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Already Here. Satsang with Udita—pointing directly to non-duality and pure awareness. Udita is an enlightened teacher of inner freedom. Following a satori at 24 and 12 years of deep self-inquiry, she completed her awakening in 2026 and was asked by her master Vishrant to offer dharma. Her teachings center on undoing the mind and returning to peace. Patreon (Unbound Sangha, Q&A, exclusive content): patreon.com/uditaprem Substack (essays, books & audiobooks): uditaprem.substack.com Website: uditaprem.com Video: YouTube (@uditaprem) thisthisthis.substack.com

  1. 1d ago

    Stop Trying — The World Is Still Spinning Without You

    “stop trying” It’s okay and you’re okay, except that you have really big eye bags because you’re sleepy. The world is still spinning without you or not, so it doesn’t matter if you’re trying or not trying, so if I were you I would stop trying. It’s relaxing, it’s a deal for you if you stop trying because the world doesn’t care about you. Why trying so hard? Why are you trying to prove? Well, I’m trying to get enlightened — yeah I know, and you don’t get enlightened trying. You try to get Mouna enlightened and Mouna cannot attain that. In this Satsang: — Stop trying — it’s okay and you’re okay, world still spinning without you so it doesn’t matter trying or not trying, world doesn’t care about you so at least you should care because no one cares, why trying so hard to prove, if I were you I would stop trying it’s relaxing deal for you — You don’t get enlightened trying — you try to get Mouna enlightened it’s impossible, need to learn how to die like this so let go, price is Mouna or whatever name you have it’s everything you have to pay your life for that One Piece, what’s wrong with you people are crazy trying to get One Piece and price you have to die — One Piece — favourite manga Japanese comic, story about straw hat leader of gang going ocean to find One Piece rumour treasure universe somewhere name One Piece, his superpower very flexible body made rubber very elastic only superpower he got that’s why leader of gang, he didn’t know how to swim and he’s leader of pirate gang like me I don’t know how to swim too, should end if they find themselves as One Piece and give up racing, story beautiful needs to go on because going through adventures they develop all virtues brotherhood sisterhood fighting demons protecting people having lot fun, true victors they need to go through all this s**t that make you true victor — Bhagavad Gita why war needs to go on — Krishna didn’t want war to end, demon blessed by Shiva with three bows can end war anytime he wants, Krishna has to stop him because war needs to go on so Arjun to become victor and Krishna be teacher and you have Bhagavad Gita so Indian people can read, karma needs to play needs to goes on life goes on you are at perfect moment of life run by karma you cannot try and cannot run anywhere even some god can end war anytime but great teacher need to stop him because Arjun needs to learn lesson not only for Arjun for other people too, actually Krishna can get enlightened anytime he wants why bother us right story has meaning in itself too you have to play this game — How about just being Mouna and let drama of karma play — of course in meantime you can do whatever you want you can develop virtues raise consciousness enjoy your life and let’s see, it’s your choice it’s up to you you want to play it with suffering by resisting by trying to get something or you can just enjoy your trauma — Don’t give Indian philosophy questions — Indian really good at arguing so don’t speak philosophy how about just playing just playing the game — Attitude to money, me first — Dubai story guy luxury retail shops buy bunch designer bags for wife lots napkins diapers silk for children but when talking business I only got 2,000 dollar for business what the f**k, attitude me first I care about my life first and business second this second so works for them why they have so much confidence because they take care of life first you are person before business why people jump straight into money and business, if you want to win Emirati need to be really good person have good life not about money how you take care of life how you value yourself and how confident you are and confident here is just how much you accept yourself doesn’t matter how much money or things you have, sharp contrast Westerner feel lesser lacking money here not about amount of money but attitude toward money shown very clear by someone who has lot money but doesn’t care at all they care quality of life can spend 100,000 dollar for designer bags and diaper for family 2,000 dollar for business I like it — If you worry about money — worth taking look do you identify your worth with money that you have, if you really take look it’s not that bad, you was in much better situation than I was before > Stop trying. The world is still spinning without you. You don’t get enlightened trying, you have to learn how to die, let go, just be Mouna and let the drama of karma play. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 11am / 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. chat.whatsapp.com/Ijutv4PmN0c89SJ9AynkxG To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. patreon.com/c/uditaprem/membership Video: YouTube - youtube.com/@uditaprem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

