The Bold Not Beige Podcast

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Bold Not Beige is the podcast for high-achieving women who are ready to stop holding back and show up more fully in their lives. Hosted by confidence coach and color expert Erin Hilman and women’s leadership coach Ellen Steinlein, each episode fuses personal style and bold leadership coaching to help you take up space and speak with conviction. Each week, you’ll get practical tools, real-life stories, and the occasional permission slip to go after what you really want.

  1. 3d ago

    Ep 27: Getting to Know Us

    No deep dive this week. No nervous system science, no homework, no Bold Tip. Just Erin and Ellen, a few questions each, zero prep, and absolutely no idea what the other one is about to ask. After months of listeners asking who the two of them actually are outside the mic, they decided to just answer it live, unscripted, with one rule: no deflecting allowed. What comes out of it: Ellen's actual go-to order, a surprising answer about what she'd grab in a closet fire, and a career she might have chosen in another life. Erin reveals the one color she reaches for more than any other, a bucket list item that has nothing to do with work, a strong opinion about a certain fashion trend, and something genuinely surprising about who she is when the mic isn't on. It's lighter than usual, a little chaotic, and honestly a nice reminder that the two of them are just two real women figuring it out, same as everyone listening. Connect With Us Bold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco] Got a question you want us to answer on a future episode like this one? Send it our way. Subscribe so you never miss an episode!  New conversations drop every week.

    Ep 27: Getting to Know Us

  2. Oct 20

    Ep 26: The 5 Minute Reset

    This episode isn’t about recovering from burnout after it hits. It’s about what to do in the middle of a packed week so you don’t end up completely depleted—or sick the moment you finally slow down. Erin and Ellen explore why we often skip rest during busy seasons: we think it has to be big to count. But your nervous system doesn’t need an hour to reset. It needs consistency. They share simple, realistic ways to create small pauses throughout the day, from Ellen’s waiting-room reset to Erin’s “driveway pause,” plus easy rituals like the transition breath, water before caffeine, feet on the floor, and the one-song reset. They also unpack why these small moments matter physically, especially when chronic stress keeps cortisol elevated and affects immune function. This week’s Bold Tip: choose one small ritual and attach it to something you already do every day. You’re not adding another task—you’re adding intention. Connect With UsBold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram @boldnotbeigecoSubscribe so you never miss an episode—new conversations drop every week.

    Ep 26: The 5 Minute Reset

  3. Oct 13

    Ep 25: Fire Your Internal Drill Seargent

    Most of us carry a quiet belief that if we ever stop pushing ourselves, everything will fall apart, that the pressure, the self-criticism, the "you should be doing more" voice is what's actually keeping us together. Erin and Ellen dig into why that belief feels so true, and why it's worth questioning anyway. They trace where it comes from, and a lot of us grew up with conditional praise, where approval showed up after good performance and correction showed up after anything less. The lesson absorbed early: being pushed hard is what care looks like. Which means the absence of pushing can feel like nobody cares, including yourself about yourself. From there, they take on what Ellen calls the drill sergeant myth: the idea that discipline requires a harsh inner voice. They make the case for a different model entirely: the coach. Clear about the standard, genuinely believes in your capability, gives useful feedback without attaching it to your worth.. There's a real conversation about the word "lazy" and how rarely it's actually true, and usually what's underneath it is depletion, fear, or a task that feels too big, not a character flaw. And then Ellen shares something genuinely vulnerable: a private venting call that got accidentally recorded and sent to her executive team, and the spiral of shame that followed. Plus the moment she asked herself what she'd say to a friend in the same situation, and how that question changed everything. Erin follows with her own story about getting dressed on autopilot during a hard stretch, and realizing the drill sergeant voice had quietly taken over even her closet. This week's Bold Tip: catch one moment this week where you're about to call yourself lazy or behind, and get curious instead. Is this really laziness, or am I depleted, overwhelmed, or scared of doing this imperfectly? Then try the friend test: would I say this to someone I love? Connect With Us Bold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco] Subscribe so you never miss an episode — new conversations drop every week.

