Living After

Santiago Pinon

Living After is a podcast about what happens when life does not return to normal. Through honest reflections on grief, love, faith, anger, memory, and hope, Santiago Piñón explores the difficult work of living after profound loss. Grounded in his own experience as a father whose children, Amelia and Alexander, were stillborn, the series gives particular attention to the grief of fathers and men—grief that is often carried quietly, overlooked, or left without words. Rather than offering easy answers or promising that pain will disappear, Living After asks a different question: How do we continue to love, live, and remain present when the life we imagined is gone? Each episode creates space for the sleepless nights, difficult anniversaries, unanswered prayers, anger, silence, and unexpected moments of grace that accompany loss. It is a podcast for those who grieve, those who walk beside them, and anyone learning how to live faithfully with what cannot be fixed. Living After is presented by the Silence & Light Institute, creating spaces for grief, dignity, belonging, and the work of staying.

  1. Episode 1

    1. Why This Podcast Exists

    Living After is a podcast that addresses the experience of fathers who have lost a child and the unique challenges they face in grief. Dr. Santiago Pi\u00f1\u00f3n shares his personal story and aims to provide companionship and understanding to fathers who are navigating life after loss. Takeaways Fathers grieve differently and are often expected to manage their grief quietly, leading to feelings of invisibility and isolation.The goal of the podcast is to offer companionship and understanding to fathers who are grieving, rather than providing solutions or formulas for healing. Chapters 00:00 A Message to Fathers in Grief

  2. Episode 2

    2. The Day Everything Became "Before" and "After"

    The podcast episode explores the profound impact of grief on fathers, dividing life into 'before and after' a tragic event, and the challenging 'in-between' phase of grief. It delves into the illusion of ordinary time, the disappearance of the future, and the darkness of not knowing. It also discusses the survival aspect of going through the motions and the changes brought about by grief. The episode concludes with a message of hope and resilience for those experiencing the in-between phase of grief. Takeaways Life before and after a tragic eventThe in-between phase of grief Chapters 00:00 The Day Everything Became Before and After01:11 The Illusion of Ordinary Time03:08 When the Future Disappears08:04 The In-Between12:41 Darkness of Not Knowing15:33 When Going Through the Motions Becomes Survival22:43 The Silence After the Phone Calls Stopped26:19 What Changed in Me?

  3. Episode 3

    3. Being Strong Is Not The Same As Being Okay

    The episode discusses the misconception that being strong is the same as being okay, especially for grieving fathers. It explores the burden of strength, the performance of competence, and the impact of unexpressed grief. It also emphasizes the importance of honesty and vulnerability in the healing process. Takeaways Strength and wellness are not the same thingUnexpressed grief can manifest in various forms such as anger, isolation, and emotional shutdown Chapters 00:00 The Burden of Strength02:11 The Performance of Competence08:24 Unexpressed Grief and Its Impact14:30 The Importance of Honesty and Vulnerability

  4. Episode 4

    4. Grief at Work, In Public, and Around Friends

    The episode explores the experience of grief in ordinary life, the hidden exhaustion of grief, navigating grief in public spaces, interactions with friends who don't know what to say, the pressure to be back to normal, and the strategies for surviving public life while grieving. The conversation sheds light on the challenges faced by grieving fathers and the importance of acknowledging and carrying grief honestly. Takeaways Grief in ordinary lifeThe hidden exhaustion of grief Chapters 00:00 Grief in Ordinary Life05:13 The Hidden Exhaustion of Grief07:08 Grief in Public Spaces09:10 Around Friends Who Don't Know What to Say11:23 Pressure to Be Back to Normal12:49 What Helped Me Survive Public Life

  5. Episode 5

    5. Anger: At God, At Life, At The World

    In this episode, Santiago Pinon discusses the topic of anger in the context of grief, particularly the anger experienced by grieving fathers. He explores the different forms of anger, including anger at the world, at other people, at oneself, and at God. Santiago also delves into the deeper meaning of anger as a language for love and the importance of understanding and learning from it. Takeaways Anger as a part of griefAnger as a language for love Chapters 00:00 Understanding Anger in Grief03:53 Anger at the World05:45 Anger at Other People07:27 Anger at Ourselves10:20 Anger at God14:44 What Anger is Trying to Tell16:19 Learning Not to Live in Anger

  6. Episode 6

    6. The Silence Between Partners

    The episode explores the silence that can grow between partners after the death of a child, the different ways in which partners grieve, the dangers of comparing grief, the pressure on men to protect, the importance of staying in a relationship after loss, and the transformation of a relationship after grief. Takeaways Grieving partners may experience silence and distance, but it doesn't necessarily mean love is gone.Understanding and accepting different grieving styles is crucial for mutual compassion and support. Chapters 00:00 The Silence Between Partners02:01 Different Grieving Styles04:50 The Dangerous Comparison of Grief06:35 Men and the Pressure to Protect11:47 Learning to Stay13:19 The Marriage Had Existed Before Loss

