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chloe hoang-nguyen
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welcome to my cluttered corner - where i publicly search for meaning in life experiences that probably didn't need this much analysis. what don't i think about without the urge to dissect the psychology behind it? nothing. i take apart adulthood like it's LEGO and somehow still don't have the answers. i’m self-aware but lost. i'm opinionated but unsure. i'm also ADHD AF. i'm all things in between as i fumble through everything, and nothing at all. is this a mistake? maybe. but it's mine to make. if you're fumbling through life too, welcome in :")

  1. Sep 30

    fumbling to grow up .... & NOT become boring

    cool adult status: not activated, and no, i'm not referring to my passion for a really sharp knife and natural detergents. at 29, i know there're obviously things that won't stay the same, but i never expected myself to be so religious about getting 8 hours of sleep (no negotiation) and no desire to take shots on a night out. which honestly.... is slightly concerning for someone has always thought of herself as the adventurous & chaotic one. does growing up automatically take away parts of you that you thought would make you "fun"? tuning in as i discuss fumbling to define if i have accidentally become.... old & boring, and decoding how to grow up without losing the parts of myself that i still really love. timestamps: 0:00 - 0:59: intro 1:00 - 2:04: the old woman that i am....that i'm not accepting 2:05 - 05:07: where my definition of “fun” came from 05:08 - 07:30: reasons why my "fun" doesn't feel that fun anymore 07:31 - 11:53: the guilt of "betraying" my younger self 11:54 - 16:42: looking beyond the surface 16:43 - 17:45: outro and a quick question for you 👀

    fumbling to grow up .... & NOT become boring

  2. Sep 16

    fumbling to ADHD (a 6-month post-diagnosis update)

    my first follow up on my journey to understanding my ADHD (and man what a plot twist it has been....) 6 months ago, i found out & got diagnosed with ADHD completely out of a random conversation. after years of thinking i was just lazy, inconsistent, too emotional, or simply not trying hard enough, the diagnosis was one heck of an explanation for why my brain was doing the most. I was desperate to get the diagnosis, thinking I would finally have an answer for all my problems. it turned out that... getting answers doesn't mean you suddenly have everything figured out (shocking, i know). tune in as i fumble through learning to be kinder to myself, finding a sense of belonging in a community i never knew i was part of, and questioning some of the things i thought i knew about my future. timestamps: 0:00 - 04:13: intro + background to my diagnosis 04:14 - 11:50: 1st realization: newfound self-compassion 11:51 - 18:27: 2nd realization: sense of belonging vs sense of self 18:28 - 23:11: 3rd: re-evaluating my values and needs 23:12 - 24:52: outro and all love x

    fumbling to ADHD (a 6-month post-diagnosis update)

  3. Aug 25

    fumbling to love my people from half the world away

    an emotional share on how i fumble to love (when has it not been emotional when it comes to family & friends). after 7 years of being away from home, i thought i have figured out a system to keep myself updated with my family - weekly calls, messages, memes, yearly visits. very efficient. very organized…. until i realized, systems don't work when there're emotions involved. tune in as i fumble through loving people from half a world away, and figuring out how to hold onto home while building a life of my own. 0:00 - 01:17: intro + quick follow up from "fumbling to have fun...correctly" 01:18 - 05:02: there're plans... just no guarantees 05:03 - 09:37: no catching up systems could prepare me for how much home changed 09:38 - 14:44: the significance of the mundance moments 14:45 - 17:12: standards and requirements i'm setting for myself 17:13 - 18:16: outro and all love x transcript: https://www.patreon.com/ChloeHoang_Nguyen/posts/ep-15-fumbling-167602909

    fumbling to love my people from half the world away

  4. Aug 10

    fumbling to be ready for marriage by 30

    have you ever felt like - one day you have all the time in the world because you're only in your 20s with like 70 more years to go in this life; the next day you realize you're 2-freaking-9 and probably need to start thinking about building a marriage and actually being an adult? yeah.....same. well, in this episode, i'm looking into all the reasons where the pressure might be coming from, why i'm so not feeling ready, and all the hard questions i'm so not ready to answer, and you might not as well. 0:00 - 0:55: intro 0:56 - 4:11: the timeline i thought i escaped 4:12 - 6:29: the source of pressure of it all 6:30 - 11:07: the golden question: what would make me feel ready? 11:08 - 13:47: ah, i guess there're more to it 13:48 - 15:05: outro transcript: https://www.patreon.com/ChloeHoang_Nguyen/posts/ep-14-fumbling-166327388?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link