  2. Oct 28

    I Don't Know — Best Answer Is I Don't Know

    “I am trying to speak to you but I am afraid to speak” What are you frightened of? What you think is gonna happen to you? You just look like a fool to people if you cannot talk. Just like me back then when I was talking to my master Vishrant, I speak a little bit of English, I cannot speak fluently. “I am listening to Osho for last four years and then I start to find a living master and then I come across Vishrant but because of my fear I was unable to talk to Vishrant and then I come across your Satsangs and I start to attend them. I want to be more present and aware, I think I live a very unaware life and I want to live an aware life now.” In this Satsang: — Best answer is I don’t know — what are you looking for even without sound, how about right now I am aware, stop trying to understand, stop looking, stop trying to fix things, stay silent and still, it settle down a bit, easier to see silence within yourself, stop fidgeting trying to find answers, sit still mind settle down, only from that silence you can see something within yourself — I don’t need to know anything — I don’t mind if I couldn’t hear you because I don’t need to know, I have no interest in understanding and I don’t want to know anything, it is within yourself have you found it yet — Meditation is very simple you stop running — throwing stone into lake creating lot of ripples echoing, stop actions naturally dropping back to silence, you just don’t do anything so easy, but you cannot don’t do anything it’s a doing, trap people try to do nothing, trying to meditate there’s urge to control, how about just stop doing whatever you are doing and naturally getting back to silence — Slow down to half speed — if you’re running do you run jogging, how about stop running just walking very slow, running you have to try to run there’s control in that, how about going very slow and be aware of every walk when feet touch ground you can notice lot of things cannot happen when you run, rushing you cannot feel silence only happen if go very slow, half speed slow motion like Indian movie really good at this, notice process from full speed to half speed and drop trying to control — Walking meditation for modern people — if you don’t have place to walk dance and Kundalini dynamic, dancing freely with music really fun, then you meditate, for modern people like New Yorker impossible to just sit cross legged hours, you need to move to push blockage out first only then you can meditate, walking meditation very Zen noticing everything around you bring this habit into life another practice but clearing practice is necessary — Energy in buildings — sitting in building you pick up energy from all and energy stuck, need to move to push blockage, living in building like being gang aped energy wise by 1000 people every night horrible no matter how much clearing, I moved from building too need to sell apartment, don’t recommend gang ape to anyone run from apartment — Boundaries — people have different way of communication, I tell people boundaries and if they cross only then I block them — Not interested in pain or pleasure — I went to hell next day is heaven, didn’t think about myself at all, ability to turn awareness onto itself, create lot of good karma > Best answer is I don’t know. Stop trying to understand, stop trying to fix things, stay silent and still. Only from that silence you can see something within yourself. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. chat.whatsapp.com/Ijutv4PmN0c89SJ9AynkxG To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. patreon.com/c/uditaprem/membership Video: YouTube - Udita Prem youtube.com/@uditaprem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

  3. Oct 22

    This Body Is A Bus — Why Keep The Body After Enlightenment

    I just moved to my new house in Ras Al Khaimah one and a half hour from Dubai and I’m gonna stay here for the whole year it’s the first time in 12 years that I ever got a place to stay and I stopped my traveling. Finally, I don’t see any reason to have a place for myself but my master Vishrant asked me to teach the truth and it’s more convenient for others if I have a place to stay rather than just running around. So I’m here for one year and later maybe I move to Europe so people can sit with me. Yeah but what’s the point living in this body why I’m already finished I don’t have anything to do so just make the best use of this body to make it a vehicle for others to help them to come home in some way. I don’t have any other things to do hahaha the craziest thing is that enlightenment so now I just use this body as a vehicle for others to come home like you guys like you can see me as a bus. In this Satsang: — Moving to Ras Al Khaimah — first time in 12 years with a place to stay, stopped traveling for one year, maybe move to Europe later so people can sit with me, better for others than cave in Himalaya which is my favourite — What’s the point living in this body — I’m already finished nothing to do, make best use as vehicle for others to come home, you can see me as a bus — Buddha field not teaching — what’s valuable is not teaching it’s presence, just sit in Buddha field and let go, walking on shore meditation, I have to talk to keep your awareness on me not this body but presence behind, when you busy talking I can do something else behind your back, chance to learn surrender — My own monastery — built monastery in apartment with 2 fellows stricter than monastery, traditional Buddhism too much, no internet in home, one hour everyday in Starbucks to use internet, that’s how I withdrew from information — Digital detox and physical detox — after 1-2 years body and mind became clean, food very toxic meat should be clean soft, made lot of change, 2500 years ago Masters didn’t need this no social media, now fed with useless information about France riots, it’s their suffering none of your business, you only need to deal with what’s around you — FOMO and billion people — feeling not enough because connected with billion people for what nothing, ignore friends family, I stop that, now my entertainment is memes comedians classical music too much nah — Teacher of way of heart — I keep this body because of heart otherwise I just want to die, found beingness by myself 2022, no one to guide me 2 years struggling to stay in body, Sadhguru intervened helped stabilize before Vishrant — Bodhisattva vow — in previous lifetime Mahayana Buddhism popular in China Mongolia I made vow to keep body as vehicle for others to wake up, painful to stay in body while enlightened is ignorant need to invest certain level of ignorance everyday because body cannot embody enlightenment is everywhere — Friend in Kathmandu and Kashmir — lovely friend taught me Nepali music, seeker didn’t survive enlightenment left body, I went to place he left body so familiar so beautiful, Kashmir valley true tantric place not western sex tantric, magical — Make use of what you have — you’re living in gold now for high consciousness, be independent take look what you can make use around yourself, be joyous playful not too serious too stiff even in difficult situation it’s forever eternal joy always there disregard circumstances if you can surrender you find joy within > I’m already finished I don’t have anything to do so just make the best use of this body to make it a vehicle for others. You can see me as a bus. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. Video: YouTube - Udita Prem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