  7. Episode 7

    7. What Anniversaries Actually Feel Like

    The episode delves into the emotional impact of anniversaries for grieving parents, highlighting the coexistence of grief and love, as well as the triggering of anticipatory grief. It explores the weight of anniversaries, the calendar's relentless reminders, anticipatory grief, the impact of birthdays that never happened, the unfinished futures of lost children, the complexity of holidays and grief, the coexistence of joy and sadness, and the importance of acknowledging anniversaries. Takeaways Grief and love coexistAnniversaries trigger anticipatory grief Chapters 00:00 Acknowledging Anniversaries

  8. Episode 8

    8. What Grief Changed In Me

    The conversation explores the profound impact of grief on faith, the evolution of faith after loss, the challenge of silence and prayer, reevaluating faith and explanations, finding meaning in silence, discovering God's presence in silence, the transformation of faith after loss, and the courage to question and understand. Takeaways Grief changes faithFaith after loss is about discovering what remains after everything has been shaken. Chapters 00:00 The Impact of Grief on Faith03:18 The Evolution of Faith After Loss05:23 The Challenge of Silence and Prayer07:16 Reevaluating Faith and Explanations08:34 Finding Meaning in Silence09:33 Discovering God's Presence in Silence10:48 The Transformation of Faith After Loss12:27 The Courage to Question and Understand

  9. Episode 9

    9. Faith Without Answers

    The episode explores the concept of faith after loss, emphasizing the shift from certainty to uncertainty and the evolution of faith in the face of unanswered questions and grief. It delves into the paradox of faith and the importance of presence over answers. Takeaways Faith evolves in the face of loss and unanswered questions.Presence and companionship are more meaningful than explanations in times of grief. Chapters 00:00 Faith After Loss02:27 The Difference Between Explanation and Experience03:41 Unanswered Questions of Grief05:25 The Book of Job and the Search for Explanations08:00 The God I Lost and the God I Found09:11 Presence Over Answers10:07 The Paradox of Grief and Faith11:22 The Evolution of Prayer12:45 Faith and Uncertainty13:33 The Measure of Faith

  10. Episode 10

    10. When People Expect You To Be Better

    The pressure to be better and the expiration date society places on grief. Grieving parents often feel the burden of making others comfortable and struggle with the expectation to be healed. Healing is about learning to love and grieve simultaneously, and the gift of remembrance is powerful for grieving parents. Takeaways Pressure to be betterGrief does not follow a timelineThe gift of remembrance Chapters 00:00 The Pressure to Be Better03:00 The Expiration Date of Grief07:06 The Burden of Making Others Comfortable08:30 What Healing Actually Looks Like10:36 Why Fathers Often Struggle with This Pressure12:03 The Gift of Remembrance

  11. Episode 11

    11. What Staying Alive Can Look LIke

    The episode delves into the ordinary survival after profound loss, the myth of constant progress in grief, the dangerous isolation of fathers, what kept the speaker going, the concept that staying alive does not mean loving less, the importance of asking for help and seeking support, and the theology of staying. Takeaways Survival is often remarkably ordinary.Grief rarely behaves in a straight line; it moves, shifts, and changes shape. Chapters 00:00 The Ordinary Survival03:16 The Myth of Constant Progress05:51 The Dangerous Isolation of Fathers08:07 What Kept Me Going09:54 Staying Alive Does Not Mean Loving Less11:34 Asking for Help and Seeking Support12:42 The Theology of Staying

  12. Episode 12

    12. If You Are Still Here

    The episode explores the profound reality of survival and the acknowledgment of enduring grief. It delves into the unwanted story of grief, the burden of silence, the impact of loss, navigating faith, the meaning of staying, hope, recognition, breaking the silence, and the continuation of love. Takeaways Acknowledging survival is an important step in the journey of grief.The continuation of love and the impact of loss shape the experience of grief. Chapters 00:00 Acknowledging Survival04:04 The Unwanted Story05:56 The Burden of Silence08:01 The Impact of Loss09:36 Navigating Faith11:01 The Meaning of Staying12:27 Hope and Recognition14:13 Breaking the Silence17:01 The Continuation of Love

See All Season 1 (12)

About

Living After is a podcast about what happens when life does not return to normal. Through honest reflections on grief, love, faith, anger, memory, and hope, Santiago Piñón explores the difficult work of living after profound loss. Grounded in his own experience as a father whose children, Amelia and Alexander, were stillborn, the series gives particular attention to the grief of fathers and men—grief that is often carried quietly, overlooked, or left without words. Rather than offering easy answers or promising that pain will disappear, Living After asks a different question: How do we continue to love, live, and remain present when the life we imagined is gone? Each episode creates space for the sleepless nights, difficult anniversaries, unanswered prayers, anger, silence, and unexpected moments of grace that accompany loss. It is a podcast for those who grieve, those who walk beside them, and anyone learning how to live faithfully with what cannot be fixed. Living After is presented by the Silence & Light Institute, creating spaces for grief, dignity, belonging, and the work of staying.

Information

  • Creator
    Santiago Pinon
  • Episodes
    12
  • Seasons
    1
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Santiago Pinon
  • Show Website
    Living After