    Ep 25: Fire Your Internal Drill Seargent

  4. Oct 6

    EP 24: The Myth of Having One Signature Style

    There's a version of "having it together" that gets sold to women constantly: figure out your signature style, and everything else will follow. Erin and Ellen take that idea apart in this episode, and what they find underneath it is a lot more interesting than a closet full of matching pieces. They talk about why the concept exists in the first place, it genuinely can reduce decision fatigue and build confidence, but also how easily it confuses consistency with identity, and attaching ourselves to a look long after the season of life that created it has passed. The most memorable stretch of this episode is Ellen's real-time unpacking of a strapless dress she loved and talked herself out of buying. A whole internal courtroom of judgment about whether a mom in her forties is "allowed" to wear something that reads as young and carefree. It's funny, and then it's not funny at all, because underneath it is exactly what the episode is about: how much of what we won't wear has nothing to do with the clothes and everything to do with old rules we never consciously agreed to. Erin and Ellen get into why getting dressed can quietly shift from creative to protective and why that disconnect between your outside and who you're actually becoming can feel emotionally unsettling even when you can't name why. They talk about the labels we get handed early (the sporty one, the minimalist, the classic one) and how strange it is that we'd expect our style to stay frozen while everything else about us keeps evolving. The reframe they land on: think in seasons, not signatures. Instead of "what's my forever look," ask "what feels aligned with who I am right now?" It's a small shift that turns style from a fixed identity into something responsive and alive. This week's Bold Tip: instead of asking "what's my signature style," ask "what version of myself needs support today?" Connect With Us Bold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco]

    EP 24: The Myth of Having One Signature Style

  5. Sep 29

    Ep 23: What's Holding You Back?

    Not every limit is the enemy. That's the surprising starting point of this episode — Erin and Ellen digging into the idea that some constraints actually sharpen us, forcing more creativity and resourcefulness than we'd ever find with unlimited time, money, or options. But there's a second kind of limit too: the invisible, self-imposed ones that sound responsible and logical, and quietly keep us small for years. They walk through the psychology of why constraints can help, and why the brain often gets more inventive with fewer places to hide. A thirty-minute dinner deadline. A carry-on-only trip. Some of the most creative seasons of both their lives happened under real limits, not in spite of them. Then the conversation turns to the limits that don't help. The ones disguised as logic: "I'm too old to start over," "I need more certainty first," "I don't have enough experience." Erin shares a personal turning point from years ago, convinced she couldn't leave a miserable job because she "needed stability"  until she asked herself the question that changed everything: is this actually impossible, or am I terrified of uncertainty? They get into where these stories come from and how they quietly stop sounding external and start feeling like identity. And they offer a simple, useful language shift: swapping "I can't" for "how could I?, a small reframe that keeps the brain searching for solutions instead of closing the case. Ellen shares how launching her business with almost no budget forced her to build relationships and get resourceful in ways abundance never would have. The episode closes with a practical three-step process for anyone feeling stuck: name the constraint honestly, get curious about the story attached to it, and stop waiting for ideal conditions before you move. This week's Bold Tip: write down one limitation you've been treating as permanent truth, and ask “what if this isn't a wall, but a design problem?” Connect With Us Bold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco]

    Ep 23: What's Holding You Back?

  6. Sep 22

    Ep 22: The Cost of Holding It All Together

    This episode is for the woman everyone admires for how much she handles: the one who looks completely capable from the outside while running on caffeine, adrenaline, and quiet exhaustion underneath. Erin and Ellen get honest about what it actually costs to be "the strong one," and why that role so rarely started as empowerment. For a lot of women, it started as a survival strategy as a way to stay safe, stay connected, and avoid becoming a burden. Ellen shares a genuinely vulnerable moment about overextending her family's schedule out of a quiet fear of missing out, and Erin gently pushes on it — what's the actual cost? The conversation that follows is one of the most honest in the series, landing on a line worth sitting with: "I'm afraid you're missing out on rest." They dig into the invisible exhaustion of constant emotional vigilance, the part of over-functioning that isn't physical tasks, but the never-fully-relaxing scan of what still needs attention, who still needs something, what might go wrong next. And they name the grief that lives underneath all of it: the slow realization of how long you've ignored your own needs because everyone else's always felt louder. They also talk about identity and the fear that if you stop carrying everything, you'll lose control, disappoint people, or simply not be needed the same way. Erin shares how her own divorce forced a version of this reckoning, and what she found on the other side of it. This week's Bold Tip: ask yourself what you're carrying that you don't actually have to carry alone, and practice putting just one thing down. Connect With Us Bold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco] If you're working on asking for what you need, go back to Episodes 10 and 11 for our BOLD framework.