    fumbling to be ready for marriage by 30

  5. Jul 27

    fumbling to have fun….correctly

    my fellow overthinkers, who else other than us would feel the need to have fun…. correctly, esp during these beautiful summer days? in this episode, we’re unpacking just that! from Toronto seasonal scarcity, to the pressure to make every moment counts, to now how living intentionally turning out to be…optimizing fun! 0:00 - 4:25 how getting sick made me realize i have a weird relationship with fun  4:26 - 6:24: why summer somehow became something i had to get "right"  6:25 - 9:03: when did i start treating life like a project?  9:04 - 12:03: what might have to do with it .... 12:04 - 12:54 : outro & podcast updates transcript: https://www.patreon.com/ChloeHoang_Nguyen/posts/ep-13-fumbling-165006630?pr=true

    fumbling to have fun….correctly

  6. Jul 14

    fumbling & date outside of my parents' expectations

    "once a headache, always a headache" is what my parents probably thought about me when i first introduced my current boyfriend to them. there's absolutely nothing wrong with him, he's just black....and muslim! in this episode, we 1st unpack why that combination is probably every Vietnamese parent's nightmare (lol, but respectfully tho); dive into how Viet history, colorism and religion shaped those expectations; and see the unfolding of what started out as "trying to understand my parents" slowly sparked questions i never knew i had. timestamps: 0:00 - 3:14: intro to the serious relationship my parents least expected from me 3:15 - 9:00: a quick hit of a Viet history lesson, and the stories we inherited from races & religions 9:01 - 14:57: my beliefs, real-life experience & confronting confusion 14:58 - 19:03: questions i didn't know i had, or were running away from 19:04 - 19:45: outro & what's next transcript: https://www.patreon.com/ChloeHoang_Nguyen/posts/episode-12-to-of-163749991

    fumbling & date outside of my parents' expectations

  7. Jun 23

    fumbling to be a girl's girl

    one time someone called me not a girl's girl, unfollowed me on Instagram, and honestly? it broke my brain a little. this is definitely not an easy one to create (which girl wants to be called not a girl's girl?! none). but we're all about fumbling through life on the Internet over here! let me tell you the story of how this happened to me, how i learned (and still learning) to define what this means to me by using Love Island relationship dynamics as my academic source material 3. this is my take (for now) on female friendships, accountability and what it means to be a girl's girl. timestamps: 00:00: intro - why we're talking about this today!!02:03: the Love Island season 8 debate03:31: the story behind it all05:47: questions & confusion07:22: the Love Island season 6 friendship lessons08:56: redefining what a girl's girl means to me09:55: applying back to the situation12:43: outro & what's next transcript: https://www.patreon.com/ChloeHoang_Nguyen/posts/episode-11-to-be-161796552?pr=true

    fumbling to be a girl's girl

  8. Jun 5

    fumbling to realized....i'm ADHD!

    is this the real life? is this just fantasy? guys, she's ADHD AF. how did we even get here?!?! in my wildest dream, i would never assumed that i'm ADHD, and somehow, that's exactly what i was diagnosed with 2 months ago. tuned in as i walk you through the reasons why this feels absolutely like a foreign concept to me as a Vietnamese girl living in a Western countryhow it perfectly explained everything i did in lifeand how i've initially been dealing with acceptance.transcript: https://www.patreon.com/posts/ep-10-fumbling-160272859/edit

    fumbling to realized....i'm ADHD!
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welcome to my cluttered corner - where i publicly search for meaning in life experiences that probably didn't need this much analysis. what don't i think about without the urge to dissect the psychology behind it? nothing. i take apart adulthood like it's LEGO and somehow still don't have the answers. i’m self-aware but lost. i'm opinionated but unsure. i'm also ADHD AF. i'm all things in between as i fumble through everything, and nothing at all. is this a mistake? maybe. but it's mine to make. if you're fumbling through life too, welcome in :")

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  • Creator
    chloe hoang-nguyen
  • Years Active
    2026
  • Episodes
    18
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    Explicit
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