I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead

Elena Passarello, Justin St. Germain
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I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead

A podcast about the literary essay: what it is, why we like it, and which ones are our favorites. Co-hosted by Elena Passarello and Justin St. Germain, who are both creative nonfiction professors and acclaimed writers in the genre.

  1. Get In the Cage

    05/12/2022

    Get In the Cage

    For our Season 4 finale, we watched the new Nicholas Cage movie The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent (Elena’s idea) and talked about it for more than two hours. Also: acting methods, Michael Syrah, Bob Dylan, email signatures, Goodreads, bad date movies, David’s recent experience on a TV set, the Nic Cage of sports, knuckleballs, Nick Cave, Elena sings some hits, Dracula, Elena’s going on tour, Justin drops his laptop near the end, Elvis hair, and (lots) more!

    2h 12m
  2. Revision

    04/20/2022

    Revision

    This week, we’re talking about revision. We discuss a chapter of Stephen Koch’s The Modern Library Writer’s Workshop that’s one of the better nuts-and-bolts revision guides, common drafting issues, the role of feedback and workshops, why revision is often taught poorly or not at all, and what our processes look like. Also: our recent appearance on a more professional podcast, some sports talk, Mary Karr, Ecco Homo, Van Halen, and more! Some things we mention: Book Fight! – https://bookfightpod.com  Justin’s interview with Tim States for Words & Sports: https://www.wasquarterly.com/offseason/tailgating-with-justin-st-germain#  Stephen Koch’s The Modern Library Writer’s Workshop (we read Chapter 7: Working and Reworking): https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/94583/the-modern-library-writers-workshop-by-stephen-koch/ Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 47m
  3. March Faxness: the Final Four

    03/29/2022

    March Faxness: the Final Four

    This week we’re checking in with March Faxness again, now that the field has narrowed to four songs/essays (including David’s!). We discuss the recent games, preview the semifinals, and make our picks for who’s going to win. Also: Elena takes up a new instrument, we’ve met a lot of Xness writers since our last episode—one of whom, Tim States, we include a mini-interview with—some AWP Philadelphia/Tucson Book Fest talk, a long tangent about the worst movies we’ve ever seen, David’s day on the Indigo Girls tour bus, Neil Gaiman’s wardrobe, and more! Some things we mention: All March Faxness essays are available on the site: http://marchxness.com  Follow March Xness on Twitter: https://twitter.com/marchxness  Follow David on Twitter: https://twitter.com/elturk7  Follow Tim States on Twitter: https://twitter.com/epmornsesh  Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 11m
  4. March Faxness Round 1 Recap

    03/10/2022

    March Faxness Round 1 Recap

    This week we’re talking about possibly the best essay-related week of the year: March Faxness round 1, in which 64 essays about cover songs faced off in a tournament. We try to touch on our favorites—although we probably missed some—and discuss the bracket and upcoming games. Also: Elvis Costello gets spicy on Twitter, we all get spicy about the Mountain Goats, dork rodeos, community college bowl, Denry’s back(!), Drake’s reading list, Kamp Kilmer, Justin tries to understand NFTs, Elena explains the Chicken Van, some country music talk, is the shopping cart a dance?, roof-raising techniques, and Elena does mini-covers of Evan Dando, Snow’s “Informer,” and Tom Jones’ “Sex Bomb.” Some things we mention: All March Faxness essays are available on the site: http://marchxness.com  Follow March Xness on Twitter: https://twitter.com/marchxness  March Faxness Spotify playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3rNwexRZ9dmA0nvssrPlDK  Denry’s March Fadness essay on Snow’s “Informer”: http://marchxness.com/snowvsedwinmccain Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 18m
  5. March Faxness Preview

    02/23/2022

    March Faxness Preview

    This week we’re talking about the real reason this podcast exists: the annual March Xness essay/song tournament, which is about cover songs this year. Some things we mention: March Faxness (and the previous tournaments): http://marchxness.com  Follow March Xness on Twitter: https://twitter.com/marchxness  March Faxness Spotify playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3rNwexRZ9dmA0nvssrPlDK  Joan Jett’s “Crimson & Clover”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXFra7gjElw  Tiffany’s “I Think We’re Alone Now” video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6Q3mHyzn78  The Cover Me episode about “I Think We’re Alone Now”: https://covermepodcast.podbean.com/e/i-think-were-alone-now-tommy-james-and-the-shondells/ Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 20m
  6. There's No I in Essay

    02/09/2022

    There's No I in Essay

    This week we’re talking about essays that aren’t in the first person. Elena picked one example, Eliot Weinberger’s “The Rhinoceros,” and Justin picked another, an excerpt from Claudia Rankine’s Citizen. Also: the new Macbeth, the acting role Elena was recently offered, Elena recites some Lady Macbeth, some Arnold Palmer talk, and a mini-spelling bee. Some things we mention: Eliot Weinberger’s “The Rhinoceros”: http://www.rhinoresourcecenter.com/pdf_files/120/1206206707.pdf Claudia Rankine’s Citizen: https://www.graywolfpress.org/books/citizen Brian Doyle’s “Joyas Voladoras”: https://theamericanscholar.org/joyas-volardores/ Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 59m
  7. The Pushcart Prize 2022

    01/28/2022

    The Pushcart Prize 2022

    This week we’re talking about this year’s edition of the Pushcart Prize anthology. We compare it to Best American, discuss the important differences, and focus on a few selections from the anthology. Also: Build-A-Bears, Paint & Wine, Burt Reynolds, male pattern baldness, egg donation, BoJack Horseman, some March Faxness warmup talk, and more! Some things we mention: The Pushcart Prize: http://www.pushcartprize.com March Faxness: http://marchxness.com Kathryn Schulz’s essay on The Great Gatsby (suggested in a listener email): https://www.vulture.com/2013/05/schulz-on-the-great-gatsby.html “Open House” by Jeremiah Moss: https://www.nplusonemag.com/issue-36/essays/open-house/ “Gutted” by Cathryn Klusmeier: https://agnionline.bu.edu/essay/gutted  Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 31m
  8. Best American Essays 2021

    12/29/2021

    Best American Essays 2021

    This week we’re talking about this year’s edition of Best American Essays. We compare it to previous years (spoiler: this one is a bummer), discuss the new subgenre of pandemic essays, and focus on a few selections from the anthology. Also: David makes us a pandemic cocktail, Justin’s dog makes a few barky cameos, we (well, one of us) question the entire Best American Essays enterprise, and we do a year-end lightning news/round. See you next year! (Note: we don’t mention Joan Didion’s death because it occurred the morning after we recorded, but if you’d like to hear some of our previous thoughts on Didion, we did an episode about her latest book earlier this year: http://www.essaypodcast.com/s3-e2-didion-on-writing/) Some things we mention: Best American Essays 2021: https://www.hmhbooks.com/shop/books/the-best-american-essays-2021/9780358381754  Assay’s interview with Robert Atwan, the series editor of Best American Essays: https://www.assayjournal.com/interview-with-robert-atwan-31.html  Alexander Chee’s link to BAE 2022 submission guidelines: https://twitter.com/alexanderchee/status/1473391913784983553 Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

    1h 55m
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A podcast about the literary essay: what it is, why we like it, and which ones are our favorites. Co-hosted by Elena Passarello and Justin St. Germain, who are both creative nonfiction professors and acclaimed writers in the genre.

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  • Creator
    Elena Passarello, Justin St. Germain
  • Years Active
    2020 - 2022
  • Episodes
    51
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2020
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