you. Come sit by the fire. 🔥

59 min

Episode 8

Cosmic Mirrors: Astrology, Awakening & The Work of Transformation

✨ EPISODE 8 — Cosmic Mirrors: Astrology, Awakening & The Work of Transformation ✨ In this heartfelt episode of Sacred Souljourners, Zan Kavanah and Troy Hawkner sit down with astrologer Carolina Velis of Quest Mystic for an open and grounded conversation about astrology, self-awareness, personal growth, and the deeper patterns that shape our lives. Together, they explore astrology not as something to fear, but as a tool for reflection — one that can help us better understand ourselves, our relationships, our emotions, and the seasons of transformation we move through as human beings. Carolina shares insights on current planetary energy, the connection between the mind, heart, and nervous system, and how moments of challenge can become opportunities for healing, alignment, and growth. The conversation becomes deeply personal as Zan and Troy reflect on relationship patterns, emotional triggers, surrender, and the ongoing journey of becoming more conscious, compassionate, and authentic versions of themselves. Whether you’re deeply familiar with astrology or simply curious about why so many people are exploring these ancient systems today, this episode is an invitation to listen with an open mind and discover how self-awareness, reflection, and intentional living can help guide us toward greater peace, purpose, and connection. 🔥 Topics include: • Astrology as a tool for self-discovery • Emotional healing & personal growth • Relationship patterns & deeper awareness • Fear vs intuition • Nervous system healing & alignment • Manifestation, abundance & timing • Letting go of control • Following the call of awakening Come sit by the fire. 🔥 ✨ Connect with Carolina Velis & Quest Mystic: Cosmic Wealth Collective Waitlist Cosmic Wealth Collective Waitlist Money Magnet Mentor GPT (Freebie) Money Magnet Mentor GPT Book a Reading with Carolina Book a Reading with Carolina

1h 2m

Episode 9

We Finally Left: A Story of Faith, Fire & Becoming

Episode 9 🔥 WE FINALLY LEFT: A Story of Faith, Fire & Becoming 🔥 After months of dreaming, planning, downsizing, packing, and navigating one of life's most stressful transitions, we finally did it — we left. In this deeply personal episode, we share the real story behind moving from a four-bedroom house into a travel trailer, the challenges we faced as a couple, and the tools that helped us move through stress, uncertainty, and emotional overwhelm without losing ourselves in the process. We also talk about beginning work with our new spiritual coach, Lori Reising, and how the timing of that work unexpectedly brought hidden patterns and deeper healing to the surface right in the middle of the move. Ouch! And then nature showed up. On our first night at Ocean Pond, a hawk appeared beside our campsite, followed later by a pair of alligators. We share how these messengers reminded us to trust the bigger vision, stay grounded in the present moment, and have faith in the journey unfolding before us. If you're navigating a major life transition, standing in the unknown, or learning who you're becoming, this conversation is for you. 🔥 Resources Mentioned We are currently working with Lori Reising and are grateful for the impact her work is having on our journey. The links below are affiliate links, which means Sacred Souljourners may receive a commission if you choose to participate. These partnerships help support our travels and allow us to continue creating free content and campfire conversations along the road. Thank you for your contribution for us, but more importantly for yourselves. As we all do our “work” the elevation of the frequency rises for all. ✨ The Channel Activation Private Podcast https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1191512 ✨ Channel: A 9-Week Immersive Online Experience https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1192490 ✨ Tapping Into Abundance with Lori Reising https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1168567 ✨ The Path Masterclass https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1160185 Come sit by the fire. 🔥

46 min

Episode 10

The Water Moccasin & the Fire Within: Healing Abandonment, Anger & Trust

Episode 10: In this deeply personal episode of Sacred Souljourners, Zan and Troy share what happened when life in a travel trailer became an unexpected spiritual retreat. What begins with a calm hawk perched on a playground and a water moccasin appearing at dawn unfolds into a powerful exploration of trust, abandonment wounds, anger, control, and the patterns that quietly shape our lives. Following a transformative coaching session with their spiritual mentor, Troy begins uncovering the roots of lifelong mistrust and abandonment. Meanwhile, Zan comes face-to-face with a deeper question: What has anger been protecting all these years? Together they explore how nature mirrors our healing journey, why awareness can feel more uncomfortable than staying asleep, and what it means to witness our patterns rather than be controlled by them. This episode is part of our Month Two theme: Purification by Fire — Burning Relationships, Roles, and Reactions. If you've ever struggled with trust, fear, emotional triggers, control, or the feeling that life keeps repeating the same lessons, this conversation may resonate deeply. Because perhaps we are not broken. Perhaps we are patterned. And perhaps healing begins when we finally learn to see. 🔥 Welcome to the fire. Love, Zan & Troy Resources Mentioned🎧 FREE! The Channel Activation Private Podcast (Listen before June 23rd) https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1191512 ✨ Channel: A 9-Week Immersive Online Experience with Lori Reising https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1192490 💫 Tapping Into Abundance with Lori Reising https://offers.therawandwildhearts.com/af/253839408/1192484 🙏 Our Spiritual Coach: Lori Reising Many of the breakthroughs discussed in this episode were inspired by our work with Lori. Her guidance around awareness, root wounds, identity deconstruction, nervous system healing, and spiritual embodiment has been instrumental in our journey. *We don't recommend anything we haven't personally experienced ourselves. Some links above are affiliate links. If you choose to enroll through them, we may receive a commission at no additional cost to you. Your support helps us continue sharing our Sacred Souljourners journey. Souljourner Library📖 Medicine Heart Oracle: Shamanic Wisdom of the Divine Feminine https://a.co/d/07dgW4jQ 📖 Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires https://a.co/d/08vVOkur 📖 The Untethered Soul — Michael Singer 📖 Becoming Supernatural — Joe Dispenza 🌎 Follow the Journey https://sacredsouljourners.life Socials: https://beacons.ai/sacredsouljourners