    This Body Is A Bus — Why Keep The Body After Enlightenment

  4. Oct 14

    Heart Wide Open — How Do I Know My Heart Has Opened?

    “How do I know that my heart has opened? Is there anything that shows that the heart has opened?” You will feel like s**t all the time because hahaha. Because if you’re wide open, you will feel everything. In this Satsang: — Desert silence and walk home — new 30 min video before Satsang, sound of waves, let waves take you into silence, get used to feeling of death, it’s so beautiful not scary, come home — How to know heart has opened — you feel like s**t and so beautiful at same time, you feel everything everyone around you 100-1000x than normal people, no boundaries, house got no door, everyone can get in, almost transparent, open book — Heart chakra sensation — only if not fully opened, you slide back and forth wanting to open and not wanting to open so you feel something there, when fully open you don’t feel anything in chakra anymore you feel everything — Pain and joy is same — I’m not into emotions, my interest is intensity, how deep I can go, how deeply I can perceive life around me, that’s my measurement, not picking emotions, choiceless surrender, how peaceful I can sit with that feeling — Fear of rejection is awakening — that’s how I woke up, rejected by Vishrant, devotion for master is absolute, biggest fear but great chance to learn surrender, whatever they’re doing got nothing to do with you, just surrender — Temporary enlightenment from rejection — one year before enlightenment, homeless, $40 left, girlfriend rejected me when desperate couldn’t come to Satsang, felt abandoned, body couldn’t eat struggling to stay, pain so much I disappeared into nothingness for a month — Putting yourself in lesser position — I asked for help on internet, no friends/family helped, strangers helped, hurt but good to see friends and foes, I tried to create more situations to be rejected to accelerate, put yourself vulnerable so you can see where you got caught, so what if people look at you as fool — Tricking the ego — life is a joke, you fool all people around you including yourself, you fool your ego, actively confuse mind dancing with life and death, going to both extremes until mind doesn’t matter anymore, so free, having fun with it — The most dangerous thing — the most dangerous thing you can do is enlightenment, it’s real death, it’s over — Practice not collection — my method is to help people be more independent of teacher, I give homework like sadhana, you need to practice to see effect, no knowledge to collect, cleaning your house weeping your house nothing special but magic only if you practice > If you’re wide open you will feel everything, everyone around you. Pain and joy is actually the same — my interest is into the intensity, how deep I can go. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. Video: YouTube - Udita Prem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

    Heart Wide Open — How Do I Know My Heart Has Opened?

  5. Oct 9

    Don't Touch The Mind — How to Stop Touching The Mind and Fall In Love With Reality