    Ep 22: The Cost of Holding It All Together

  7. Sep 15

    Ep 21: Confidence Rituals for the Real World

    This episode starts from a different premise than most confidence conversations: maybe you don't need to build more confidence. Maybe you already have it, and you've just gotten really good at handing it away. In a meeting when someone speaks with more certainty than you, in a relationship when you sense the other person getting annoyed, in front of a mirror when someone makes an offhand comment about an outfit you loved five minutes earlier. Erin and Ellen call this a confidence leak, the tiny moments where you soften an opinion because the room got quiet, or don't apply for something because you don't feel fully qualified. None of them feel significant on their own. That's what makes them so easy to miss. They dig into the role the nervous system plays in all of this and why you can intellectually know you're allowed to say no and still feel your chest tighten and your face get hot the moment you do.They reframe confidence away from "I don't feel afraid" and toward something more useful: the ability to feel afraid without letting fear make the decision for you. There's a real myth-busting moment here too - the idea that confident women are calm, poised, unshakeable. Erin and Ellen push back on that hard. Confidence isn't a quiet nervous system. It's staying with yourself while your nervous system is anything but quiet. They also get into the certainty trap (waiting for anxiety to disappear before you'll trust yourself, which is backwards), and the quieter, more mature version of confidence that shows up later in life: not needing more proof, but needing less of it. The episode closes with a practical ritual, a simple sequence of questions to ask yourself before a hard decision, including the one that reframes everything: not "will this work," but "can I handle what happens next." This week's Bold Tip: notice every time you say "do you think I should..." or "is it okay if..." this week and ask whether you're gathering information, or asking someone else to make you feel safe about a decision that's already yours. Connect With Us Bold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco]

    Ep 21: Confidence Rituals for the Real World

  8. Sep 8

    Ep 20: The Compliment You Can't Accept

    This episode explores a behavior almost every woman will recognize: the reflex to bounce back, minimize, explain away, or deflect a compliment before it ever has the chance to land. Erin and Ellen dig into why this happens, and it's not as simple as low self-esteem. There's a real, researched fear that accepting praise can read as arrogant—and that agreeing you did well is a form of bragging, something that gets socially punished, especially for women. But there's a more surprising layer, too: women with genuinely high self-esteem can deflect compliments just as often, not because they don't believe the praise, but because they don't want to be seen believing it. It's less a self-worth issue and more a social-image issue wearing a self-worth costume. They talk through what deflecting actually costs and how every dismissed compliment can become a small rehearsal that trains us to reject positive evidence about ourselves. They also explore what happens to the other person when we argue with their praise—because in a subtle way, we're declining a gift they just tried to give us.Then it gets practical. Erin and Ellen break down how to receive a compliment without it feeling stiff or fake: separating receiving from agreeing, replacing “thank you, but…” with a full stop, and paying attention to body language, since crossed arms or fidgeting can undercut a “thank you” before it even lands. They also share three real tools for building the muscle before it counts: mirror practice, a five-compliments-in-a-row exercise with a trusted friend, and visualization. Plus, why the brain doesn't fully distinguish between a well-rehearsed imagined moment and the real thing. This week's Bold Tip: The next time someone compliments you, say “thank you” and then hold one full second of silence before you say anything else. That's usually exactly where the deflection sneaks in. Connect With UsBold Not Beige | boldnotbeige.com | Instagram [@boldnotbeigeco]

    Ep 20: The Compliment You Can't Accept
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Bold Not Beige is the podcast for high-achieving women who are ready to stop holding back and show up more fully in their lives. Hosted by confidence coach and color expert Erin Hilman and women’s leadership coach Ellen Steinlein, each episode fuses personal style and bold leadership coaching to help you take up space and speak with conviction. Each week, you’ll get practical tools, real-life stories, and the occasional permission slip to go after what you really want.

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