1h 2m

Season 1 Trailer

Sacred Souljourner Trailer

Sacred Souljourners — Official Trailer Welcome to Sacred Souljourners — campfire conversations for the spiritually curious. We're Troy Hawkner, a former Baptist evangelical preacher who walked away from the pulpit to rediscover the sacred on his own terms, and Zan Kavanah — transmission artist, wisdom keeper, founder of AQUAMANTRA Water, and Sacred Paint & Play facilitator who has spent over two decades teaching consciousness, manifestation, and heart-mind coherence through lived experience. Together we explore spiritual awakening, shadow work, inner child healing, sacred relationship, vibration, and frequency — no dogma, no gurus, just two people walking the path openly and inviting you to pull up a chair. In June 2026 we're hitting the road in a trailer with three dogs — hosting open fire circles wherever the sacred calls us. If you found this — something in you is already ready. Awaken. Trust. Align. ✨ JOIN THE SACRED SOULJOURNERS COMMUNITY: 🔥 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sacredsouljourners 📩 Weekly campfire conversations: https://sacredsouljourners.life 💛 SUPPORT THE MOVEMENT: Become a Souljourner — $11/month contribution: https://sacredsouljourners.life 🎨 CONNECT WITH ZAN: 🌐 Art + Transmission work: https://www.zankavanahart.com 📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/zankavanahart 🎨 Sacred Paint & Play retreats: https://www.zankavanahart.com/booking-calendar Sacred Souljourners is an independent podcast created with devotion to walking through the global fire together.

3 min

May 10

Purification by Fire: The Inner Child Revealed

In this 6th episode we go into the fire. Not surface-level healing. Not spiritual theory. This is what it looks like when your patterns, triggers, and emotional reactions are no longer easy to ignore. In this Month Two conversation—Purification by Fire: The Inner Child Revealed—we break open the truth behind the reactions that keep showing up in your life and your relationships. Because what you’re reacting to… is rarely what’s actually happening. It’s the inner child. The unmet need. The old story still running underneath your present moment. We talk about what happens when those patterns rise to the surface—how love becomes the mirror, how triggers expose what’s unresolved, and why emotional safety is often a hidden contract we don’t even realize we’re making. This is about deconstructing the programming. Naming what’s really there. And learning how to sit in the fire… without abandoning yourself or projecting onto the person in front of you. We also explore the deeper energetic layer of what’s happening right now—how current astrological shifts are amplifying emotional exposure and forcing a real audit of what’s sustainable moving forward. This episode is raw. It’s emotional. And it’s honest about what it actually takes to move through trauma, reconnect to yourself, and stop letting the past run your present. If you’ve been feeling triggered, disconnected, or unsure why things feel heavier than usual… This is the work. 🔥 TAKEAWAYS Your triggers are rooted in the past, not the presentThe inner child drives more of your behavior than you thinkEmotional safety is often an unspoken contract in relationshipsAvoiding your patterns keeps them runningNaming your feelings is the beginning of healingYou don’t lose love—you lose capacity when you over-carry🔥 CHAPTERS 00:00 — Walking Into the Fire: Awakening & Deconstruction 06:01 — The Inner Child & Where the Wound Begins 11:52 — Why Everything Feels Intensified Right Now 20:34 — What Inner Child Work Actually Means 31:19 — Triggers Are Time Machines 37:11 — The Hidden Contract of Love 46:15 — When the Light Exposes the Shadow 53:26 — Meeting the Inner Child in Real Time 01:00:32 — Naming the Feeling, Changing the Pattern 01:06:32 — You Don’t Complete Each Other—You Reveal Each Other

1 hr

Sacred Souljourners Podcast

Season 1

Our Origin Story: Zan & Troy

Waking up Spiritually | You're not Losing it - Your buckets are Full

Stop the Story: Breaking Assumptions, how it has helped us

Being in Flow: Activating ease & grace

Powers of Love: Enduring Relationship through Loving Awareness

Beyond the Story: Perception, Ego & the Power of Presence

Cosmic Mirrors: Astrology, Awakening & The Work of Transformation

We Finally Left: A Story of Faith, Fire & Becoming

The Water Moccasin & the Fire Within: Healing Abandonment, Anger & Trust

Sacred Souljourner Trailer

Purification by Fire: The Inner Child Revealed

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