    “What practices did you do so that you don’t touch the mind?” That’s the practice called don’t touch the mind. Hahaha. It’s very difficult to do that and it’s supposed to given to the people who are at the very end of the journey. Vishrant asked me to do that near the end of my journey. It’s just a reminder that we stop touching the mind. And we try every way all the way to enlightenment by practicing meditation which is aware of what is real. Not going to dreaming which is thinking. In this satsang: — Why don’t touch the mind is for the very end — Vishrant gave it to me near the end, it’s a reminder to stop touching the mind — Why trying to stop the mind makes it worse — the more you try to stop it, it goes the opposite direction, you are using the mind to stop the mind which is another dream — The only way: run another program — normally we have the program of thinking which brings us into dreaming, we need to install the pattern of meditation which is aware of what is real — Osho’s Book of Secrets — 112 meditation techniques revised for modern day, read and try which one works for you, I make it very simple: ambience awareness, aware of everything around you at same time — Why ambience awareness is better for marketplace — you don’t have time to sit whole day, you need to talk to your husband and children, when you talk to them you are aware what you talking, what you looking at, you be present with them, that’s meditation too — How to combine self-enquiry and being present — just let go, try to speak without thinking, let words coming out from nothingness, not trying to make sense, maybe mumbling jumbling, try not to get yourself together — Mind as servant, not master — I treated my mind like a servant, I am the master, as a kid I knew there’s something more than mind, mind is very limited, cannot perceive, I see something mind cannot comprehend — Nietzsche and the space of I don’t know — as a teenager from communist country I had no spiritual books only philosophy, Nietzsche said leave a space in your mind which is I don’t know and treat this as God, it’s so vast, I purposely kept it open, so mind knows it’s just a servant — My mentor from UN — he worked for UN 20 years, told me: try your best, give at least 3 options for your question, then add another option behind that “I might be wrong”, that’s so wise, scientific but you keep spaciousness — Can I live in free fall — I usually live without any plans, arranging money for next flight or visa or food, can I continue letting it be as it is? You don’t actually have choices but you can learn how to make things work for you, that’s just skills — My Himalaya story — around your age I was so into spirituality I didn’t care about physical, only 3 pieces of clothes like Japanese monk robe very thin and I went all the way to Himalaya like that, forgot how to use mind, it’s fear based decision, test how real your advancement is in marketplace, be brave — Destroying image — people think I fooled them whole time appearing as if I couldn’t speak, but Vishrant every time I wanted to speak he would just stop me to destroy my image, and Mongolian guy in mall in Ras Al Khaimah full of himself, that’s great attitude to life > The only way to stop the mind is to practice meditation so you run another program. Reality is here, it doesn’t require anything more than your attention. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. Video: YouTube - Udita Prem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

  6. Oct 2

    Move — Why Apartment Energy Doesn't Work

    “I am living in apartment building where behind the wall of my bedroom is bedroom of my neighbour, also above me is bedroom of another neighbour, and beside them another one, so in perimeter of 3 meters there are 8 people sleeping. What to do in the morning to clean from all the sleeping energy, how to clean and protect my living space in apartment?” Move. There’s no other way. Like you living together with eight people and if you have like 20 floors stuck together it would be 1,000 people and I don’t want to sleep with 1,000 people. And no matter how much you clear, it doesn’t help. I used to have an apartment when I started and I didn’t know about the energy flow but I can feel it’s really heavy and I couldn’t sleep in that apartment at all. So I had to build another tea house in a townhouse. I sleep in the tea house during daytime because there’s no one there in the business centre, and I move back to the apartment at night because everyone went to work. After a year I have to sell my apartment. It never work that way. In this satsang: — Why cleaning and protecting your apartment doesn’t work — energy flows from everywhere, you are sleeping with 1,000 people in 20 floors — My old strategy: splitting day into night and night into day — sleeping in the apartment during the day when everyone left for work, working at night in the tea house — Why I had to sell my apartment to rent the most expensive villa in the country — the only place where I could find a private house on the ground with space from neighbours — How I found myself as beingness right after I moved to that villa — that’s the only thing worth doing, I won the lottery — From Vietnam to China to Thailand — even the best neighbourhood was too crowded, so I moved to another country again and again — Why I moved to the desert in the United Arab Emirates — 40 degrees, very cold hahaha, living in a nomadic tent on an island with deers, no one is here — The silence of the desert is so strong — one side is the sea and other side is the mountain and everywhere it’s just sand, it’s so easy to get lost in the beingness — The desert is very healing and you have to face it — facing death head on, no escape, it’s totally death here and I love death > No matter how much you clear, it doesn’t help. Energy flows from everywhere. Move. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. Video: YouTube - Udita Prem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

  7. Sep 26

    Painting Consciousness — Shame, Repression, and How to Be Happy Now

    “I still talked about shame and fear about my little linga, and even when I need to talk about it now, I still feel resistance. And this morning my mind was like, should I not go to Udita, and I was like no, I do not give myself a choice.” It’s very brave of you to talk about that. Last private satsang we did a little practice called painting consciousness — to paint or draw out what’s inside of you, not trying to control. This gentleman was very brave and he drew his little linga which he claimed he’s very shameful to have one. And I even advise him to give himself flowers even though he’s a man, because I think that men deserve flowers too. That flower is actually the genital part of the plant, so why would you be ashamed of your linga? In this satsang: — Why shame only exists if other people are involved — if you’re only with yourself, there’s no shame. So dealing with shame is about how others see you in public — Painting consciousness: drawing what’s inside you without control, and why it’s beautiful to share what you feel ashamed of — Why men deserve flowers too — a flower is the genital part of a plant, we display them everywhere. Why be ashamed of your linga — How I broke my prison of controlling expression from my business and politics years, and why our generation represses more than any before — Why we express to get accepted on social media, not genuinely — even talking about being happy is pressure now, like you have to wake up at 5am doing yoga and be happy like everyone else. How about I want to cry s**t, can I cry? — The promise to always be happy like a child, and how to be happy now instead of in the past — just stay true to your feeling, cry if you want to cry, destroy your image — When you are real, the only people that will stay are the real ones, all the fake ones will go away and you can live a more peaceful life with no fake people around. Those who like you will stay and those who don’t, f**k them. So be a wolf, be independent — And at the end: moving to UAE, time change for next Satsang > When you are real, fake people go away and real ones stay. So be a wolf, be independent. And just stay true to your feeling — cry if you want to cry. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Sunday Satsang — 6pm GST / Dubai Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. Video: YouTube - Udita Prem Read the full writing here: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

  8. Sep 14

    Die Before You Die — Grief, Ego Death, and Falling In Love With Reality

    Vishrant said you had to learn to die before you die. Did you experience any kind of grief of ego or grief to other attachments? What grief? Oh great, you can read my 100 poems I wrote before enlightenment. The level of grief is amazing. That's the greatest grief, because it's the grief over your own death, and you know it's forever, it's over for you. I wrote 108 poems, then removed the last eight — it's repetitive and I got bored of the ego. So I'm like okay, I'm grieving enough, I can die now. I'm sick of it. In this satsang: — Why learning to die before you die brings the greatest grief — grief over your own death, knowing it's the end, no coming back — How I grieved through 100 poems until I got sick of my own story: "I'm sick of this story, let me die. It's the same old thing. It's not the first time you die — millions of times" — Grieving attachment: one year before enlightenment, grieving over my lover. Not because I couldn't let her go, but grieving my last attachment — my desire to help her because I knew she was suffering. I wrote a book about her — Her beautiful words: "Your love is like a pair of wings that I refuse to mount on, let me walk on my own feet." Learning to stop interfering and let her walk her own path — Tricks of the ego to pull you back into thoughts? They have millions of tricks. Better not to go to the mind at all, because that's where you get lost. Just don't touch the mind — The only way to stop: practice meditation, stay present with what is real. You have to love reality more than dreaming. People who love dreaming question reality — "Is anything good about reality?" — they don't want to face responsibilities. Very immature — How to fall in love with the mundane: a cup of tea. Pour water, wait for 70 degrees for green tea, wash, brew fresh every time, 15 times. Stay present with the boiling water, the cooling, the drop expanding inside you — 70% of your body is water. If you drink with reverence, it's very beautiful — The ancient Chinese leisure arts for self-cultivation when there was no internet to scroll: Qín Qí Shū Huà — Qín is music, Qí is chess, Shū is calligraphy, Huà is painting. Very Zen ways to learn to love the beauty of little things — Sound as universe: I became the universe and the sound just arose and I made that sound. It's not about listening for OM. Listen to what's really happening right now — the sound of tea, the fan, the water. That's real > If you are grieving, just do it until you get sick of your story. And stay present — fall in love with a cup of tea, that's enough. Recorded live, raw and unedited. Satsang is open and free for all. Come as you are, do nothing, just sit. Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha on Patreon for exclusive content and live gatherings. Read & Listen — The Book & Audiobook Version: Substack - This Path Video: YouTube - Udita Prem This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thisthisthis.substack.com

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Already Here. Satsang with Udita—pointing directly to non-duality and pure awareness. Udita is an enlightened teacher of inner freedom. Following a satori at 24 and 12 years of deep self-inquiry, she completed her awakening in 2026 and was asked by her master Vishrant to offer dharma. Her teachings center on undoing the mind and returning to peace. Patreon (Unbound Sangha, Q&A, exclusive content): patreon.com/uditaprem Substack (essays, books & audiobooks): uditaprem.substack.com Website: uditaprem.com Video: YouTube (@uditaprem) thisthisthis.substack.com

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